did you cry today

I can’t believe Jin imitated Jimin and Jungkook crying HAHA

Trans: Did you see Jimin cry today? I saw Jimin and Jungkook on the screen and they cried like this *imitates them*I figured, these friends. I felt for them. They were so full of emotion. But I have to keep my dignity as the eldest member, right? I acted like I was scared and looked at other members. I looked around to see how everyone is doing. Jimin and Jungkook *imitates them again* cried like this. That was cute. I understand since they’re younger. 

bang pd nim more like min yoongi bs&t era 50 years later ((@ anyone who’s reblogging this i am nOt making fun of him cmon im going emo all over the tags;_;))

anonymous asked:

okay but now im crying because im imagining that patton is the only one who understands that anxiety is so insecure and so just at like evey possible moment he gives words of encouragement. "and anxiety, you're-" "no whatever you asked me to do i didnt!" "-standing there and sulking in the corner!! good job!"

He wants to make sure Anxiety knows that people care for him, and is just overly optimistic and supportive of everything he does.

“Good job, Sport! You got out ta bed today!”

“Wonderful, that’s your second snack today! That’s more than yesterday!”

“Ah, look at you standing there glaring, I bet you worked hard on that glare!”

“Its okay, if you need to cry, there’s nothing to be ashamed of. You did your best today, and you were wonderful, sometimes things just don’t go to plan.”

Good and Bad Days Pennywise x Reader

Anonymous asked:
Hello, could I request a Pennywise fanfic, where he hugs and cuddles and comforts me? I’ve been having heavy thoughts on suicide lately..

Warning: Angst, mention of depression and suicidal thoughts

Note: If you feel depressed or suicidal thoughts please please please talk to someone about it. Suicide health line, a friend, a family member you can trust, a random nice looking stranger. Just someone. They can help. Please don’t say your okay or deny it because dealing with this on a daily basis is terrible for you and your loved ones.

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Originally posted by pixeljeff

Originally posted by vanish

As soon as you got home from a long, hard day the first thing you did was go to your bed, and cry. Today was horrible. The forecast didn’t mention it was go to be gloomy and downpouring hard so many people including you weren’t prepared and that had caused more than a few students at your school to be grouchy.

Not to mention the customers at your local job were snappy and rude. One man had rudely told you to go f yourself after you tried to as sweetly as you could say “Have a nice day.”

Then a woman snapped at you because you had asked her to repeat herself when she said she didn’t want any cream in her coffee. At school your teachers were mean and constantly scolding you like little kids.

They even assigned extra homework just to prove how bitchy they were.

That was why you were currently laying face down in your pillow ugly crying. Your mom was working late and your dad was on a business trip so there was no on there to comfort you.

At least that’s what you assumed.

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astro witch coven au (moonbin)

introduction | rocky | eunwoo | moon bin | mj | jinjin

  • Astro’s resident Charmer

    • Rocky insists on calling him a Talisman creator but Bin personally thinks “charmer” fits his Very Attractive Face very well

    • He deals with charms and spells and puts them into objects to protect or to curse or to do stupid things like fly around Rocky’s head

  • ½ of the Lil Shit line  

  • I swear to god he’s such a little shit

  • Loves pranking the rest of the Coven

    • Loves charming multiple things to fly around Rocky’s head

      • And it pisses Rocky off so incredibly much

      • Once he made Rocky’s metal ladle fly about a metre above his head for about 10 minutes before Rocky glowered at him and threatened to slip a skin colour changing potion into his drink

      • He put it down pretty quickly

      • Rocky put the potion in his drink anyway as a lesson

    • Loves loves loves pranking Sanha

      • Once he stole a dead beetle from Rocky’s potion ingredients stash and asked Sanha to hold it temporarily while he went to the bathroom

      • But he added a Vibration spell beforehand and just as he left Sanha alone it started twitching

      • Sanha screamed so loudly nearly all his hyungs came running

      • I mean they all laughed but Sanha nearly cried

      • Once also he charmed several crystals with a Shouting spell

      • And put them all near places Sanha frequents like the bathroom and the stairs and the kitchen and whatnot

