disorientented

an aura thing that would be useful if i could actually control it is when my brain decides to just randomly like…dump everything in its short-term memory files IMMEDIATELY without at all attempting to move ANY of it to long-term, so from my perspective, i look at the clock, perfectly lucid, and see that it’s 5:30, and then i take a drink of water, say, and then i look at the clock AGAIN and see that it’s 7:22, and apparently i have been acting normal and functioning fine the whole entire time, i just don’t remember any of it.

 it doesn’t feel like zoning out, and believe me i know all about zoning out, that isn’t what i’m talking about– it’s more like someone snipped a bunch of footage clean away from the reel of my life and then expertly taped the film back together. it’s more like a drunken blackout but with none of the disorientation or sloppy fade-in/fade-out, or, uh, being drunk in general.

when you have some boring, rote shit to do, this is AWESOME. it is inconvenient and scary the rest of the time! but occasionally, when you have to, say, polish an assload of silverware or clean something disgusting out of a bathroom or wait in line at the DMV for a tiny eon and you’re just thinking “man, i wish there was some way to get this done without having to have the conscious experience of getting it done, because UGGGHHHHHHHH”, it’s quite welcome (if it decides to kick into gear at that time, i mean)

I can’t get over the Bucky leading an army in Wakanda thing because this pretty much means he’s gonna be fresh out of cryo in this movie so I’m just picturing T’Challa walking into that lab, slamming that mf defrost button, and handing Bucky a shotgun like “wakey wakey white boy time to pay your fucking dues” 

tumblr april fools day

2014: tumblr pro. advertised as something sleek, professional, life changing. disorientating video that ended with a top hat anti-climactically falling down on your head. initially it did not register in my mind as a joke and i was scared.

2015: the weird photocopier assistant cartoon. followed you down your dash and was annoying/obtrusive. you had the option to tell him to go away but he’d come back a few seconds later. everyone resorted to adblock

2016: reptile elections. topical, somewhat intrusive but i’ll give it a pass because it was funny and enjoyably engaging. i stand with mop and wretched tooth was corrupt.

2017: horse friend. shits itself everywhere and will die if you don’t pick it up. brings back the same anxieties that tamagotchis gave me but it’s small and easily minimised, has no sound and is generally polite and un-intrusive. could do with better horse names. also maybe not dieing every 2 minutes

little thor: ragnarok things

- bruce banner, immediately recognizing a balled-up pile of fabric passed to him even in the midst of total disorientation on an alien planet after two years as the hulk: “these are tony’s clothes!”

- bruce banner, pulling at the pants’ crotch: “tony wears his pants really tight.”

- bruce banner, once again tugging at the crotch of his pants to remind us of the difference between his and tony stark’s dick sizes

- bruce banner, putting on tony stark’s glasses: “i’ll be tony!”

- thor, about loki: “there was one time when we were children he transformed himself into a snake, and he knows that i love snakes. so i went to pick up the snake to admire it. and he transformed back into himself and he was like, ‘*mblergh* it’s me!’ and he stabbed me. we were eight at the time.” loki, bound in chains: *smiles fondly at the memory*

- loki, staring at thor’s new look: “it suits you.”

- thor, tossing a bottle stopper shaped like a diamond at loki: “if you were here i might even hug you.”

- loki, snatching the diamond stopper from the air, smirking: “i’m here.”

- FADE TO BLACK

men are allowed to love men. a man is allowed to love another man in his entirety. to be soft and affectionate with him. to laugh with him and hug him and fight for him. wash the dishes with him and cuddle with him and read an entire bookshelf of novels with him. take him out to fancy restaurants, ride rollercoasters with him and hold hands with him on the beach. he’s allowed to take care of him when he’s ill, slow dance with him in the kitchen, build a family with him and make love to him in a home of their own.

