Hello, hello! I am finally back with more writing! Honestly, the only reason I took so long was because this literally took me almost two months to write because I am the worst and my computer broke and I don’t really even know. This isn’t completely how I wanted it to be but I’ve been writing it for two months and I couldn’t keep tweaking it anymore. Let me know what you think!
EDIT: I totally forgot to mention that I kind of set this up as a Part 2 for Secret Love Song. It can be read as a standalone one shot if you want but if you want some backstory for it or were looking for a part 2 for SLS you can read it like that as well!
“So baby tonight, the DJ’s got us falling in love again.”
You’re torturing yourself.
Scrolling through all your social media only hurts you but it’s like your
fingers work of their own accord.
It’s everything Harry
trained you not to do. “Don’ pay attention t'it, love,” he’d murmur
in your ear as he’d reach around you to close incriminating tabs open on your
laptop. “Doesn’t mean anythin’.” But it did mean something, it always
More than ever, you should
be heeding his advice. Every article, every new picture, every interview twists
the knife in you that much more. It’s enough that he isn’t a part of your life
anymore. But now you’re forced to watch his
life unfold in front of your very eyes, whether you like it or not.
And like it, you do not. It
isn’t as simple as unfollowing him like with any old ex. No because his face
would still be splashed all over the internet, even if it isn’t his social
media pages you’re checking.
Although, you are
checking. And you don’t like what you see.
Countless blogs and gossip
sites have his picture all over their page, speculating about the new girl he’d
been parading around. Even as you read the various accounts, you can hear his
voice in the back of your mind, “S'not real. These people are jus’
bored. Need something to do,” but you push it away. He’d broken up
with you, hadn’t he? You don’t have to listen to what he says, even if it is
only in your mind.
“Stop it,” a voice
chimes out that mirrors the one in your head. You peel your eyes from your
phone screen in time to watch your best friend snatch it from your hand.
“Hey!” You reach
to grab it back but she only pulls it farther.
“This is not healthy,”
she continues, rolling up the window of the cab. She smooths out the unruly
mess the wind had made of her hair, dropping the phone in her bag. “I’m
taking this hostage.”
“Give it back,”
you insist. You had been only moments away from discovering the identity of
your ex’s mystery girl. A sigh escapes you when you remember that you were once
considered his mystery girl.
I can’t believe I am a mother now. Me Jaeha with 3 kids? If I look back at my my life, fifteen to twenty years ago, the thought of marriage give me rash, but now now I’m married with children.
Right now I’m in the room with Jay alone cause our friends and family are respectful enough to give us some privacy to process the whole thing.
Jae: so Jaehoon came out first uh?
Jay: yea, you know considering the fact that we almost missed him, I thought he’d be last. You feeling alright?
Jae: are you alright?
Jay: I don’t know, so the hardest part of our lives begins now, ready?
Jay: yes, because I have you. You should also feel that way cause you have me and we have each other.
Jae: you think we’ll be alright?
Jay: truth or lie?
Jae: make me feel better
Jay: well then, we’ll be great
After going back home, it feels like my whole life and world change. The first few days, I might’ve cried a day or two, but I can’t cry cause my husband would cry whenever I do.
It’s strange, how much I Han Jaeha- wait I Park Jaeha, you know how SERIOUS I take my sleep, something tells me that I won’t be sleeping anytime soon.
My son is a little gentleman, he only fuss or cry when he need something, but the girls I feel like They're bothering me on purpose, they cry one after the other. I’m not going to lie, I cry along with them.
Jay’s been doing his best, we tried taking “shift” like I take naps during the day, and he take naps at night. But regardless we still help each other out.
Someone asked me why can’t I pay someone to watch the kids at night so I can sleep. They are my kids, why would I do that? When I can watch my own kids.
I try to document every little moments, cause before you know it, they’re graduating school and getting married. 😥😣 too soon Jaeha. Too soon..
《Jay’s views 》
The past few weeks has been, words can’t describe great feeling of holding my babies. Jaeha as been remarkable as if she had kids before.
Even though we split the shifts, she still does most of the works. She never complain that she’s tired, or sleepy or anything. I know it’s hard for her, I know my wife, we’ve been together for a while now, and many things I’ve learn is that Jaeha, doesn’t like to ask for help, even when it’s difficult, she handles everything by herself.
