dilapidated

Every horror game protag: *Meticulously goes through the dilapidated maze-like rooms and hallways of the Horror House, braving its murderous inhabitants and various traps, looking for puzzle pieces that’ll open all the locked doors which will lead even further into the house and to even more puzzle doors*

Me, if I were in the same situation:

Lily + Remus
  • Ultimate brotp, no one can convince me that they were more than platonic 
  • The first night, none of the other boys take notice of Remus because he is so quiet. He is the first one up in the morning, an early riser like Lily.
  • At six in the morning, at breakfast, Lily sees him and approaches him with a giant grin that is so like her. “Someone else who is up at the crack of dawn,” she says. 
  • They go out to explore the grounds together
  • In fact, early morning walks are their specialty. This knowledge of mapping out the grounds comes in handy when making the Marauders Map (unbeknownst to Lily)
  • Remus, new in first year, is the only person from the class other than Lily who has read his textbooks. In Transfiguration, Lily and him earn Gryffindor twenty points the first day.
  • Lily and him become study partners before he becomes friends with the other Marauders. She is there for him “when no one else was”. 
  • She begins to take notice of the days he’s gone. 
  • She realizes what he is, but never confronts him. She knows he is still Remus.
  • In second year, when the Marauders figure it out, Remus runs away, hiding. She is the one who convinces him to go back, because she could see the “beauty in others that they didn’t see themselves.”
  • In third year, James starts to like her. (“Moony, mention my name, please when you study”)
  • Later that evening, Remus and Lily discuss Cheering Charms, “Did you know, James is so good at charms,” he says. She raises her eyebrows.
  • “James is great with flobberworms.” When doing their care of magical creatures essay.
  • Because Remus is the number one Jily shipper.
  • Fourth year, she sees Remus staring at Sirius’ hair. She grins to herself. The next day, Sirius’ hair is braided and she sees Remus blush terribly and she laughs. 
  • Remus turns around and he knows that she knows. Thus start her and James’ awful plans to get “Wolfstar” together. (”Potter, let’s just drop Amortenia on Black’s Head”)
  • Remus making them fail on purpose so she and James get more time together. (“Sorry, Lily, I accidentally messed up all my lines.”)
  • During fifth year, they were the best team of prefects. Although Lily disapproves that Remus would not argue with his friends, she did not blame him for it.
  • Fifth year, during O.W.L season, Remus and Lily were the ones calming everyone down.
  • Sixth year, they are the ones recklessly tossing aside their exams because they needed to protest the new ministry laws.
  • During the Prank, Lily convinced Remus to forgive Sirius. She also went to Sirius and punched him in the face during breakfast, tbhus earning her detention for the first time. (”Evans, will you marry me?” James Potter laughs for the first time in five days.)
  • Seventh year, when Lily warms up to James, this time it is Remus and Sirius who start hatching plans.
  • When she starts going out with him, Remus hugs James and whispers cheerfully, “I love you and everything mate, but don’t hurt her, or Moony will rip you to shreds.”
  • After school, they all rent out a flat together. He and Sirius organize the bachelor party.
  • During the wedding, Remus makes sure that Sirius doesn’t get too drunk, and cuts at least 35 deer puns out of the Best Man’s Speech. (”I think 64 is enough, don’t you think, Pads?”) 
  • That is the last night he remembers them being all together.
  • He can’t be there when Harry is born because of the full moon, but Lily brages into his room the next day and makes him hold Harry. (”You’re his Uncle Moony,” she says, laughing. “We can’t leave you.”)
  • Which is why it is sad when they have to part, James and Lily and Harry going into hiding.
  • He goes undercover to the werewolves, and Sirius begins to think he is the spy
  • On Halloween night, he hears what has happened when he is for the first time, not undercover. It was going to be a relatively quiet night free of stress and worry.
  • Now he has no worries, because his worst worries have come true. He rushes to the dilapidated house.
  • His mind is blank as he realizes all that happened. It keeps playing in his kind ovr and over and over again. Sirius laughing manically, much like he used to when there were worms coming out of the Slytherins’ ears. Now muggles were bleeding. revulsion and guilt fill him, because he misses Sirius, but Sirius has killed James. James, the good one, the loyal one, the steady one.
  • He sees James crooked glasses in the coffin and remembers fondly when James fell asleep in History of Magic while staring at Lily when he used to stare at her.
  • He sees his long arms, lifeless, and remembers when  they held him up after the full moon.
  • He stares blankly at Lily, the most of all. Her radiant hair and dazzling eyes (apparently Harry Potter’s eyes), closed forever. Her kind smile that she would never smile again. Her anger that would never be roused again. 
  • But when he looks into the face of Harry Potter, the first thought that comes to his mind is James.
  • But he looks into those dazzling eyes, of one of his best friends, his dearest friends, he cannot bear it and needs to go out of the carriage.
  • Because one upon a time, Lily and Remus were the dearest of friends.
Deep tracks off each TS album for new Spotify listeners

Off TAYLOR SWIFT

“Our Song” isn’t technically a deep track, since it was a single, but it was so long ago we can forget about that. There are no co-writers on this track, just Taylor, and it’s a real songwriter’s song. Pay attention to the way she plays musical chairs with the lyrics.

“Should’ve Said No” is a barnyard fire in song form. It’s a broken AC unit in the middle of July - angry, restless, and redemptive.

Off FEARLESS

“The Other Side Of The Door” is only available on the Fearless platinum edition, but it’s another songwriter’s pick, where Taylor plays it semi-cool and self-aware throughout most of the song before throwing it all out the window and spilling her heart out in the last few verses. The other side of a slamming screen door is the sonic breakdown of a beautiful night.

“Untouchable,” another bonus track, is the rare cover in the Swift body of work (although the melody and arrangement are markedly different from the original by Luna Halo). So, this is a real deep track, giving us an insight into not a Taylor build but a Taylor repaint job. Turns out, it’s navy and diamond and incandescent, and total longing on high. Anyone who questions the inclusion of a cover here should remember Shakespeare borrowed around too.

Off SPEAK NOW

“Last Kiss” is one of those confessional songs that isn’t just written like a diary entry but sung like one too, all low and deliberate like not one syllable is a throwaway.

“Dear John,” the ruby jewel off Speak Now, is a song that will gust right through to your bones, engulfing you in a wicked storm of lies and deceit, of Dylan’s idiot wind and Cash’s ring of fire. An epic tale written by the girl in the dress.

Off RED

“Holy Ground” is short but once it starts it doesn’t stop. The arrangement cleverly mimics the relationship the song describes. The first line is “Took off faster than a green light go” and Taylor spends the rest of the song so caught up reminiscing she forgets to take a breath. Lord it took us all away too.

“All Too Well” might be the single greatest Taylor Swift song of all time. It is littered with memory after memory- sharp and fleeting and each one remembered all too well. And like most ended relationships despite all this photographic wreckage somehow we have nothing to show for it. Just words at a piano, like so many small victories fighting against the current of ultimate defeat.

Off 1989

“You Are In Love” is the b-side to an anatomical Taylor song. It has all that vague and poignant detail, like burnt toast and the picture of you in his office downtown, but the conclusion isn’t love lost or love all messed up, but that maybe what you are hearing in the silence is love and love alone. Stripped of over-think, this song is elegantly straightforward.

“This Love” is an ode to the ghosts of Taylors past. The missing apostrophe is intentional- this song really is an ode to the past Taylors we’ve come to love. “Like saying goodbye to the past and the previous four albums” is how Taylor described the song. This song may technically be about a love returned, but this is also the moment we send our regal, dilapidated ships off to sea. Because ghosts are at once returning and departing, always.