Casual breakdown of all the gay homoerotic Gafou goodness from Disney's first canon gay subplot:

▪️when Gaston says he likes a girl and LeFou is all, “why do you need a girlfriend when we have each other?”
▪️LeFou freaking the fuck out every time a woman looks at Gaston
▪️LeFou straight up telling women to back the fuck off before sashaying smugly after Gaston
▪️"I’m not done with you"
▪️LeFou looking wistful and practically drooling while Gaston describes a life married to him in a cozy house
▪️LeFou straight up rubbing Gaston’s ears and massaging his body
▪️…and Gaston freaking out when he realizes another man who isn’t LeFou has taken over the massage
▪️LeFou singing about Gaston’s heart breaking abilities
▪️the cabaret worthy moment when LeFou throws himself on a table and sings about how manly Gaston is
▪️LeFou crawling around on all fours while Gaston sings about “shooting from behind”
▪️obviously when LeFou twirls into Gaston’s arms and snuggles the fuck up
▪️Gaston picking LeFou up to demonstrate his strength (how were they so good at that? Like this was definitely practiced)
▪️the infamous BELLY BITE from when Gaston and LeFou “wrestled” (this might be the crowning gay moment of them all tbh)
▪️Gaston grabbing LeFou’s chin and cupping his face and gazing into his eyes in a deliberate attempt to disorientate and manipulate through sexy intimacy

Hit me up if I missed anything, there was such a sea of gay some of it might have passed me by

Scene Transitions

An important part of structuring your story in any format is the transition between scenes. When not handled properly, time and/or location jumps in a narrative can become disorientating and confusing, making it harder for the audience to keep up with the action. There are three important things to focus on when transitioning between scenes: where the first scene ends, where the second scene begins, and how to connect the two.

It’s important that each scene have closure. When you leave a scene, you need to know that the goal of that scene was reached. If you leave the scene too early, before you receive that closure, your audience will be left hanging, feeling unsatisfied and off balance. You need to ‘cut away’ when the scene comes to its natural end, when everything is understood and the audience is ready to move onto the next idea. If you leave the scene too late, it drags your story, and makes it feel like the scene is longer than it is.

As with the end of a scene, the beginning of a new scene must feel natural. If you have to backtrack immediately after starting your scene in order to explain whats going on, then it means you’re not starting at the beginning of the scene. You can sometimes get away with doing this, if the reflection is placed naturally in the writing, but you shouldn’t try and push your luck. If all of your scenes start with an immediate backpedal to explain where everyone is, how they got there, and when it takes place, then you need to go back and fix some things.

Information about the change in time and location are important to include. If you didn’t, then it would be impossible for the audience to tell if, when or how these changes occurred. The most widely accepted way of transitioning between scenes is to detail the things done by the characters to go from scene A to scene B. They can do so by showing the transition between locations (“They walked the distance to the theatre, laughing the whole way”), points in time (“hours passed as she sat reading in her favorite chair”), or combinations of the two (“they drove for days, the grassy hillsides of home growing into a looming mountain range”). The information in the transition must do everything to set up the new scene that’s starting.

I am going to use a segment from “These Shallow Graves” by Jennifer Donnelly as an example of what not to do when transitioning between scenes. In chapter thirty-four, a scene is ending where the protagonist and her love interest meet secretly during a ball and make a plan for her to sneak out later that evening. The scene ends on an angsty moment as they both watch her almost arranged fiance dancing with the competitor for his affections. Chapter thirty-five immediately begins with the two of them having met up and halfway to their destination. It is then explained how the protagonist had left the party early, snuck out, and made it to the meeting point.

Feels kinda jenky huh? Here’s how we could smooth this out.

Their plan for meeting up that evening involves the protagonist telling her uncle (who an attendee) that she is feeling faint and using that as an excuse to leave the ball early. This would make more sense as a place to end the scene as it signals the beginning of the transition between locations. When she sneaks out the house is a good place to officially begin the next scene, as it signals another change in locations. Because the time spent at the protagonist’s home is not important to the overall story (her waiting for everyone to fall asleep) this could serve as the transition between the scene of the first and the scene of the second meetings. The cab ride from her house to the meeting place is also its own small transition, and is a good place to reflect on past information without interfering with anything else going on (such as dialogue and bonding between love interests).

Remember! All of the important things to keep in mind when writing scene transitions are:
Know where to end a scene.
Know where to begin a scene.
Know how to connect the scenes.