The other day I walked in the room and find her crying, she gets annoyed. I did some research and find out she has post partum depression, I didn’t know what that was until I realize that Jaejae was doing the exact same thing.
She stops caring for herself, only worrying about the kids, she get scared even when they’re peacefully sleeping. I think she feels like I’m not going to love her, because of how much her body has changed over the past few weeks, even before that, she always had that insecurity that, I’m going to leave her once she gets old.
Truthfully I’m the one that afraid that someday she’ll leave me. Speaking of let me go check what she’s up to.
Walking in our room I find her looking at herself in the mirror almost in disgust.
Jay: you like what you see?
Jae:*sigh, walks away*
Jay:*pulls her back* what’s wrong?
Jay: babe, come on
Jae: it’s just….. I’m ugly, my hair is all tangled… I’m a mess *starts crying*
Jay: okay first of all, don’t ever call yourself ugly ever again, and-and look at me I have a mustache
Jae: and you look pretty hot with it, lucky you *She say while crying*
Jay:*smile* awe thanks babe, and you’re right I am lucky. I’m lucky to have you as my life partner. Look, my parents are coming over, how about we let them watch the kids, and we have a date.
Jae: date? We’re going to to leave the kids at home by themselves?
Jay: baby no, my parents will watch the kids, and Mo the lady you trust and raised you will be here, let’s just take a night just for us. Please. I know you worrying about the kids, and I am to, but I’m more worrying about you. You have to take care of yourself to be able to take care of them.
After managing to persuade her, she agrees only if we stay in. After that we took care of the kids before my parents get here, once they came, I start getting ready for our date.
Since we’re staying in, I know exacly what to do. I start by running Jaeha a bath since it’s one of favorite things in life. Go in her closet and pick her a dress.
Minutes later she walks in surprise.
Jae: babe? What’s going on? What’s all this?
Jay: for our date
Jae: but I thought we were staying in?
Jay: we are, come on *takes her in the bathroom* there go in
With her sitting in the water I sit on top of the tub to brush her hair.
Jae: aren’t you afraid that my hair is going to get in the water?
Jay: things like that doesn’t bother me. Do you know how many times I wake up with you hair on my face, all over my pillow.
Jae: *exhale* this feels nice. *leans her head on his knee, and holding on to his leg*
Jay: I want you to know you’re not alone, you have your friends, parents, and you have me. If something is wrong with you, you have to tell me. The same way It hurts when our kids are crying and we can’t do anything about it, it hurts me 10 times more when you are crying and I can’t do anything to help you. I dont want you to be crying in the closet by yourself, or wait till I’m sleeping. If you need to cry I’m always going to have a shoulder for you to lean on.
Jae: I’m just afraid
Jay: afraid of what?
Jae: that you’re going to leave me, for someone cuter, younger, with a better body
Jay: Jaeha, baby that is never going to happen. I’ll will never leave you, till death do us part remember. I will never love any other woman the way that I love you, you are the love of my life, and that will never change. if anything I’m more afraid that you’ll leave me
Jae: why would you think that?
Jay: because I’m always hurting you.
Jae: not intentionally, but the hard work has just begin.
After her bath, we go for our dinner.
Jae: where are we going?
Jay: well we’re going to have dinner by the golf course.
Jae: how romantic
Jay: well I figure you need some air
Jae: awe babe
Jay: I know you hate wet grass so, the sprinklers, will be a bit late tonight.
We had dinner, talk, laugh, I couldn’t be any more perfect. After eating we walked a bit and then head back in our room.
Jae: so what now?
Jay: whatever you want
Jae: how about a massage?
Jay: I’m at your service
Jae: no, this time I’m at your service. You worked equally hard. And I’ll help you strip *wink wink*
Jay: Jaejae, as much as I would love to get a massage I have a feeling we’re both are going to end up naked.
Jae: *walk up to him* would that make you happy?
Jae: okay then, let’s get naked
We had a great night for once in a while. It feel great being able to wrap my arms around her again.
Jae: shouldn’t we go check-
Jay: the kids are fine, let’s get some sleep while we can *pulls her closer to his chest* goodnight
Jae: love you
Jay: love you to babe
After she fell asleep I couldn’t help but feeling teary a bit. I spent most of the night, just admiring this woman, I cannot believe how far we’ve come.
I’m not going to say that she’s looking old, but looking at her now and years before, she look more mature. I love taking time to just admire her, when she’s sleeping cause she gets embarrassed about it if she’s awake.