      • And every time Sanha went near those places it shouted, really loudly, “MJ, JINJIN, CHA EUNWOO, MOONBIN, ROCKY, YOON SANHA, A S T RO” in his ear

      • And Sanha yelped EVER Y T I M E it was hilarious

      • It also got Bin a whack on the head by Eunwoo because “even though it’s hilarious it’s not nice to bully a yoUNG CHILD, I HOPE YOU KNOW THAT” yeah

  • A ridiculously talented charmer Talisman Creator

    • His mum says it’s because he was born under some star or whatever Bin didn’t really listen because he was too busy doing other things

    • But when he was 8 his powers started to manifest very very strongly and his parents had to send him away to a stronger coven to train

    • I mean, his parents run a pretty small charm shop and they’re fairly good with energy and charms

    • But Bin’s magic became hard to control even for skilled witches like themselves he began dispelling excess energy into inanimate objects

    • Once Bin’s dad came home to find his pots and pans dancing around the kitchen and Su A crying because of the sheer amount of noise her brother was making

    • So Bin’s mum sent him away to a family friend

    • Speaking of which

  • Trained under Ravi from the VIXX coven

    • So he joined them when he was 8 and he was the most powerful young witch they’ve ever trained

    • Which is saying something because all the witches there had dealt with at least 3 apprentices each before

    • And the last most powerful witch they apprenticed ended up being part of their coven aka Hyuk

    • Story time

      • So when Bin’s mum brings him in to meet N Bin is really really afraid

      • He’s eight and he doesn’t want to live far away from his family with these strange tall beings he wants to stay home and he wants to run around with Su A and watch as his blue flows through with her lavender

      • And so he goes kicking and screaming to the VIXX coven

      • But when he gets there he sees sparkling, shiny crystals floating around N and he sees how they glow with a soft, pale blue light and his heart immediately aches because he wants to do that

      • And when N places a small Calming charm in his hand he feels the magic running through it and pulsing into his veins and he’s suddenly giddy with the power and peaceful all at once and he knows he wants to make this happen

      • And so he pushes up his tiny glasses and tugs on his mum’s hand and tells her quietly that he’ll see her later because he wants to go with Uncle N (cue N squawking indignantly that he is not An Uncle, thank you very much) to learn how to charm things

      • And his mum just pats his head and tells him with tears in her eyes that she’s proud of him and to behave and that she’ll see him during the weekend

    • But yeah the VIXX members quickly pick up Bin as part of their group it’s so cute

      • He’s apprenticed under Ravi but he takes lessons from everyone

      • I mean, he’s messed up a couple times and sometimes it’s hilarious

        • See: the time Ravi taught him to make a Waterproof charm and made Bin test it out on himself by dumping a bucketful of water on his head and seeing if he stayed dry

        • Hint: he didn’t

        • Which is a story in itself

      • And sometimes it’s alarming

        • When Bin thought he made a pretty good Fireproof talisman and threw the charmed pebble into the fire

        • It was Not Fireproof it was Flammable

        • RIP VIXX’s fireplace

  • Loves 2 sleep

  • No kidding

    • Naps everywhere

    • Anytime

    • As long as he’s not watching over some crystal formation or some energy channel he’s napping

    • He’s a tired baby please forgive him

  • Loves 2 eat

    • Also not kidding

    • Eats everything

    • Anywhere

    • Anytime

    • I woke up at 7am to watch Bin’s eating livestream he was adorable he was so painfully boyfriend please kill me

    • Eunwoo’s often wondered if he’s stored his stomach in a separate talisman or something and that’s why he can eat so much

    • But no, it’s really because Bin loves all and any food

    • But it’s also because he uses a shit ton of energy when he seals spells and charms into different talismans so he snacks all the time and eats a lot at meals

    • He likes to joke it’s him leaving a bit of himself in every talisman he creates but it’s not that much of a joke because it’s kind of true

  • Also loves to flirt

    • I’m kidding really he ‘flirts’ with everyone but he doesn’t really mean to do it????