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William E. Jones, Four Frames from “Spatial Disorientation”, (2010)

 

Sequence of digital files, color, silent, 4 minutes and 45 seconds looped.

 The original footage of Spatial Disorientation is a flight test seen from the cockpit of a U. S. Air Force plane.  The material has been edited into a loop that repeats in variations: magenta, blue and green.

steve harrington x reader • cold coffee

Summary: Waking up next to Steve is something that you can get used to.

Word Count: 1600+

Warnings: tooth rotting fluff, some language.

Notes: I started writing something angsty and got sad so I wrote this to make myself feel better. Idk man, idk. It got longer than I wanted?? and off topic?? I just love these kids and i love Steve Harrington.

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Dating Steve Harrington came with a lot of surprises. The whole Upside Down thing, oddly enough, wasn’t one of them; you’d stumbled into that whole mess before you’d even met him, thanks to your insatiable curiosity and tendency to nose around places you really had no business being in. No, the oddities that Steve brought to your life were much more mundane, and all the more surprising for that.

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Ten eclipse tips

1. Never look directly at the sun. This makes the sun uncomfortable, and may be interpreted as an attempt to establish dominance. The sun almost never attacks unless eye contact is made first. Always practice sun safety!

2. Similarly, do not try to photograph the eclipse. Solar eclipses have no reflections, cannot be viewed in mirrors, and require a constant supply of blood. As a consequence, they are unphotographable and you should probably avoid them after dark.

3. If you are still planning to use your camera during the eclipse, we recommend using a delayed-release timer. This should give you enough time to flee to a safe distance. Remeber to etch your camera body with your name so that you can identify the remains afterwards. A silver memory card is also a must if you insist on retrieving the pictures, although we cannot think why you would want to.

4. Plan your trip to the area of totality beforehand. Choose an area that has viable escape routes, is not downwind of any volcanoes, and contains no graves. Note that this includes fossils: be sure to check ahead of time!

5. Never watch the eclipse whilst driving. You should only drive away from eclipses, which, as previously noted, will not be discernable in the rear-view mirror. If you do look behind you whilst fleeing an eclipse, the eclipse may not be allowed to return to Earth and you may end up being torn apart by either maenads or eclipse hunters of the future.

6. No matter how exciting your picnic plans may be, never bisect a piece of raw meat inside a circle of salt at the moment of greatest darkness.

7. During the eclipse, birds may get confused and wander off. If you encounter any disorientated birds, treat them kindly and give them directions back to the sky. It may also start raining men. This is not normal and should be reported to the authorities.

8. Make sure to look at your shadow during the eclipse. I mean, when did you last look at your shadow? Really look? The poor thing is feeling neglected and goodness knows they get anxious during periods of partial darkness. Give it a little hug if you can and make sure it knows you’re thinking of it.

9. Look out for light beaming through the canyons of the moon. If you can record these points on a moon map, you too may be able to cash in on the lunar light-mining revolution which is soon to come. In the future years of darkness you will be very glad you did this.

10. After viewing the eclipse, you may feel a chill hollow at the very heart of your being, as though the circle of darkness had sucked a portion of your soul away with it. But be honest: this is how you felt before the eclipse, isn’t it? We find it reassuring to know that experimental theologians have comprehensively debunked the soul-extraction eclipse theory. That awful absence most likely comes from creeping nightwalkers or the things without lanterns instead.

I’m still not over how disjointed The Final Problem is… it’s all woosh, we’re at Mycroft’s house, woosh, 221B, woosh, and now a boat!, woosh, Sherrinford… just as the explosion faded into the ship scene with no explanation, my mum was all ‘oh, I get it now. it’s a dream’ just on the first watch… you’re meant to feel disorientated. Like a dream that doesn’t make sense but you’re still dreaming, so you just go with the flow…