After Jaejae gets into a deep sleep, I went off to check on the kiss. Knowing them at this time they’d be awake for food.
Walking in, my parents were feeding them.
Mom: you’re awake?
Jay: yeah I wanted to check on these guys first.
Dad: they’re good.
Mom: were you crying?
Jay: *sits on the floor* I was just looking at Jaejae and I couldn’t help it.
Jay: I’ve known her for almost 10 years. In that time I realize that I dont deserve her. I’ve cause her more pain than she deserve. It freaks me out more now, I feel like one day she will have enough and she’ll just get up and leave with the kids.
Dad: then stop hurting her, that’s just your past catching up to you.
Mom: shouldn’t you be comforting him?
Dad: Jaebum is not a kid anymore that needs to me comforting anymore. Your a married man now, you have a son that’s going to look up to you, what exactly are you going to teach him?
Jay: the worst part about it, is that she’s always taking my side even when I’m dead wrong. I really can’t count with one hand the amount of time she has embarrassed or disappointed me, but the amount of times I’ve embarrassed, humiliated, and diappointed her, was good enough reasons for her to say no 10 times when I asked her to marry me.
Dad: so now you’re having regrets?
I spent an hour talking to my parents. My mom tries to suggacoat things when she’s talking, but my dad on the other hand just tell me to man my ass up.
Jay: I should probably go back, before she gets up and starts looking for me. I’ll see you guys later.
She’s not on the bed I know exactly where to find her.
Jay:*looking at her playing with the babies*
Jae: hey good morning
Jay: morning *sits next to her*
Jae: *kisses him*
Our kids are growing up very fast. It’s cute the girls are friendly, but my son, he is a serious momma’s boy. He will go to people but as soon as he sees or hear her voice, he doesn’t want anybody else.
He has a weak stomach, he vomits everything as soon he eat. The doctors gave us medicine, it’s actually working.
Jay: how’s it going?
Jae: well so far I’ve got sneezed on, vomit, drool and peed on. So I guess where having a very productive morning. Hoonie hasn’t thrown up yet, and I fed him 15minutes ago
Jay: You ready for today?
Jae: not really You?
Jay: not at all
Since Jaeha and I have the worst luck we have to take our kids to the doctor for a check up…. *sigh* also the dogs to the vet. It’s not like it’s just Gajeel, she has 3 pops.
You all know how she cares about this dog, like it’s her first child. So we’re about to take our kids and grandkids to the vet. I know I’m drinking later on.
Jae: you ready for today’s challenge?
Jay: yes let’s do it.
First it’s starts with taking the kids a bath, you put on their diapers and then they poop before you even finish with the other one. This woman sanely got evrything done, pack snacks for the kids, the dog, and me.
It shows me how strong she is, and if we didn’t have money and you know all the extra help that comes with it, she’d do fine. She’d be better than fine.
When we finish we load up, 3 car seats, dogs and head out.
Jae: okay everyone and everything is on board.
Jay: can I ask you a question?
Jae: fire away
Jay: how can you do all of this? Do you have kids somewhere else?
Jae: it just come naturally. You automatically knows and see what you have to do.
Jay: just the dogs would drive me insane
Jae: because they dont listen to you.
The kids are doing great, except for Mr weak stomach, but the medicine are helping. They each have to take two shots, and they’re going to hurt.
Jaeha cry of course all 3 of her kids are crying. I’m just here feeling sorry for everyone. After that we head out to the vet.
Getting to the vet, they doing check up all you can hear is Jaeha’s stomach going off.
She forgot to eat or pack anything for herself.
Jay: you gonna eat anything?
Jae: I forgot to pack mine, but I’m not really hungry
Jay: baby, come on stop doing that.
Jae: I forgot, Hoon was throwing up, and I forgot.
Jay: you want to share mines?
Jae: no there’s cinnamon in it.
Jay: I’ll go buy you something
Jae: babe, I am fine.
Jay: I do not care, I’m getting you something.
After 3 hours everyone fed, and changed we making our way back, but first I have to stop to get something for Jaejae to eat and then stop at illi office.
She fall asleep as soon as I started driving. I cannot believe I’m driving a car listening to nursery rhyme.
Dok2: you coming in?
Jay: cant, I have my family in the car they’re all out.
