pieces of me you stole
to break me was the goal
now I have nothing left
as you gloat in your success
all of me was consumed
in your indulgent fire
and everything that remains
is tainted and stained
left to hide under covers
for each future lover
i am removing myself
from the front lines
of your battlefield
with nothing left to defend
this war too must end
true love was there you see
laid down before your feet
but you waged a war instead
with all the monsters
that roam inside your head
they sell pride for you to feast
spreading lies instead peace
as i walk away defeated
you continue to choose
being held as a prisoner
of your very own war
you walk in false freedom
while chained to dissolution
your mind in utter confusion
feeding your every addiction
to lust after the many things
that could never love you
in return


The 7 Steps in Alchemical Transformation.

The 7 steps in Alchemical Transformation happened non-linearly and they enable the growth of Consciousness in all directions. They are related to each of the 7 Chakras and Planets as well and are part of an anciently recognized process of permanent Transformation that actually gave birth to modern Science and has been under attack by the Roman Catholic Church for thousands of years. 

1) CALCINATION: The process of Calcination is meant to assist in Destroying the Ego’s Attachment to Material things or things outside of the Self. Physically, Calcination is related to exercise and Chemically to Fire, as it burns away at all Material that is undesirable. Psychologically and Spiritually it is the Flames of the Higher Consciousness which will burn away the dross of the restricting habits, beliefs and limitations of the Ego Self.

2) DISSOLUTION: During Dissolution the Conscious Mind is forced to let go of Controlling everything, so Material Ideas are Destroyed within the Psyche and Interior World. This step is associated with the Second Chakra and the Kundalini Experience. During Dissolution you may Experience more profound Dreams, Visions and voices which will appear in order to push the Boundaries of your rational Mind and allow for the Realization of new Material to take place.

3) SEPARATION: Separation is associated with your 3rd or Solar Plexus Chakra. During Separation your Soul comes together with Spirit and for the first time Experiences a Higher perspective that is brought back to your daily Awareness. The new Perspective gave the Soul the discernment for performing the act of Separation and discarding of unwanted Materials. When we discard our unworthy attitudes and beliefs in the step of Separation, more aspects of our own Self are able to be revealed to us. Now that your blocks and misspent Energies have been identified and released, there is more Conscious Energy available to you to further your Transformation and Growth.
4) CONJUNCTION: The 4th Chakra, the Heart Chakra, is associated with the process of Conjunction. During Conjunction, you are performing the marriage of the two sides of Consciousness, the Solar and Lunar, or Male and Female. The stage also represents the merger of Matter and Spirit by joining the three steps below with the three steps above. During Conjunction, it is only the Purest parts of the Self that are recombined for Transformation and a new type of Heart Intelligence is born.

5) FERMENTATION: The 5th Throat Chakra is related to the Process of Fermentation. Fermentation represents the New Life that is born from the Putrefaction of another living organism. The Symbolism suggests a Presence of New Life and along with it new Vitality. This step is important for Solidification of the Soul, and Spirit’s merger becomes permanent and the new Life Force finally overcomes the original Identity with its Higher Presence. The New Spiritual Power and Presence begins to rejuvenate and invigorate the New Life, adding a new level of Insight, Identity and Divine Inspiration to your Perception.

6) DISTILLATION: Just as distilled water is boiled to increase it’s Purity, so is our Psyche agitated and challenged during the Distillation Process in order to ensure that all the Lower Thought forms, habits and contents of our original Ego Mind are completely separated from the fermented Being. At this point, the Kundalini is raised from the Sacral Chakra (1st Chakra) to the Brain and Pineal Gland and it is represented by the 3rd Eye Chakra in the center of the forehead. Techniques such as Introspection and Reflection are used at this stage to Identify those things which do not belong to our New and Reborn Self. Distillation allows us to become Refined and Purified from all Lower functions as the Sublimated Spiritual Presence is released within us.