Mars Aspects
  • Mars/Sun: Strong will and energy and unless mars is in detriment, prominent vital force. Competitive, impulsive and combative nature. If harmonious, action and willpower are working together and the animal nature of mars is tamed. Needs activity otherwise lethargy makes them ill. Quick, alert and wants to be seen as independent and individualistic. Desire, bravery and ambitions are strong here. If sexually inclined, sexual-nature is apt to be potent. Easily angered, passionate, dominating and opinionated. If afflicted, anger must be kept from becoming destructive and violent, should be used effectively. With the square and opposition there is inner conflict of the identity against the warrior that needs overcoming.
  • Mars/Moon: Strong vitality and resilient inner being. Energetic and alert, possesses recuperative abilities. Subtle competitive nature, opinionated and apt to defend those in need. Can be impulsive, moody, hot tempered and easily offended. Subconscious feelings and energy working together if harmonious; the animal nature of mars is tamed and used constructively. Good for leadership roles and gives natural androgynous personality traits, making it easy for friendly but assertive relationships with others if harmonious. The square and opposition bring inner conflict where the needs are concerned; the soul against the warrior. Can get aggressive, selfish and become antagonists to themselves if afflicted. If not grasped healthily, there is bound to be trouble as far as relationships are concerned, especially with the mother or feminine figures.
  • Mars/Mercury: The mind is alert, clever, witty and restless. An active kind of person who enjoys debates. Activity is important, otherwise boredom causes the nerves to exasperate from agitation. Skillful in literature and/or mathematics. Comical and humorous nature, good dexterity and coordination, and tough mental capability. Reason working with action if harmonious; the warrior has a useful and valuable mind filled with tactics. Easily offended, more so if intelligence is tested or insulted. A biting tongue with snappy sarcasm, more dishonest, belligerent and untasteful if afflicted. With the square and opposition, the mind is animalistic and needs steadying, otherwise can aggravate the muscles and nerves as well as cause frustration with others.
  • Mars/Venus: The hardiness and vigor of mars united with the gentleness, sentiments and values of Venus; here lies the adventurous romantic. Much energy is put into creative interests and in surrounding themselves with beauty. Their principles and ideals are important to them, apt to fight for love or to passionately maintain peace. Makes for talents surrounding creativity such as singing, art, music and acting/theatre. Sensual and magnetic personality. If sexually inclined, sexual nature is ardent and the native appreciates both a loving and sexual relationship. Strongly concerned with money. If harmonious, tends to be sociable and friendly; the anima and animus are congruent. With the conjunction the two energies can be challenging to manage, there is fluctuation between the harshness of mars and softness of Venus. Androgynous characteristics are present due to the natural balancing of the powers of masculinity and femininity in the personality, more so if harmonious. If afflicted, such as with the square or opposition, sociable nature is troubled and romantic and/or social relationships with others proves to be difficult.
  • Mars/Jupiter: Sincere, straightforward, openly opinionated and holds deep-seated beliefs. Beliefs are usually spiritual, religious or political. Strong sense of justice, fights for it. The square or opposition can be so devoted to justice that they may foolhardily take it into their own hands. A friendly, generous, charitable, confident and approachable kind of person. The harmonious contacts prove to be natural teachers. Strong faith in inner truths and in others, but their greatest enemies can be idealism of the world and doubtfulness in themselves. Can over-exert themselves and get carried away in things they’re passionate about. If sexually inclined, appreciates a fleeting, sexual and adventurous kind of romance. With the square or oppositions and sometimes the conjunction, these people are apt to forcefully put their opinions on others. Arrogance in beliefs and unwise judgment with the harsh aspects. Can attack others for not believing in what they believe in, or hold bias more so if found in fixed signs. With any Jupiter aspect indulgence can become a problem.