    • It’s mostly his smile I think he just grins and everyone kind of lowkey falls under his spell

    • Haha see what I did there

    • And when he opens his mouth literally everything sounds flirty

    • (swings by the Seventeen coven to deliver charms to Mingyu)

      • “hey love, how’re you doing?” @ mingyu

      • not even a flirty sentence

      • but he’s grinning at Mingyu and Mingyu has a faint blush spreading across his cheeks

      • “wow uh Nothing Much” mmhmm very coherent Mingyu

      • no lie my roommate was once actually so flustered she actually said this out loud then walked into like 3 people

      • “Oh, and I added an extra crystal in there along with your order, by the way. I had an extra one lying around begging for a Happiness charm.” (adds on a wink) @ Mingyu

      • Mingyu, in his head: “mmasdhfkljsajskdfhlkasjd”

      • Bin: (accidentally has to deal with a glowering Wonwoo)

      • now Wonwoo deals with all the deliveries to the Seventeen coven house in case that one Charmer comes again and tries to flirt with his boy

    • ok but truth the very first time he went to deliver charms with Ken to learn his delivery route was when he was like 10 and Ken deemed him capable of controlling his powers outdoors  

      • and literally nearly everyone fell in love with this boy

      • all the old witches cooed over him

      • even the grumpy potions master over at the Bangtan coven loved Bin he actually smiled at Bin and gave him a piece of candy that Ken checked meticulously for signs of tampering even though Ken’s been going there for forever and he’s never even gotten a smile  

      • literally the most precious child my heart is in pain I love baby Bin

  • Changes hair colour every 2 or 3 weeks

    • Usually it’s a side effect of a spell

    • He’d be using too much energy to do something by accident and the energy would spill over in the atmosphere and dance around the closest living thing

    • It used to be a plant he kept next to the table and it used to sprout randomly coloured flowers but one day MJ swiped it for a blood ritual and it was never returned to him so

    • Now the energy hovers around him and sometimes when he straightens up all the excited energy floats around his head and runs through his hair

    • And you’d just see Bin’s eyes shining in concentration through a blue stream of magic

    • So sometimes you’ll see him in the morning with deep purple hair and in the afternoon you’ll see him with pastel blue hair

    • It throws Eunwoo off sometimes but Eunwoo loves all his colours anyway

    • Sometimes it dances around Eunwoo’s head and all Eunwoo does is lean back from the blue clouds and watch it flow excitedly

    • And sometimes Bin watches him

  • Is so so so incredibly soft for a small bean with a beautiful eyesmile it’s not even funny at this point

    • IT’S SO OBVIOUS TO ALL THE MEMBERS

    • To everyone but Eunwoo tbh

    • I mean the moment he met Eunwoo he was Whipped™ for that man

    • What’s that

    • You want to hear the story of how they met ????

    • Well I guess I gotta

    • Here we go

    • Bin was in the middle of training with Hyuk and Hyuk was trying to teach him a Pain hex charm

    • Which requires a lot of energy by the way since Pain hexes need the charmer to have an evil (? Negative?) intention

    • But Bin’s always discharged his negative energy by pulling pranks on all his members in the VIXX coven

    • So it was really difficult for him to pull negative energy from the air

    • (Hyuk said it’d get easier as it went on because the longer you live the angrier you get at the world but Bin isn’t sure if he wants that to happen)

    • And so sitting with 10 crystals floating around his head and Hyuk sitting opposite him Bin starts to cast the hex

    • Fast forward three hours

    • It’s just the same thing but with more frustration

    • And more light blue energy floating about his head

    • And Hyuk falling asleep

    • Fast forward another 2 hours and Bin’s passed out on the floor with a cut on his forehead because one of the crystals was a bit too zealous in its spinning

    • And Hyuk’s kneeling over him and smacking his face and he’s not moving at all and Hyuk is panicking slightly and he doesn’t know what to do and

    • Next thing they know Hongbin’s levitating Bin out the door and Ravi’s in the car and they’re driving as fast as they can to the nearest Healing house

    • And this was back when Eunwoo was still training with Snuper

    • So Ravi just bursts into the house and Hongbin’s shuffling Bin into the house and all the Healers look up from different spots around the house at the noise

