did your life benefit in any way

In this shadow work challenge, we will be exploring our past and delving into some of the core experiences that have helped create and reinforce our shadows. Please keep in mind that shadow work is a highly individual process and there is simply no way I could ever devise any sort of curriculum that yields impeccable results for everyone. It is up to you to give this challenge true substance. This is not a set of step-by-step instructions or specified exercises, but a collection of interrelated subjects that form a generic basis for shadow work that you will [hopefully] be able to build off of. 

The prompts included were designed to be responded to in one (or all) of the following ways: journaling, creative expression, or tarot reading. I recommend journaling and/or creative expression as the basis with tarot as a supplement, but it can serve as a stand alone tarot evaluation as well (which is why I created this Tree of Life Spread). Whatever works for you, go for it! This challenge is only meant to get your mind reeling, and as you will see it’s pretty cut and dry, so I encourage you to use it as you please– get creative and allow it to evolve as you go. 

If you feel comfortable doing so, please share your work and tag “january shadow work challenge”. I for one would love to see it, and I’m sure those who are trying to get their foot in the door with shadow work would appreciate some reference material. In any case, I thank all for participating and as always I welcome public or private feedback! 

(P.S. I did not get to work on/edit this as thoroughly as I would have liked, so please forgive me for any errors or sloppy writing in general! Also, feel free to shoot me an ask if you have any questions. Best Wishes and Happy New Year!)

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60 Day Weight Loss Challenge

Going to be doing this because why not?

Day one: How tall are you, what do you currently weigh, and what do you hope to weigh after the 60 days? (Be realistic).
Day two: What is your MAIN reason for wanting to lose weight? (Be honest.)
Day three: Do you count calories? What is your daily calorie goal/allowance?
Day four: Do you work out? How many times a week?
Day five: Is there any specific event you want to lose the weight for?
Day six: Have you ever been overweight or underweight?
Day seven: Do your friends and family know you are trying to lose weight?

Week Two!
Weekly challenge: Get organised! Try to plan tomorrow’s meal the night before.

Day eight: Name 5 things you like about your body (you can do it) and the one body part you’d like to change the most.
Day nine: What is your favourite food, healthy or unhealthy.
Day ten: Do you eat breakfast? What do you usually have?
Day eleven: What are your family’s eating habits like?
Day twelve: What are your friend’s eating habits like?
Day thirteen: Is your diet ever negatively influenced by your friends? Do they pressure/tempt you to eat unhealthy food?
Day fourteen: Do you ever allow yourself a “rest day” from exercise or a “cheat day” from your diet?

Week three!
Weekly challenge: Add an extra 30 minutes to each work out this week, or if you weren’t going to work out at all one day, work out for 30 minutes!

Day fifteen: What is your favourite kind of exercise?
Day sixteen: Have you ever missed a work out just because you couldn’t be bothered?
Day seventeen: Have you ever been called fat? Or skinny?
Day eighteen: Do you have to eat any meals with your family? Are they for or against your diet?
Day nineteen: Have you ever lied to avoid eating something?
Day twenty: Do you binge? How often and what triggers it?
Day twenty-one: Do you listen to music when you work out?

Week four!
Weekly challenge: Switch up your diet. Try one fruit and one vegetable you’ve never tried before, and learn how to cook a new healthy meal.

Day twenty-two: Are you generally smaller or larger than your friends?
Day twenty-three: Do you feel that your weight holds you back socially?
Day twenty-four: Is losing weight one of your top priorities in life?
Day twenty-five: Do you ever eat fast food?
Day twenty-six: Do you drink alcohol? What do you generally drink?
Day twenty-seven: Does shark week make you hungrier than usual, and do you allow yourself to eat more at this time of the month?
Day twenty-eight: Are there any foods or drinks that you have completely banned yourself from consuming, or do you believe in everything in moderation?

Week five!
Weekly challenge: Go and buy yourself a nice item of clothing one size too small, hang it somewhere visible. Think about how good it will feel when you can fit it!

Day twenty-nine: What is your current weight? Have you lost, gained, or maintained your weight since day one?
Day thirty: Do you have rewards for reaching goal weight? What are they?
Day thirty-one: What are your favourite healthy snacks?
Day thirty-two: What is your weakness/one food you just can’t say no to?
Day thirty-three: Will you continue to count calories once you reach your ultimate goal weight?
Day thirty-four: Will you continue with the same exercise routine once you reach your ultimate goal weight?
Day thirty-five: Do you mainly do cardio, strength training, or both?

Week six!
Weekly challenge: Focus on one area of your body (eg. Arms/abs) and work hard on it every day of the week, I bet you’ll see a difference after 7 days!

Day thirty-six: What’s one item of clothing you’d like to wear after losing weight?
Day thirty-seven: What do you wear when you go swimming/to the beach?
Day thirty-eight: What do you generally order if you have to eat out at a restaurant?
Day thirty-nine: What has been the hardest thing you’ve had to give up?
Day forty: Have you gained weight at any point of your journey? How did this effect you?
Day forty-one: Do you drink tea or coffee?
Day forty-two: What is the meaning of life? Just kidding. If you feel happy with the way your body looks before you reach your ultimate goal weight, will you continue to try and lose weight, or will you aim to maintain?

Week 7!
Weekly challenge: Aim to have a completely “clean food” week, avoid all processed food!

Day forty-three: Apart from weight loss, have you noticed any other benefits from your healthy diet?
Day forty-four: Do you drink green tea? (If you don’t you should. Seriously.)
Day forty-five: Who is your main inspiration to lose weight? Not a celebrity, someone from real life.
Day forty-six: Do you have a favourite motivational quote?
Day forty-seven: Have you ever come close to giving up? What made you change your mind?
Day forty-eight: Did you start losing weight before making your blog?
Day forty-nine: What’s the stupidest thing you’ve done in an attempt to lose weight?

