didn't think it had that much of an effect on my life

I’m almost too lazy to make this post because God it’s just so self explanatory but my loyalty to Temari runs too deep so here goes: 

They did exactly what I called they were gonna do and made her an over aggressive nagging house wive. This is why I complained over and over again three years ago when I saw they had moved her to Konoha because I KNEW someway somehow they were going to subject her character to this. They want her to be Yoshino 2.0 even though that’s NEVER been who she is because “lmao get it Shikamaru is just like his dad! Parallels!!”. They don’t take the time to think about how her character would actually react because none of that matters now - she exists solely to be Shikamaru’s wife. 

Some people are crying “abuse!” at what she did but I don’t really want to go there tbh. It’s very clear that in the Naruto universe things we find abusive are just par for the course. Calling out Temari in this instance would require we call out basically ever other female character which is not realistic. Domestic violence in Naruto is always played for laughs which is obviously fucked up but not something I think it’s fair to fault the characters for as we’re not intended to see it as abusive (even though realistically it is). No, what I really take issue with is the fact that being an overbearing and strict mother/wife is basically all Temari is given to do. 

This woman was born in one of the most fucked up situations of any character we see. He father was a walking human disaster, her mother was dead, and her youngest brother had a nasty habit of slaughtering anyone who looked at him the wrong way. She has always been strong and confident but throughout the series she softens considerably as she learns caring is not a weakness. She is a better diplomat than either of her brothers and remains calm and collected in even the tensest of situations. Her dynamic with Shikamaru has always been one of mutual respect and understanding which is what makes their relationship work so well (and IMO better than any of the canon relationships we got). Yes, Temari is a take no shit kind of person who probably WOULD chastise her son for his pitiful behavior - but not in the way we’re shown. In Boruto her parenting method basically amounted to “I’m just going to hit you and intimidate you until you get the picture and ultimately just end up listening to your cooler nicer wiser dad.” She doesn’t actually say anything of significance to Shikadai at all - that is reserved entirely for Shikamaru as he’s the influential one in their sons life. Temari is just there to be the ol’ ball-and-chain ~what a drag~ mom whose only dominion is the house she is confined to. THEN there’s the fact that Temari refusing to make dinner inevitably meant neither Shikamaru nor Shikadai could eat - as if a grown man could not make his own dinner and HAD to have his wife do it because it’s her domestic ~duty~. This is extra and dramatic but it actually makes me sick that they’re doing this to her. After everything she went through she would have something worthwhile to add to the conversation other than “bah you’re too easy on him I’m going to withhold meals to prove a point!!!”. She doesn’t treat her brothers like this and they’re consistently shown to value her opinion because her opinion is worth hearing. 

Temari played a crucial role in Suna politics prior to the end of the series. She sat on the council and came with Gaara to all the kage summits/meetings. She was one of the best kunoichi in the series just brimming with potential and strength and ferocity. During the war I began to get annoyed with how much they were making her revolve around Shikamaru’s character because after a certain point basically all her dialogue was in relation to him. That’s when I knew things were about to take a hard left turn for shits-ville and boy was I right. In chapter 700 ALL we see her doing is sitting in a house chastising her son and serving her brothers tea before they head out to a kage meeting without her. We don’t get any indication that she’s still affiliated with Suna, hell we don’t even get any indication that she’s still a ninja. In the boruto manga/movie she doesn’t interact with her siblings ONCE and is not with them in the pit with all the other Kage/advisors. I was happy to see she still had her fan but other than that I left highly unimpressed. Now in the anime she is ONCE AGAIN pictured in a house, serving people drinks and nagging away as if that’s all she’s good for anymore. I know it was played as a joke but that’s exactly what makes me so mad - her character has become nothing more than a trope meant to appeal to the lowest common denominator. The nagging housewive angle truly is the lowest hanging fruit but studio peirrot really could not resist could they.

Nevermind the fact that it would have been way funnier had they subverted the whole “why did you marry such a strict woman” thing by having Shikadai side with his mom instead, saying something to the effect of “why did you marry such an unmotivated slacker”. Can we stop treating Temari like she’s just an overly aggressive loaded gun that’s just one mistep away from going off. I mean I genuinely love Shikatema but I do not think the Boruto anime understands Shikatema. Part of me still wishes they just hadn’t got together because they don’t actually feel like “them” when they’re portrayed like this. No one is being respected as a character. 

Anyway all this to say I’m basically done with the Boruto anime now. I might still watch the next couple of episodes because curiosity is gonna get the better of me but emotionally I have severed all connections. It just comes down to the fact that I cannot handle them so grossly mischaracterizing characters that I have loved since I was 11 years old. I actually don’t mind the new gen when they’re on their own but every damn time they show one of the original characters they manage to fuck them up in some way. We see it with Temari, with Naruto, with Yamato, with Sakura. Hell I can’t stand Sasuke and even I’m mad about what they did to him post chapter 699. I am never going to like the new gen characters more than the original cast so if watching Boruto means seeing them get completely decimated then I’m not gonna watch it. Simple as that. Naruto being an absent father is the worst crime but I have no doubt they’ll continue to top that in future episodes. 

Black Honey: Pt. 6 [conclusion]

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Summary: Starfire and Robin are officially an item, but what does that mean when the resident empath is stuck living between their respective bedrooms? Finding a new bunk buddy in Beast Boy was certainly not her first choice, and when she engages in a strange, night time activity, how long before the changeling notices what she’s up to?


His first instinct was to stop her.

There were so many questions running through his hazy mind, it was staggering.

Nonetheless, it was pure impulse that he acted on, knowing that he had to get to her before she vanished. He needed answers, and they needed to work through this, neither of which would happen if Raven fled the scene, like he knew should would.

“Raven, wait-” His voice was choked up and distant, even as he tried to reach out to her.

The expression on her face betrayed the horror she was no doubt experiencing, the numbing fear. She’d been caught, and so had he.

Beast Boy was shaken, but no where near as jittery and paranoid as the cowering empath. The earth beneath them seemed to come to life, the objects in his room skittering across his floor. The frame of his bed moved, his oak dresser creaked against the tiles in response to an otherworldly force, his toys and figurines clattering to the floor. A few candle jars smashed to the ground in pieces, the glass shards splaying out like dangerous, glittering gems. The candle wax would no doubt stain the wooden panels.

None of it mattered.

He couldn’t bring himself to care, not when the girl responsible for so much chaos was so violently distraught. The blood seemed to have drained from Raven’s already pale face, all the while she clutched at the sides of her skull, her fingers digging into the roots of her violet hair.

Even now, he could hear the others rushing to his room, the heavy, echoing footfalls of both Cyborg and Robin as they raced down the hall.

The lights in his room flickered on and off, until she burnt them out entirely, the bulbs bursting into an ear-splitting smattering of glass.

He tried to get to her, but some invisible force was stopping him, pushing him back.

The Titans banged on his door, their voices muffled by the whirlwind of catastrophe now contained in his bedroom.

She was spinning out of control, and the more damage she did, the worse it became. Bit by bit, she was overwhelmed with a surge of emotion and, thus, her powers raged on in an endless storm of electricity and malevolence.

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imlovedavepeta  asked:

Okay I might just be a dummy buuut, didn't Honerva go bonkers because of quintessence poisoning??? We never see her actually touch it until Zarkon and her in the rift. Keith literally got *covered* in quintessence, why isn't he nuts???

So I’m gonna put out a pretty long post here on what I think quintessence is and does, but first I’m gonna link this interview and quote a relevant section of it that sums things up for me really effectively:

Dos Santos: I think Quintessence, if anything, it sort of grabs on to the worst of us and accentuates those elements. Like anything, it corrupts.

Montgomery: Anything at all, even, whether it’s good or evil. Medicine in large doses can kill you. So that’s really what Quintessence is. It’s not innately good or innately bad. It’s a power source, and if you misuse it, it can be very disastrous.

Quintessence is not a “touch it and you’re evil.” I would argue I don’t even think just touching or interacting with quintessence has a specific evil effect, because Allura back in s1e1 also says “the quintessence of the Lion is mirrored in its pilot.”

Quintessence, in Voltron, depending on what shape it’s in, seems to be used to describe either a soul, or life energy. The discrepancy, in my mind, is roughly that everybody has that vital energy, or they’d be dead, but, the ‘soul’ is roughly the pattern in which this energy moves which seems to be determined simply by who you are as a person.

Quintessence as a fuel source is basically raw vital energy tapped from the veins of whoever or whatever entity contributed it, voluntarily or involuntarily- or, in an unusual case, the rifts, which raises some big questions of what exactly that was a rift to.

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Calling the Theon Defense Squad! (It Begins…)

Okay first thing: You can say PTSD doesn’t matter but it does. It always does. You don’t just “get over” that shit. Tyra Banks rooting for you can’t cure it.

We witnessed Theon give himself up for Sansa in Season 6. He gave himself up FOR MORE TORTURE because it was literally the only choice to help her. This situation with Euron was much more nuanced. 

Euron had it set up so that either way he would win. Was it just me or was there a GINORMOUS AXE right at Yara’s throat? I think that if Theon had come at Euron he would have just killed her immediately and captured him to take back to Cersei. He kills Yara and captures Theon = Euron wins.

In the scenario we saw, Theon’s ptsd was horribly triggered and he jumped off the ship (and this move may have saved Yara’s life btw- or at least prolonged it enough to possibly be rescued) BUT- it was more of a psychological blow to the siblings. It caused Theon to regress and caused Yara to lose her faith in her brother. So even though jumping off of the ship is probably the best thing he could do and will give him the best chance to save Yara- the immediate result was psychological trauma for both siblings- Euron makes Theon, a severely traumatized man who already struggles with self loathing, feel like a coward and makes Yara feel completely betrayed and abandoned- which is a wonderful psychological state to have a captive be in, by the way. Euron has severed their faith in each other (hopefully temporarily) and left them both traumatized and psychologically weakened = Euron Wins.

Either way Euron was going to win this battle. But Theon jumping off of the boat may be the only thing that keep him from winning the war. I don’t know if the thought of jumping in order to rescue Yara later was going through his head- I don’t know if it was that thought out, or if he was really operating purely in the worst kind of PTSD hell. If it was the latter, it is a poignant, heartbreaking example of just how horrible the effects of PTSD can be and should be respected as such. 

