did you really want to kill yourself

So I want to explain some things and ask for some feedback

A. I finally posted a youtube video! and I want to explain some things about that channel, my goal is to make it family friendly, or so that if someone new finds it they won’t know that it was a recovery recipe

No anorexia stuff will be mentioned

I may do some DIY’s so you can show a recipe to your parents and it wont just be recipes

No curse words will be in the comments

B. I want some feedback on how the video was (if you watched it) either in the comments of it (or here) be as critical as you need 

Was the editing okay (besides the watermark that will not be there next time)

Was there stuff there that shouldnt have been there?

Did you want to kill yourself after you heard my voice?

Or anything else I need to change

I really liked doing the video and hope to do one or two a week! We will see how that goes xD

Addiction starter sentences

“What happened to staying clean for me?!”
“I’m supposed to believe this is you being sober? I’m not buying it.”
“How many glasses have you had?!”
“If you want to keep smoking, you’ll have to go outside.”
“You told me you’d stop…”
“You promised I wouldn’t find you like this again!”
“Wanna shoot up?”
“Have you been drinking? It’s not even noon!”
“Let me smell your breath.”
“What have you used this time?”
“I see you’re still wasting away your days.”
“How much did you take? Can you still hear me?!”
“Are you trying to kill yourself?!”
“I thought that place was going to make you better…”
“You know if you go on like this, I’ll have to send you back to rehab. Is that what you want?”
“Can you remember when we didn’t need this yet?”
“Is the heroin really more important to you than I am?!”
“Are you sure this stuff is safe?”
“Right, that’s it, you’re going cold turkey.”
“No, sit down! You’re having a bad trip. Let me help you.”
“Have you any idea how much it hurts me to see you like this?!”

battle of the blades au

Laurent was beginning to think that Damen either hated him or loved him. It was hard to tell for certain, because the look that existed in Damen’s eyes after Laurent made him redo the step sequence or told him to balance himself more on his pick or yelled ‘no, do it again and do it better’ after every single - probably acceptable - jump was one of steely resolution. It seemed like Damen wanted to win this competition as much as Laurent did, except that he had none of the same reasons, so it really came down to  where his motivations lied. Either he was determined for determination’s sake and was therefore willing to put up with Laurent’s brutality…  or he was doing it for Laurent himself.

Laurent didn’t really care so long as the effort was there.

“Sometimes I think you’re trying to kill me,” Damen said as he recovered from the latest bout of Laurent’s insatisfaction.

“Sometimes I think you would actually push yourself to that point just to complete this program.”

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Still not over the newest Malec promo tbh. OK, I know we are all stressed out now. As much as we all wanted bamf!Magnus (well, I did and I still do!) and angst, why not giving us some fluff for a change I am sure you are all asking yourself.

Well, just think about this: From what I gather so far, the new scenes seem to be all from the pilot if you ask me. And honestly? The big “argument” looks like it might happen after/before this pic:

Which also leads me to think that it happens before Alec and Maryse have their argument/fight regarding Jace going with Valentine. The scene where Alec says “Jace is closer than blood.”

AND I think we can all pretty much agree that after that, and even though Alec and Magnus probably went their seperate ways after the fight in the institute (which we saw in the trailer), Magnus is still the only person Alec will go to.

Look at this pic. Very closely. Magnus doesn’t exactly look like he is happy at all. He is most likely even annoyed at Alec that he comes to see him after pretty much shutting him out after their fight. You can even see it when you take a closer look at Alec’s posture. Being welcomed and happy to see his boyfriend Magnus clearly looks different.

But if you ask me, they will work things out. Remember “When things got crazy, don’t push me away?”


And I believe after they talk about that argument, the famous “Alec dropped his stele” scene will happen.

What I am trying to say: JUST RELAX, PEOPLE!!!

We all knew that angst was about to happen because the thing with Jace is way too important for Alec to just go all “lovey dovey”. But they will get through it. Heck, they will go on a date in 2x06. Besides, Malec is canon. AND endgame. No need to go crazy. All will be fine. Pretty much everyone involved in the show told us that. ;)


As the clock hits 11:59, you finally get Dean to yourself, holding your glass to his and giving him a small smile. 

“So, it’s new years eve.” Dean clears his throat, clinking his glass with yours, “Got a resolution?”

You take a sip of the cheap champagne Sam picked up, and sigh, “Try not to get killed?” you smirk, shaking your head when he chuckles, “I don’t really know, I kind of just want to…be more brave, I guess.”

“You’re pretty brave if you ask me, Y/N,” Dean says, stepping a bit closer, “I mean, you did take out that Rugaru all by yourself.” he says, a slight smirk on his lips. 

