anonymous asked:

So what is disassociation exactly? Like by definition because I think I disassociate but idk and whats the difference between disassociation and depersonalisation?

Dissociation is a perceived separation between an individual and their sense of self, their history, their feelings or emotions, their physical sensations, their thoughts or actions, or the world around them.

Depersonalization and derealization are both specific types of dissociation. Depersonalization refers to feeling as if oneself or parts of oneself are unreal, disconnected, or missing. This can include feeling emotionally numb or empty, feeling like one’s body isn’t one’s own, being unable to recognize oneself in a mirror, or feeling disconnected from physical sensations.

Derealization refers to feeling as if the outside world is staged, unreal, or somehow changed. This can include feeling like life is a play or movie, feeling like things are somehow too bright and discordant, or feeling like one is an outsider in an alien world.

Dissociation can also involve physical sensations such as tingling, numbness, difficulty perceiving or making sense of sensory information, or feeling light headed.

Others types of dissociation include dissociative amnesia (an inability to remember autobiographical information that can’t be explained by ordinary forgetfulness), identity confusion (being unsure of who one is or feeling like one doesn’t have a solid identity), and identity alteration (switching between dissociated parts as is seen in DID and OSDD-1).

I hope that this helps!

-Katherine of Those Interrupted

anonymous asked:

Well "spacing out" is very minor dissociation, consider it a spectrum. I'm not talking about dissociating between identities, but losing focus and going into autopilot for a while when you feel overwhelmed is not uncommon

No, I know, but I personally have dissociated (not into a different identity) and I have spaced out, and they are incredibly different things.

-J

trauma processing information ahead: you doubt your feelings relating to a certain event because when it happened you don’t remember as if it hurt you, you remember it as it maybe it wasn’t that traumatic, maybe it didn’t affect you so much, you feel like you handled it just fine and you weren’t so scared or pained by it back then and you don’t feel you can call that traumatic but then in present you suddenly get overwhelmed with pain and fear and grief and even anger and you try to stuff it down because NO IT WASN’T THAT BAD and you keep convincing yourself you’re overreacting because you can remember that it was not that bad and you keep thinking it didn’t even matter

So now try to remember when it first happened, it could be that you were still really small, or you were directly faced with the abuser/danger, or you were in unsafe environment where you couldn’t freely express, but the thing is, it didn’t hurt so bad the first time because you were unable to both survive and feel that amount of pain. Children’s bodies are not capable of withstanding traumatic amount of pain and survive, that pain is repressed and dissociated for later when bodies are big and strong and able to survive it. You cannot allow yourself to experience pain and fear that would make you extremely vulnerable and thus less likely to survive in traumatic situation so in that case too, your body represses the emotions and settles on dissociation until you’re safe enough and strong enough for these to be properly processed. 

Only reason it “didn’t feel so bad” back then is because your body repressed the pain and fear to save you. But the amount of pain and terror and anger you’re feeling now is exactly how bad it was. You’re only now experiencing on your own skin how actually bad it was! That’s how badly you were hurt. You’re not overreacting or making a big deal out of it now, you were unable to feel how bad it was before. Your feelings are always there for a reason, they’re generated inside you by harm that was done to you and you can trust them. Your reactions are not wrong, your feelings are not wrong, it was exactly that bad.

I hate how mental breakdowns are represented in film and the media, like excessively physical and violent. Smashing of windows, mirrors and glass, walls with disturbing messages written across, loud screaming and violently beating pillows etc. Because a lot of mental breakdowns are inner and harder to spot that then that and it gives such a false representation of what having breakdown means