Would Yara have done the same thing as Theon if it had been switched? Possibly. Because she is savvy enough to play the long game, and we’ve seen evidence of this before. She would have known jumping was the lesser of two evils. Would Jon have made the same decision as Theon? NO. Jon would have rushed at Euron. And both he and Yara would be dead. JON SHOULD BE DEAD RIGHT NOW and would be if magical fire priestesses didn’t exist in this world. Time and time again this show has taught us that people like Jon (though we love them for it) are the people that get whacked BECAUSE they are so brave and honorable.

But Theon is a character that is constantly evolving and adapting in order to survive. It was a horrible moment. But I would rather him jump ship with the hope that he can rescue Yara later, than for him to be stupidly brave and both siblings dead as a result. He will hate himself for what he did when Yara crucially needed him. But this is also why his journey is going to be so interesting to watch this season. 

It is only the second episode. If he went all heroic right out of the gate it would have been cheating the story and going against everything we know about Theon and his abuse, everything we know as a society about PTSD, and the most obvious and boring choice ultimately. He came so far with the rescue of Sansa that it was actually really shocking to see him falter and beaten down like that again. It felt HORRIBLE. And it should feel horrible. That is what PTSD is. Crippling setbacks, thinking you’ve come so far only to be triggered and re-traumatized again and again. 

He will rise again as he always does. And he will still save the world because he is the most unlikely person to do it- which will make it all the more surprising and shocking (and glorious) when it happens. 

*edited since first posting for wording errors and other general typos

Let’s talk about TO’s increasingly Racist Narrative with the Mikaelsons and Marcel Gerard.

Disclaimer: This is VERY long. I’m putting most of it under the cut because of length. I thought about cutting it short but this is a topic that’s very important to me so I decided to not cut words.

So after Friday’s episode many viewers, especially black viewers were left with a very real feeling of discomfort following Elijah’s speech to Marcel. Because of that discomfort many of us have expressed how the narrative, and Elijah, has skewed into racism, an accusation that makes some viewers feel uncomfortable.

Here’s the truth though, in a way it should make some people uncomfortable. If you didn’t feel uneasy about the idea of racism in a narrative that you like then I would have to question some things about you. With that said, I’ve seen a lot more efforts to shut down discourse about the accusation or explain away the behavior many people find problematic than I’ve seen to actually understand it and why we might feel that way. That’s a problem, it’s a big problem when this discussion is something that’s actually very necessary for this show, and many TV shows. When writers take on the task of crafting a narrative that includes minority characters, there is a certain level of awareness and delicacy that many are going to expect then to have when it comes to these characters. When they offend their audience and mishandle the characters they have been entrusted with then they deserve to be taken to task for that. It doesn’t matter if the offense was intentional or unintentional. This is especially the case when you have a writing staff who pats themselves on the back for trying to be aware of social and racial issues that are currently at play in our society.

I personally don’t think that writers are obligated to treat every black character or every character from a marginalized group like a delicate flower that can’t be harmed in any way shape or form. That’s not what I’m talking about here. What I’m talking about is when you take characters from marginalized groups and carelessly handle them in a way that ends up pushing a racist narrative.To give an example, killing a black character doesn’t automatically make a narrative racist but pushing an idea where a black character is consistently targeted by white characters, denied humanity and is treated as disposable flesh then that is indeed a racist narrative. That kind of dynamic has historically been an issue in this world and it is still an issue. We can discuss whether the racism that seeps into our fiction a little too often is intentional, and I don’t personally believe it always is, but we have to acknowledge that it’s actually there first.

That’s why we need to talk about The Originals and Marcel.

What they did to Marcel in Friday’s episode, what they had Elijah say to him, and the narrative that built up to that moment was racist.

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anonymous asked:

I haven't really seen anyone talking about it before, but do you think it's inevitable that Izuku will wind up looking as emaciated as Toshinori the longer he has One for All? From the flashbacks with Gran Torino it looks like Toshinori didn't always look as, ugh, haggard as he does now. Plus, we know that OfA has a lot of physical repercussions on the user, and both All Might and now Izuku don't take good care of their bodies/are notably reckless and self-sacrificing.

no?

the reason why Toshinori is so emaciated isn’t due to prolonged use of OFA, it’s because he had a hole punched in his side and lost his stomach and lung, and the surgeries and their complications are why he became so skinny and emaciated

it has nothing to do with his use of OFA. 

one of the major points in the series is that self-sacrifice isn’t always good, and you need to take care of yourself. that your actions have consequences, and you can’t recklessly run into a situation. Inko is worried about her son becoming paralyzed in his arms, and Toshinori is feeling the weight of that since he’s partially the reason why that happened. 

Izuku is realizing that he can’t just recklessly charge in and damage his limbs in order to win, because it does him no good in the long run, and it makes the people he’s closest to seriously worry for him. his actions have consequences.

Horikoshi is very good with this. everyone’s actions have consequences. Todoroki and Bakugou didn’t pass the Provisional License Exam b/c they didn’t do what was required of them, Iida went after Stain in revenge and now he has a serious injury in his arm that makes it hard to use it properly, Izuku pushed himself too far in his and Todoroki’s fight and permanently damaged his hand, Inko almost kept Izuku from going back to UA because his injuries were so serious, Toshinori’s novice teaching skills caused him to accidentally cause Izuku’s self destructive fighting streak in the first place, etc 

that’s why Izuku learning to take care of himself better and not injure himself in fights has become such a big deal, especially as of late. that’s why he switched to fighting with his legs, so he doesn’t do more damage to his arms, and he’s trying to regulate his power better so he doesn’t give himself even more injuries. that’s one of the major points of the series

hell, Aizawa said it early on in the series. if you injure yourself in the middle of a fight, you pretty much become as good as useless. Izuku took this lesson to heart, but he was still injuring himself in the process, just not enough to keep him down. now, he’s fighting in a way that doesn’t injure him at all.

Toshinori is all about self-sacrifice. this is one of his major faults. he’s so used to risking his life for everyone that it’s become normal for him. he told Inko straight up that he would risk his life in order to protect Izuku; and she flat out told him no

he needs to live. no more of that self-sacrificing bullshit. no, he needs to live and take care of himself for Izuku. dying would do no good to anyone. if Toshinori died, it would do more harm than good for Izuku. Izuku needs him alive and well. he needs Toshinori alive in order to learn from him more, and Toshi is practicing Izuku’s reason for living; he admires him so much.

one of the major points of the series is that self-sacrifice isn’t all that good. Stain’s whole moral is that Heroes should only be about self-sacrifice, and he’s on the extreme end of the spectrum. he’s got strong ideals, but he’s clearly presented as wrong. 

the series is deconstructing the self-sacrifice trope in shonen, and especially in hero comics. it has consequences. it’s not healthy. it’s bad for you. sometimes, just talking it out would be better. it’s not the only option you have. it causes pain, not just to you, but to those around you.

self-sacrifice is seen as good and noble, but there are consequences to it that is often ignored, and that’s what MHA is trying to show. it’s not all it’s talked up to be. the characters are being forced to see that it’s not as great as they thought, and that they need to think of other ways to fight, because self-sacrifice is just not going to cut it anymore

sure, there are going to be situations where it can’t be avoided. but that’s why they’re training. why Izuku specifically is training, so he can fight and protect without worrying about injuring himself again. the stronger and smarter and more cooperative they get, the less likely there’ll be many grievous injuries, or self sacrificial ploys

that’s one of the major points of the series. in the long run, self sacrifice isn’t gonna cut it. the characters are learning that and improving themselves so they don’t have to resort to it in every fight. to learn the value of themselves and how them getting hurt scares the people around them. about how their actions have consequences. how they can’t go on like that anymore

that’s the point Horikoshi is trying to make by showing us all the damage Toshinori took from his life of being a self-sacrificial hero. why he’s shown us Izuku getting more and more hurt as the series goes on.

because self-sacrifice isn’t the only way to be an effective hero. 

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Happier (Oliver/Felicity; T)

Ships: Oliver/Felicity

Summary: Set at the end of 5x18. Felicity asks to take a look at Oliver’s wounds.

A/N: Title taken from the Ed Sheeran song of the same name.

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“The new lineup could use a little more green, Hoss,” says Rene.

“I’m not quite there yet,” Oliver says. “But I’m thinking that with this team behind me, it’ll be sooner rather than later.”

“Well, good,” says Felicity. “Not that black isn’t a great look on you and all, but I prefer the green.”

Oliver smiles, turning to Felicity, just as the rest of the team murmur their goodbyes and begin to disperse from the room.

“I do too,” Oliver admits, “but it’s too soon.”

“That’s okay,” Felicity says. “Take your time.”

“You mean with the hood or with what Chase did to me?”

She considers. “Both. But, uh, speaking of which, your tussle with Anatoly may have worsened your injuries, so for the love of God, if you’re not going to see an actual doctor can you at least let me check on your wounds?”

Oliver chuckles faintly, unzipping his jacket to reveal his bandaged chest. “Sure.”

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Awhile back @destiny-hoodie and @ximenib made a beautiful izuocha au I have always wanted to headcanon for but never had the inspiration to come up with anything. Thanks to the recent increase in izuocha fandom posivity I have finally been struck by my muse and came up with a fair share for it, wanting to dole out anything I can in thanks to everyone who’s had a nice things to say or share with one another and even those who just need a little more izuocha in their life ;)

childhood friends au

  • ochako had quite a bit of trouble fitting in after transferring due in part to her accent and a bit of child cruelty but thanks to that she got to know izuku would like and accept her without dumb kid prejudices, he’s a real friend and she’s come to really value the friendship they have.
  • shared food growing up all the time, ochako still has a habit of having no reservations about snatching whatever snack izuku has on hand. Izuku will fake sulk but in truth he’ll never be upset because well its ochako (+loves seeing her happy face when she eats something she likes)
  • sleepovers usually consisted of watching hero videos and deku muttering all through them, ochako usually being at a near constance with him found when he did it softy would soothe her and even relax her into sleep. This effect still holds up today.
  • finding out how much of an interest deku has toward quirks, ochako wanted to take part in his interest by doing little kid experiments using hers. Both are considered the neighbourhood pranksters thanks to those experiments.
  • since ochako liked to dress in comfortable boyish clothes as a kid, the first time izuku sees her in her uniform he’s a little taken aback and becomes flustered at first. Thinking she looks cuter than usual and his heart clenches a lot, he has no clue why thats been happening.
  • a rumour went around that ochako & katsuki  secretly liked/were dating, mostly due to ochako’s assertive attitude toward him (anyone else would fawn or avoid him). It left deku feeling awkward and unsure for a long time until he heard from ochako herself that of course nothing was going on between them. He’s still not quite sure why he was so relieved to hear that.
  • ochako and bakugou had one talk together about izuku back in middle, it didn’t go very well and they haven’t spoken about it since still sorta ongoing for them waiting to be settled.

