Friday July 3rd: 212.4
Pounds lost since last weigh in : 1.4
Total Pounds lost: 145
YES! I’m so happy! I can’t believe how close I am to being less than 200 pounds! I’ve never weighed this as an adult. The last time I weighed 212, I was in the 8th grade.
I’m feeling a little panicky about the whole thing. I stopped recognizing myself in the mirror about 25 pounds ago and the changes are just happening faster and faster. I feel like I’ll look like an entirely different person at the end… Which is great, but also strangely sad. I didn’t hate myself as a big girl, I was definitely more confident then than I am now. Even still, I was extremely aware of my size and I’ve thought about it all day every day for the past 15 years.
Now, I have to figure out how to change my ENTIRE way of thinking. I’ve been “the big girl” since elementary school. I don’t know how I’m going to deal with it. I don’t know how to think. I guess I’ll figure it out as it happens, because it’s pretty clear it’s definitely happening!
Sigh. I’ve had a tough couple of days MS wise. I’m taking a few off of work and hoping that some rest will be enough. I can’t believe this is happening. But then, this is a story for another post… for tonight, lets just revel in the fact that I can say “Hi, I’m Carolyn, and I’ve lost 145 pounds!”