Dok2: I can’t believe this, You? A family man now, with a car full of kids and dogs. How is it?
Jay: fantastic, you just have to give up sleep ing for a few years.
My life is hectic right now, but I dont think I’d want it any other way.
Under the cut you’ll find #60 high quality gifs of actor DJ Cotrona requested by no one but made for my mom @jcssicasjoncs . He’s most known for his role as Seth Gecko in From Dusk Till Dawn: The Series (which i’ll be giffing soon). All of these gifs were made by me from scratch and have a weird mix of psd’s (because i forgot the one i was originally using). All of them are of his role as Flint in G.I.Joe Retaliation. If credit is given you may use these as sidebars, in bio graphics, crackships or edit into icons / gif icons. You may not add these to gif hunts, gif packs or take credit for them in any state or form but you are more than welcome to link back to this if you would like. Trigger Warnings: Guns and minor violence. Please like or reblog this if this helped in anyway, you are using these or are a roleplay help. This movie was so hard to gif.
NEW HEAD CANON Sasuke is low key a party animal and always ends up doing the dumbest most embarrassing shit (its always the silent ones that party the hardest)
-usually parties with team taka -when smashed gets a little gayer with Naruto
I woke up with a jolt and a cold sweat, feeling like the entire room was still spinning; physically feeling like I got hit by an eighteen wheeler. I brushed some of the mess of hair from my face and through half lidded eyes I tried to look around the room to make sure I didn’t end up in some stranger’s place; thankfully for my dignity I wasn’t but unfortunately for my ego, I wasn’t.
“Ugh what time is it?” I groaned reaching for my phone on the nightstand. Fumbling around the nightstand the only thing my hand was met with was the touch activated lamp that blinded me with a bombardment of light. “Argh no!” I threw my arm across my face. I frantically hurried to shut off the lamp that felt like it was emitting the rays from the sun. Only managing to open one eye I looked around for my phone and discovered it was strewn on the floor with a mess of clothes and shoes. I groaned again not wanting to leave the comfort of the bed, I outstretched my hand nearly falling off the bed and quickly nabbed my phone and hauling myself back into my previous position under the covers. Pressing the home button to my phone I again was greeted with a flash bomb of light and covered my face with my hand; slapping myself in the process. Still adjusting to the light I peeked through my fingers desperately looking to find the time. ‘2:00 p.m. fuck’ With my phone unlocked I went wide eyed, ‘Shit, shit, shiiiit’ I thought; I had 17 missed calls and 10 voicemails from Saige. Looking for some kind of answer I scrolled through her text messages that only seemed to get more and more aggressive the further I scrolled along.
‘Alex where the hell did you go?’ <received 1:44 am>
‘Itsf o k im with djsaho’ <sent 1:52 am>
‘Ok bitch you are waaaaaaay too fucked up, where are you?’ <received 1:52 am>
‘Urd th e bitc yo bcht’ <sent 1:55 am>
‘I’m being serious Alex, if the paparazzi or some douche bag from the internet get a picture of you like this we are royally screwed’ <received 1:55 am>
‘Dnt wrry Gbe okie’ <sent 1:56 am>
‘Dont do this to me McMahon, WHERE ARE YOU????’ <received 1:56 am>
‘Byiii cee yu ntx wek’ <sent 1:57 am>
‘Wtf do you mean see you next week???’ <received 1:57 am>
‘Alex?’ <received 1:59 am>
‘HELLO?!’ <received 2:01 am>
‘ANSWER YOUR PHONE I KNOW YOU KEEP DECLINING THE CALL’ <received 2:05 am>
‘I swear to God when I see you I am going to kick your ass’ <received 2:06 am>
‘AND WHO TF IS DJ SAHO?! YOU SAID YOU WERE DONE WITH DATING DJS’ <received 2:06 am>
‘Oh my God Alexandra PLEASE JUST ANSWER YOUR PHONE IF YOU DON’T WANT TO TELL ME WHERE YOU ARE’ <received 2:10 am>
‘Ok somebody told me you went home with someone, for your sake I hope it was Jesus and not that DJ Saho or whatever’ <received 2:15 am>
‘Open the door! You know I can hear you and DJ what’s his face laughing!’ <received 2:30 am>
‘I don’t care that we are staying at the Palace Hotel Alexandra. I WILL break down this door if you don’t open up!’ <received 2:32 am>
‘OPEN THE DOOR’ <received 2:33 am>
‘No oo itd coolr ift yo u berki t don’ <sent 2:33 am>
‘I SWEAR TO GOD’ <received 2:34 am>
‘Fine see if I care when you end up on the cover of some Korean tabloid and Ji-Yong finds out you’re here’ <received 2:36>
‘wh att’ <sent 2:36>
‘Good night Alex :)))’ <received 2:37>
Re-reading the last exchanges between us my heart felt like it started beating so fast that it was bound to burst right out of my chest any second. ‘Fuck. Fuck, fuck, fuuuuuuuuuuck. How could I have been so stupid?!’ I thought to myself. Normally I’d say I don’t care but that is far from where I am mentally. Suddenly I was brought out of my thoughts by a loud knocking on my door. Still paranoid with the thought of J-him seeing me I climbed out of bed and approached the door carefully. The closer I got to the door the more anxious I became; that mixed with the killer hangover that hit me like a ton of bricks was quite possibly the worst combination of things that could happen at a time like this. The knocking started to feel like the noise was pounding against my skull, wanting to rid myself of this monstrous beating on my brain I opened the door without hesitation. Only to be met with the last person I would ever think would show up at my door.