I have no idea what kind of hc you guys had for your AU but I hope you don’t mind these little additions of my own :’)

anonymous asked:

Ok so what if MC used to work for C&R International and Jumin before showing up into the RFA, and Jumin didn't recognize/realize it at first? How would he react when he finds out? I live for flustered Jumin, honestly.

So like…this blew way out of proportion? Like I really planned on keeping this a short and sweet scenario but when can I ever keep myself short, am I right? Anyway, I hope you enjoy this fic!

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Fandom: Mystic Messenger
Rating: General 
Warnings: A little cursing, but that’s all
Categories: F/M
Relationships: MC x Jumin
Word count: 3800


“You’re resigning”, Jumin asked her, hands folded on the table in front of him. Jaehee nodded. “Yes, I am. I think it is time for me to leave. I’ve gathered valuable experiences over the past two and a half years, but I think I’ve finally reached a point in my life where I’ve learned enough. I want to start my own business. Nothing big, just a little cafe.” Jumin eyes her, expression stoic and untelling as it usually is. Still, Jaehee likes to think that after spending so much time working by this strange mans side she finally understands him a little bit and somehow that thought makes her proud. She knows that you are the only person that truly unravelled him, but at least she’d cracked him. “I see”, he eventually said, effectively stopping Jaehee’s train of thoughts. “I will have to make the announcement in the following meeting and find a replacement as soon as possible.”

Jaehee felt like a heavy weight was lifted off her chest. This job had been one of the most infuriating, frustrating and draining jobs she’d ever done and yet it would have pained her to know that Jumin didn’t give her the blessing to leave the company and start a new chapter in her life. In fact, she could have sworn that there was just the faintest of smirks curling around his lips and for one Jumin Han that was a big step into the right direction. “You mustn’t worry about that, Mr. Han. I took it upon myself to look through possible candidates within the company, as I see them to be most suitable. They already know how C&R International works and have experience. According to the Chief of another, smaller department there is a Chief Assistant he would highly recommend. Apparently she hasn’t missed a day of work for as long as she’s worked here until a couple of weeks ago where she took less than a handful of sick days. And even then she handed in all the work she had to do.”

Jumin listened to what Jaehee said, thinking everything over. He wasn’t particularly fond on hiring another female Chief Assistant. Even though his father had calmed down after everything that had happened with Glam and Sarah it wasn’t to say that he wouldn’t go after his next assistant. Not to mention that he was not very fond about the idea of having to explain to her – like he had to Jaehee – why she had to cut her hair, wear formal clothes at all times and fake glasses as well. It was tiring and taking away time he could spend more productively. Still, if Chief Assistant Kang believed that mans word and the girl was really that good at her job, he should probably give it a try. At least he wouldn’t have to read through a thousand and one applications and resumes. “Alright. Tell him to send me her resume. I don’t need anything but that. If I like what I read I’ll tell him as much so he can introduce her to me at the next meeting. Thank you for going through the trouble of finding a replacement for yourself. I would have found it bothersome.”

Jaehee nodded and retreated, leaving Jumin alone in his office. It was nice to have been praised and thanked for once, but she sincerely hoped that she’d actually done the right thing. Frankly Jaehee had no idea who that mystery Chief Assistant was. After she’d mentioned that she was leaving C&R international to a couple of colleagues Chief Yie had approached her. He’d started to talk about that amazing Chief Assistant he had that absolutely deserved a promotion after she’d basically doubled the revenue of her department. Jaehee was quite sure that the only reason Chief Yie had suggested the girl was because he feared she’d otherwise get his position and he’d face either demotion or being fired. Of course she hadn’t mentioned as much. After all, it was a win-win situation for both him and her. The sooner Mr. Han found a replacement the sooner she could focus on planning her little café. Chief Yie kept his position, Mr. Han had a replacement and she was free.

The next day Mr. Han called all the Chiefs into a big meeting. He planned to announce Jaehee official resignment as well as see for himself whether that girl he’d been recommended was any good. Jumin read through her resume and work performance and had to admit that he was quite impressed. Apparently she’d started at C&R at the age of sixteen as an intern. Even then, despite still attending school, she’d performed so good that she’d gotten hired by the time she turned seventeen. She worked while attending university and got her first promotion after obtaining her degree. Over the next years she’d gone on to earn one promotion after the other until she’d become the Chief Assistant of the fashion department. Her resume also stated that while fashion wasn’t her primary goal nor passion she’d learned quickly, adapted and never once complained about it. She hadn’t even attempted to change the department despite being offered a different position due to loyalty to Chief Yie.

Apparently the only reason she was considering it now was because he’d told her to and Jumin admired such loyalty and obedience. She’d make a mighty fine Chief Assistant, maybe even as good if not better than Assistant Kang. The only thing that Jumin found confusing was that he’d never even heard of that young woman. The resume was strictly work related so he neither had a name nor a picture – he rarely looked at the ‘personal’ files when looking for candidates – but this one got him curious. He’d been sure that he knew all his employees at least by name but looking at her file he was proven wrong. Despite her performance being meticulous he could not say he’d ever even seen that woman, which probably made her only the more desirable as a possibly assistant. Discrete, invisible and hard working were the perfect traits. When Assistant Kang had told him that she was resigning he’d been worried but all of a sudden he found himself feeling excited.

Everyone had gathered in the conference room, quiet rumble filling the room. It died down the second Jumin entered the room, closely followed by Assistant Kang. Silence fell as he stepped to the front of the room, everyone including his father, looking at him with anticipation. At first the meeting started like any other would. All the heads of their respective departments discussed increase or decrease in revenue, possibly reasons and solutions. Nothing overly exciting happened. Especially now that Jumin and Chairman Han had finally gotten out of the press and everything had returned to normal. That was until Jumin announced that Jaehee was leaving C&R International. There was an audible gasp amongst the others, although Jaehee knew better than to think she would be missed by any of them. She hadn’t had the time to form any meaningful bonds within the firm and frankly, she didn’t mind. It was their shock speaking. To think that anyone would ever so much as consider leaving such a lucrative job was beyond their comprehension.

That was when Chief Yie decided to stand up, announcing that he would go and get his Assistant now. Jumin have him a short nod and the older man practically shot off to go and get her. A mere minute later footsteps and quiet walking could be heard. No one could really make out the most of what was being said, but it sounded a lot like the woman was begging Yie not to do this while he was hissing at her not to be ridiculous. Jumin frowned, confused at what was going on until Yie stepped back into the room, hand wrapped around the woman’s wrist he was practically dragging along. Her long, brown hair was falling openly over her shoulders, fringe covering a lot of her face as she was vehemently looking down. She was wearing trim clothing that was both formal as well as very appealing as it showed off her perfect, slender figure and just enough of her long legs to make it interesting. Mainly because Jumin very much recognized both the body and the legs. 

Yie let go of your wrist, instead gripping your shoulders and pushing you in front of the entire room so everyone could see. It felt embarrassing, being paraded and shown off like that. Especially considering that your fiancé and soon to be husband was standing in front of you with your best friend by his side, and you didn’t even have to look up to know that they were staring at you with wide eyes and shock written all over their face. You swallowed, entire face heating up with shame as you stood in front of the entire board room of C&R International – including your soon to be father in law – with your boss swooning over how great of a worker you are and how you deserved the position. No one knew that you were that mysterious fiancée Jumin Han apparently had. Nor did said fiancé know hat you’s forked for his cooperation for even more years than his very own Chief Assistant. You really couldn’t think of a way to make this situation any more uncomfortable.

Your boss did, though. Yie had always been an idiot and poor worked. The only reason the fashion department hadn’t gone down years ago had been because of you. You didn’t even care about fashion that much, but it had been a steady job and paycheck and tuition was very expensive these days. So when he suggested for you to present the logistics of that month to the board room it wasn’t because he was proud of your hard work, but because he himself didn’t know shit about what was going on in his own department. He knew that you did, though, so now he made it your time to shine. Just a couple of months ago you would have preened and happily done so. You would have died to stand in front of the board room and present your hard work and yourself. Now though there really was no place you’d like to be less than this particular room in that particular situation. “Mr. Yie, Sir, I don’t think this is a good idea”, you whispered desperately. “Don’t be silly, girl. Just do as you are told.” Strike.

You could practically feel the anger coming off of Jumin, even from the other end of the room. He was fuming and you knew that if Yie continued to treat you the way he usually did he’d find himself without a job rather soon. “Sir, I’m begging you, please don’t ask this of me.” The man snorted, glaring at you. “Don’t be ridiculous and do your job”, he hissed at you loudly. With that he stormed off to return to his seat, leaving you standing alone in front of the presentation that had been opened up behind you. You closed your eyes, taking a deep breath. If he wanted a presentation, he would get a presentation. Your straightened your back, held your head high and proceeded to look into everyones eyes before locking with Jumin’s. You gave him a short smile before all emotion was replaced by perfect professionalism as you began the presentation. You could feel Jumin’s eyes on you the entire time, filled with wonder and fascination about that new side of you he’d never seen before.

You were quick, precise and well informed. Everything about you radiated energy and strength to the point where even the most disrespectful and misogynist of the men in the room were silenced. No one dared to interrupt you, dares to speak or so much as breathe too loudly as your presence filled the room. Jumin had never found a woman more attractive in his life than he did you in that exact moment. He loved your innocent, gentle and caring side to bits and pieces. It was that side that had drawn him in. That side that had gotten him through the darkest of moments. However, this new side, the strong almost dangerous one was bordering on arousing. He could feel his heart beat faster as he listened to your every word without hearing anything at the same time. You were like a tiger and the dangerous jungle had been claimed by you and you only. 