Week 8!
Weekly challenge: Treat yourself. You’ve come so far already! Even if you haven’t lost any weight, you deserve to treat yourself for not giving up. Paint your nails, go shopping, go to a movie, get your hair done, anything that makes you feel good about yourself!

Day fifty: What’s the most calories you’ve consumed in one day? Why?
Day fifty-one: What’s the least calories you’ve consumed in one day? Why?
Day fifty-three: What’s something you’ve done to make yourself proud?
Day fifty-four: Can you see any noticeable changes in your body?
Day fifty-five: Do you believe this is a lifestyle change, and you will be able to continue with a healthy, active lifestyle for the rest of your life?
Day fifty-six: What have you enjoyed most about your weight loss journey?
Day fifty-seven: What is your current weight? Have you lost any weight since day one?

“Once when I was little, I was bullied by my schoolmates for no reason. Even when I reflect on it now, I don’t get why they treated me like an outcast. I am now close with some of the kids who used to bully me, and I asked them why they did it, but they didn’t know the reason either. Bullying was as prevalent as catching a cold back then, and I was unlucky enough to catch it. Since then, I became sensitive to changes in people’s behaviors. I started to detect minor differences in people’s tones and behaviors.”“Did that experience influence your life in any way?”“Right now, I’m preparing to become a special education teacher, and I can detect subtle changes in my students’ behaviors when I work with them. My father always told me, ‘All things have good sides and bad sides, and your situation now will certainly benefit you at some point.’ And I think he was right. When I think about it now, those situations shaped me into who I am right now.”

“어렸을 때 이유없이 친구들한테 왕따를 당한 적이 있어요. 지금 다시 생각해봐도 저를 왜 따돌렸는지 모르겠어요. 그때 저를 따돌렸던 친구들 중 지금 친하게 지내는 애들한테 물어봤는데 본인들도 그 이유를 모르더라고요. 그냥 그때 당시에 왕따가 감기처럼 유행이었는데, 제가 운 안좋게 걸린거죠. 그때부터 사람들의 행동 변화에 민감해지기 시작했어요. 평소와는 다른 말투나 행동에 저도 모르게 민감하게 반응하게 되는거죠.”
“그 경험이 본인의 삶에 영향을 준 게 있나요?”
“지금 저는 장애아이들을 가르치는 선생님이 되기 위해 준비 중인데, 그 때 경험으로 인해 장애아이들을 대할 때 그들의 행동 변화를 섬세하게 잘 포착하게 됐어요. 제 아버지가 항상 ‘모든 일에는 장단점이 있기 때문에, 지금 너의 어떤 상황이 언젠가는 분명 도움이 될 거야.’라고 얘기해주셨는데… 맞는거 같아요. 지금와서 돌이켜보면 그런 상황이 지금의 저를 만든거니까요.”

anonymous asked:

Can I request how the RFA+V and Saeran react to MC being a world famous scientist? I'm talking on par with Bill Nye and Neil deGrasse Tyson in today's world.

This is a really cool request anonny! Bill Nye was the reason why I passed sixth grade science oh my gosh you’re making me all nostalgic! But I was pretty average when I took science classes in school so please forgive me for lacking science knowledge! Anyways, I still hope that you enjoy!!~


Yoosung

  • One of Yoosung’s worst subjects in school is science to he feels like his prayers have been answered when he finds out he’s dating a scientist
  • He’s constantly asking you questions, not just for his science class but because he’s genuinely curious
  • When he finally graduates, Yoosung thinks that the two of you look so cool in your respective lab coats
  • Like Yoosung in his veterinarian coat and you in your science coat has him squealing because the two of you look so cute together!
  • He totally brags to his vet co-workers that he’s dating a scientist and loves seeing them fume green with jealousy
  • Yoosung also goes onto the messenger to tell the rest of the RFA members how you and him are the smartest couple
  • Basically Yoosung adores the fact that he’s dating an awesome scientist like you and showcases you wherever he goes

Zen

  • Zen cannot believe that he’s lucky enough to date a world class scientist when he met you
  • You’re beautiful and smart so basically Zen almost fainted when he found out
  • Since he didn’t go to college, he’s quite curious about science and enjoys asking you questions
  • Even though most of the time after you give him an answer Zen’s still confused because science can be confusing
  • His nose bled so much the first time he saw you in a lab coat but with a swift smack on the chest he controlled the beast
  • Zen does take your profession seriously and proves it to you when he recites some science facts that you told him
  • He almost cried when he saw the media call you and Zen a ‘powerful, smart, and gorgeous couple’
  • Zen learns so many new things about science from you and is so thankful to have someone as intelligent and wonderful in his life

Jaehee

  • The fact that Jaehee nabbed you as her girlfriend was already an amazing thing to her
  • But when she finds out that you’re a scientist she’s elated!
  • Jaehee enjoyed science classes when she was in school so she understands some of the things you talk about… emphasis on the word some
  • She gets so proud of herself and mentally pats herself on the back whenever you ask her something and she knows the answer
  • Jaehee loves going to science lectures in which you’re a speaker and will furiously write down everything that you say so she can impress you with her knowledge at a later time
  • She also loves the fact that you represent women in the science field and how you inspire younger girls to be whatever they want to be
  • The first time you wore a lab coat in front of Jaehee, she gushed about how awesome and cool you look
  • Knowing that your dream was to become a scientist makes Jaehee inspired to follow her own dreams, something that she’ll be forever thankful for