“Alex?” he raised an eyebrow.
“Tim?” I reciprocated.
“Jesus H–no offence but Saige wasn’t kidding when she said you might look like you crawled out of Hell this morning”
I clenched my jaw “Just come in before anyone else has to endure my ugly” I slammed the door shut behind him causing myself to wince at what sounded like an explosion went off in my brain.
Trailing behind him I watched him maneuver his way over the mess that was all over the floor; just clothes and shoes in different piles scattered in every square inch of the room.
“Jeez, you didn’t want to clean up first?” he said finally making it to the bed.
Too exhausted to argue I rolled my eyes and plopped back on the bed beside him.
“Man, guess you had a good night last night?” he smiled leaning back on his elbows.
“Ugh, if this is what this hangover from Hell is indicating…I wish I hadn’t” I covered my eyes with my arm “When did you get in by the way? I thought you were going to be in Japan until tomorrow? And not that I don’t love you but why are you here in the first place?”
He chuckled “To answer your questions: I got in about three hours ago, I had a change of plans aaand Saige sent me on a recon mission”
“She said and I quote ‘Dear God Tim would deal with her because I can’t take her after last night’ end quote” He chuckled again “Also seeing as two of my best friends just got here the night before and one of them was already causing trouble I decided that spending time with that girl in Japan was not really worth it…”
I uncovered my eyes with a gasp “Oh my God, you are such a jerk–”
“Relax” he put up his hand “whatever we had between us wasn’t really going anywhere anyway. I think she really just wanted to be with me so she could say she was with me. Seeing as who I hang out with nowadays, it’s getting harder and harder to figure out who wants to hang out with me for me and not for ‘Tim Drake, the DJ who so happens to be signed to Seungri’s music label so that must mean he is friends with BigBang’. I mean they’re not wrong, I am friends with them but still it the principle of the thing” he rolled his eyes.
Merely looking at his face I could tell he was genuinely hurt, he was one of the nicest and most sincere people I have ever met and just knowing that my selfish wish somewhat came true made my heart hurt.
“I mean I guess that’s what you get for being such a hot shot DJ with an attractive everything to match” I said trying to make light of the situation.
“Shut up” he laughed “By the way, are you just gonna chill in your underwear the entire time or are you gonna put on a robe?”
I looked down at my bra “Tim it’s not like it’s the first time you’ve seen me in my underwear. I think we are past that point in our friendship”
“I mean I don’t have a problem, I just don’t want you to think I’m being a perv” he said sincerely.
“I would never” I jokingly gasped and placed a hand on his shoulder “Anyway, tell me about your new life here: How do you like it? How’s it been? Besides that girl, how is your love life here? You know all that good stuff” I rolled over on my side to face him.
“That doesn’t sound too convincing Timmoth” I squinted my eyes at him.
He let out a small laugh “No I’m serious! Everything’s been great so far, minus the whole ‘love life’ thing” he air quoted.
“So does that mean you and Chaerin still haven’t talked?” I rested my head on my arm.
“Yes, that means I still haven’t talked to Chaerin. Honestly I don’t think that’ll ever happen. I mean I invited her to my party so the only thing I can do now is wait and see if she decides to show up. But I’m not going to be completely heartbroken if she doesn’t, at this point I’m used to getting the short end of the stick with her” he sighed.
