i was tagged by @oll1vian 💛
rules: you can tell a lot about a person based on the music they listen to. Put your music on shuffle and list the first 10 songs.

1. colors - halsey
2. homewrecker - marina & the diamonds
3. cake - melanie martinez
4. fireproof - one direction
5. paris - the 1975
6. bts - blood sweat and tears
7. mc davi - o grave que faz o tum (😂)
8. gabriel, o pensador - festa da musica tupiniquin
9. jota quest - blecaute
10. skank - ela me deixou

(if you want to listen to some brazilian songs, the number 7-10 is only brazilian songs that i love 💜)


Listen to that fuck my love for Harry styles is getting more and more high key by the day this is scary

Jealous Much? Pt 5 (Harry)

a/n: Shubh Divali to all who celebrate! Sorry for the wait babes. This one is the last and the longest, hope you enjoy :)

“What are you doing here?”

“Same thing you’re doing, I guess,” he shrugged, lifting the shopping bags he held in one hand.

“Of course! Right, I’m sorry,” mentally face palmed, “I didn’t know you were in LA.”

“Been here a couple of days now,” he nodded, smile still present almost as if he’d heard a joke you weren’t privy to.

Before either of you could say anything else screams erupted from outside and you watched as a hoard of people tried to cross the busy street to get to the store. Thankfully, an employee quickly closed and locked the doors before anyone could make it in.

“Wow,” you mumbled under your breath.

Although you were by no means a celebrity you had associated with Harry and the boys long enough to experience all the perks and setbacks. Paps and crazed mobs fell into the latter category for you.

“Shit, sorry about that,” he awkwardly scratched the back of his head as he acknowledged the screams outside.

Suddenly you were reminded of the last time you’d had an encounter with him and felt heat inch its way up your neck and across your face.

“It’s okay. I’m used to it, I guess,” you reassured him.

“We can leave through the back unseen. I can get someone to pick us up,” he offered.

“Uh, sure,” you accepted, like you had a choice.

There was no way you would be even able to make it through the crowd that had gathered outside.

You both followed an employee through the store, into the stock room and out the back exit. The grimy alleyway was a stark contrast to the posh interior of the store, but you’d rather the peace and quiet of out here than the pandemonium that awaited you back there.

Without asking he relieved you of your many bags, adding to his own load as he gestured down the alley to an opening.


You followed, not at all surprised when a black SUV pulled to a stop a few feet in front of you. Justin opened the door, allowing you to enter first before he climbed in behind you.

“Where are you staying? I’ll take you there if you want.”

You rolled your lips as you fumbled to think of a reason you didn’t want to head back to your hotel straight away.

“Or we can hang out for a little bit,” he offered when he noticed your hesitation.

“Yeah, let’s do that,” you quickly agreed.


You ended up at his hotel which, turns out, wasn’t that far from yours.

Conversation was light on the ride up to his floor. In all honesty you didn’t know what to talk about. As you followed him to his room you wracked your mind for safe conversational topics, coming up short. He unlocked the door and gestured for you to enter first. You did and nearly died. You were barely two steps in before you were flying backwards, arms flailing, trying to reach for anything to keep you upright. Justin ended up cushioning your fall.

You both lay sprawled on the floor half in the hallway, half in the suite. A groan from beneath you caused you to sit up and roll off of a wincing Justin.

“Shit, are you okay?” you asked, getting up and helping him to his feet.

“Yeah, I’m good. You alright?” he asked as he gathered the bags and ushered you in.

“I’m fine. You pretty much broke my fall,” you tried your best to stifle your laughter.

His eyes landed on something behind you. You turned and saw a red IO Hawk as it rolled to a stop some feet away.

“Scooter keeps warning me about leaving these things all over the place,” he sheepishly admitted.

Try as you might you couldn’t hide your amusement any more. You weren’t sure why you found the situation so funny, but you started laughing you couldn’t stop and soon after he joined in.

And just like that the awkward tension between you two was no more.