7) COAGULATION: Coagulation is like the Precipitation of Purified Ferment which arose during the Distillation. The final operation of Coagulation occurs in the 7th or Crown Chakra on the top of your head which effects the Pituitary Gland. It is believed that some sort of Brain Ambrosia is released from the Pineal Gland (phallic shaped gland)and that it combines with the Matter of the Pituitary (vulva shaped gland) to give Birth to your Permanent Body of Light; which is the Immortal Vehicle for your Highest Aspirations and Evolved Aspects of your Mind. The Body of Light retains your Memories and Feelings from your Lifetime on Earth and is able to become one with Soul and Spirit at Death. The Body of Light is similar to the concept of the Astral Body raised and purified through repeated cycles of the entire Process until only the True Essence of the Astral and Mental faculties of the Individual remains. The remaining Being is your Rebirth and that is the part of you which is Immortal and Born from Humanity. This Body of Light is the “Greater or Philosopher’s Stone” of the Alchemists. The achievement of a Permanent state of Coagulation is also referred to as a Return to the Garden of Eden and denotes a Solid Unification with the Divine Mind.



1. the act or process of resolving or dissolving into parts or elements.

2. the resulting state.

3. the undoing or breaking of a bond, tie, union, partnership, etc.

4. the breaking up of an assembly or organisation; dismissal; dispersal.

5. Government: an order issued by the head of a state terminating a parliament and necessitating a new election.

Etymology: from Middle English dissolucioun < Latin dissolūtiōn-, stem of dissolūtiō, from dis-, a Latin prefix meaning “apart,” “asunder,” “away,” “utterly,” or having a privative, negative, or reversing force + solution, from Latin solūtus, “free, unfettered”, from solver, “to release”.

[Peter Gric - Dissolution of Ego]

“You see, technically, chemistry is the study of matter, but I prefer to see it as the study of change: Electrons change their energy levels. Molecules change their bonds. Elements combine and change into compounds. But that’s all of life, right? It’s the constant, it’s the cycle. It’s solution, dissolution. Just over and over and over. It is growth, then decay, then transformation. It is fascinating, really.” (insp
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How LSD can make us lose our sense of self

When people take the psychedelic drug LSD, they sometimes feel as though the boundary that separates them from the rest of the world has dissolved. Now, the first functional magnetic resonance images (fMRI) of people’s brains while on LSD help to explain this phenomenon known as “ego dissolution.”

As researchers report in the Cell Press journal Current Biology on April 13, these images suggest that ego dissolution occurs as regions of the brain involved in higher cognition become heavily over-connected. The findings suggest that studies of LSD and other psychedelic drugs can produce important insights into the brain. They can also provide intriguing biological insight into philosophical questions about the very nature of reality, the researchers say.

“There is ‘objective reality’ and then there is 'our reality,’” says Enzo Tagliazucchi of the Royal Netherlands Academy of Arts and Sciences in Amsterdam. “Psychedelic drugs can distort our reality and result in perceptual illusions. But the reality we experience during ordinary wakefulness is also, to a large extent, an illusion.”

Take vision, for example: “We know that the brain fills in visual information when suddenly missing, that veins in front of the retina are filtered out and not perceived, and that the brain stabilizes our visual perception in spite of constant eye movements. So when we take psychedelics we are, it could be said, replacing one illusion by another illusion. This might be difficult to grasp, but our study shows that the sense of self or 'ego’ could also be part of this illusion.”

It has long been known that psychedelic drugs have the capacity to reduce or even eliminate a person’s sense of self, leading to a fully conscious experience, Tagliazucchi explains. This state, which is fully reversible in those taking psychedelics, is also known to occur in certain psychiatric and neurological disorders.

But no one had ever looked to see how LSD changes brain function. To find out in the new study, Tagliazucchi and colleagues, including Robin Carhart-Harris of Imperial College London, scanned the brains of 15 healthy people while they were on LSD versus a placebo.

The researchers found increased global connectivity in many higher-level regions of the brain in people under the influence of the drug. Those brain regions showing increased global connectivity overlapped significantly with parts of the brain where the receptors known to respond to LSD are found.