    • And the first one downstairs is Eunwoo and he’s snapping out a thin sheet onto a Healing table so Hongbin can set Bin down and everything is happening all at once and way too fast

    • And Ravi’s talking a mile a minute at Eunwoo about the hex Bin was trying to master and the crystals are circling agitatedly around Bin’s head and Hongbin’s chewing on his lip and trying not to let tears slip out

    • But the more Ravi explains about the hex the more worried Eunwoo gets about this pale boy that’s getting increasingly weaker as time slips by so Eunwoo stares right into Bin’s face and places a single finger on Bin’s forehead because wow if anything, Eunwoo is sure this boy is too beautiful to die

    • And instantly a spark of green runs down Eunwoo’s arm and shocks into Bin and there’s a flash of blue as Bin jolts on the table

    • And suddenly the table is smoking with blue and green magic

    • It’s so heady it sends the two Charm witches reeling and Hongbin and Ravi have to sit down and the witch on the Healing table beside Bin’s blinks sleepily and starts to sit up

    • And suddenly Bin’s eyes fly open and meet Eunwoo’s and wo w

    • Wow

    • Woooooow

    • Bin has to blink a couple times because wow is he dead already?

    • He didn’t even get to say goodbye to his parents

    • Or his sister :(

    • But ??? he can ask this angel to help him tell them, I guess?

    • Wait

    • Do witches go to heaven

    • He’s not sure but he’s pretty sure he’s in heaven because there’s no way this angel belongs in hell

    • Wait

    • The angel’s talking

    • And he looks worried?????? The angel keeps blinking and Bin vaguely starts counting the number of beautiful long eyelashes

    • And suddenly Bin’s ears unclog and he hears Ravi and Hongbin murmuring worriedly and the angel asking him if he’s alright

    • Oh dear if Ravi and Hongbin are here does it mean they were killed too oh God Bin didn’t mean to do this he never meant for any of this to hap-

    • And then he hears Eunwoo say, “Oh thank goodness you’ve woken up, we thought you were going to die…”

    • And it’s the softest thing he’s ever heard wow how can someone have a voice like a windchime????

    • Wait

    • He’s alive

    • He’s ALIVE

    • And the first thing he says is

    • “Are you real? Like, not an angel?”

    • And he watches as the not-angel flushes

    • “Yeah,,,,,,,,,,,,,,”

    • And instantly even with his forehead stinging and his legs weak he props himself up on his forearms and grins through the pain at Eunwoo

    • “Well, did it hurt when you fell from Heaven?”

    • And immediately he feels Ravi roll his eyes and Hongbin smacks him on the back of his head

    • But Eunwoo is smiling and blushing and his smile is so so so beautiful Bin get stunned into silence once more and obeys Hongbin’s hands as he gets laid down once more on the table

    • Until he realises that this particular angel’s method of healing is by touch and he flushes

    • Truly a blessing

    • I guess you could say

    • He was touched by an angel

    • Please shoot me

(dabs) i’m nearly done with finals i’ve got 2 more papers on thursday and friday then i’ll write something short about how Eunwoo recruited Bin into Astro (dabs again)

The moment when you realize how many people in the entire archipelago have ever come to the top of Snotlout’s heart…

“Astrid, do you need a shoulder to cry on?” (Team Astrid)

“Did I tell you you look amazing today? ‘Cause you do.” (HTTYD 2)

“Did you miss me? I think you did. That’s why you threw that tree at me.” (Have Dragon Will Travel pt.1)

“Finally, someone recognizes my worth!” (Defenders of the Wing pt.2)

“He’s amazing~” (Big Man on Berk)

“Bring it in, but this time, for the real thing.” (Maces & Talons pt.1)

“Is Dagur coming? He’s so COOL!” (Twinsanity)

Impressive.