“She’ll show I’m sure of it, if there is one thing that sticks with you after breaking up with your boyfriend no matter how long ago it was you always remember those tiny details about them. She, I’m sure, is no different”
“Don’t even get my hopes up” he playfully pushed my shoulder “Alright enough about my lackluster love life, what about you huh? I’ve only heard about your rendezvous through what people tag me in on twitter”
I rolled on to my back again staring up at the ceiling “Ugh. I’ll just say it’s slim pickins in LA. I seriously feel like I’ve about dated everyone in Hollywood at this point. I’m just so bored with everyone there, Saige suggested we move to Manhattan for a while to get a change of scenery and…men”
He let out another small laugh “Orrr”
“Or what?” I turned my head to face him.
“Or you could come move here and not only would have a complete change of scenery but you’d get to be with me and also an entire new buffet of men to choose from” he wiggled his eyebrows “Ya know” he cleared his throat “I happen to know one or two, single, billionaire musical geniuses that–”
“Ha-ha very funny” I interjected “don’t even go there Tim”
“Oh come on Alex!” he put a hand on my shoulder “You’re gonna see him this weekend anyway, why prolong the inevitable?!”
I brushed his hand off my shoulder.
“Okay, okay I take it you’re still mad at me about me not telling you
that he was coming
until you were on your flight over here, but what was I supposed to do? If i had told you earlier you would have either A) not come at all or B) run out of the airport and go AWOL again!” he scrunched up his eyebrows.
I took and deep breath and looked away from him.
“And I couldn’t just not invite him when all of the other guys were going to be there, that would have looked super shady on my part. Besides I know you two have your issues, that you still refuse to tell anyone why you guys broke up about in the first place, but he’s also a homie”
I turned back to glare at him “Okay well then why don’t you marry him then if he such a good homie?”
“Very mature” he stuck out his tongue “look you and I both know I love you more than anyone in the entire universe, but you also gotta understand he and I are still cool. He’s also one of the biggest musical influences here and I’d really rather not get on his shit list”
“Are you just doing this because you want me to talk to him?” I raised an eyebrow “What about girl code? If I hate someone you hate them right back, you don’t just hang out with them like it’s nothing and twiddle your thumbs up each other’s asses!”
“First off, ouch how dare you say I broke girl code ” he pretended to act hurt “And secondly, I didn’t just do this because I wanted you two to talk…well actually that’s partially it…but that’s not the point! What matters is that we all enjoy ourselves this weekend and celebrate not only my day of birth but also my first album finally dropping; all while making sure it is completely drama free for everyone involved” he smiled.
I crossed my arms and let out a big sigh.
“Besides, I think after last night you don’t need anymore drama to be broadcasted out for the world to see”
I sat up quickly “W-what do you mean?”
“Oh, you haven’t seen?” he sat up with a concerned look on his face “Well ummm…here let me show you”
‘Oh God, Saige was right why didn’t my drunk ass just listen to her?!’ I thought to myself. ‘Oh man she really is gonna kick my ass when she sees me…’
Tim, taking out his phone pulled up some news article that held embarrassing pictures of my drunk self with some guy. Thankfully most all of them were grainy and the pictures were kind of dark, all except for one.
“What.the.f–” I let out a blood curdling scream.
“Hyung, don’t get me wrong I just don’t think this is a good idea” Seungri tried for the thousandth time to pull Young-Bae back by his arm. “I already told you, we at least have to make sure he’s alive” Young-Bae said undeterred by the maknae’s actions “What are you so afraid of?” “And I already told you, if Ji-Yong Hyung is even possible of being conscious he is going to be pissed that we woke him up just to see if he’s still living and have us maimed!” the younger man pulled on his Hyung’s shoulder.
The older man simply smiled “Not me”
“Oh must be nice being the golden star best friend! In case you haven’t noticed, Ji-Yong Hyung loves to show me gestures of his affection by inflicting nothing but pain on me and therefore gaining some kind of sick pleasure from hurting me!”
The older man stopped in his tracks causing the maknae to slightly bump into him “Seungri we’ve all been friends for longer than ten years, don’t you think if he actually wanted you dead he would have done it by now?” he smiled and continued walking.