Much like the last instance, time escaped you when you were in his presence.  Conversation flowed like you’d been friends for years.

“How long are you in Los Angeles?” you asked around a mouthful of popcorn.

You both focused on the large flat screen as you completely dominated him in a car racing game.

“Couple more da- what was that!? You’re cheating!” he nudged your shoulder as your car skid around a corner, overtaking his and six others, leaving them all in a cloud of dust.

You nearly choked on your laughter, “No, I’m not. You just suck!”

A greasy, empty box of pizza lay open on the coffee table next to candy wrappers and crumpled cans of Coke. Somewhere among all the mess your phone buzzed silently with an incoming call. It would have been a miracle if you’d heard it over the noise of Justin being a sore loser, the game’s sound effects or the music playing from his laptop on the couch.

“What about you?”

“Uh, same. Vancouver on Saturday…I think,” you trailed off, setting the controller down as you completed the last lap victorious.

“We’re having a rematch,” he left his controller next to yours, got up and headed to the fridge.

You selected another route as he busied himself with getting bottles of water.

“And what do you mean ‘you think’? All the cities starting to blur together, huh?” he set an unopened bottle on the table for you before taking a swig from his.

“Uh, no. It’s Vancouver for sure. I just don’t know if I’ll be going…”

He crossed to his laptop and promptly shut the music off, turning his full attention towards you.

“Why not?”

“I’ve been thinking it might be best if I just head home for a while,” you nodded slowly.

Though you had given the idea a lot of thought this was the first time voicing it. When you’d first signed up to join the band on tour as the tour coordinator’s assistant, you’d never thought you’d be thinking of leaving prematurely. You definitely never thought your departure would have been because of Harry. He was the reason you’d begun in the first place. He’d managed to convince you that working on tour between semesters would be a grand idea and you agreed. The job description had tied in flawlessly with your major so really it was the perfect opportunity.

And now?

Now things had gotten a little more than complicated. You’d never envisioned anything like this compromising your job, but whatever this was with you and Harry wasn’t going to work. Agreeing to an NSA arrangement with him was a mistake.

“You really think leaving is the answer?” Justin asked after he’d listened to you recap the last few weeks.

“What do you think I should do?” you implored.

He shrugged, “I couldn’t tell you. It’s your decision. You just have to do what you think is best for you.”

You nibbled the inside of your lip, contemplating what was ‘best’.  If you were being honest with yourself you had already made up your mind for the most part. The chances of you choosing to stay got smaller the more you pondered. The biggest worry really was telling Harry.

When you glanced over at Justin, about to convey your decision you were taken aback at the way he was already staring at you.


“I never stood a chance, did I?” his lips lifted in a bittersweet smirk as he regarded you.

You opened your mouth to respond, but found you didn’t know what to say so you kept silent.  He was right. Harry had ruined you for anyone else. It had always been him.

“Hey, I’ll learn to cope,” he playfully nudged you, keeping the mood light.

“Besides, I love being your friend. You’re the only person so far who can beat me at this game so I’ve gotta keep you around to figure out how you cheated.”

You broke into laughter, lightly punching his shoulder.


“You should come to the after party,” Liam tried to convince you from his seat in front of Lou.

You only shrugged, “I’ll think about it.”

Your mind had already been made up. Your flight left after their show. The only person you’d told besides Justin was Paul and as reluctant as he was to see you go, he’d accepted your decision.

Keeping your departure a secret hadn’t been intentional, you just couldn’t bring yourself to tell the boys. At first wind of the news they would proceed to hound you with questions; none of which you were prepared to answer.

Not telling Harry was deliberate, however. You’d mapped out how that conversation would have gone between the two of you a few times and every version ended up messy. You did not want to go down that road. You knew your actions were every bit cowardly, but that knowledge did nothing to change your mind.

So tonight, while they were at the club you would be boarding a flight home.

“You alright, love?” Liam’s concerned voice pulled you from your thoughts.

“Yeah, yeah. I’m good,” you smiled in assurance.