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잘 먹네 😁👍
오늘의 사실
1.난 안 울었어
2.형 솔로 무대 끝나고 감독님은 아무 말씀 없으셨어😒
#JIMIN
#잇진

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Today Fact
1. I did not cry
2. After Hyung solo, the director did not say anything.😒
#JIMIN
#EatJin

Be Okay- Harry Styles Imagine

Warnings: Language and self deprecation

A/N: Hope you guys enjoy this story I put together! Sorry that the ending isn’t the best, I just really wanted to post it before going to sleep so I rushed it. Thanks lovelies<3

Ever since the boys split up, fans have been looking for someone or something to point their fingers at. Of course, there were some fans that understood that the boys of One Direction just needed to go their separate ways. But others wanted to blame one person in particular, you.

Your relationship with Harry started a couple months before Zayn left and has been going strong since. However, due to the timing of you starting to date Harry, a few fans like to blame you for the destruction of One Direction. Lately, however, the hate has gotten worse. You had prayed that with Harry releasing new music, the birth of Liam’s baby, and the other guys being successful with their dreams, that the hurtful comments and hate would stop. Unfortunately, you have never been more wrong.

Scrolling through twitter, Instagram, and other social media sites often left you in tears as you saw comment after comment about how you’re a “bitch”, “whore”, and much worse. Harry of course, knew about the hate, and he tried his best to help you get through it. But you felt as though he just didn’t completely understand. Here he was getting constant love form all his fans, meanwhile they are trying to tear you apart and break you.

Today was the worst experience with hate that you have seen so far. Although seeing the hurtful comments was hard, this one was nearly unbearable. As you walked out of the store with your friend, you could almost sense that something was off. However, you weren’t sure what it was until you were standing next to your car.

At first you could barely even tell it was your car. It was almost unrecognizable with the spray paint across its blue hood. The words read “die bitch” in white letters. The driver’s side windows were completely smashed, leaving traces of glass all over the seats and the ground.

“We should call someone” your friend says quietly. No words could come out of your mouth, only small sobs, and tears strolling down your cheeks. “Do you want me to call your parents or Harry?”

“No” you choked out. “I’ll be fine. Let’s just call a cab. I’ll take care of this when I get home.”

The ride home with your friend was silent. The entire time you just kept staring at the pictures you took of your car. Disbelief filled your head as you never thought anyone would do this to you. Once your friend was dropped off, you decided to call Harry to see if he has already heard about what happened. As the phone rang, you felt your heart skip a few beats, unsure of how to go about this conversation.

“Hey love” he answers.

“Hi babe, I was just calling to see what you were doing.”

“I’m just finishing up in the studio, but I should be home in about an hour. Why what’s up?”

“Oh nothing” you lie. “I just wanted to see when you’d be home so we can just talk then.”

“(Y/n) is everything all right” he asks. Of course Harry could always tell when something was off with you. Whenever you had the chance to talk to him you would talk for what felt like hours, so he was concerned when you said you wanted to wait until he was home.

“Yeah everything is fine. I love you and I’ll see you later.”

“Alright baby, I love you too.” There was a hint of sadness to his voice, but you ignored it and hung up.

As the cab pulled up to your house, you thanked the driver and paid your fare. Once you set your bags in your room, you sat down in your living room letting out a sigh. While waiting for Harry to get home you scrolled through your twitter to see that the story of your car has already hit media. Worry filled your mind, as you didn’t want Harry to see any of the articles posted, or any of the other additional comments left by some fans.

To your surprise there was a mix of positive and negative responses to the article. Some fans shared their pity and shock for what happened. But others wished someone had done something sooner, or worse, wished it would have been you that was bashed, instead of your car windows. Loud, audible sobs left your lips as you read hurtful comments, one right after the other.

“Babe I’m home” Harry yelled as he walked in.

“Shit” you muttered while you tried to clear your face so that he couldn’t tell you had been crying. “Hi Harry.”

“So what did you do today?”

“Oh I just went shopping, nothing special. How was it at the studio?”

“It was amazing. Words cannot describe how excited I am to start touring again. I just feel like everything is falling into place” he says with a soft smile. “I was wondering though, where’s your car? I didn’t see it in the drive way so at first I thought you wouldn’t be home.”

“It’s at the shop” you say a bit too quickly. “One of my tires popped so I just had it towed there and I’ll pick it up tomorrow.”

“How did you get home then” he questions giving you a look of concern.

“I just took a cab” you answer, avoiding eye contact with him.