  • Mars/Saturn: If harmonious, the animal is tamed by the discipline of Saturn. If disharmonious, the warrior battles with authority. Control and structure are important to these people. Likely to follow and/or enforce the rules. With the conjunction, square and oppositions, Saturn restricts Mars and there is fear of asserting oneself, perhaps a fear of authority figures. Can be extremely self-willed and controlling towards others. Very enduring. With the sextile and trine, are more reliable, responsible and constructive with clear judgment and common sense; more willing to work hard for what they strongly desire. Puts much effort into controlling temper, so much that those with Mars/Saturn aspects can suffer internal and confined rage that has no proper outlet. If sexually inclined, the sexual nature is vigorous, concerned with dominating. With the hard contacts, there could be fear of sexual activity. Can be remarkably courageous, successful, ambitious and directing if fear of failure is defeated. Good for those pursuing business. Easily makes enemies, more so in the fixed signs or if Venus is weak in the chart. Soft contacts tend to be active and structured, while the hard contacts may experience lethargy and disorientation. With the square or opposition, impulse and action need controlling; there is struggle between mars who rushes head first and Saturn who demands caution and patience.
  • Mars/Uranus: Erratic stamina, accident prone; can experience sudden physical injuries. If sexually inclined, there is an energetic, “strange" and unconventional sexual nature. Boredom irritates the nerves. Individualistic in nature, excellent problem solving skills and inspirational to others. The personality is magnetic, a sociable person. Apt to take up battles that aren’t theirs, to fight for humanity and the underdog. With the sextile or trine there is an exceptional ability to take immediate action and handle difficult ordeals in life. Independent nature from an early age with powerful intuitions. With any Uranus aspect, there is an inner genius if used properly. A Universal kind of person, can tolerate anything or anyone, excluding boredom. Puts energy into fighting for what is right, a talented debater. Can be good with technology and scientific matters. Soft contacts do not conform to rules unless the rules add up, hard aspects may recklessly rebel against rules with no cause. Violent temper, poor judgment, impatience, willfulness and recklessness need controlling when it comes to the conjunction, square or opposition. The hard aspects can experience challenging and sudden endings of important matters in the life, depending on the houses and signs involved.
  • Mars/Neptune: With the hard contacts, the warrior is dissolved and the person is apt to not be a fighter. Resorts to passive aggression. With the sextile or trine, mars triumphs; cannot be fooled by deception especially of hidden enemies, has a compassionate and honest nature, a practical idealist and has the energy to go for their dreams. With the hard aspects, one is predisposed to be the victim, a complex to be a martyr or to be saved. With the soft aspects, is inclined to be the hero, a complex to save others. A good actor, charismatic personality and sensual nature. May put energies into artistic, spiritual, and creative endeavors. Intuitive, emotional, sensitive, psychic and empathetic spirit. If sexually inclined, seeks a deep, romantic and spiritual connection. Can have sexual fantasies and hold what are considered strange sexual interests, more so with the hard contacts. If afflicted, there are self-delusions and fantasies of winning, competing and being strong. Hard contacts can potentially become self-destructive, obsessive, confused and restless. The harsh aspects can be deceiving or easily deceived (or both) and need to learn to acquire a sense of responsibility, integrity and understand what it means to sacrifice. With any Neptune/mars contact, must be careful where addictions are concerned.
  • Mars/Pluto: Knowledgeable of sexual matters from an early age and if sexually inclined, the sexual nature is formidably great and raw, sexual intimacy is preferred. Sexual nature can be suppressed out of fear with the square or opposition, but if not addressed can surface compulsively. Abundance of ambition and drive. The animal self is doubled and needs restraint and cultivating if afflicted. With the hard contacts, cruelty, ruthlessness, power-struggles and self-destruction need monitoring. With the trine or sextile there is self-confidence, healthy ambition, courage and dynamic energy put to good use. Mars/Pluto contacts makes for powerful emotions and an interest in the occult, taboos and spiritual matters. Psychic, dominating, magnetic, competitive, probing and charismatic presence and personality. Control and assertion of power are important to these people. Extremely private. Not one to trust or to be deceived easily. Physical activity is needed to manage the forces of mars and Pluto, more so with the opposition or square. Can be beneficially fearless and brave if buried rage and power-complex are managed. With the hard aspects, a fighting-for-survival mentality is present and there is a distrust of oneself and of masculinity that needs attending.
don’t forget the feet