“Yeah, not like you helped,” you tease, reaching out and tugging his shirt a bit, trying not to blush, “But that’s not the kind of brave I want to be,” you shrug, “I want to do the things I want to do.”


“And what would that be?” 


He steps closer, and you lick your lips looking up into his green eyes. 


“A lot of things.” you say quietly, glancing at his lips. 


Dean sets his drink down, but keeps his eyes on you, “Tell me.”


You shake your head and feel your heart rate start to pick up, and you reach out to tug at his shirt again, “I…”


Dean licks his lips and your eyes track the movement, “Tell me.”


“Dean,” you breathe out, looking back into his eyes, “I’m going to do what I’ve wanted to do for a long, long time.”


“Yeah?” he says quietly, eyes locked on your lips


You take a deep breath and slide your hand up his chest, keeping your eyes on his, watching for any negative signs, “Yeah.”


Your lips press against his and his fingers are in your hair almost immediately, tilting his head and deepening the kiss until you sigh. He smiles and lets his left hand slide down your body, gripping your hip and pulling you closer. His tongue slips past your lips and you pull him even closer, loving the way his thumb slips under your shirt and rubs circles against your skin. You lightly scratch the back of his scalp and he groans, making you smile and pull away, giggling when he blindly chases your lips. 

Kissing him once more, you wrap your hand around the back of his neck and look into his lust blown eyes, “Happy New Year, Dean.”

He gives you an eye crinkling smile, and a small chuckle, kissing you again and mumbling against your lips, “Happy New Year, Y/N.”

You Know I’m Not Going To Hurt You

Originally posted by churchofmiles

Requested By Anon.

Request: Can I request #12 with Peter?? I love you’re writing, you’re really talented!


I was walking fast. Peter was right behind me, following me. Why? I don’t know. Peter scared the living shuck out of me. He was unpredictable. Especially after what he did to Edward. How can you live with yourself, knowing that you stabbed an innocent boy in the eye with a butter knife, while he slept? Ever since then, I had done everything in my power to avoid Peter. But he seemed to have noticed that I’m avoiding him. Either that, or he wants to kill me.

Turning the corner, hoping to lose him, I was met with a dead end. Great. This is just great. I spin around, and right in front of me, stands Peter. He takes a step towards me, making me take a step back. We repeat this process until my back hits the wall. Perfect.

He comes closer, until he is only a few inches away from my face. “You’re avoiding me aren’t you?”

I don’t answer, I only look him straight in the eyes.

“Are you scared of me?” He wonders.

I nod slightly, hoping he didn’t see me do it, but he did.

“Why? You know I’m not going to hurt you. I only did that to Edward to ensure myself a spot in Dauntless. You, my dear, have done nothing that causes me to want to harm you.” I said.

“And why do you care if I’m avoiding you are not?” I squeak out.

“Maybe because I think you’re beautiful, and I really like you.” He answers.


“I like you.” Is all he said, before pressing his lips to mine.

anonymous asked:

After I told my bf that I was uncomfortable with him flirting with other girls and having them sit in his lap, he sent me this text that was filled with lovely words and made me feel that we would always be in love. He broke up with me the next day. Since then he has been flirting with other girls and then looking at me and smirking, and he doesn't realize how much pain he has been putting me in. I want to die, to barricade my heart to the point that no one can harm it again. I want to die

I’m so sorry for you. If that happened it’s because he never really liked you for what you are. That guy’s a douche and believe me that one day he’ll regret all he did to you and to any other girl. And please don’t say that you want to end your life. Killing yourself is never the solution. I know it hurts now, but believe me that someone will come along that will see you for what you really are and will give you nothing but love like nobody ever did before. You just have to be by yourself for a while, learn to love yourself. All your flaws but also your strong points. One day this will all seem like a story you’ll laugh about.

  • [After the rumble]
  • Sodapop: Boy, that escalated quickly. I mean that really got out of hand fast!
  • Ponyboy: It jumped up a notch.
  • Sodapop: It did, didn't it?
  • Steve: Yeah, I stabbed a man in the heart.
  • Sodapop: I saw that! Steve killed a guy. Did you throw a trident?
  • Steve: Yeah, there were horses and a man on fire and I killed a guy with a trident.
  • Sodapop: Steve, I've been meaning to talk to you about that. You should find yourself a safe house or a relative close by because you're probably wanted for murder.
  • Rodolphus: Boy, that escalated quickly... I mean, that really got out of hand fast.
  • Amycus: It jumped up a notch.
  • Rodolphus: It did, didn't it?
  • Lucius: Yeah, I stabbed a man in the heart.
  • Rodolphus: I saw that. Lucius killed a guy. Did you throw a trident?
  • Lucius: Yeah, there were horses, and a man on fire, and I killed a guy with a trident.
  • Amycus: Lucius, I've been meaning to talk to you about that. You should find yourself a safehouse or a relative close by. Lay low for a while, because you're probably wanted for murder.
Angst Starter Sentences

Send “what’s the matter?” and I will generate a number for what my muse will say to yours.