He didn’t delve, but also didn’t appear satisfied with your answer either. Not wanting to leave room open for further discussion you bid him good luck and continued making your rounds.

“Aye, Y/N.  Have you seen Caroline, I think I broke the buckle on me belt,” Niall intercepted you in the hallway.

You didn’t bother to ask how he’d managed that, only pointed him in the right direction, “Third door to your left in the second hallway on your right.”

“Thanks,” and he was gone.

You meandered along the halls, going through the pre-show motions but your mind was in a different place entirely. You were so far off in your own thoughts that you didn’t notice Harry heading your way. It was only when he placed his hands on your shoulders to stop you from colliding into him that you came to your senses.

You glanced up into concerned green eyes.

“Are you okay?”

You nodded, smiling for effect. His eyes searched yours a moment longer and you felt like your skin was burning under his touch. Every second that he held you captive felt like hours. You mentally berated yourself for allowing the situation to occur.

You’d been mostly successful in avoiding him these past few days. You knew he had noticed and wanted answers, but you weren’t sure you were ready for any kind of encounters just yet. It seemed like every time you saw him you remembered that night and it hurt just as much every time.

“I don’t believe you. Tell me what’s wrong.”

He left no room for excuses. But luckily for you, a production assistant interrupted before you could fumble for a response.

“Harry, you’re needed backstage now.”

Harry looked like he was about to oppose the request, but then thought better of it.  Instead he leant over, placed a kiss to your temple and gestured for the assistant to lead the way.

“We’ll talk after the show,” his eyes bore into yours before he turned and followed the man down the hallway.

Your shoulders still tingled from where his hands had lingered.


Things were noticeably quiet, but considering none of the boys were here to cause commotion it was to be expected. You ended up leaving the arena earlier than planned. You wanted to stay and watch their final set, but found you couldn’t think straight and the longer you remained the more you began second guessing your decision to leave.

So you came back to the hotel and began packing. In the stillness of the suite your thoughts were clear. Any doubts about your choice to leave had disappeared and you were convinced that taking a break from it all was your best bet. You would explain it to Harry later.

“What are you doing?”

You weren’t one for dramatics, but in that moment you swear your heart stopped. You pivoted at the voice, heart now racing, to face the last person you expected or wanted to see.

Harry’s forehead wrinkled in either confusion or anger. You weren’t sure which.

“What are you doing here?” you demanded, stealing a glance at the time.

The show couldn’t have been over more than fifteen minutes. He was supposed to be en-route to the after party or maybe even still at the arena, but definitely not here, standing in your room pinning you with that steely look.

“You’re leaving?” he asked, eyes focused on the open suitcase on the bed behind you.

You didn’t respond. The answer was clear as day. Moments passed as he regarded you, eyes dark with emotions you couldn’t place. More than anything you wished you could disappear.


This was the exact moment you had been trying your best to avoid.

“I uh, I’ve just been stressed so I’m going home for a bit to re-”

“Bullshit,” his stony glare and hard tone left you speechless.

Another short silence ensued. You didn’t know what to say and Harry ran his hand through his hair as he searched for his next words. It didn’t take him long.

“I’ve barely seen you this past week. Every time I try to talk to you you’re suddenly busy or just never here. I know you’re avoiding me, Y/N. I want to know why.”

“I thought I could do it, the whole ‘seeing where it goes’ thing, but I was wrong,” your shoulders slumped at your confession.

“What? So you decide leaving is the best answer?” his eyes widened then narrowed into slits.

“Staying isn’t,” you countered, “Look, it’s best for the both of us if I just leave, Harry.”

You turned back to your suitcase, preferring to busy yourself with something rather than face him.

“You’ve decided what’s best for us without even discussing it with me?” his voice sounded much nearer.

You refused to turn and acknowledge him, focusing instead on folding the same piece of clothing for the third time. You told yourself it was easier to have this conversation if you weren’t facing him.

“Why’ve you been avoiding me?” he asked again, unsatisfied with your first answer.

More than anything you wished he’d just leave it alone, but that would be a wish wasted since you knew Harry was not the type to back down.

