im playing my music out loud at 1.30am and i keep instinctively thinking i should turn it down so i dont disturb my sister sleeping down the hall, but then i remember that’s she’s not here bc she’s in hospital……….:(

i mean i like my music out loud and i like when she’s in hospital when she’s really sick (by which i mean id rather she be in hospital than here when she’s this sick bc there’s nothing we can do for her and it’s hard on everyone, including her) but……she’s my twin sister and we’ve been doing stuff together for more than 19 years and i miss her????? i don’t see her much anymore bc school’s over and she’s at uni a lot (and i sleep all day oops), but the times i do see her are important!! *sigh* :(