  1. Are you going to hurt me?
  2. How could you do this to me?
  3. Why did you hit me?
  4. Did you kill that person?
  5. You’re going to get hurt!
  6. I don’t want to love you but I do!
  7. I don’t feel safe around you!
  8. You’re too good for me.
  9. You’re not good enough.
  10. I don’t want you to leave me!
  11. Stop it! You’re killing him!
  12. You need to leave, now!
  13. You really shouldn’t be here.
  14. I killed a man.
  15. I’m really sick.
  16. When will you grow up?
  17. I’m leaving you!
  18. Don’t touch me!
  19. There’s blood all over you!
  20. I don’t need your bullshit!
  21. I’m better off on my own.
  22. You lied to me!
  23. I heard you crying earlier…
  24. I’m dying!
  25. You only care about yourself!
  26. I saw what you did.
  27. Why are you looking at me like that?
  28. I just wish you’d stop drinking.
  29. Did I do something wrong?
  30. Can’t you just be nice for once?
How about no?!

  • he will freeze for a few seconds, determining if his brain is just playing tricks on him or if really someone dared to touch you
  • then question what you thought
  • really what did you thought? He’s the fucking king of drama
  • once he is able to move again, he will not stop talking and trying to figure out who did it
  • definitely will kill anyone who hurt you and torture those of your allies who didn’t prevent your wounds from happening
  • if you let him go loose, no one will ever want to do missions with you for their own safety
  • you not seeing your injuries as a big deal, which drives him nuts
  • the only time, you will ever see him angry, like really angry
  • in the end, you will make a memo for yourself that you will never come to him after a mission, before you at least showered

“Here, take my jacket.” You whisper to Maggie and you put her the jacket around her shoulders. Quick you hide your arms behind your back.
“What the fuck was that?” Negan asks as he comes to you.
“Nothing. I-I just gave her my ja-jacket. Sorry.” You stutter and Negan bends down to you.
“That’s not what I mean. Show me your arms.” You swallow hard as you show him the cuts on your forearm. His eyes widen for a moment before he almost tenderly touches the scars.
“What happened that you did that to yourself?” His eyes are soft and you can’t believe that this is the same man who talked two minutes ago about killing and ‘shit’.
Except Maggie and Rick nobody knows why you did that so you really don’t want to tell it Negan, but you aren’t sure what he’d do if you don’t say anything.
“I had a boyfriend and he was nice until-,” You take a deep breath before you continue to talk. “until I became pregnant. He freaked out, screamed at me a-and then.” You start to cry. “He-he kicked me in the sto-stomach.”
“What?” Negan growls and seems really upset about your story. “Is this fucker still alive?” He asks and you shake your head, smiling for a moment.
“No, I made sure after the apocalypse that he had no chance.” He looks proud for a moment and you bite your lip, wondering how easy it was to tell him the truth.
“Do you still hurt yourself?”
“No, sometimes I want to. But then I remembered myself that it wouldn’t change anything.” You smile sad and he nods.
“Good girl.” He stands up. “Dwight, David. Bring her back to Alexandria.”
Your eyes widen in shock and you want to protest, but Rick shakes his head.
“It’s okay, go.” He says and with weak knees you follow Dwight and David.

Since the line up Negan comes once a week to Alexandria, talking to you and makes sure that you didn’t hurt yourself.
At first it was kind of confusing for you that the leader of the Saviors take care of you, but there was something in his eyes.
Something that tells you that he understands you to be powerless when you can’t protect what you love.