“Awe, babe, next time just call me and I’ll come and pick you up.” Harry approaches you, holding out his hands and placing them on your hips. The moment his hands touch your body, an uncontrolled sniffle comes out. He gives you a look of confusion, unsure as to why you were upset.  

“Harry, we need to break up.” You spoke so softly, but Harry still heard every word. His green eyes turned glossy, as if he was ready to cry.

“What are you talking about” he asked through shaky breaths.

“I can’t do this anymore. I’m just not happy.”

“Was it something I’ve done? If it’s because of me spending so much time on the album or the tour, then baby I’m so sorry. I’ll put it all on hold if it means that I won’t have to lose you. Just tell me what I can do to save us.” His voice had a begging tone to it.

“I’m sorry Harry, trust me it’s not you-“

“Don’t give me the ‘it’s not you it’s me’ stuff, because I don’t believe it one bit. Something must have happened to make you feel this way. So just tell me what it is and we can work through it. Please (y/n) just tell me.”

Taking a few steps away from Harry, you take a few deep breaths, debating on how to handle this. Yes, you loved Harry, he was your everything. But you also knew he could do so much better, and have any girl he wanted. If you stay in this relationship with Harry, are you being selfish? Is it wrong to stay with the person you love, even though you don’t deserve them?

“Everyone hates me” you say in a hushed voice.

“Wha-What?” He looks at you confused, having no idea where you plan on going with this.

“You’ve seen the hate I get. Constant messages of how I destroyed One Direction, and am ruining your life. I just can’t take it anymore. I’m sorry.”

“Fuck those guys. Those people who say they love my music but talk shit about you, are not my real fans. They are just jealous of how insanely beautiful and talented you are. I know hearing those things hurt, but don’t care about what they say, just listen to me, and believe me when I say I love you.” His voice sounded panicky and urgent as if any moment he will lose you.

“It’s not just their words anymore Harry. It’s now their actions as well. Do you want to know the real reason why my car isn’t here? It’s because someone smashed in my windows and wrote ‘die bitch’ on the hood. So I’m sorry if I just can forget about it.” You voice cracked every other word and you spoke so quickly you weren’t even sure if Harry understood a single word that you said.

A silence fell in the room as you two stood apart from one another. Slow tears fell down Harry’s face as he watched you shake and sob. Taking slow steps, Harry approached you, and placed his large hands to your cheeks. Your eyes locked with his for a moment, until he moved to lightly place his lips to your temple.

“I’m so sorry baby, I had no idea. We can figure this out. In fact, I’m going to find out who did this to your car. I won’t let anyone hurt you anymore.”

“Harry there’s only so much you can do. I just don’t think we will work-“

“(Y/N) please. I love you so much. I don’t know what I would do without you in my life. We can figure this out, please baby.” He locked his eyes with yours, and kept a hand on your chin so that you couldn’t look away. “Tell me that you’re not happy and you don’t love me, and I will leave right now. I won’t bother you about this again.”

“Harry… you’ve made me the happiest I’ve ever been and I’ve never felt this way about someone before. I don’t want to lose what we have, but I also don’t want to hold you back. You can have anyone you want, so why me?”

“Don’t you see that you are the girl I want, the one that I need. I don’t care about anyone else but you. I promise I will do whatever it takes to make you happy every day. I promise to keep you safe from all the people who try to hurt you. And most of all, I promise I will love you unconditionally, with all my heart.”

Your body was still shaking from being unable to contain your emotions. Within one smooth motion, Harry met his lips with yours. The kiss was soft and passionate, and exactly what the both of you needed. It just helped reassure that Harry was the person you were supposed to be with. Sure the hate is hard, but with Harry by your side, you could overcome anything.

Owned - pt 6

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You grabbed your coat and shoes as quickly as possible

Placing the basket inside, you stepped into the elevator and pressed the button that would take you downstairs to the lobby. Every second in that elevator felt like you were going up thousands of feet, instead of going down.

Sure enough when the doors opened, there were rose petals on the ground, but there was not a soul to be seen. The lobby was empty. Not even the receptionists were there.