Seungri stuck in the spot that he stood thought before he spoke “You know that’s not actually very reassuring!” he called after his Hyung.
Young-Bae now at the end of the hallway shot Seungri another smile but this one evoking an eye smile along with it. The maknae picked up his pace and swifty jogged to the older man’s position. Both now staring down the door to Ji-Yong’s condo they both were thinking about the repercussions of actually waking the dragon. Young-Bae not wanting to take the first blow pushed the younger man in front of him.
“Well go ahead, knock on the door” he gestured with his hand.
Seungri dramatically pointed to himself “Me? You want me to knock on the door?”
The older man nodded.
“Hyung were you not listening to anything I was saying back there?” he stared at Young-bae incredulously “Wow. you all must really want me out of BigBang, well it was nice knowing you”
“Yah” the older man smacked him behind the head “Don’t be so melodramatic and knock on the door would you? And besides we can’t afford to lose you. You’re too important”
The younger man rubbed the back of his head “Wah. do you mean that Hyung?”
“Yea if we lose you then who else are we going to pick on? Dae-Sung? Not on your life” he said with a smug smile on his face.
The maknae looked to the heavens and closed his eyes, cursing at his Hyungs in his head; the only place he was safe to do so.
“Yah!” another smack to the back of the head “Quit being a dick in your thoughts and knock on the damn door!”
Seungri went wide eyed; guess he wasn’t so safe in his own mind after all. He shakily raised his fist in the air toward the ever menacing black door. What laid beyond that threshold could either be a nice Ji-Yong welcoming them into his home or the actual Ji-Yong who was going to rip Seungri a new one for waking him. The maknae took a deep breath before he gave three small knocks.
“Hyung?” he whispered.
Young-Bae side eyed him “What human being in your right mind is going to be able to hear that?” The older man grabbed a hold of the maknae’s fist and raised it to pound on the door.
“No, Hyung wait!”
With not even a full knock, the door swung wide open. As if it were some cartoon, the two stuck both their heads over the threshold and looked inside.
“Hello?” they said in unison.
The two stood up straight and began to walk over the threshold at the same time only to get halted by squashing into each other. The older man glared at the maknae and shoved his shoulder to get by. Seungri merely rubbed his shoulder and closed the door behind him. Looking around the living room gave no impression of anyone actually living there, everything was perfectly in its place making it look like it was some kind of eerie museum. “Ji-Yong-ah?” Young-Bae called out peeking into every doorway. Seungri having already accepted his fate decided to go rifle around his Hyung’s things in his living room; picking up a sculpture here, touching a nicknack there, leaving fingerprints on his vinyl records…whoops, breaking off a piece of said sculpture. “Yah” Young-Bae called out to him. The maknae quickly put down the abstract sculpture and shoved the broken piece behind some books on the bookshelf. He looked to his Hyung who was whispering ‘he’s in there’ and pointing to the door that was left ajar. Again as if the two were in some Scooby-Doo cartoon, they carefully tiptoed into the sleeping man’s room. There sprawled out all over the bed, with half of the sheets and comforter dangling off the bed, was the sleeping form of their best friend. With his mouth parted and a slight trail of drool coming out of his mouth Ji-Yong let out a loud snore that startled the maknae causing him to step back onto a squeaky cat toy; Young-Bae slapped him on his shoulder. “Yah! Are you trying to to get us killed?!” he whispered loudly. “I thought you said you had nothing to worry about!” Seungri loudly whispered back. “I don’t! I’m just worried about you” the two of them continued their whisper argument only to be startled again. “Yah! If you two are done pretending like I can’t hear you, you can both kindly get the fuck out” Ji-Yong lifted his head up sleepily. “Sorry” the other two said in unison. “What do you even want at this hour?” he said plopping his head back into his sea of pillows and tangled bed sheets. “It’s three in the afternoon” they said again in unison. Ji-Yong dazedly lifted his head again looking toward his window “No it’s not there’s no sun” Walking to the window Young-Bae pulled the curtains back “that’s because you live like a vampire and have black out curtains “ “Yah!” Ji-Yong struggled to bury himself under his sheets “What are you trying to kill me?!” “Ok enough” the dreaded man walked to his bedside “we dealt with your drunk ass last night, it’s all been fun and games but now it’s time to wake the fuck up” he pulled him by the only foot that was sticking out of the covers. Ji-Yong clawing at his bed like a cat protested. “Come on man just get up!” “Do we have a photoshoot?” he asked in a muffled voice with his face firmly planted onto the mattress. “No?” “Music video shoot?” “No?” “An interview?”