“I thought I could handle it. I thought our agreement was a good idea and I-”

“Wasn’t it? I thought it was. One moment we’re good, things are fine, and then the next you’re doing your best to avoid me. What happened?”

You didn’t answer at first. For some reason the thought of telling him what you’d seen that night caused a lump to form in your throat.


His breath fanned the back of your neck and an instant spread of goose bumps covered your skin.

“What did I do?” he whispered, his sudden closeness caused your hairs to stand on end.

The desperation in his voice was palpable and made you regret your evasive actions this past week.  Your intent was never to hurt him, only to protect yourself. You knew there was a serious lack of communication between the two of you, but even now as you opened your mouth the answer him you found the words stuck in your throat.

Finally fed up with your silence and lack of answers Harry exploded, spinning you to face him.

“For fuck’s sake Y/N, I’m not a mind reader! You have to tell me what’s wrong!”

“I saw you with her Harry!” you erupted, “I came down to your suite and I saw you going into your room with her. I know we said we’d keep it no strings attached, but I can’t do that! I thought I could, but I can’t, okay? Seeing you with her…the thought of you and her…”

You trailed off, taking a deep breath at the end of your outburst to settle yourself and then looked up at him. He observed you for a moment before his eyes closed, he bit his lip and sighed in what you believed to be frustration.

“So that’s why you’ve been acting weird all week? That’s why you decided to pick up and leave without telling me anything?” the clear accusation in his tone was not lost on you.

You instantly turned to defence mode.

“What else am I supposed to do? We clearly want different things. There’s no-”

“You’re supposed to talk to me! You’re supposed to let me in, not run away because of something you thought you saw a few nights ago.”

“I know what I saw,” you snapped, annoyed that he insinuated otherwise.

“What, me and Georgia going into my room after the show? That’s it?”

You were getting more and more vexed as the conversation continued. Feeling cornered by his proximity you firmly planted your hands against his chest and pushed him a few steps away from you.

“I didn’t need to be there to know what you both got up to that night!”

You expected him to match your tone, to yell back, but he didn’t. He stared at you with emotions contained before responding calmly.

“Nothing happened because she left five minutes after.”

Your scowl immediately softened, “Why?”

“She wasn’t you. I brought her back to the hotel with every intention of sleeping with her and I couldn’t because she wasn’t you and if it wasn’t you then I didn’t see the point. I asked her to leave and she did. Nothing happened.”

“I…” you fought to find a response.

“Why didn’t you say something, instead of avoiding me?”

“What was I supposed to say? That I was jealous?” you asked incredulously.


“We never agreed to be exclusive, what right do I have to be jealous?”

“The same right I have when I know you’re out with Justin!” his fingers combed his hair, moving his tresses from his face.

You went to speak but he beat you to it.

“I hate the thought of you with him or with any other guy for that matter. I don’t know why I was so scared of a relationship before when now that’s all I want. And I only want it with you.”

You only stared at him, playing his words over in your mind. You weren’t sure what to feel. You’d been wanting to hear him say that for a while, and now that he finally had you weren’t sure you could trust it 100%, given the past.

“There’s no doubt in my mind about it, Y/N,” he stated, seeing the obvious distrust in your eyes.

You chewed on your lip as a million and two thoughts clouded you mind.

“Talk to me,” he whispered, voice pleading.

“I just wish we’d had this conversation before things got so messy,” you let out a humourless chuckle.

“It’s not too late…is it?” his forehead creased in worry.

“No,” you assured him with a smile.

“Good,” he matched yours, taking a tentative step towards you.

“So what now?” you met his gaze, realizing how much you’d missed him.