A/N: I had a hard time writing this. I tried not romanticize this theme, because I know that some of you struggle with this like I did. So whenever you need to talk, I’m here for you. ❤️

  • Kunikida: Boy, that escalated quickly... I mean, that really got out of hand fast.
  • Tanizaki: It jumped up a notch.
  • Kunikida: It did, didn't it?
  • Kenji: Yeah, I stabbed a man in the heart.
  • Kunikida: I saw that. Kenji killed a guy. Did you throw a trident?
  • Kenji: Yeah, there were horses, and a man on fire, and I killed a guy with a trident.
  • Kunikida: Kenji, I've been meaning to talk to you about that. You should find yourself a safehouse or a relative close by. Lay low for a while, because you're probably wanted for murder.
It’s my dads birthday today so,,

so its march 22nd, my dads birthday.

in april 2015 my dad died from cancer, i was just turning 13 at the time so it was really hard for me but lets not talk about me its his birthday, so hes 62 now and dad i wish you could see me now, you said you wanted a son and im sorry you had to leave before you found out you did have one, even though you yelled at me a lot and sometimes i’d talk about how much i hated you, it wasnt your fault. you were in pain for those 2 years killing yourself from the inside, and im sorry we had to act like that, im sorry i had to act like that, i was really dumb at that time i was still a kid and i didnt fully process that my dad was going to die. i know you said to me artists dont make a lot of money but just you wait, im gonna surprise the fuck out of you, and not just you, mom, the people at school, and everyone who once knew me. and a couple of weeks ago a sub came in because my first period teacher was in the hospital and he looked just like you, and he had your accent too, he told me i should work hard and im pretty sure that knocked a little bit of sense into me even though i was going through something, i wasnt born to disappoint you, and i wont. so dad, happy birthday and where ever you are, maybe youre a baby now or a flower or in heaven or somewhere far in the universe, i hope you have an awesome time.

tuffoutsiders  asked:

mckayla!!! please don't kill yourself!!! ugh i just love you so much man and you got me obssesed with paul anka so thank you!! you're just a great friend even if we don't talk much, you're so beautiful, and so sweet. i really don't want you to kill yourself. please don't, i wouldn't get over it if you did.

Frock me up thank you so much, ily too, so much, I’m glad I’ve gotten you into Paul Anka, that makes me happy, I’ll try to talk to you more, I just haven’t been in the best mental state :’( I’m so sorry

I am in shock right now because I legit just saw someone compare Jack Thompson/Cartson to Kilgrave/JessicaxKilgrave. Like really?

Jack Thompson does not kill people for the fun of it.

Jack Thompson does not take away people’s agency and make them do horrible things.

Jack Thompson has never raped anyone.

I get that Jack took credit for what Peggy did and yes he may be a sexist jerk-face (with sometimes questionable cowardice), but he is not a psychopathic rapist like Kilgrave.

Stop trying to make all flawed men equal…THEY ARE NOT. You can dislike Jack Thompson all you want, but do not convince yourself that he is as bad as Kilgrave.  I suspect that as the second season of Agent Carter goes on Jack will begin to change into someone we can at least tolerate (unless like me you already like him). However, there is nothing that anyone can do to ever make me like Kilgrave or ship him with another human being.

I normally don’t make posts like this, but I just can’t believe I read that. Please just STAHP!!!

Something that occurred to me, once, about the difference between Moriarty in Sherlock and Moriarty in Elementary.

Jamie cared about money, control and power but, yes, she really did want to be with Sherlock in the end. She spent months with him. She loved him. 

That’s why she was caught in the end. She got weak. Her tears at the end of season one say it all.

James, meanwhile. didn’t care about anything. He’d given up on love ages ago.(He’s been killing people since he was 12.)All he had was his obsession with Sherlock. It’s sad. 

No matter how you spin it, killing yourself over a man you’ve only known in 10 or less minutes in person is rather quite pathetic.  


If you want something to be done right you should do it yourself.
I hate what writers did to Stelena, and Elena especially. So… I made my own version of what could have happened to them. I hope you’ll enjoy it.
This is dedicated to all Stelena fandom, who was treated like crap for last 3 years. I tried really hard to make something nice for you :3

  • Gilbert: Boy, that escalated quickly. I mean that really got out of hand fast!
  • Vincent: It jumped up a notch.
  • Gilbert: It did, didn't it?
  • Vincent: Yeah, I stabbed a man in the heart.
  • Gilbert: I saw that! Vince killed a guy. Did you throw a trident?
  • Vincent: Yea, there were horses and a man on fire and I killed a guy with a trident.
  • Gilbert: Vince, I've been meaning to talk to you about that. You should find yourself a safe house or a relative close by because you're probably wanted for murder.
  • <p> <b><p></b> <b>Me:</b> *is having a great day*<p/><b>Favorite Person:</b> *is sad*<p/><b>Me:</b> I'm sorry! Let me help you feel better <3<p/><b>
  • Favorite Person: </b> Sorry, I really don't want to talk about it<p/><b>Bpd:</b> Look what you did! They obviously didn't want your help and you just made them feel worse! You're a piece of shit, how dare you keep being happy. Why don't you just kill yourself already??<p/><b>Me:</b> :') :')<p/></p><p/></p>