Jumin

  • Jumin already knew that he was dating an awesome person when he met you but finding out that you’re a scientist makes you that much cooler to him
  • He was indifferent when it came to science classes when he was in school but being with you reinvigorates his enjoyment of the subject
  • Going to fancy dinner parties with the two of you means having a lot of other famous and rich people stop to compliment how great of a couple you and Jumin make
  • One of Jumin’s favorite things in the world is whenever someone tries tell you that your theory is wrong but you totally show them up and prove yourself right
  • He’ll request that in your free time you perform any type of experiment to help benefit cats in any way
  • Jumin thinks that you look amazing in a lab coat and will tell you that all of the time
  • Being with a scientist like you has really opened Jumin’s eyes for the better and exposed him more to the vast world of science

Seven

  • Never in his life did Seven think he’d ever be able to date an amazing scientist like you
  • You’re basically his soulmate since he’s always been a fan of science plus you’re just plain awesome to add
  • Seven is always asking to help you with experiments, especially the more dangerous ones
  • The two of you have little battles as to see who can name off more science facts then the other which typically ends with you winning and Seven demanding for a re-match
  • He’s surprisingly super helpful when you can’t figure out an equation or theory, usually offering his own opinion and lots of support
  • Seven totally buys a lab coat that replicates yours because he wants to look cute and smart like you
  • He’ll run around the house playing songs like ‘Weird Science’ or ‘She Blinded Me With Science’ which makes you sigh but then laugh because how could you not love this man?
  • Seven’s extremely happy and encouraging with all of your science work, he’s truly proud of you for all that you’ve accomplished

V

  • V already knew that you were an amazing person when he talked with you over the messenger but he found out that you were even cooler since you were a scientist
  • He’s always had a fascination for science related things so he’s willing to lend an ear when needed
  • V absolutly adores listening to your science lectures since his eyesight isn’t well enough to watch you perform experiments
  • But he’s willing to stand by and give you lots of support and encouragement
  • He’ll become ecstatic when you ask him to help you with a more hands-on type of experiment since his sense of touch is superb
  • So many photos are taken of you in a lab coat because V thinks that you just look so adorable in it!
  • The media calls you and V the ‘Artist and Scientist’ so the two of you start calling each other that
  • V genuinely enjoys the fact that you’re a scientist, he loves hearing facts from you and find your intelligence amazing

Unknown

  • Saeran’s knowledge on science is fairly low so he’s lowkey hyped to be dating you since you are a scientist
  • He’ll casually ask you questions, trying not to look like he’s trying to, and while you know he’s trying to put on a facade you still happily answer his questions
  • He especially loves it whenever you tell him scientific facts about plants and animals
  • Since Saeran doesn’t want you to think that he’s stupid, he’ll look up some science facts on his own to impress you which you find simply charming
  • His eyes widen in wonder when you perform experiments and once again, Saeran will casually ask if he can help
  • Saeran’s jaw drops the first time he sees you in a lab coat, blurting out how stunning you look then immediately starts blushing
  • He totally brags to the rest of the RFA members about his new science knowledge, smirking at you when they all become impressed
  • Being with a scientist like you makes Saeran feel smarter and helping you with experiments truly makes this boy happy

anonymous asked:

how would the paladins react to their s/o with a respiratory illness?

shiro

  • he doesn’t know much about respiratory illnesses so once you reveal this to him expect a lot of questions
    • they’re not questions just to bother you, but rather he’s just trying to get a feel for how he should assist you because anything with ‘illness’ tagged onto it kind of scares the crap out of him
    • plus you’re his s/o so it scares him even more
  • when the time calls for him to help with whatever it may be, he’ll happily help out if needed
    • it’s a way that he feels is easy to show his love through, so he’s always quick to do so
  • he doesn’t necessarily treat you any differently though, he just continues living his life like he did before, but of course now he has your illness always kind of weighing on him
    • not in a bad way though!! it’s just so that he can change his habits to benefit you if there are any changes necessary

keith

  • keith would of course be filled with worry, he doesn’t think he’s capable of helping out in the ways you may need help whether it’s mental or other sorts of support, so he’s rather unconfident
    • he’s totally capable though, he just might need a little pep talk from you
    • you’ll get tons of apologies from him once he finally is swayed to your side
  • after everything is smoothed out, he’s careful with things that he knows may worsen your condition or may not be beneficial for you because of your condition
    • honestly he’s a little strict with the other paladins too because of this
    • is he your mom or your s/o
  • like shiro, he doesn’t seem to change his daily life because of this with worry that you may feel… objectified, if that’s the correct term
    • he knows he would be embarrassed in this situation, so he’s quite afraid of embarrassing you
    • he does have a few moments where he will try to subconsciously go a bit overboard, but you will be able to tell by how hesitant he is that he’s not even sure if it’s appropriate lol
    • he’s totally waiting for you to stop him if it isn’t necessary

hunk

  • this would slightly confuse hunk because he honestly doesn’t know what exactly that means, even after you tell him the specifics
    • the only thing that he knows is that he’s pretty darn worried??
    • he doesn’t even know how much he should be worried if you don’t state the severity of it-
  • unfortunately, hunk is kind of hesitant to do anything that he thinks may ‘help’ because he doesn’t know if it’s him making things up and it won’t actually be of any assistance or what…
    • you’ll probably have to sit him down eventually and tell him if there’s anything that he could do to help because other wise he’ll probably panic a little about it
  • all in all, through this it will teach hunk a bit about responsibility and it’ll give him just another reason to love you, due to how much time he has put in to thinking things through and worrying for you and… everything that has to do with your illness in general, he just wants to make sure that you’re okay

lance

  • like a five year old, lance will begin to bombard you with many questions about anything that comes to mind once you tell him about your illness
    • he just wants to know how bad it is, if there’s a treatment and if so if you’re taking it, if there’s anything he can do to help…
    • he’s not trying to annoy you, he’s just slightly worried and wants to be fully informed because it’s a rather serious topic
  • honestly he may go a little overboard with all of the help that he’s trying to give you, like it’s even expanding to things outside of what’s needed, and he’s not really listening when you tell him that he doesn’t have to do something…
    • he’s just eager to show his love for you, that’s all
    • but hey, it is useful so use it before he finally catches on that it isn’t necessary… lol
  • eventually lance will cool down with the overly helping once he realizes you may feel a bit awkward and that he was doing entirely too much
    • well he knows that the help could have been appreciated sometimes, but he understands that it wasn’t necessarily appropriate for the subject at hand
    • he just loves you a lot and wanted to help!!