You followed the rose petals to the front door and braced yourself for the cold breeze. A red carpet was rolled out, leading to the usual luxury car. Namjoon stood there holding the door open and waiting for you with a smile.

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I know she won’t be perfect every day, but she will try her hardest to smile even if she just cried for a few hours.

She’s an ocean of worry and the only lifeboat that might appear is you.

She will smile when it matters,
when it counts.

Please, don’t take her for granted.

She is no longer a flower,
I made sure of that.
I ripped through every petal
searching for soil
that we once stepped on,
I tried to search for the seed
of love at first sight
and I’m sorry,
I scratched the veins and she
will probably wither in your palms.

She no longer acts crazy,
I made sure of that.
I judged her for who she was
and who she wasn’t.
She won’t show her true colors yet,
she’s testing you,
you’re on trial.
She’s watching you,
and you’ll feel like
there’s gasoline in her saliva
and her kiss might be the spark
to set you on fire.

She won’t spam your text messages,
she won’t write you cute letters,
she won’t write short stories,
and she won’t blow up your phone.

I made sure of that.

I know you won’t love her on some days, I know she won’t always be kind when you whisper a slick remark, I know she won’t enjoy long walks because she’s always exhausted, she’s always too tired and she won’t always be fun, but you have to bear with her,

be gentle with her,
be loving to her,
be the net for her stomach butterflies,
be the cloud to hold her tears,

she knows how to come around.

Some days she might be emotionally destroyed because of something I said to her a few years ago, I’m sorry about that too.

Some days she might be smiling from out of the blue and it might be spring and you’ll ask, but she won’t tell you. I’m sorry about that too.

Some days she’ll be clingy, wait, she might be like that all of the time, shit, I’m sorry about that too.

You see, emotional and physical trauma comes in many forms and the people we tend to love can hurt us in the most messed up ways.

I was that person,
don’t be that guy.

Don’t pick up poetry,
you’ll make her cry.

Don’t have sex with her just to have sex with her, don’t. Notice her smile, notice the way she undresses her blossoms, take notes of the way her lotus tattoo breathes into your skin, pay attention to how her slow breaths can spell out your name, don’t be caught up in the euphoria of the sin, be caught up with her body language and how she wants you to feel and it’s not that simple to move her heart, you must pay close attention to that one detail, do not let her stray, watch her eyes, grip her hands and speak lightness into her ears.

Anyone can have sex,
not everyone can make love.

That is a truth I had to learn
after five years with this person.

And some days she’ll cry,
and she’ll cry, and she’ll cry,
and she’ll cry, and she’ll cry,
and she’ll cry, and she’ll cry.

Dude, it’s that time of the month again.

Fucking hug her. Send her cute text messages. Give her belly-rubs. Bring her food. Give her fruits. Watch a show with her. Kiss her cheeks. Kiss her forehead. Kiss her fingers. Kiss her hands. Kiss her palms. Kiss her stomach. Kiss her arms. Kiss her lips. Kiss her heart. Kiss her soul. Kiss her.

And if that doesn’t work?

Hold her. Hold her body like you were the big spoon made for her. Hold her like the stars grip the night sky. Hold her hands like her fingers could feel safe when they trace their owner’s name into your back. Brush the tears from her cheeks and make sure they don’t get away, make sure she feels that you care. Grab her heart and let her know that you love her even if all she did was cry today about how random she’s being, how emotional this shit got and how real it got. Make sure you let her know, let her know that she is loved.

You don’t have to be like me.
You don’t have to write a thing.

You just have to love her.
Love her like how I couldn’t.

You don’t have to be perfect.
You just have to treat her perfectly.

You don’t have to be amazing.
She just has to feel amazed.

And I know, you’re probably thinking, what do you know? You’re just an ex-boyfriend, there’s a reason why she left you. Hey, wake up. Don’t be selfish. This isn’t about me or you. This is about her. You listen real good here, some people aren’t meant to be together for all of eternity. It doesn’t happen. It doesn’t. We change. This is how you love her right. Treat her with respect, love her ways even if it doesn’t make much sense, and I know she might set you on fire and I know she might make you passionate about everything, but that’s how she is.