“Thank you for your attention. I would like to use this gracious opportunity to thank my boss, Mr. Yien, for recommending me. It will be my outmost pleasure to accept the new job offer and finally get out of that pathetically taken care of department I am currently working for”, you spat, glaring daggers at Yien. Jumin gasped, surprised by such harsh words. Then his demeanour changed, melting into pure satisfaction as he leaned back in his chair, legs crossed, to watch you tear your boss apart for disrespecting you the way he did. “I’ve been working for the fashion department for many years now and never have I ever encountered a man that incompetent and lazy. He asked me to do the representation today as he himself has no idea what it is about. I researched and composed it all by myself as I have been doing for years. His workload is thrown off onto me and the other assistants whom he disrespects and sexually harasses on a daily basis.”

“You little bitch, how dare you spread lies about me like that. Have her removed”, he shouted at the security men, obviously aggravated. You merely smiled, folding your arms behind your back. His head was bright red, sweat gathering on his forehead. When the men didn’t move your smirk grew, almost devilish, as he grew angrier and angrier. “I said have her removed! Why the fuck aren’t you taking her away.” Jumin snorted out a chuckle, covering his mouth to muffle the sound. “I think, Mr. Yien Sir, the reason for that would be that they do not dare to touch the company heir’s future wife”, you explained, calmly. You knew you had the upper hand and you were enjoying every last moment. His face fell as realization dawned on him but Jumin felt no empathy at all. He’d been eager to chew him out himself, but watching you do it yourself was much, much, much more satisfying.

“When I’d asked you politely, begged you in fact, not to do this you didn’t listen. I tried to protect you, you see, as I felt sorry for your pathetic being. Now, however, you’ve lost all my compassion. I did some digging and found out that beside not working properly you also quite frequently seemed to use company money for private businesses as well as evade certain taxes, which is why you were satisfied by staying in a smaller department, as no one ever digs deep into those. Well, I did. So, I hereby declare, for everyone to hear, that in the name of C&R International I am suing you for sexual harassment at the workplace, heavy tax evasion as well as fraud. I’m not familiar with the legal system, but I am quite sure that you are facing a couple of years of prison. Now please, gentlemen, would you do me the honour and remove that scumbag from this meeting room? I would prefer not to have such useless people working for my husband-to-be.”

This time the security men didn’t hesitate. They walked over to Yien and dragged him out of the room, ignoring his cursing and screaming. The second the door closed behind them you sighed, shoulders sagging. You hadn’t planned on any of this and while you didn’t mind holding presentations those were usually prepared and practiced on your part. Improvisation had never really been your thing. The sound of a chair moving was what ripped you out of your thought and you looked up to see Jumin standing up. You swallowed, shyly looking at your fiancé who once more had one of those unreadable expressions. “Would everyone please leave the meeting room. I would like to talk to my fiancée in private, please. The meeting is over. Thank you for your participation.” It didn’t take more than that for everyone to get up, gatherer there things and hurry out, leaving you alone with Jaehee, Jumin and his father.

When you started to apologize Jumin instantly cut you off, shaking his head. When your eyes met, he was smiling at you. Actually, grinning would be the better word, bright and excited like a little school boy. You’d never quite seen him like that. “You were magnificent! The presentation was perfect and the way you took down Yien was…I dare say sexy”, he said, chuckling in a way that made the hairs in the back of your neck stand up in the best way possible. “God, I cannot believe I never noticed you before. To think that I could have had you all these years, that you were in my reach all this time. It’s infuriating. Only the more reason to be grateful that I got the opportunity to see you in your prime like this.” You blushed, smiling shyly. “I tried…to tell everyone. I really did, but I didn’t know how to bring it up.”

Jumin walked around the table and towards you, pulling you into a warm, tight hug. Hands resting on his chest you melted against him, burying your face in his chest as well. “Is that why you were so desperate to leave when you stayed at my place? Because you were worried about work?” You nodded against his chest, so relieved he wasn’t mad you felt like crying. “I wanted to tell you but…I didn’t want you to think that I was with you to ride some sort of coattail. When Yie mentioned a promotion into Jaehee position I instantly said no, but he basically forced me. I wanted to work my way to the top by myself but now -”, you spoke quietly before Jumin interrupted. “And now you’ve made it. You didn’t ride any coattails and yet coming next week you’ll be by new Chief Assistant.” You looked up then, eyes wide and questioning. You couldn’t believe it. You’d been working towards that goal for years and yet…it didn’t feel right at all. 

“But…I’m the one who encouraged Jaehee to quit. I would feel bad for taking her position.” That is when Jaehee cleared her throat, getting both of your attention. “You have nothing to worry about, MC. When you told me to quit you didn’t do so to get my position but with my best interest in mind. I know that for a fact. You told me to follow my dreams and thanks to you I am finally brave enough to do just that so you should too. I didn’t enjoy working here for the most part but you seem to really like the job and we all know that you love Jumin dearly. I think the two of you working together could work out better than any other assistant. He’ll listen to you and respect you while you’ll be able to support and help him. So please, MC accept my position. I could have not wished for anyone better to take over for me”, she said, smiling happily at the both of you.

“You heard her. Please accept the offer, my love. That way we can be together every second of the day and I’ll never have to worry about you anymore. You’ll be safe and provided if you stay by my side and even when I have to go on business trips I can take you along without feeling guilty”, he pleaded, cupping your face and caressing the tender skin with his thumbs. Your eyes locked and there wasn’t a fiber in your body that was capable of denying this man anything. Let alone when he looked at you the way he did in that moment; like you were his entire world. So you smiled and nodded, reaching out to return the tender kiss. “If it is alright with your father I’ll be happy to be your new Chief Assistant.” Of course Chairman Han didn’t mind at all. If anything he’d be delighted to get to know his future daughter in law. Everyone’s problems seemed to be solved.

Jaehee resigned officially a couple of days later and opened up her new café. You and Yoosung helped out as much as you could in your free time. You also talked Jumin into invested, not for profit but to help a good friend. The rest of the RFA had been rather shocked at the announcement but it quickly died down. No one was really surprised that you and Jumin couldn’t be apart even for a couple of hours. Admittedly Zen was fuming for another week and even showed up at C&R International just to check on you. He found you and Jumin talking over coffee you’d gotten at Jahee’s, relaxed and beaming at one another. He left without you even noticing, finally realizing that his worry was not necessary at all. Mr. Chairman quickly learned to adore you. Not only did you make his son happy, but you were also a highly competent and good worker. A real profit for the company.

The happiest, however, was Jumin. He’d never even considered asking you to be his assistant but now he couldn’t imagine anyone more perfect. He never had to fear his father making any advances. He never had to fear betrayal or having to replace you. He got to protect you while simultaneously allowing you to keep your job like you’d asked him to. You were a great worker and reduced his stress by not only cutting his workload in half, but making him relax and smile throughout the entire day. Really, he’d never been happier to go to work then when he did so with you right by his side. “Say, now that I am your assistant, should I call you Mr. Han and Sir as well”, you’d asked one day, grinning cheekily. Jumin had chuckled in reply, husky and warm in ways that caused butterflies in your stomach. “No, my love. You only have to call me that in the bedroom.” He’d winked at you before returning to his work, seemingly unaffected while your face felt like it was burning up. Oh my, working with Jumin sure would turn out interesting…and you were looking forward to every single part of it.

anonymous asked:

Hello! So I'm rewatching S6 and something that I find surprising now that it came to my mind, is that Soulless!Sam didn't take up on demon blood again? I mean his purpose was to be the best/most effective hunter, and special kid powers could have made it pretty easy. And not that he had a conscience to begin with, so I don't think he would have worried about Dean's or anyone else's opinion. Besides he was certainly smart enough to keep it secret, if he wanted to. What do you think?

This reply is so unforgivably late! If you ever see this, Anon, I am sorry it took me so long to get around to replying!

The thing is, Soulless!Sam retained all of his memories, and, by all indications, he also retained some impressions about them. I think, even to him, demon blood would have been off limits because of what it did to him. Everything he did was to have a place, and drinking blood would have isolated him. It would have been the last thing he’d ever think of doing, if only for that reason.

In season 6, it’s not that Sam wanted to be the best or most effective hunter, though his lack of a soul did make him unsettlingly efficient. Despite all that, he did not seek  a group of people he could step on to get higher and more powerful, but a group of familiar people to act as a conscience in the absence of his own.

He specifically went to Dean in order to learn how to be normal again–or imitate normal. His own words about his soulless state cast it as something he recognized as “wrong” about himself, something he “[needed] help” with.

Without a soul, he could have gone wild, given in to violent urges like those the other soulless in the series have given vent to. Instead, he sought out a balancing force to keep himself “normal.” 

You’ve gotta wonder if it’s because he’s felt that way his whole life: something strange and wrong that doesn’t fit right. It’s like he was practicing his whole life for being soulless.

I see where you’re coming from with your thoughts about Soulless!Sam and conscience, but I don’t think it’s quite so simple. He absolutely seemed tied to his old self, but most of his emotions were performed and not felt. 

For whatever reason, though, he sought an external conscience.

Also… I wish I could say I felt that he was “smart enough to keep it secret.” I love me some Soulless!Sam, and he is amazingly intelligent with or without his soul, but he was also very clearly not!Sam. 

Sam Winchester (1.0, the Original™) is his soul. Soulless!Sam recognized that the “other guy” was pretty much one big ball of suffering and indecision about the life he’d lived. It was harder, but he also acknowledged that it would be preferable to be his old self, despite the pain (6.08).

Soulless!Sam did not aspire to wealth or fame. He aspired to wholeness, until he learned that it would likely kill him, and then he acted in the interests of survival, because life was all he had.

Still… I don’t think his soulless state is something he could have hidden. It isn’t a matter of intelligence, which Soulless!Sam had in spades. It’s a matter of emotion. Without his soul, Sam could not accurately emulate the person he had once been.

Ugh I love Soulless!Sam. I have so many feelings about him.

anonymous asked:

I always thought the reason Laoghaire didn't like sleeping with Jamie was because one of her other husbands was abusive and she was damaged because of that.

I’m glad you mentioned that!  After I posted my last reblog on this topic, I realized I wanted to say something to this effect, but got sidetracked and didn’t get around to it. 

Diana alludes to this several times, so I think we can safely assume this was the case, which makes me feel very sad for Laoghaire. 

I think, though, that if she and Jamie had had some real warmth/tenderness between them, that could have gone a long way toward healing some of that damage (albeit slowly and perhaps not entirely). For whatever reason, though, L just did not seem to be open to this. 