pidge

  • pidge doesn’t want to bother you with the questions once you tell her, so after everything is said and done she’ll go and research it by herself to get a feel of everything
    • if she has any questions left after she’s done researching, she’l of course come to you for help, but she’s afraid she might embarrass you if she asks you too many questions
  • she’ll try to go about her life normally, but with more awareness to your condition, if there’s something she knows won’t be good for you then she’ll avoid it and other things along these lines
    • she wants to make sure that you don’t feel any ‘different’ because of how she’s treating you, so she’s trying to take a very natural approach to this
  • she’s probably the top paladin when it comes to making you the most comfortable with your illness, if making you comfortable is not treating you any differently than before you told them
    • like, don’t get her wrong, she will still help out in ways that she knows to but she won’t make any big deals out of anything that isn’t necessary
    • she just wants to make you feel comfortable!!
Times Are Hard For Dreamers

Phillipa Soo x Reader

Summary: Both you and Pippa are about to give up on love, then you spot each other.  

Warnings: Other than like one swear, I don’t think there’s anything, purely fluff! 

Words: 2,326 (roughly)

A/N: Hi again! I had so much fun writing this to be honest, my heart kinda hurts. Title is from Amelie because I’m t r a s h. I hope you guys like it! Also, random note but, because I’m so creative, the reader’s sisters are actually named after two of my sisters :)


It was Monday and as you clutched a coffee in your hand, you couldn’t help but feel tiredly lost. You looked at the faces you were passing, each one different. A woman with her hair falling from her ponytail and an exhausted expression, a man practically stomping his way down the street, a child grinning and skipping. All these people had lives, and when they walked past, you were granted a small glimpse through their window. You wondered what you looked like to them. Was the crying of last night still evident on your face? Did you look as lost as you felt?  

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I love You For Who You Are, Past Scars And All

Ao3 Link

Anonymous Prompt: An angsty fic where Dan was abused as a child and Phil doesn’t find out until very recently. Lots of angst! No smut, please!

TW: Rape, Physical/Mental Child Abuse, Negative slurs, Self-Harm (scratching).

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Phil isn’t exactly the most observant person in the world. He often missed things people said and did and most of the time didn’t notice when he said something inappropriate until someone (usually Dan) points it out to him.

Dan loved this quality of him. Not only was it an easy target for jokes, it also made hiding his past easier. Though he still squirmed at loud noises and hated yelling, he was getting better and his secret was still safe.

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Happy Birthday!

@missthingmessengerAnna! Happy Birthday! You are an amazing writer and a wonderful person. Your writing always makes my day brighter and happier even when you write an angst and make suffering our precious babies :(. Your blog is a place where people always feel welcomed. Thank you that you are you and that you enjoy to share your talent with us.

I don’t know how it works in other countries, but in Russia and Latvia (where I lived the biggest part of my live) it’s a tradition not only to wish happy birthday to a person, but also to make good wishes for them. So I wish you that your life would be long, bright, full of love, laugh, fluff and smutt;), that you found such dreams that was worth to achieve, had a friends that you always could trust, and that you could enjoy every day of your life. Have a wonderful birthday’s celebration! Happy Birthday!

Here is a small gift from me. Two versions of your first meeting with Tom. In both versions you reached Seven’s ending, but you and Seven are just friends. It was planned like hcs, but I’m not good at this, so it’s looks more like short fics. Hope you’d enjoy them anyway.