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Signs as underrated One Direction songs

Aries: Something Great

Taurus: Something Great

Gemini: Something Great

Cancer: Something Great

Leo: Something Great

Virgo: Something Great

Libra: Something Great

Scorpio: Something Great

Sagittarius: Something Great

Capricorn: Something Great

Aquarius: Something Great

Pisces: Something Great

vabbe comunque, solo una cosa.

ovvero il motivo per cui con certo femminismo io nclpf.

sono andata alla manifestazione contro la violenza sulle donne con l’associazione con cui faccio il servizio civile. e fin qui sticazzi mi direte. problema: nel gruppo nostro ce stavano alcuni uomini. non sapendo che in teoria nella parte prima del camion non si poteva andare se non avevi una vagina (decisione che secondo me è discutibile ma vabbe) si mettono bellamente in fila per entrare nel corteo e la tipa dell’organizzazione non li fa passare. alcune delle donne del gruppo ce discutono ma niente di che. io stavo bella per tornarmene a lato sento parte di sta discussione.

tipa organizzazione: ma perché no?
tizia sul posto: ma scusa questa è una manifestazione CONTRO IL FEMMINICIDIO, che pretendi? questi non ci rispettano, perché dovrebbero stare avanti? (detto con un tono saccentissimo)
io, che purtroppo non me so sta zitta: ma perché secondo te un maschio che viene ad una manifestazione del genere è il tipo di maschio che non ti rispetta?
lei: è come se ad una manifestazione degli operai ci vengono i padroni!
io: ah certo quindi alle manifestazioni contro il razzismo i bianchi non ci possono andare?
lei: ma qui mica ci porti i figli maschi! e se non ti piace c’è il corteo misto eh.

al che ho lasciato stare e ho detto che no problem andavo al corteo misto sai che me ne fregava, ma vorrei dire



ora MA SEI TU CHE SPARI LA RETORICA CHE AI TUOI FIGLI MASCHI DEVI INSEGNARE A RISPETTARE LE DONNE, CHI CAZZO DI ALTRO CI VUOI PORTARE? I TUOI FIGLI MASCHI DOVREBBERO ESSERE I PRIMI? ma se sono i maschi che devono capire che certi atteggiamenti non sono compatibili con una società civile e che non esiste che finisci bruciata viva perché hai mollato un cretino che non può sopportare l’idea che non te lo fili di striscio, o che ti devi ammazzare per i video porno su internet e varie ed eventuali, come cazzo pretendi di insegnarglielo, escludendoli di peso (soprattutto i figli) o magari, boh, parlandoci? ma soprattutto che cazzo di figura ci fai se uno viene e dice che ti vuole supportare e che magari potrebbe fare cambiare idea ad altri maschi scemi con cui è in contatto più di te e tu gli dici no ciao non te voglio qui mettitela in culo?

scusate questo è l’atteggiamento del cazzo che c’è su tumblr quando dicono che alle minoranze non servono gli *alleati*. allora io in quanto etero non posso anda alle manifestazioni pro unioni civili perché tanto a me non me tocca? o in quanto bianca non posso anda a quelle contro il razzismo perché non è un problema mio? e in quanto sia bianca che etero non posso manco avere contatto con le minoranze in questione che sia mai che imparo qualcosa? boh. poi ‘i padroni e gli operai’ ah quindi in quanto donna sono automaticamente sottomessa? io voglio manifestare contro il sessismo che c’è in italia e contro la violenza sulle donne, non contro GLI UOMINI in generale compresi quelli che non sono sessisti e non mi opprimono e condividono quello che penso io in merito.

poi sia chiaro il resto è stato a+ e m’è piaciuto e sono contenta che ci sono andata però sta tizia è esattamente il tipo di persona che me fa venire voglia di chiedere ma lo sai che così non concludi proprio un cazzo.