My personal headcanon on reconciling all this: 

  • Laoghaire–to your point–is coming off of 20+ years of abusive relationships 
  • She’s alone and needs the support of a man for the sake of Joan and Marsali, so makes a pragmatic choice to seek a new husband, despite her dread, fear, and possibly PTSD from her past relationships 
  • Jamie Fraser comes back on the scene, and for the first time since she was a teenager, she thinks– “Wow…maybe I could have something like love.” 
  • But then (to my point from the last post), her own insecurities and trauma makes her afraid and prone to close herself off, even from Jamie, who she had such high hopes for. 
  • On top of this, all the small hurts (Jamie calling Claire’s name, etc) deepen the hardness of her heart against him, until ultimately things become so lifeless between them, Jamie can’t stand it anymore and leaves
  • Laoghaire hides behind a façade of anger and pragmatism (inclined to screech and shoot people in the arm), but she lives her life heartbroken, really: she knows in her heart she’s sabotaged her (apparently) last chance at something resembling love. 


Anyway, as much as Laoghaire is not a likeable character, she is one that I pity tremendously. She made bad choices, but she also had a hard lot. Glad she found happiness in the end with her gardener or whatever :) 

-Bonnie 

anonymous asked:

Alec is my favorite character but I do think he is being worse to jace than jace ever was to him, if it's true that he's going to neglect his friendship with him for Magnus. Jace ignored Alec for Clary, but Alec was not in the aftermath of being tortured and jailed or homeless at the time. Also, Alec did make legitimately terrible decisions in the first season, such as going along with the Clave while Jace rebelled against it. But hopefully that scene is misleading and Alec is more sensitive.

note to anon: this is incredibly long. don’t feel like you have to read it all lol. at some point it just devolves into me venting. but I appreciate the opportunity to do so, so thanks for the question and opportunity to entertain different viewpoints!

also quick disclaimer: i really love jace wayland/herondale/lightwood/whatever. this answer might make it seem like i don’t but i really do.  

“if it’s true that he’s going to neglect his friendship with [jace] for magnus” <- unfortunately, anon, the entire premise upon which you build this argument of yours is either false or not currently provable, so, um, no. If you recall, Magnus and Alec “started” the concept of their relationship in 1x12, seven episodes before their first date. Immediately after that, Jace goes with Valentine to save everybody’s asses, and then we move into Season 2. If Alec is as horrible as you describe, Alec would be like “lol ok boy bye” and go start having drinks with Magnus b/c Jace is finally out of his hair. Instead, what actually happened is over the course of three (3) episodes (half the season thus far), Alec is destroying himself and potentially his relationships with everybody else (including Magnus) in order to get Jace back, because “he’s out there and he’s in trouble” (Alec 2x01) and “he needs me” (Alec 2x02). Nobody was as acutely aware of how much Jace had been suffering more than Alec was. And, for the love of God, Alec was inches away from killing himself in order to save Jace from Valentine. Like, did you just…pave over that part? Alec willingly participated in a procedure that he knows most people don’t survive if it meant helping Jace – in fact, if you count 2x01, he did it twice. For all that you say Alec is your favourite character, and I don’t doubt he is, but his literal life doesn’t seem to have much currency with you.

As for what happened after 2x03 and up until now and future episodes, I mean, Alec is human. If Jace is allowed to treat Alec quite poorly over a girl he met a few days ago (we’ll get into this in just a moment), then if Alec wants to focus (not even exclusively, but at least a little bit) on a relationship that he has clearly been interested in ever since 1x04 (over a whole season ago) – and moreover, if he wants to focus on trying to cultivate a kind of happiness he has never allowed himself to have in his entire life, why does that make him automatically awful? He has not once yet neglected Jace – please see a nice breakdown of that concept here – even in 2x07, it’s not like he’s ignoring Jace, he’s trying to help solve his issues.

Like, if you look at the ways in which Alec and Jace have historically interacted, Alec and Jace are generally not “sensitive” with one another, so to expect Alec to be out of character towards Jace so you can approve of his actions is a bit strange in my opinion. The last time Jace was messed up was when he first discovered Valentine was his father, and he almost killed Hodge in 1x13. Alec spoke to Jace in a very similar way – not sensitive or gentle, almost goading him out of his own bad decisions (much in the way that a parent or big brother or mom friend™ would do), because that’s how his relationship with Jace is and has always been. Rough but ultimately understanding. The only lapse in this was in 1x12, when they reconciled over a whole season of fighting, so it’s understandable to have them be a bit noticeably kind towards each other. (I spoke about this in more detail here).

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When the World comes Crashing Down

Pairing: Boyf riends from Be More Chill

Warnings: Suicide, self-harm, cussing,  hypovolemic shock

Word Count: 1,124


“Get out of my way. Loser.”

Who knew one little insult could hurt him so much?

Michael Mell was certainly a pitiful sight. Curled into the corner of Jake’s bathtub, sitting there and letting his thoughts run rampant through his head. How pitiful he was, now with no friends, no one to turn to. His best friend of twelve years, who had always helped him through receiving insults such as the one he spat at Michael, had now abandoned him because of a stupid fucking computer chip. Why had he ever thought it would be a good idea to get one? Now Jeremy would never be friends with him again, never be the same, sweet, beautiful boy Michael knew.

God, he hadn’t even noticed the tears streaming down his face, but as soon as he did he couldn’t take it. He broke down into sobs, he’d never get to tell Jeremy how he really felt. He’d be too caught up in being popular and cool to ever notice Michael again. His sobs were irregular and loud, and he felt like he was drowning. Everything around him was numb but the pain in his heart was not, and it felt like a pistol had been shot point blank into it.

A loud knock sounded at the door and he shrank into the bathtub, a choked sob quickly being muffled by the sleeve of is sweater. Another set of knocks, more tears. It felt like forever but he nearly jumped out of his skin when a loud banging sound came from the door accompanied by yelling. Michael jumped out of the tub, stumbling slightly from the effects of alcohol and panic, fumbling through the cabinet.

His eyes widened when he pulled out exactly what he’d wanted, a razor. He walked back over to the tub, shaking, staring at the razor like he had just seen Jesus come down from Heaven and deliver it to him. Funny, it felt more like Satan had come from hell.

He curled back into the tub, thinking about how he had no real reason to live anymore. He’d be a hopeless geek for the rest of his life. Rolling up his sleeve, he poised the razor there over his arm and thought.

Was there any chance of going back?

No.

He dug the sharp object into his arm, leaving a deep vertical cut. It stung like hell. But what was the point anymore?

Another cut, more stinging. He brought back some of the horrible nicknames he’d been called.

Faggot. Stoner. Man-whore. Nerd. Geek. Every insult brought a new mark deep in his skin. Finally, the last insult popped into mind.

Loser.

As soon as he thought of that word he violently jerked the razor down his arm, leaving a deep, ragged cut diagonally across all the others. With a hiss, he dropped the weapon and the wound started to spout blood, a lot of blood, blood running down his arm and splattering on the tub and the razor. His sweater was now stained with blood and so was his jeans, his arm stinging.

He felt numb. So numb. He was starting to fade, becoming paler as the blood continued to run out of his wounds. He noticed that he was dizzy, and nearly passed out when he looked down at the red running down the drain.

Slowly, slowly, he was losing consciousness. He began to slip, his vision going black for a few seconds every once in awhile. How much blood had he lost? Michael couldn’t bring himself to care.

After what felt like hours, but was only about ten minutes, his vision started to go black. Completely black. It only took a few seconds for the teen to be out cold, his arm still dripping blood.

But Michael had missed one thing.

When he had been overwhelmed by the blood loss, he hadn’t noticed Jeremy banging on the door.

Jeremy knew. And when he got in and saw the blood and the cuts and the razor and his best friend sprawled out, possibly dead, he just broke down into a panic. He couldn’t think. Couldn’t see, couldn’t breathe. Michael, who was so bubbly. Michael, who always comforted him when he was down. Michael, who openly expressed his opinions and was proud. Michael, who was so strong and beautiful.

Michael, who was bleeding out into the tub right in front of him.

Shaking, he pressed two fingers to the boy’s neck, feeling a pulse. It was rapid but very faint. His skin felt cold. Sobs still racked Jeremy’s body as he reached a hand into his pocket and pulled out his phone. He struggled to type 9-1-1, but just as he tapped the first one, he dropped his phone. A familiar voice drifting up from the tub.

“So, you came back.”

He was faintly aware of seeing his phone screen shatter out of the corner of his eye, but he didn’t care. “Michael, Michael, oh my God, oh my God, fuck..” he muttered the string of words, the fat tears rolling down his face. “I’m so sorry, Michael. This is all my fault. You don’t deserve this.” He said in between broken sobs. “Please, don’t leave me. Michael, don’t leave me, please, I’m gonna call an ambulance, I’m gonna get you help. It’s going to be okay.” He hoped at least half of his panicked rant was understandable, given his horrible state. Michael let out a melancholy chuckle. “It’s not going to be okay, It’s never okay.”  The poor boy’s breathing was horribly rapid and shallow, his lips were beginning to turn blue.

“Please, stay with me, Michael. I can’t lose you.” Jeremy was in hysterics. The thought of losing Michael was too much for him. The other boy reached a shaky hand up to his face and wiped away the waterfall of tears. “I’m sorry, Jere, but there’s nothing you can do.” his voice was unnervingly calm as if he didn’t care that he was dying. He honestly didn’t. “Jeremy, I love you, okay? I love you. I’m sorry I couldn’t tell you sooner.” Fuck, now he had tears welling in his eyes. “I love you, but it’s my time.” his voice was growing weaker and shakier.  Jeremy opened his mouth, but all that came out was a heart-wrenching sob as Michael smiled at him.

“I.. I love you too.” Jeremy whimpered, one hand cupping Michael’s cheek. How goddamn cliche.

Michael gave him one last smile, that alluring smile that just made Jeremy want to melt and cry and cuddle with him. His eyes fluttered closed and his breathing came to a halt, his weak pulse fading to nothing.

In that moment, the world came crashing down on Jeremy Heere.