The fateful meeting

  •   He hasn’t seen his neighbour Luciel more than a month. Every time Tom visited him, Luciel said that he was very busy through the closed door. So Tom is surprised when today the front door of Luciel’s house opens after his call.
  • “Hey…” he starts to greet the moment the door is open, but before he finishes his usual greeting with name ’Jerry’, he is stunned, captured by pair of dark eyes.
  • Have I called to the wrong door?’ Tom’s brain tries to find the answer about an unexpected view in front of him. But it’s impossible to confuse the strangest Luciel’s house with any other place.
  • Is it a dream?’ Tom thinks. It is possible. This beautiful girl with a dizzying smile can be just a dream, but he hopes that you are not. Tom secretly pinches himself, and is happy to feel a light pain, reassuring that the you aren’t his imagination.
  • Can it be another Luciel’s costume?’ Tom tries to find another explanation. He has seen his friend in a few very convincing costumes, but he hopes this time it is not it. He looks at you from head to toes, appreciating all these curves at the right places of your body. ’No, it can’t be Luciel! It shouldn’t be!
  • “Can I help you?” your sweet voice interrupts Tom’s thoughts. ‘This definitely isn’t Luciel’s voice!’ Tom almost sighs of relief.
  • “Can I see Luciel?” his mind finally proceeds to actually say something. You say “Sure”, give him another smile, and call somebody from inside of the house, “Saeyoung!” Tom is lost in a quiet admiration again.
  •  His uncle said that he had a new prophetic dream today. Huge goldfish-shaped bread chased his uncle along corridors all night long. The uncle has said that this means Tom will have a fateful meeting today or he will lose all his money. Tom assumed that the dream was just result of too hearty dinner, but maybe the uncle was right. Maybe now is his fateful meeting.
  • Tom’s desperately searching for something to say, when he sees that you want to leave.
  •  “Don’t go!” he exclaims.
  •  ‘Ooops. Did I say it aloud?’ Tom’s ashamed and feels how his cheeks becoming hotter, but you just give him amused look and smile again, “Don’t worry. I’ll just find Sae… Luciel.”
  • He’s lucky enough that Luciel appears earlier than you leave. “Anna Banana”, Luciel sing-songs, “Why did you leave me for so long?”
  • Luciel is so playful with you. ‘Wait! No way… Is she Luciel’s girlfriend?’ the unpleasant thought pop-ups in Tom’s mind. It is possible. If it was him, he definitely would ask you to date him. And Luciel… Well, he is a way cooler than Tom.
  • “Sae, did you miss me so much?” you say flirtatiously. “Or you just hope to win next game?” you smirk. You sound more like a rival then a girlfriend, but Tom knows too few about dating to be sure.
  • “I will win the next game,” Luciel states. “My dear Tom!”, he turns his attention to a neighbour. “You are playing with us! You are a part of my team.”
  • Tom wants to exclaim ‘No!’, but is there anybody capable to refuse Luciel. Tom sadly watches how his chance to be in the same team as you disappears, when the help from Heaven comes. Okay, maybe not from Heaven, but Tom definitely thinks about you as about an angel, when you remind Luciel that this game was planned to help him make stronger bond with his brother, and Luciel shouldn’t team up with anybody against him. And… it works!
  • You are playing a board game, and ‘Tom&Ann’ team wins three times in a row. But all Tom can think about is your smiles when he got more points than Luciel, and your warm hug when you won the third time. So when Luciel offers to play cards as the same teams instead, Tom doesn’t notice how the pile of Honey Buddha Chips, what you use for bets, becomes two times bigger then it was at the start of the game.
  • At the end of this impromptu party Tom is a winner. He still can’t believe, when he gets two packs of Honey Buddha Chips from Luciel as the prize. But his more happy about another of his wins – a chance to take you home. So he offers to ride you in his car.
  • The first minutes in the car are too quiet and a little bit awkward, but then you start to ask him about his life, interests and his uncle. That’s when Tom finds out that you are that nice party planner, who solved all his insecurities, when he was invited to RFA party. Now Tom is sure that this meeting was planed by gods. So he musters all his courage and asks you if you can meet again.
  • “I’ll wait for it,” you say and give him your phone number. “Thank you for a nice evening,” you kiss him on a cheek and get out from the car.
  • Tom is stunned. He covers the cheek, where you kissed him, with his hand and, dazzled, looks at the door of the house, where you have already disappeared. He stops an urge to call you immediately and decides to wait till tomorrow. Tomorrow he’ll ask you on a date. And he needs to ask Luciel, what are your favourite flowers! And maybe to ask the uncle if he have seen another prophetic dream. ’Yes, this will work.’ Tom starts the engine of his car, but even when he drives, all his thoughts are still about you.


I hope this Tom wasn’t too ooc or too out of how you imagine him, because I couldn’t research him properly :( Hope this Anna is not too ooc too…



A new mouse

  • Tom is standing near the front door of a strange bunker. It’s been four months since he was here the last time. The time to check, how his favourite 'mouse’ is doing, has come.
  • Tom appreciates the little game he and the Agent 707 play. 'Cat and mouse’ game. Tom always wonders if the Agent 707 knows, who is a mouse in this game. Now, when the agency of 707 is dead for a several months, and Tom’s agency doesn’t have to fight with them for contracts, there is no a real reason for Tom to be here.  But he loves to play, so he is ready to enjoy it one more time.
  • The Agent 707 opens the door, wearing only bright red swimming trunks. 'Has he got a pool somewhere in his odd living place?’ Tom tries to imagine this in his mind, but fails.
  • The ex-rival agent grin is even wider than usually, but it disappears the second the guy recognizes Tom. “Hey, Jerry,” Tom greets him cheerfully, “long time no see.” It’s good to see how defensive is house owner’s gaze right now. Tom really enjoys this visit.
  • The moment Tom thinks that things can’t go any better, suddenly you enter to the hallway. You are wearing just a small white cotton shorts and a yellow top of bikini, and for a few seconds Tom just appreciates a view. ’Did the Agent 707 get himself a girlfriend?’ Tom feels a little bit envious, ’I guess a life of the retired agent has it’s own benefits.’
  • “Saeyoung, are you going to wash your cars? I won’t help you if you’re not coming. I’m not your maid,” your voice distracts Tom from 'sightseeing’, but listen to you is almost the same way pleasant as looking. “Oh, you have a guest?” you notice Tom, and the guy gives you a sweet smile.
  • “Hi! I’m Tom. Luciel’s neighbour.” A killing gaze of the Agent 707 almost makes Tom laugh, but he resists. “I’m Anna. Sae… Luciel’s friend,” you introduce yourself, and Tom takes your hand and presses his lips to it. He almost feels how eyes of the Agent 707 bloody cut him into small pieces. Tom holds back a smirk. He asks if he can join your car wash and gets your permission. The Agent 707 almost doesn’t try to stop him, and Tom sadly sighs to himself, ’I hope my Jerry isn’t already dead.’
  • But now Tom is not so interested in his usual game. His eyes is glued on you. He appreciates the way you move while washing a car, the way water is glistering on your skin. He needs to talk more with you while he can. He is sure from burning looks, the Agent 707 gives him, that the guy will try to show Tom a door pretty soon.
  • So he says to you the first thing what is in his mind. “Luciel changed a lot since I’ve seen him last time,” even Tom doesn’t expect to say something like this. And he doesn’t like a soft smile on your lips, when you answer him, “Luciel quit a shitty job, it’s good for him.” You talk about the Agent 707 so lovingly… 'She said that they are friends,’ Tom reminds himself. But it doesn’t work, and Tom keeps wondering if you want to change your relationship with the Agent 707 to something closer. ’Why this idea bothers me anyway?’
  • Tom admits to you that he won’t mind to change his job too, and you both continue a small talk about disappointing jobs while washing a car. Tom manages to make you laugh with edited versions of his own adventures during the missions. He makes them sound like just a bad experience of an average guy looking for a job.
  • Tom enjoys such a light conversation till you leave a garage to take shower and make a lunch while guys are finishing to wash last car. That’s when the Agent 707 threatens to wipe out all his agency and Tom himself if Tom is not leaving this house right now. Tom knows, when his prey feels cornered, and obeys his demand. It obviously that the Agent 707 and he can continue this game any other day, and now Tom is much more interested in another mouse. “Say to your pretty friend that I’d love to see her again,” Tom smirks at another deadly look he gets from the Agent 707.
  • Tom leaves. It’s sad that he didn’t get your number. But he is a hacker after all. One of the best in the world. ’Let’s see, will you be able to hide her from me, Jerry.’ The game begins.