Today I had a patient who was a little…off.
She couldn’t tell me what year it is.
She didn’t even know how to count backwards from 10.

I thought to myself, “She’s 70. Maybe there’s a history of cognitive decline?”

So while she sat and wondered about which day of the week it is, I quickly looked through her chart. But I found nothing. Nothing about memory lapses. Nothing about disorientation. Nothing about short-term memory issues. Nothing.

I preceded to do a full head-to-toe physical. When all I had left to do was the feet, I hesitated. I usually don’t skip the feet. But for this poor woman who sat there mumbling to herself and nodding off, I wondered if I should make an exception. The woman had enough trouble getting out of a chair, let alone pulling on socks and lacing her shoes. 

But I knelt down and placed my hands on her shoes. “Ma’am, is it okay if I take off your shoes and check the bloodflow in your feet?”

She nodded and returned to mumbling to herself.

After I got the laces undone and the shoes off, I carefully pulled back the socks. 

Then when I examined the soles of her feet, I found this:

Few rashes appear on the soles of the feet.
Syphilis is one of them.

Syphilis can lie dormant for decades.
Sometimes when it reappears, it can affect the eyes (occular syphilis).
Other times, it can affect the brain (neurosyphilis), leading to dementia and behavioral disturbances.

I helped the woman put on her socks, and I tied her shoelaces. Then I left the room and reported to my preceptor. Once I mentioned the sudden cognitive decline and rash on the feet, my preceptor immediately searched the patient’s records at all local hospitals for bloodwork.

Then we found it.
A positive RPR dating back a few decades, indicating that at some point the woman tested positive for syphilis. Looking through her records, she never received treatment.

We spent most of the following hour scrambling for an emergency infectious disease consult, and it did create some chaos for the remainder of our scheduled patients. But we managed, and now the poor woman is receiving treatment.

So, friendly reminder:

Don’t. Forget. The Feet.

AUGUST 19: Carmilla premieres (2014)

On this day in 2014, a little video titled “Disorientation” was uploaded to YouTube. Years later, this video would turn out to be the very first episode of season one of the hit lesbian web series Carmilla!

Adapted from one of the first vampire stories ever written, the novella Carmilla by Sheridan Le Fanu, the web series was created by Jordan Hall and Ellen Simpson and stars Elise Bauman and Natasha Negovanlis. The original Carmilla tells the story of a young girl who is hunted by a female vampire in the 1890s, but Hall and Simpson reimagined the story to be the video diary of a freshman at the fictional Silas University as she investigates the disappearance of her roommate Betty, while simultaneously trying to adjust to her new roommate – a strange, nocturnal girl by the name of Carmilla. Laura’s investigation eventually leads her to into a world of supernatural beings, as well as into a romance with, you guessed it, her vampire roommate Carmilla.

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As of today, the pilot episode has garnered over 2 million views on YouTube. Following the extremely positive reception from LGBT women starving for representation, the Carmilla web series was renewed for three seasons. In 2016, it won a prestigious Canadian Screen Award and since 2014 has won 9 awards in total for its on-screen representation and its strong fan base. Although the series concluded after the third season, it was announced in 2016 that this modern retelling of Carmilla would also be getting a film adaptation with all the stars and creators from the YouTube series remaining! The movie is expected to drop sometime in fall of 2017!

-LC

Date Night

Request: Hi! Can you do a short fluffy imagine for Jasper? Like maybe he and the reader go on a date and try to be a ‘normal’ couple or something like that, do it however you want! Thanks! 

Pairing: Jasper x human!reader

Summary: ‘normal’ date night for a rather abnormal couple 

Warnings: Suggestive things, fluff 

Originally posted by alwaysshamelessdeer

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if you wanna play doki doki literature club PLEASE DO NOT UNDERESTIMATE THE TRIGGER WARNINGS

i was severely annoyed by the third screen telling me to exercise caution if i had depression or anxiety (i have both) because even with those warnings beforehand i did not heed them as anything more than acknowledgements that depression and anxiety would be discussed. i didn’t make the connection that content warnings ≠ trigger warnings and i need to let you guys know to PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE DON’T MAKE THE SAME MISTAKE

i played the first route tonight without spoilers – alone, at night. by the end, i was severely disorientated to the point of dizziness even while sitting and physically tense by the end because the material was legitimately upsetting. 

if you still want to play this game, please do so with someone to talk to on hand and the expectation of triggering material. THE DEVELOPER DID NOT PUT UP THREE TRIGGER WARNINGS FOR NOTHING, PLEASE DON’T BE AS FOOLISH AS I WAS AND BE CAREFUL WITH YOUR MENTAL HEALTH.