Shadowhunters Sentence Starters
  • “How could someone as smart and perceptive as you not realize the person sitting right there is in love with you?”
  • “I'm turning 18. It's not like I'm heading on some epic journey.”
  • "Remember your fake ID sucks!"
  • “I'm miraculously healed and all you stunning people have magical powers?”
  • “It's a shame, really, denying them all this.”
  • “Why are you naked in an abandoned church?”
  • “Is there a meth problem we need to talk about?”
  • “What's a G.I. Joe?”
  • “Are you kidding? I was born afraid,....which sounded a lot better in my head.”
  • “For someone so old, you're not too wise, are you?”
  • "I've seen every horror movie ever made, and the funny best friend who gets left behind? Dead man."
  • "You're not that funny."
  • "____ is kind of nerd hot."
  • "Your family always welcomed strays."
  • "I don't need a spokesman. I need a plan."
  • "Are you that desperate to get laid that you'd risk killing us?"
  • "The living are so exhausting."
  • "Vampires have pay grades?"
  • "No human bond compares to what ____ and I have."
  • "What was in your coffee?"
  • "You know you'd be a lot happier if you weren't so fricken repressed."
  • "I couldn't live without you, _____. You're all I have left."
  • "They'll just turn into a bunch of fried eggs out here."
  • "I know you can color outside the lines. You're just not letting yourself think that way."
  • "Well, that was a window to the weird."
  • "Life is not what you want to do; it's about what must be done."
  • "Emotions are nothing but a distraction. You're ruled by them."
  • "There's nothing to be ashamed of ____."
  • "Does he normally lay like that without moving?"
  • "With a body like yours, everything's your color."
  • "Someone's looking badass."
  • "You don't get to talk to me, Captain America."
  • "Considering I'm the one with the weapons, I can say what I want."
  • "You have an interesting effect on people."
  • "You're like a yippy dog nipping at ____'s heels."
  • "Never trust a people who can't lie. They find much more inventive ways to stab you in the back."
  • "Playing hard to get? I love a challenge."
  • "I haven't taken my eyes off her."
  • "If I listened to my heart, I'd never be able to do my job."
  • "The only thing worth falling in love with is the word itself."
  • "I was raised a good Catholic."
  • "Honey, you look like you're dying."
  • "I'm dying to get out of this conversation."
  • "Your friends have the habit of turning up dead. I can't even imagine what your Facebook page looks like."
  • "It would be like Beyonce riding on a dinosaur in the middle of Times Square. People would notice."
  • "Passion makes you dangerous."
  • "Maybe that's supposed to mean something, but you're still you, and I'm still me. Sort of. Enough, anyway."
  • "Well, I don't want to bite you anymore."
  • "Maybe what I did was wrong and selfish, but my heart was breaking."
  • "Even starvation can't shut you up."
  • "You wanted to sweep history under the rug."
  • "I'm nothing more than a monster."
  • "I'll take care of _____ you have my word."
  • "It's love that makes you fight harder for what you want."
  • "Remind me why we couldn't do this at my place? At least there we could have had cocktails."
  • "Emotions are never black and white. They're more like symptoms."
  • "I didn't betray you, ____. I saved you from yourself."
  • "What kind of people sacrifice justice for law?"
  • "Maybe that's my destiny, to bring your family and mine together."
  • "People said I was mad. So I owned it."
  • "Visionaries are quirky crazy."
  • "If anyone catches us, we're dead."
  • "Right now, I just really need my mom."
  • "Whatever you do, don't lose hope."
  • "You're immortal. Time is on your side."
  • "I don't know who I am anymore. There's darkness in me. It's always been there."
  • "I came with you to escape my relationship drama, not get a front row seat to yours."
  • "You never cease to amaze me."
  • "Don't misread this as friendship."
  • "Rumour has it you're looking to settle down- get married."
  • "It's like my whole life has been a lie. Everything i have ever known..."
  • "Your bedside manner is abysmal."
  • "Is he always so charming?"
  • "I will never stop needing you."
  • "I'm glad you brought everybody here to witness your demise."
  • "Does this mean I'm not one of you?"
  • "I swear if that kid ruins one more jacket."
  • "Baby's first words."
  • "Yeah, this place isn't creepy. Not at all."
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fifteen.

How do you know? Scully had asked him after the Boggs case (in the other place, not the place he thinks must be real). What’s real and what’s not, I mean.

She’d been reading a book and he’d been pretending to nap, and she’d said it, and it sounded like more entertainment then napping, so he’d scooted upright against the pillows, winced against the pain in his leg, and turned to look at her. I just know, he said.

She made a face, setting her book facedown in her lap. Okay, but how do you know?

(They sounded like the little girls, the Eves: how did you know what to do, he’d asked them when they’d dropped them off at the asylum, and they’d chorused, we just knew.)

I just do, he said. How do you know that everything I say is real isn’t?

Science, she said simply. (He could’ve asked about Boggs, but she’d made it clear yesterday, with the sudden stiff shape of her shoulders and the clipped way she said, It’s late, I have to go when he’d tried to get her to discuss it again. She didn’t want to talk about it. Fair, there was plenty he didn’t want to talk about.)

Okay, he said. Well, you have science, then. I have beliefs. I get a… feeling, and I know whether something is real or not.

Are you claiming to be psychic? she asked, raising an eyebrow, smirking. Is that how you knew Boggs wasn’t?

He smirked back. I didn’t say that. I said I just knew.

She nodded, waited a beat before opening her book again. He supposed that meant she was finished with the conversation.

She turned pages for a few minutes before saying, So it’s… wish fulfillment? If you want something to be true hard enough, then it will be?

That’s not what I said either, he said, slightly annoyed now.

Scully looked at him from over the top of the book. But you want to believe, she said, quietly.

The damn poster. He nodded, because he couldn’t exactly say no. I want to believe. So I do.

Keep reading

anonymous asked:

So before the episode aired I was still living under the delusion that the script would've been updated to include a discussion about Arya between Jon & Gendry because she is the most important person to both these men and while Jon wouldn't know that, Gendry would. He knew how much Jon meant to Arya and how much she meant to himself, why wouldn't he bring her up? The fact that he didn't has basically ruined any reunion between them now because of this omission in my eyes. 1/2

These are two of the most important people in Arya’s life and she has always hoped they felt the same (and in the books She matters most above everyone else to both these men). She’s dealt with so much loss in her search to reunite her pack that this would hurt her. She’d end up believing that she means little to them, that she has had so little impact in their lives when they’ve had such an effect on hers. To discover that they never discuss her connections to them would break her heart. 2/2

Literally the only way to make this okay is that Gendry thinks Arya is dead and doesn’t want to bring her up. It doesn’t matter that Jon knows Arya is alive as of last episode because Jon spent an entire season with Brienne and Sansa without mentioning her. Brienne saw Arya with Sandor and she told Sansa about it but neither thought to bring it up with Jon? Arya was alive and well at that point there isn’t really any reason to think something happened that would have killed her from then on. And tbh as soon as Jon and Sansa reclaimed Winterfell, Sansa should have sent Brienne to find Arya again. Brienne would have been successful this time if she told Arya that her family was home. Instead they just sat and did nothing while Arya had to figure it out herself and come home???? Long story short: disappointed but not surprised. 

migumiglorious  asked:

Tumblr mom!!! I read your post about how you learned all the health stuff you do and can I just. Hug you?? When I was around 13, me and my friends were super into the whole new age metaphysics thing and my friend thought either me or my sister were indigo children and I remember feeling so special at the time. I don't know what had changed, but all that slowly fell away from my life and now when I think back to it I feel kind of bitter that I didn't turn out to be some miracle child. So I (pt 2)

think I sort of know how you feel about that a little(The indigo child thing, not the pain part. I haven’t been in much pain for the duration of my life). I feel pretty glad that my mom never really bought into that kind of stuff now looking back on it. hm, I’m not sure where I’m going with this. In any case, you!!! are really awesome and strong!!! Reading about you makes me feel better about life, and I hope you have others in your life that give the same effect! Thanks for being here!!!(pt 2)

The whole indigo child thing that was going on when I was growing up was a Wild Ride and I’m still baffled and mildly upset by the whole thing, not so much because I didn’t turn out to be special in the way they meant, but more because I was taken advantage of by adults who rather than deal with their own shit, expected a sick child to do it for them. I was told by multiple people that my pain and illnesses growing up was the price for helping others to be whole. It was my Gift to the world.

And that’s some gods damned damaging bullshit right there. 

And I know several other “indigo children” who went through the same thing and it profoundly messes with your head because well, if these people who you trust and who are supposed to look after you are telling you this, maybe it’s true. Maybe your pain is worthwhile if it’s helping others. And then when you come blinking out of that haze and realize what was going on there’s just sheer raw fury to deal with. But mostly just exhaustion. And dealing with losing friends and family who are upset you are no longer adhering to their personal requirements of you. Which frankly, fuck ‘em.

Anyway, yea. There’s a few of us on here with similar experiences, and we’re all in various stages of untangling it. So you’re definitely not alone with things like that, and I’m glad that me rambling away over here is a positive thing, thank you for saying so. Sometimes I wonder :P

Bagginshield fic recs! Part 2.

So yeah,  people have been asking me for more fic recs. And what can I say, I have difficulty finding good fics, so how can I deny people a list? Every fic here is my favourite, but my favourite-favourties are marked with **. Here you have it folks!

-ANGST

Yeah, we love pain in this fandom for some reason… can’t quite figure out why. Here, have some fics that are beautiful, but hurt worse than BoFA!

Hollow** by shinigami714- “Hobbits on average eat six, sometimes seven meals a day. Bilbo struggles with eating drastically less than this while on the journey to Erebor and at the same time does not wish to show his weakness.”

but oh, my heart was flawed** by lacking- “Thorin hopes the story of his life will not be told as a tragedy. And as he looks back on it all, watching for glimpses of sky through the swaying flap of his tent, it’s finally become clear to him that there was never another way for this to end.”

Prayers to Broken Stone** by avelera- ““Sleeping on a dragon’s hoard with greedy, dragonish thoughts in his heart, he had become a dragon himself.” – The Voyage of the Dawn Treader, by C.S. Lewis

Twisted by the effects of dragon sickness, Thorin banishes not only Bilbo but the entire company from Erebor. Days pass with no word from their missing leader and, fearing the effects the gold may have on the other dwarves, Bilbo decides to enter the mountain alone in search of Thorin.

What he finds may not be Thorin for much longer.

Or: In which dragon sickness is very, very literal, and Bilbo must save Thorin from himself.”

hands too small to hold it** by sparklyslug(slylilgoblin)- “the basic fact is that Bilbo doesn’t look as old as he should. Easy to forget when surrounded by those who live into their 300s during times of peace. But Gandalf has reminded them all, curse him. 