/fine rant

C’avete presente er primo 6 che avete sculato in matematica? Con quel professore che ve mandava a fanculo con l’occhi appena entrava in classe? C’è l’avete presente il “cielo è azzurro sopra berlino” del 2006 che annunciava a tutto er mondo che eravamo noi più forti? O magari quel 60 che avete sculato,che non sapete manco voi come ,alla maturità? Me direte che tra tutte ste meraviglie non sapete manco voi quale sia la migliore. La più bella. Mbè ve lo dico io. Nessuna de queste. No perché tutto questo paragonato all’ occhi sua non è un cazzo. A quell occhi che me sento ancora addosso. Che me facevano tremà appena incontravano i miei. Regà io de belle ragazze ne ho incontrate nazionale cifra e a modo loro me facevano partì tutte la brocca. Però ve giuro che quando ho conosciuto lei io ho smesso de respirà. Ho incominciato a vive in apnea e le uniche boccate d’aria che prendevo c’è l’avevo solo quando la rivedevo. C’avevo paura de toccalla de faje male,de falla sfiorì. Na perla simile non poesse toccata da tutti,te la devi merità,nun la poi sporcà. Ma un giorno regà lei m’ha parlato. C’ho ancora i brividi se ce penso. Semo stati tutto il pomeriggio insieme,l’ho portata ar Pincio,a villa borghese,al giardino dell’aranci a guardà tutta roma a i piedi sua. Co quer tramonto, er sole che scendeva sempre più giù..Non so se era più bella lei o tutti tramonti de Roma che ho mai visto.Me tremavano le gambe,me sentivo così fortunato a sta davanti a na bellezza simile che me veniva da piagnè. M’ha parlato della paura sua de fidarse delle persone, de fasse conosce per quella che è veramente,de fasse amà. Me teneva la mano, m’accarezzava la guancia e me sorrideva. Io non c’avevo er coraggio de parlà. A n’certo punto m’ha baciato. Ma
‘ha passato le labbra sulle mie,ho chiuso e abbiamo fatto l’amore solo con quer bacio. Con tutta Roma a guardacce. Le mani sue intrecciate alle mie,quer profumo d’estate che c’aveva addosso,de libertà,de vittoria. M’ha fatto capì er significato de esse n’omo. M’ha insegnato a batteme per le cose che me fanno batte er core,a difende l’amici mia. M’ha fatto cresce, e diventa l’uomo giusto pe lei. Pe lei e basta. M’ha fatto vive l’anni più belli della vita mia,però se sa: le cose belle finiscono sempre troppo in fretta. Ma na cosa ve la voglio dì regà:dopo 5 anni ogni vorta che rivedo quer tramonto sento qualche cosa che m’esplode dentro ar core. Na scintilla ,na fiamma che me ricorda che a sto monno manco mi madre m’ha guardato co quello sguardo che c’aveva lei.
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Cento anni fa

Tra poco più di un giorno sarà il 2017. Cento anni fa era il 1917. E quindi direte voi? Nel 1917 mio nonno Giovanni, partiva da Venezia per andare in guerra. Era un “ragazzo del ‘99”. Molti di voi avranno studiato la Grande Guerra solo a scuola, magari l'avranno vista evocata in qualche film. Mio nonno Giovanni la sua Grande Guerra, me la raccontò nelle sere d'inverno quando dormivamo nella stessa camera. Mi raccontava della fame, del gelo, del sangue, del dolore. I “ragazzi del '99” erano così chiamati poiché si trattava della “leva” dei giovani nati nel 1899 e che nel 1917 avevano diciotto anni. Avevano diciotto anni come voi, cari alunni del liceo. Voi andate a fare gli stages di studio all'estero, o lo scambio internazionale con qualche liceo francese, inglese o tedesco, loro andavano a farsi sparare addosso dagli austriaci. Non è un raffronto calzante; forse non lo è. Ma ogni tanto, almeno ogni tanto, qualcuno dovrà pure ricordare a questi giovani che la crisi o la difficoltà nel trovare lavoro è ben poca cosa in confronto a chi, come mio nonno Giovanni e altri milioni di giovani, circa cento anni fa partivano per una sorte quasi certa, nella carneficina d'Europa, quell'Europa che oggi viene vista come ostile, nemica. Forse non aver letto tutto questo nei libri di storia, ma averlo sentito raccontare da mio nonno Giovanni che dormiva accanto a me, mi fa ricordare che 100 anni non sono trascorsi invano, almeno per la nostra vecchia Europa.

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