I headcanon that Tom can be not so innocent and sweet as he looks like from his e-mails. Because:

  • How Luciel’s bunker somewhere in deserted place can have neighbours?
  •   The name Tom maybe just a disguise, because it’s not Korean.
  • Sometimes Seven’s talking about his friend Tom in a very suspicious way.

So I assume that Tom can be a secret agent too. And Seven invites him to RFA’s party only because Tom already found out about it, and Seven just tries to show that this party is not really important to him.

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Okay so does Ed even realize how much he owes Barbara? Like she is the only reason he is even alive. She saved him the whole time he was working with her because Tabitha and Butch wanted him dead, she even saved him after he betrayed her because Tabby was shooting at him and Barbara made her stop and go after Jervis instead, and finally in the most recent episode when she quit working for Penguin; effectively keeping him out of harm’s way for the time being. I know she did those things for her own benefit BUT it always ended up working out pretty well for him but what does he do? Betrays her, throws her under the bus when he sees Grundy for the first time, and rolls his eyes at her comments (I know she’s a smartass but not any more so than him). Like seriously treat the woman whose saved your life (on multiple occasions) with a little gratitude and respect.

Two month weight loss challenge!

I found this weight-loss challenge on the internet but I don’t know who the original creator is, so I’m just going to repost it and hope some of you will do it with me! I really want to shed some pounds and start eating healthy again, like I used to three years ago (I can’t believe it has been that long since I gained all the weight back). ALSO I will do my best to doodle and post frequently to keep us all motivated! So, this is it:

Two Month Weight Loss Challenge

Week One!
Weekly challenge: Pick one unhealthy food or habit you have (eg. Artificial sweetener, chocolate, eating after 8pm, skipping breakfast) and aim to go 7 days without eating/doing it.

Day one: How tall are you, what do you currently weigh, and what do you hope to weigh after the 60 days? (Be realistic).
Day two: What is your MAIN reason for wanting to lose weight? (Be honest.)
Day three: Do you count calories? What is your daily calorie goal/allowance?
Day four: Do you work out? How many times a week?
Day five: Is there any specific event you want to lose the weight for?
Day six: Have you ever been overweight or underweight?
Day seven: Do your friends and family know you are trying to lose weight?

Week Two!
If you broke your unhealthy habit for one week, congratulations! Why not try two weeks?
Weekly challenge: Get organised! This week try to plan tomorrow’s meal the night before.

Day eight: Name 5 things you like about your body (you can do it) and the one body part you’d like to change the most.
Day nine: What is your favourite food, healthy or unhealthy.
Day ten: Do you eat breakfast? What do you usually have?
Day eleven: What are your family’s eating habits like?
Day twelve: What are your friend’s eating habits like?
Day thirteen: Is your diet ever negatively influenced by your friends? Do they pressure/tempt you to eat unhealthy food?
Day fourteen: Do you ever allow yourself a “rest day” from exercise or a “cheat day” from your diet?

Week three!
Weekly challenge: Add an extra 30 minutes to each work out this week, or if you weren’t going to work out at all one day, work out for 30 minutes!

Day fifteen: What is your favourite kind of exercise?
Day sixteen: Have you ever missed a work out just because you couldn’t be bothered?
Day seventeen: Have you ever been called fat? Or skinny?
Day eighteen: Do you have to eat any meals with your family? Are they for or against your diet?
Day nineteen: Have you ever lied to avoid eating something?
Day twenty: Do you binge? How often and what triggers it?
Day twenty-one: Do you listen to music when you work out?

Week four!
Weekly challenge: Switch up your diet. Try one fruit and one vegetable you’ve never tried before, and learn how to cook a new healthy meal.

Day twenty-two: Are you generally smaller or larger than your friends?
Day twenty-three: Do you feel that your weight holds you back socially?
Day twenty-four: Is losing weight one of your top priorities in life?
Day twenty-five: Do you ever eat fast food?
Day twenty-six: Do you drink alcohol? What do you generally drink?
Day twenty-seven: Does shark week make you hungrier than usual, and do you allow yourself to eat more at this time of the month?
Day twenty-eight: Are there any foods or drinks that you have completely banned yourself from consuming, or do you believe in everything in moderation?

