January 28th 2016
These last couple days have been rough.
So my parents have been divirced for like 8 years now and these last couple days have solitified some things that i have noticed at home for a while.
My mom has made my dad out to be this evil person and blah blah blah. The last couple years i have matured and realized thats not the case. She is the crazy one.
I have noticed that when she comes home she just sits in the living room and does whatever by herself, then when its her and i she bitches about how no one pays attention to her. Her birthday was recently and she asked what my plans were and then she was like i know your sister and brother dont care that i exist, maybe we could do something? I said just ask them. They may have a change of heart. She just laughed and said i bet. She also doesnt make dinners. Yes we are all old enough to feed ourselves. She doesnt keep alot of food in the house so the other day i had to go get pizza for my siblings and i.
I feel like i have taken on the role of the mother. I get excied about things. My siblings come to me for advice. I have even paied for things that my mom would not pay for.
My dad on the other had isnt a saint either. He has his issues. Putting those aside, he will do anything for my siblings while my mom seems to put on an act. My dad has been taking my siblings to school for the past 2 trimesters because my mom refuses to. Thats an extra 15 minutes out of his way. I have taken over that duty because my classes start after they are in school. He makes dinner every night. He spends at least an hour in the kitchen making food. We eat dinner together everynight. He also keeps food in the house. The fridge is stocked with food.
I have just had a rough time. Ive been dealing with that and school and work. I have been crazy clingy and unmotivated. I don’t know. 💩