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My Heart is My Keep (5): Obedient

Noriaki can’t catch his breath.

Consciousness is still hazy, his attention still fractured and flickering from moment to moment as his mind struggles to catch up with the present, as reality slips and melts in his grasp; but he can feel a pressure at his chest, as if there’s a weight trying to crush him out of existence, he can feel the way every breath rattles in his throat and fights against that force. His mind is dizzy, his thoughts dragging slow with the same delayed-reaction pull of each breath he’s struggling through; the effort is the only clear thing, and that getting sharper with every heartbeat of pressure increasing on him. Noriaki feels lightheaded, as if returning to consciousness has stripped him farther from the clarity of his mind, and in the haze of his distracted thoughts there’s not even strength for fear when the knowledge I’m suffocating forms itself into vivid certainty in his thoughts.

He keeps trying to breathe. Of course he does; there’s no real choice to it, not when reflex is fighting against the weight crushing him with every breath, even if each inhale only serves as proof of how much less air he can manage to struggle into than he did with the last. It’s a futile effort – there’s no force to his determination, no strength in his body, no chance of resistance – but Noriaki tries anyway, gasping for air until he can feel the strain in his throat, until the effort of it catches and chokes him. He tries to move his hand, straining with the effort to lift his fingers, to grab for a handhold, for traction, for anything to hold him steady; and then a voice: “Are you awake?” so sharp and clear and close that Noriaki’s eyes come open on the first wave of shock in spite of the impossible heaviness that seems to be suffusing his entire body.

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My God. The number of times I have followed you blindly, backed you with the men blindly, put men in the fucking ground… good men, friends… because you said, “I know the way. Don’t ask me how. Just do as I say.” I may not have understood it, I may not have supported it, but I did it! And God damn it, right now you’re going to return the favor!


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↳ 2x20: The Last Day

anonymous asked:

Okay but my fave trope in literally anything is one partner going absolutely speechless when they see their partner all dressed up for a date or somethin, and all i can imagine is rad all dressed up in something fancy (either a tux or a really cute dress) and ray is just starstruck by how handsome rad is

Okay but honestly same Nonnie, like I live for that trope which is whY THIS GOT SO LONG BC I GOT REALLY INTO IT SORRY;;;; TTwTT

same, Raymond~ TTTwTTT <3;;;;


today is my birthday and I’m riding high💋

canadian-riddler  asked:

Hi! I'm just here to wish you a wonderful day! :)

And I wish you just the same! 

(I was intending to reply sooner but I wanted to do something a little special. Pls excuse the roughness of it, it was done rather hastily.) Have a fantastic week!

anonymous asked:

We all know about your pure and undying love for Captain America: The Winter Soldier (2014, 2hrs16min) but WHAT ARE YOUR FAVOURITE PARTS

I would say everything between 00:00:00 and 02:15:54. 

But if you want specifics… 

  • Steve running at the same time as Sam and lapping him just so he could do the “on your left” thing, instead of saying hello and introducing himself like a normal person trying to make a friend would
  • A police car pulling up beside Nick and him immediately being suspicious of them like how #real 
  • The first appearance of The Winter Soldier where the camera focuses in through the bulletholes in the windshield onto him like strutting along the road and then after he blasts the car he just sidesteps out of the way casual as anything whilst The Winter Soldier theme plays 
  • “This isn’t freedom. This is fear” - The tagline for the “free” world 2k16
  • When Natasha finds out that Nick has been hurt and it’s probably the most open and vulnerable we ever see Natasha and you see how scared she is to lose him and get an idea of how important to her Nick is 
  • When Steve goes to talk to Pierce and he has no real reason not to trust Pierce yet, but he’s still suspicious of him anyway
  • The elevator scene where Steve is so observant and quick and puts together what’s going on from the moment the first person joins him in the elevator. 
  • Peggy calling Steve a drama queen. 
  • Any time Brock Rumlow got punched, or kicked, or hit, or had a building dropped on him, or was hurt in any sort of way. Seriously, fuck that guy. 
  • When Computer Zola is telling Steve that everything he lost, everything he “died” for, was for nothing bc Hydra still got what they wanted and Steve punches the computer and smashes it - Steve has so much hurt in his heart and it’s never really addressed, the extent of his loss and his grief, but it comes across strongest in catws 
  • Sam having met Steve literally twice for like 5 minutes and already inviting him and Nat into his home and cooking them breakfast and getting back into the good fight and he and Steve have that little bonding moment when he see’s the picture of Riley
  • When Sam shows up to a gun fight with a knife and wins 
  • “Even when I had nothing, I had Bucky” 
  • Maria Hill tasing that guard and seeing Sam and being all “who is this guy?” 
  • The entire scene in the bank vault. Not being funny, Sebastian should have been given every accolade going for his performance in that scene. 
  • In the flashback when it shows Bucky being given the metal arm and he wakes up and just fuckin….chokes the asshole doctor that gave it to him, like !!!! that’s my son right there!!!! 
  • “I don’t think he’s the kind you save…he’s the kind you stop” “I don’t know if I can do that” “He might not give you a choice, he doesn’t know you.” “He will.”
  • The entire flashback scene to after Steve’s mom’s funeral. Like I have so much to say about this scene, I’m not going to go into it here but just the symbolism of home and happiness is like !!!!!!
  • Alexander Pierce dying. Personally I believe it should have been slower and more painful but, what are you gonna do y’know. 
  • Steve dropping the shield!!!! “I’m not going to fight you, you’re my friend” “You’re my mission” “Then finish it. Cause I’m with you to the end of the line”
  • Bucky’s face when he hears that and it’s like you can literally see the walls in his head collapsing and the onslaught of memories that flooded his brain. 
  • Bucky saving Steve after Steve saved Bucky and then Bucky leaving so he could start to save himself, and going to the museum and reading about the man he was before hydra tried to wipe him from existence.

I realise I have actually basically just described almost everything that happened in the movie but like…the whole thing is a masterpiece. Marvel haven’t done better since, Marvel probably won’t match it again. Iconic. A beautiful example of how wonderful cinema can be when every element comes together and moves in perfect harmony with each other. 

anonymous asked:

If you're comfortable P L E A S E show us that prom dress

My face was dumb hence the giant red squares (also for my bud’s anonymity)