LSD also increased brain connectivity by inflating the level of communication between normally distinct brain networks, they report. In addition, the increase in global connectivity observed in each individual’s brain under LSD correlated with the degree to which the person in question reported a sense of ego dissolution.

Tagliazucchi notes in particular that they found increased global connectivity of the fronto-parietal cortex, a brain region associated with self-consciousness. In particular, they observed increased connection between this portion of the brain and sensory areas, which are in charge of receiving information about the world around us and conveying it for further processing to other brain areas.

“This could mean that LSD results in a stronger sharing of information between regions, enforcing a stronger link between our sense of self and the sense of the environment and potentially diluting the boundaries of our individuality,” Tagliazucchi said.

They also observed changes in the functioning of a part of the brain earlier linked to “out-of-body” experiences, in which people feel as though they’ve left their bodies. “I like to think that our experiment represents a pharmacological analogue of these findings,” he says.

Tagliazucchi says the findings highlight the value of psychedelic drugs in carefully controlled research settings. He plans to continue to use neuroimaging to explore various states of consciousness, including sleep, anesthesia, and coma. He also hopes to make direct comparisons between people in a dream versus a psychedelic state. Meanwhile, researchers at the Imperial College London are investigating other psychedelic drugs and their potential use in the treatment of disorders including depression and anxiety.

Many a child has wondered how many licks it takes to get to the center of a lollipop. Physically, this is a problem of a solid body dissolving in a flow, and it’s one scientists are interested in for its geological, industrial, and pharmacological applications. 

The animation above shows flow around a dissolving (candy!) body that was originally spherical. With both spheres and cylinders, the final shape the body takes is consistent - it has a front boundary with a curvature of nearly constant radius and a back face that is approximately flat. This creates a boundary layer of uniform thickness across the front face, and that uniform flow makes the surface dissolve steadily and evenly so that it maintains the same overall shape. 

With their model and experiments, researchers have even been able to tackle the classic question of how many licks it takes: 

“For candy of size 1 cm licked at a speed of 1 cm/s, we estimate a total of 1000 licks, a prediction that is notoriously difficult to test experimentally.”

(Image credit: J. Huang et al., source, pdf)


March 10th 1629: Charles I dissolves Parliament

On this day in 1629, King Charles I of England, Scotland and Ireland dissolved Parliament and began a period of Personal Rule. Charles succeeded to the throne in 1625 upon the death of his father King James I, becoming the second Stuart monarch. Charles inherited from his father a firm belief in the divine right of kings to absolute rule, which led to conflict between the King and Parliament. Charles’s Anglicanism alienated Puritans in England, and his imposition of taxes without parliamentary consent outraged the political elites. Charles dissolved Parliament three times, the last time being on March 10th 1629 in response to three Members of Parliament refusing to allow the Speaker to adjourn session and instead passing motions against the King’s actions. Charles thus resolved to rule the nation alone, without Parliament, and did not call another legislative session for eleven years. During this period of Personal Rule, the ruling classes saw his actions as increasingly tyrannical, as the King raised taxes and persecuted Puritans and Catholics, leading to an exodus of the former to the American colonies. Personal rule ended when the king attempted to interfere with the Scottish Church, and had to restore Parliament to raise the funds to fight the Scottish. The English Civil War broke out in the last years of his reign after he attempted to arrest members of Parliament, pitting the crown against Parliament. Charles’s Royalist supporters were defeated in 1646, and the King himself was eventually captured. The Parliamentarians, including general Oliver Cromwell, put Charles on trial for treason, which resulted in his execution in 1649 outside the Banqueting House in Whitehall. The monarchy was then abolished, succeeded by the short-lived Commonwealth of England. A leading figure of this republic was Oliver Cromwell, though his rule as Lord Protector became increasingly authoritarian. Cromwell died of natural causes in September 1658, and the monarchy was restored in 1660 with Charles’s son in power ruling as King Charles II. The dissolution of Parliament in 1629 marks one of the most dramatic turning points in English history, and serves as a reminder of the excesses of royal power.