Because Thorin might survive the Battle of Five Armies, and Bilbo might stay in Erebor. But eventually the ring must be dealt with. Much as Thorin doesn’t want it to be.”

An Ode to Broken Things by wizards_pupil- “ “Thorin, I have a weak heart. It has trouble pumping enough blood through my body. That’s why I’m always so low on energy. And…” Bilbo swallowed, forcibly keeping his eyes on the flickering flames. Thorin wasn’t moving by his side. “And it’s failing. There are healers in Greenwood who have gifts for mending hearts, but there isn’t much chance it will work. I haven’t been very responsive to any other methods, and… Well… I don’t have very long.” Bilbo dropped his eyes to his hands. He’d ripped the four-leaf clover Bofur had given him. It seemed horribly symbolic of his life.

Headed to Greenwood to see the healer Thranduil, Bilbo Baggins and Gandalf the Grey hitch a ride with thirteen dwarves headed to Erebor.

Bilbo had hoped it would be like the adventures he read. That there would be orcs, sword fights, torture, revenge, trolls, chases, or escapes.

He had never expected miracles or true love.”

Skin-Gold by Tawabids-“Bilbo gives a little laugh. “I thought it was a… a story for children. ‘Don’t strike a good fellow in anger’, my mother used to say,” he clears his throat and steps closer to Thorin, “because those who die badly will return until they have taken their revenge. They will return as dragons, and dragons have keen eyes, and will always find you no matter where you hide.”

In the end, dragons are more useful in a battle than hobbits - but you have to lose one to get the other.“

But I Will Hold(As Long As You Like)** by scarecrowqueen- "Circumstances had not allowed him time to address his failures as both King and friend to the Hobbit that had been as stalwart and courageous as any dwarf who’d ever stood by him. Without the chance to speak his apologies to the burglar in life, Thorin had settled for carving them into the casket itself; the Khuzdul runes pressing forever into Bilbo’s small back as if to write his penitence onto the Hobbit’s very bones in death. It feels like a hopeless gesture, however sincere it had been; after all, what use at all were words carved in stone to the dead?

Bilbo dies in the Battle of Five Armies. The Durin’s live. All the regret in the world won’t keep the dead resting peacefully though, as Thorin is soon to learn.”

Smoke In The Night by authoressjean-“"It was funny, he mused. He had fourteen guests, fourteen old and dear friends, and yet he’d never felt so lonely before in his life.”

Bilbo wakes to a time and place he had never expected to see, or live, again, with familiar faces that hold no memory of him. All the lies ahead of him is the choice: to go with them on the journey only he knows of, or to stay in Hobbiton and try to find a different life. One without the dwarf who doesn’t remember their friendship, their affections.

Bilbo’s had harder choices to make before. He’s certain of it. But none seem harder than this choice he has to make now.

One-shot.“

Burning with a Magnificent Madness** by EmilianaDarling-"Thorin’s madness had been like a dam bursting; fast and brutal and incomprehensible, like water rushing out and devastating everything in its path.

For Bilbo, it’s more like a slow trickle over the course of a lifetime. Out of sight and out of mind - and almost imperceptible until he’s already drowning”

A Fertile Garden** by Salvia_G-“Thorin loses his dignity, gaining something more valuable in the process. Bilbo waxes lyrical about peaches, among other things.”

This ain’t no night to be on your own** by muse_at_dawn-“Based on a prompt: Bilbo rides Thorin while being invisible and Thorin doesn’t know about the ring and doesn’t understand the fuck’s happening. But he likes it." (note: don’t judge this one by the description. it sounds like a cracky smutty thing, but it’s actually beautifully written angst and smut. read it and you’ll see what i mean.)

Grasshopper by shinigami714- "Hobbits are one of the softer creatures of Middle Earth. They have no qualms with their emotions and enjoy the simple things in life, like romance and love. Dwarven customs differ greatly, their emotions often kept on the inside. What happens when the two mix?”

-FLUFF

Well that hurt. Now, let’s let our gay shorties be happy for a while. Here’s the feel-good kind of stories.

Making Amends** by Winter_of_our_discontent-“Hobbits place great value on social harmony. In fact, they’ve developed some… unique… cultural practices to help everyone get along.

Of course, no one told Thorin Oakenshield that.”

Before I Stumble Homeward by lacking- “In which Thorin is left slightly more injured after his confrontation with Azog. The fever sets in, the journey continues on, and a bond is formed.”

Firmament by Lee_Whimsy- “Bilbo, more or less by accident, had become a collector of rings. Gollum’s ring he kept in his pocket, safely hidden away, but another he wore—never mind that it was far too large, and always slipping off his finger.

“It suits you,” Thorin said, and took Bilbo’s hands in his. “There. Now you hold all that is dear to me.””

Hazy Shades of Summer** by Chamelaucium-“Bilbo made a soft noise as he brought his hand up to his mouth - if Thorin hadn’t known better he’d have said he was stifling a laugh - and stared at Thorin in amusement. ‘You don’t know…’

Thorin stiffened and tried to look haughty, although the effect was rather ruined by the crimson blush gracing his cheeks. 'Don’t know what, burglar?’

Bilbo didn’t even seem upset by the use of 'burglar’ again. Instead he - he laughed! Thorin couldn’t deny that he enjoyed the sound of that laugh very much - too much - but he maintained his stony composure as Bilbo’s shoulders shook in suppressed mirth.

'You didn’t… You didn’t hear about hobbits,’ he said.

'I don’t believe there’s much to hear.’

Of course, that is where Thorin was completely wrong.”

Gargalesis by aurorealis-“"Dwarves aren’t ticklish at all but Hobbits are really ticklish. Thorin finds out and proceeds to tickle Bilbo until he’s wheezing and crying with laughter. ”“

On The Pull by Heyerette-"While in Lake-Town, Thorin acquires an injury that forces him to stay in bed. Making him remain in the same is a task not for the faint-hearted.”

The Sound of the Deep Ground by Amledo-“While on the journey, Bilbo becomes increasingly annoyed that the Dwarves seem to ignore him or talk like he isn’t there. What he doesn’t know is that he shouldn’t be able to hear them and that his strange attraction to Thorin has something to do with it. Contains Thilbo and Fili/Kili”

Our lives to Make by ShaneAndrew-“Bilbo must venture the long road back to the Shire to see his newborn nephew, leaving Thorin to rule over Erebor. But when word reaches him mid-travel that Frodo has been orphaned, he knows he cannot go back to the Lonely Mountain alone.

What will Thorin say when Bilbo returns with his nephew in tow, when he’s lost his own kin so recently?”

Riddle Me This** by redcarrigan-“Bilbo loves riddles, Thorin hates games.”

By the fire** by Comedia-“Bilbo is appropriately surprised the first time Thorin sits down next to him by the fire, but as time passes it becomes a habit for them. Always sitting together, often smoking, they spend many nights talking about everything from Bilbo’s gardening to dwarvish tattoos. While not being entirely aware of it themselves, their relationship slowly but steadily changes.”

-SMUT

Time for some hobbit on dwarf action, don’t y'all think? Here’s smut!

Planted a Seed by diemarysues-“Thorin put his mouth close to Bilbo’s ear. “My plans involve pressing you down onto the green grass, with your heels on my shoulders and my fingers in your –””

Out for Tea** by evek- “Prompt: Thorin is a CEO, Bilbo an intern, a very cute and distracting intern. The two have worked in the same office building for 6 years, and Thorin is sexually frustrated because Bilbo obliviously flirts with Thorin, not even realizing the effect he is having on the older man. So, after one meeting, Thorin has had enough and bends Bilbo over the desk and smut.”

Footfalls by emmyxogast-“From the kink meme, the prompt requested femslash/genderbender

Or alternatively, fem!Thorin not being able to resist fem!Bilbo with her curly hair and soft curves.”

I’m Not a Burglar, You’re Not a Whore(wip) by clearbluewater- “What if Thorin was first instead of last to Bag End? And what if Bilbo had been expecting someone completely different?

Bilbo Baggins may be a bachelor, but he still has needs. He has been corresponding with someone from Bree, and they have arranged a meeting at Bag End. Only when Bilbo opens the door, he hadn’t thought his partner was a dwarf. Or quite so handsome.

Or, that one where Bilbo mistakes Thorin for his hookup and Thorin isn’t quite sure what to make of his prospective burglar propositioning him for sex. Misunderstandings are had, hair beads are lost, and Gandalf is left wondering how those two could fuck things up quite so badly before the quest even starts.”

Ori tells a story** by sra_danvers-“Thorin hired Ori as fanfiction scribe for the Company; fanfic to be read aloud at the fireside as entertainment on the journey. Bilbo’s interpretation of scribe is rather different & far more traditional, so he is initially scandalised & ultimately titillated as the fics are read out. Especially as the quest progresses & he becomes the subject of more than a few of Ori’s stories!”(the title and the description are a bit decieving, but this has one of the hottest pieces of smut in the fandom)

Terms and Conditions by clawswrites-“In which, Bilbo is expected to please Thorin and, although unexpected, he can’t say he’s completely unaffected by the turn of events. Bagginsheild smut. AU.

In reflection, Bilbo Baggins knew he probably should have read the small print of his contract. At the time, he had been completely distracted by the list of injuries that he may or may not receive by participating in this adventure. Any reasonable hobbit would be put off by the word ‘incineration’, so he really couldn’t be blamed.”

AU

These are just what they say. AU. Brilliant, wonderful AU.

Adventures, and how to Pen them by evilnira-“AU/ Bilbo Baggins is a wealthy writer who’s only adventures have been the books he’s penned. Perturbed his friend only writes tales of adventure, Gandalf decides a little meddling is in order. Thorin Oakenshield is brought into the picture, a renowned traveler and photographer, has lived the adventures Bilbo could only imagine and wants nothing more that one of his own to be written. Now the only thing stopping a good Adventure is the small part about travelling the world for it, and Bilbo absolutely refuses the preposterous idea… well, if he did, there wouldn’t be a story, would there?”

The Fairy tale killer by silverneko9lives0-“When little girls start dying in what appears to be unrelated accidents and murders, the last thing Seattle PD expected was to be recruited in a task force with FBI Agent William “Bilbo” Baggins who claims that the murders are done by the Fairy Tale Killer.”