“A record to write?”
“No, Ji-Yong why–” “Then I have no good reason be even be conscious” he said taking his foot back “ “Seriously man come on, Seungri and I–” “Seungri?” Ji-Yong quickly lifted his head and snapped it in in their direction. “Yea Seungri, who the hell else did you think I was arguing with?” “I don’t know Young-Bae, I’ve stopped questioning the voices” The other two glanced at each other raising an eyebrow. The dazed man rubbed his face with his hand “Ok I’ll bite, why the fuck are you here?” “Because you can’t keep living like this! I hardly get to see you when we’re not on tour or doing some kind of press junket or variety show, even then we pretend like everything is all ok when it’s not. All you do is drink yourself stupid, complain while you’re drunk, smoke so much that I swear one of these days you’re going to need an iron lung support or something! It’s like the Kwon Ji-Yong I grew up with doesn’t even exist anymore!” Ji-Yong pursed his lips “Tsk. What are you my girlfriend all of a sudden? Get in line you’re not the only one who noticed. Any other complaints or can I just go back to sleep?” The dreaded man let out a heavy sigh “Pfft. yea right we’d all know where that would go real fast…” he said under his breath. “What was that?” he threw off the covers hopping off the bed and walking to square up to his best friend. Seungri, having been silent the entire time, noticed this was going to take a turn for the worse and intervened before any fists went flying. “Ji-Yong Hyung” He turned to glare at him. “Young-bae Hyung” he held up his hands between the two “Why don’t we just go to the kitchen and get some food and some coffee in you guys huh? We can eat a little, talk a little…not using harsh words…and just get rid of the bad energy from last night” The two older men glanced at each other “fine..” they said in unison and headed out toward the kitchen. “Hey Hyung” the maknae trailing behind the two spoke up again “Don’t you wanna maybe change out of your clothes from last night?” Ji-Yong stopped in his tracks to glare at him. “N-nevermind…” Along the way Ji-Yong stopped to boot up his laptop that was sitting on the kitchen island then made a b-line for the coffee maker and his pack of cigarettes. Young-Bae simply leaned against the furthest wall and looked down at his feet, still fuming about his little spat with his best friend. Seungri, even in everyday situations, made his way into the kitchen last. He caught a glimpse of his Hyung’s laptop screen and immediately stopped mid-step. Ji-Yong raised an eyebrow “what did some porn pop up or something?” he asked lighting his cigarette “N-no. just a picture of” he cleared his throat “Kim Tae-Hee popped up” he gave a weak smile.
The older man gave him a questioning look “Ahh ok?” and turned to ash his cigarette in the ashtray before him. His fingers slightly trembling from the actions of the previous night caused him to accidentally drop his cigarette into the sink. “Aish!” he hollered as he threw his now soggy cigarette into the bin and turned away from the other two to light another one. The maknae, wide eyed, looked to his other Hyung as a plea for help. Trying to subtly beg the dreaded man with his eyes that he needed him to distract Ji-Yong while he closes out of the webpage on the laptop’s screen; needless to say his actions were lost in translation. Young-Bae not understanding what the younger man was trying to tell him raised an eyebrow and mouthed ‘what?’, Seungri balled his fists in silent frustration and turned the screen toward his oblivious Hyung and emphatically pointed to the news article that blatantly held pictures of ‘DO NOT CALL HER’ in the arms of a man that wasn’t Ji-Yong and at the same exact club they were at the night before no less! Young-Bae went wide eyed and quickly dashed in the direction of the unsuspecting man before he could turn back around; he put his arm around his shoulder. Ji-Yong feeling suspicious about his two friend’s actions wasn’t sure what to think; truthfully he didn’t want to think at all he’d much rather be back in bed ignoring everyone. The maknae glanced as his two Hyungs talked it out and as Young-Bae took it upon himself to have a death grip on Ji-Yong’s shoulder forcing him to look out the window as he poetically described the meaning of their friendship to him. Seungri acting quickly turned the laptop back toward him and carefully closed the article but not before looking at all the pictures and reading the headline. ‘Alexandra McMahon Out Partying in Seoul With Mystery Man: Keep reading for pictures below’. Oh shit he was really going to be in trouble now.