WE’RE HALF WAY THERE! How are you guys going? Don’t worry if you’ve messed up a few times, it happens to the best of us. The important thing is that you’ve made it this far and you’re still going. I’m proud of you J be proud of yourself!

Week 5!
Weekly challenge: Go and buy yourself a nice item of clothing one size too small, hang it somewhere visible. Think about how good it will feel when you can fit it!

Day twenty-nine: What is your current weight? Have you lost, gained, or maintained your weight since day one?
Day thirty: Do you have rewards for reaching goal weight? What are they?
Day thirty-one: What are your favourite healthy snacks?
Day thirty-two: What is your weakness/one food you just can’t say no to?
Day thirty-three: Will you continue to count calories once you reach your ultimate goal weight?
Day thirty-four: Will you continue with the same exercise routine once you reach your ultimate goal weight?
Day thirty-five: Do you mainly do cardio, strength training, or both?

Week 6!
Weekly challenge: Focus on one area of your body (eg. Arms/abs) and work hard on it every day of the week, I bet you’ll see a difference after 7 days!

Day thirty-six: What’s one item of clothing you’d like to wear after losing weight?
Day thirty-seven: What do you wear when you go swimming/to the beach?
Day thirty-eight: What do you generally order if you have to eat out at a restaurant?
Day thirty-nine: What has been the hardest thing you’ve had to give up?
Day forty: Have you gained weight at any point of your journey? How did this effect you?
Day forty-one: Do you drink tea or coffee?
Day forty-two: What is the meaning of life? Just kidding. If you feel happy with the way your body looks before you reach your ultimate goal weight, will you continue to try and lose weight, or will you aim to maintain?

Week 7!
Weekly challenge: Aim to have a completely “clean food” week, avoid all processed food!

Day forty-three: Apart from weight loss, have you noticed any other benefits from your healthy diet?
Day forty-four: Do you drink green tea? (If you don’t you should. Seriously.)
Day forty-five: Who is your main inspiration to lose weight? Not a celebrity, someone from real life.
Day forty-six: Do you have a favourite motivational quote?
Day forty-seven: Have you ever come close to giving up? What made you change your mind?
Day forty-eight: Did you start losing weight before making your blog?
Day forty-nine: What’s the stupidest thing you’ve done in an attempt to lose weight?

Week 8!
Weekly challenge: Treat yourself. You’ve come so far already! Even if you haven’t lost any weight, you deserve to treat yourself for not giving up. Paint your nails, go shopping, go to a movie, get your hair done, anything that makes you feel good about yourself!

Day fifty: What’s the most calories you’ve consumed in one day? Why?
Day fifty-one: What’s the least calories you’ve consumed in one day? Why?
Day fifty-three: What’s something you’ve done to make yourself proud?
Day fifty-four: Can you see any noticeable changes in your body?
Day fifty-five: Do you believe this is a lifestyle change, and you will be able to continue with a healthy, active lifestyle for the rest of your life?
Day fifty-six: What have you enjoyed most about your weight loss journey?
Day fifty-seven: What is your current weight? Have you lost any weight since day one?

Learn From Christ to Be Unselfish
5 In your life together, think the way Christ Jesus thought.

6 He was like God in every way,
but he did not think that his being equal with God was something to use for his own benefit.
7 Instead, he gave up everything, even his place with God.
He accepted the role of a servant, appearing in human form.
During his life as a man,
8 he humbled himself by being fully obedient to God,
even when that caused his death—death on a cross.
9 So God raised him up to the most important place
and gave him the name that is greater than any other name.
10 God did this so that every person will bow down to honor the name of Jesus.
Everyone in heaven, on earth, and under the earth will bow.
11 They will all confess, “Jesus Christ is Lord,”
and this will bring glory to God the Father.
— Philippians 2:5-11 ERV

Does Justice Need Love To Survive?

Sometimes I try hard to find a species of animal cute or loveable. I see posters and images from vegan organizations or blogs comparing a household pet to an animal that is commonly exploited. They ask, why love one but not the other? Oddly enough I can feel myself getting anxious, even angry sometimes, when I see these photos and read these heartfelt pleas. It’s an agitated feeling in the back of my mind that I can’t ignore if I’m being completely honest with myself. Because, you know, there are animals I would not let in my house. There are animals that I would not want to take care of. There are animals I know I would find unpleasant over time, or would annoy me with how they sound or smell. Some animals I just don’t feel a huge connection with. 

What I thought made me feel anxious about this, at first, was the idea that maybe one day I would give up being vegan because of these feelings - that if I secretly harbored some sort of distaste or animosity for any species, I might one day again be okay with having them harmed so long as I didn’t have to personally witness it, or cause it with my own hand. I mean, I’ve been vegan for about 7 years now, but there’s always some family member or friend hoping it’s “just a phase”, right?

But really, the issue is this: the idea that love is the sole motivation for not killing someone is absurd to me. Whether I find an animal cute being the basis of my judgement is absurd. Being able to love a creature really isn’t a stable basis for whether or not they deserve to live free from unnecessary harm. And I really think we need to be vocal with this concept.

There’s the lingering perception that people give up the use of animal products because they are welling with sympathy for all animals. That they tear up over seeing an animal harmed. There’s nothing wrong with loving every animal, for wanting to cuddle up next to every species or personally care for them. Being emotional isn’t bad. But what if you don’t love every animal? “Well, I just don’t love animals the way you do” is so often cited as the reasoning behind why we pet a cat but kill a pig, play fetch with a puppy but forcefully impregnate a cow. Why we treat animals differently, and why we think it’s logical. If we chose to have the same reasoning anywhere else, we’d be called insane.