How the West Was Won and Where it got us by stickman-“Bilbo is a harried 1st year British literature Ph.D. (early 20th century fiction) who happens to have an interest in spatial narrative structures, a lack of time-management skills, and a tiny apartment with a lot of books and very little furniture. He’s stressed, always, and doesn’t quite know where he belongs. He tells himself that really, this is, in fact, what he wants to be doing. But sometimes, as much as he loves books, he gets an urge to do something with his hands.

Thorin is a disgruntled M.Arch. 1 in his last year who can’t be arsed to shave and frightens his students, and, frankly, his profs, but his work is top-notch so no one can really say much. They can, however, bully him into running a hands-on design workshop on Saturday mornings, which is complete crap, because he’s used to drinking his Friday nights into oblivion so showing up at Milstein at 7:45 the next morning and trying to teach in a room of wall-to-wall windows as the sun rises is not at the top of his list. Besides, no one ever shows up.

Except one morning, someone does.”

Pride and Prejudice(or, the wooing of Bilbo Baggins) by clockworkgirl1221-“What if The Hobbit was really an early 19th century romance novel?

Or, The Hobbit meets Pride and Prejudice.”

Bordeline Harassement, probably** by lindoreda-“Thorin is the most exciting thing to happen to Bilbo in a long time, and all he does is sit in the library and read. But it takes a special kind of person to tackle The Decline and Fall of the Roman Empire, and Bilbo is determined to find out how special.”

You’re the only thing I want to see by authoressjean-“You’d think after dating someone for two years you’d know almost everything about them.

And then Bilbo finds out that his boyfriend, multi-millionaire author extraordinaire, has glasses. Thorin wears glasses.

And it’s a very appealing image.”

Beard wars by Bernie_N-““I kissed him! I touched his beard- oh my God.”
Bilbo’s in a bit of a daze.
“What was it like?” Bard asks, looking morbidly curious about the whole thing.
“It was so soft, Bard. Like cotton!” Bilbo can’t even cope with this right now.”

Durin’s league** by hobbitgrl-“When the mysterious Durin’s League takes the national spotlight in the battle against the super-powered villains of the Smaug Corporation Bilbo Baggins doesn’t think much of it. At least not until Thorin Oakenshield crashes through her living room wall and Gandalf tells her she’s their only hope.”

idylls of the king by tuesdaymoon-“written for a prompt on hobbit_kink: Thorin a single parent/uncle, Bilbo babysits. Fili and Kili are a handful. Essentially NANNY AU where Thorin is a perturbed Detective Inspector navigating through life.”

A Spoonful of Sugar by Bernie_N-“Thorin the baker may or may not have fallen in love with the golden-haired man who walks past his store each morning.”

An Unexpected Proposal** by Eareniel-“As Bilbo sat smoking in his empty hobbit hole, he couldn’t help but wonder – when did his life become so boring? Or better yet – when did his old life stop being enough?

He suspected the answer to that question lay somewhere around the time when he had refused Thorin Oakenshield’s offer of marriage.”

———-

hope you guys like this list, took me forever to make(though not as long as writing the fics, i’d reckon. fanfic authors are amazing)

this one is less categorized than the last list, and the reason for this is because i have lots of things to do, and am really busy, so it’s a bit more rushed than the last time. so sorry.

anonymous asked:

Unsure if you've already posted on this. Thoughts on the A Dog's Purpose stuff. Personal opinion: I think shooting it down as "PETA PROPAGANDA!!!!111" is really. shallow. PETA didn't CGI the handler OBVIOUSLY pushing past the dog's discomfort level. That came from real life. Yes, I understand there's more than just those two clips, but it's pretty clear the handler made a very bad choice in THAT particular situation, Idgaf if they trained using magic and cookies all other times. Bad on them.

I’ve intentionally stayed out of A Dog’s Purpose posts, but wouldn’t personally boycott the film.

The original video was very blatantly edited to make a bad situation seem far worse than it actually was and, now that everyone’s had an emotional reaction to the original posting, any further viewing will still be colored by bias. The source was TMZ and PETA, both known for editing footage to make things seem way way more extreme than they already are.

I see a handler trying to convince a dog (a dog that was selected specifically for his love of water, and a dog that performed this stunt many times from the other side of the pool) that the water is truly not going to hurt him by picking him up and dipping his toes in it. I’m not saying this doesn’t count as flooding- it definitely is. But I am saying that I think 99% of my clients with dogs who have a sudden fear reaction to something they’ve seen multiple times before do the exact same thing because they’re convinced it’ll help. They pick up or drag the dog to forcibly show it that the thing they’re afraid of is truly Not A Monster ™. It is a mistake but it is a common mistake, and I really do believe that if we’d had the full story and the unedited BtS footage there would be a lot less of a public outcry and a lot more of “you moron, that’s not how you convince a spooked dog to stop spooking, no shit it didn’t work.”

I’m also wondering if the folks boycotting A Dog’s Purpose also boycotted the Hobbit movies considering negligent conditions caused 27 of the animals used in the films to die- a shock considering how much care the animal crew devoted to their animal actors in the first trilogy. And the Life of Pi where the tiger almost drowned in the tank because they decided not to CGI that particular scene. And HBO’s Luck considering 4 horses died during the filming of only 9 episodes. And Eight Below, that movie with the huskys, where the dogs got into a fight and the trainer’s way of breaking it up was to repeatedly punch the offending dog in the throat. And Flicka, where two horses died. There was even an allegation and case in 2014 for War Horse, which also had a horse die, though I don’t know how that turned out. And Prince Caspian, with multiple horses pulled for anything from “sudden lameness” to “wounded nose”. And Pirates of the Caribbean, which killed vast amounts of marine life with the underwater explosion effects. And Zookeeper, where an elderly giraffe had been stressed by filming and later died on set. And that’s only a few recent examples.

If you want to boycott a film that mistreated the animals during production, you’ll probably have to boycott all media that uses real animals as actors. Just saying.

anonymous asked:

How would you like the reveal to go? In my ideal world Kara would tell her, because I want Lena to see that she trusts her However, I don't think it will go that way because it would be less drama. But if she finds out any other way then she will always think that Kara would have never told her and it's kinda awful that your bff didn't trust you with a big part of her life. So, what do you think/want? Someone else tells her, Kara gets accidentally exposed, Lena starts to suspect and finds out?

Well they could go the direction they did with Alex’s secret reveal to Kara (that she killed Astra) and have Lena surprise accept her immediately. And while that’d be pretty nice to see in some sense, that situation tends to gloss over the tension that’s been building a bit too much for me.


When Kara forgave Alex immediately, Kara still had some stuff going on underneath it all that wasn’t… fixed. It was addressed later, but in the worst way for Kara. After Kara had had just like a really shitty couple of weeks in which the world and it’s people wronged her in like 20 different ways, she had the Red K incident. 

She lashed out at everyone, against her will, and put even the irrational issues she had with people at the surface so that it then made her the bad guy. So she had to go on a tour of sorrys to people she didn’t make the choice to hurt and who had hurt her beforehand, effectively silencing any of the issues that we actually legitimate.

When Kara woke up, Alex said “There’s some truth to what you said. We’re going to have to work on that.” but we didn’t get to see if that was a conversation, and it’d be so easy to focus on the intrusive, obviously untrue thoughts Kara had versus the ones that had merit.

Of course, Kara didn’t see any of it this way, she was genuinely sorry and felt responsible. 

And I’m afraid of that happening with Lena. 


That Kara (as is true to her character) will just feel terrible that she had trouble telling Lena, and that the reasons won’t go deeper than the surface betrayal.

Listen, I’m a slut for drama, so I need there to be a confrontation. Either Lena finds out and brings the information to Kara, asking for an explanation, or Kara tells her.

And I think Lena has a habit of lashing out when hurt, so I kind of want it to go… horribly?

But I want her to gather her senses after the initial negative reaction (like she did when Supergirl told her that her mother was the head of Cadmus) and come at it from a more empathetic standpoint (possibly with the help of Alex, who… idk Lena is forced to work with instead of Supergirl- because Alex stepped in so she wouldn’t have to see her yet- and Alex kind of begrudgingly helps Lena understand Kara a little better.)


I’d like Lena to eventually come to the conclusion that it’s not about her and her trustworthiness. Not really. It’s about Kara. 

It’s about how Kara has been told to hide her alien-ness from humans at all costs, (even at the cost of human lives) since she was 13.

It’s about how Kara didn’t tell a single soul about her family or her powers or Krypton or her alien-hood for 12 years. Her entire identity, everything that made her who she is, hidden because the Danvers told her that she would be in great danger if anyone found out.

And she has since only really willingly told one person- Winn. Who was like aliens’ #1 fanboy, and whose opinions she could easily have seen in written form on the literal website about aliens he was submitting to in the pilot. Who, even if she didn’t 100% trust, was the only viable option for someone to be excited for her, so she was at the end of her rope and willing to risk it.

And honestly… she didn’t really seem to come out as an alien, just the woman with powers. And given that Kara was arguing that aliens didn’t exist earlier in the episode, the two weren’t necessarily linked.

Aliens weren’t even like… a thing until this year. There wasn’t political commentary surrounding the personhood of these beings until very recently. And Lena’s first on-record response on the matter was “here’s a device to find them” which, to someone who has been hiding herself for half of her life, who has been told that she or the people she loves will be hurt if she’s found out (case in point: Jeremiah), it’s terrifying.


When you are an alien, you are willing to sacrifice anything, everything, betray your fundamental instincts just to fit in. To belong somewhere, to find your place in the world.” 

Kara has shown again and again that her instinct is to trust Lena. But this is about more than if Kara has faith in Lena. 

This is about the fearful environment that Kara grew up in.

Perhaps Lena was raised to hate and has grown tremendously from that point, which Kara knows. But Kara was raised in fear of being hated, in fear of what real danger hate will put her and the people she loves in. 

So perhaps logically, she knows Lena would eventually accept her.

But logic cannot always touch fear, because what if she doesn’t? 

And it kind of… doesn’t matter who Lena is. Kara would be in the same situation with almost anyone else who she had had, at one point, reason to believe they wouldn’t accept her.

And in some ways, I think it’s a matter of Kara’s acceptance of herself in this world. Of if she feels like she really fits in, or ever could.


So… that’s what I’d like to see Lena realize. And I’d like to see the whole messy process of it. 

And at the end of it all, when Kara can show her unyielding trust in Lena and Lena can return the sentiment in full, it’ll have been earned.