A sapphire among rubies.
A cloud in the volcano’s steam.
A sunset swimming in the ocean.
A rose in a garden of forget-me-nots.
A blood drop in a glass of water.
A tear drying on lit cigarettes.
A fox howling with wolves.
A heart found near the river bank.
A girl who just wants to be loved.

And I know she isn’t perfect,
I know she won’t always be yours,
I know she won’t be the best,
I know she cries a lot,
I know she isn’t from magazine covers,
I know she can be a handful,
but I promise,
I promise,
if I know one thing.

One thing at all.

It is that she is worth it.

Please, make her smile because she didn’t smile enough when I held her, because she didn’t feel loved when I kissed her, because she felt used and I’m to blame, because she deserves happiness and well, so do you.

This is how you love her
and what’s that famous quote?

Oh yeah!

This is how you keep her.

—  A love letter for her future lovers //
k.c.

I think we can all agree that Yuuri’s speech was a central scene this episode, and although I’ve seen a lot of people giving great explanations about Yuuri’s use of 「愛」 in his speech and the difference between 「愛」(ai) and 「恋」(koi) there aren’t many people who go further into his speech than that.


Firstly I’ll just briefly gloss over 「愛」 and 「恋」because what they each connotate in the Japanese language is important to the Yuri!!! on Ice plot

「恋」is kind of like a physical love. It describes one’s longing for someone, but lacks a deeper emotional bond. Used for boyfriend/girlfriend/partner.

「愛」 is a deep love, it encompasses 恋 but also describes emotional love. While it does mean you long for someone, it kind of implies that you’re willing to do, give, or change something to be with them. Used for family/spouse.

***note: on the contrary, while「恋」does imply a physical romance/love, 「恋人」refers to you’re true love, you’d call your fiancé or spouse that, and「愛人」implies someone you’ve had an affair with. So when Victor uses the word 「恋人」…. ;)))


So when Yuuri says
「僕の愛、それは分かり易い愛や恋ではなくて、ヴィクトルとの絆や、家族や、地元に対する微妙な気持ち」
He’s saying his「愛」is not just the physical and emotional love he has for others, his love is literally his relationship with Victor, it is literally his family, and that it is the complicated/abstract feelings he has for others around him (aka Yuuko, Minako, Nishigori). It is a tangible THING such as actions and words as implied by Yuuri’s use of 「物」 instead of 「事」which would describe an idea or a concept.

Another interesting thing to note is when Yuuri says he has “no name for this emotion”
「その感情に名前はない」
At first I thought Yuuri might have been downplaying his emotions but then I realised it wasn’t that, it was that Yuuri really just doesn’t know exactly what 「愛」is just yet despite describing it briefly before because he’s still exploring what it truly means for him.
Before Victor, we all know Yuuri had a big crush on Yuuko, hell, he was going to confess in the first episode. But that’s all it was, a crush, which would take neither 「愛」nor「恋」, but 「好き」(suki).

Now I’m sure you know the difference between 「愛する」and「好きです」but just in case
「好きです」refers to a wide range of types of “like”. You use it for objects, hobbies, and topics, or people-wise, friends and crushes.


Through Yuuri’s speech, we are witnessing his growth and exploration of what 「愛」is, what it means to him, and who the word applies to. Most prominent are his developing feelings of 「愛」towards Victor. The phrase
「繋ぎ止める」
Does mean “to hold on to”, but it also means “to fasten” or “to tie”, and this implies that while Yuuri does not want to let go of Victor, neither does he want Victor to let go of him. Yuuri wants to create a mutual bond with Victor, and he has decided to call this bond 「愛」.


As a side note, here’s further meta on Yuuri and Victor’s developing relationship, shown through the episode preview. It’s very short but 
I do think it’s a cute example of them becoming closer to each other.

i am not really sure if we have something, but i hope we have because ugh i am getting emotions about you
Inspirational Speech

Hey
Are u sad?
Don’t be sad tho
Being sad sucks
We’re all sad sometimes
It’s part of being human
Did you cry today?
If you did that’s ok
Crying is ok
Being human is ok
Being you..
..is ok.