You don’t like your boss. Will you kill them? You don’t like willow trees. Will you chop them all down? You don’t personally like a certain TV show very much. Will you petition to get it cancelled? You don’t love these things, but maybe you know someone who does. Even if you don’t, you likely see no need to cause harm to them. Chances are you might even go out of your way minimally not to cause harm to them, or to make life easier for them.

Some people will say “the reason I don’t kill my boss is because I would get caught; it’s illegal to kill another person and if I did that my life would be worse. I could get sent to jail, or people wouldn’t like me any more. It’s just in my best interest not to”. We do on many occasions consider the personal benefit our moral actions will hold. Praise, compensation, co-operation. Even just bragging rights. It’s a significant factor, but it’s not really the only factor, is it?

Most know that, given the opportunity to kill someone we do not really care for, we would not do it, could not do it. There’s no reason to do so. We would not be acting out of necessity but out of a temporary desire - one that we know very well will hurt someone else. Laws may keep us more aware of ethical boundaries, but it is the moral code in ourselves that will enforce it even when we have the chance to commit an unlawful act and get away with it. In fact, there are moments in life where one may feel compelled to break a law because they feel morally right in doing so, proving that at least for a sizable audience of people, the moral compass is stronger than the legal punishment.

When no one is watching, the average person still considers themselves a moral agent. When we meet people without this behaviour in our society, they are more often the criminals, the ostracized, those deemed malicious or harmful. Sometimes we even consider it an illness if someone cannot, over an extended period of time, act like a moral agent without the promise of personal gain. This is someone who continues to act maliciously to others whenever it appears they might get away with it.

I think there are enough people who realize that the majority of harm is unnecessary, but are continually tricked by both sides of the argument into believing that you must feel strong emotions (towards a cause, like a movement, political stance or religion) to act on that knowledge. To see justice as a reasonable outcome does not require us to love those being harmed. It simply requires us to ask ourselves what we believe is fair, and to furthermore ask if that answer coheres with our other believes and actions.

This is how we can love one, but not the other - and still understand that it isn’t necessary to harm either.

Sebastian Stan One-Shot

Your books and papers were scattered all across the living room floor. There was so much studying to be done, so many assignments to read and papers to write. You had been at this for hours, yet you still felt like you hadn’t gotten anything done all day. Words on pages were turning into blurs on pages and you sighed, running your hands through your hair.

Sebastian walked in, earlier than expected and you hadn’t even noticed his presence in the room. His eyebrow raised, he leaned against the doorframe between the kitchen and the living room with his arms crossed across his chest, watching you intently for a minute. “I’m worried about you.” He finally spoke, making you aware he was there. Moving forward, he took a seat across from you on the floor, sitting indian style. “I feel like you haven’t moved from this spot since I left this morning.”

You gave a hard laugh. A sarcastic laugh. He was absolutely right, but you couldn’t help but find it adorable that he was expressing his concern for you. “I haven’t moved from this spot since you left this morning. Except to pee. Twice. And to get coffee. Three times. Though to be fair, I carried two mugs at a time so…” You shrugged, a frown on your face. “And I might have eaten a poptart. But that’s about it.” Another shrug and you leaned forward, resting your head in your hand with your elbow on your knee.

Sebastian was skimming through some of the index cards sprawled out in front of him, smirking at the little doodles on the side of some of them. On one of the papers nearly full to the edge of notes he could faintly make out “I <3 Sebastian” on the side. He laughed lightly, looking up at you. “We can’t have you starving to death. Want to go to dinner? Give it a rest for a little? I’ll even let you pick the restaurant.”

You smile as you watch him skim through your whole academic life, literally laid out before him. Normally you might have been embarrassed that he was so curious, but your relationship had grown, you didn’t really have any secrets or part of your life that you hadn’t shared with him. His offer did make you perk up a bit, and the rumbling in your stomach said you did need to eat something. But you were a workaholic, and a perfectionist, and there was no way you were going to just stop before you had memorized everything from the last chapter of your textbook. “But darling, I think starving comes with the many benefits of being in law school. Plus, I haven’t showered, I smell like I’ve been cryogenically frozen for the last seventy years. Almost hobo-like.” You couldn’t help but tease him. Plus, it helped you feel a bit less frazzled. Something familiar other than legal terms.

His eyes squinted and he nodded his head slowly. “I see how you want to play it. Alright, if you don’t want steak tacos smothered in red onions and fresh cilantro with a side of fritos, I can’t say I didn’t offer.” Slowly, he started to get up off of the floor. He was cruel, and he knew it by the way your stomach grumbled.

“Bring me home some?” This time you looked up at him with your most innocent puppy-dog eyes you could muster up. But it wasn’t working.

“Nope. You either come with me or you eat another cherry poptart.” He was fully standing now, adjusting his jacket. “Okay, here’s a deal. I’ll start your shower while you clean up all of this… Law and Order stuff.” Sebastian moved slowly towards the bathroom. “Dun dun dun dun duuuuun…” He was now singing the theme song to Law and Order and you giggled.

“I don’t know, Seb. I really have a lot of stuff to do.” It was more of a whine, but in the back of your head you knew it had to be done.

“No ifs, ands, or butts. You’re showering, we’re getting tacos.” He wasn’t hearing it. He didn’t even turn around.

“But there’s litigations I have to go over and testimonies I have to review and all of these terms-”

“Objection!” He yelled, cutting you off, turning around to show you just how serious he was with his brooding look. “You’re done studying. I want time with my girlfriend.”

A small smile spread across your lips. He clearly wanted to spend time with you. Finally you sighed, defeated. “Sustained.” You didn’t even bother to clean up. “But you’re showering with me.”

Eyebrow raised, he quickly took off his jacket, throwing it on the couch. “No objection there.”