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OHHHHHH MAN LOOK AT THIS HEADCANON WHATEVER THING!!! It’s from that, once again, that headcanon blog that I should just put in here so they know I wrote up a fanfic based on their thingys there @ndrv3-headcanons-and-shit , but ahhhhhh! 030!!!

I am a sucker for this sorta thing I guess, Yandere!Amami, Despair!Amami, ya know, just, ahhhhh, I got real hype writing this and just, ahhhhh >.>;; I wrote like 3k words in 2 hours because my hype got too real guys >.>;; Anyways, yeah ^u^ Hope you enjoy :33

Warnings: Yandere-attitudes, so if that bugs ya, pls don’t read 0u0 Also, uh, it gets NSFW-ish in the sense that there’s some pervy stuff here, for the 69 lololol :pp 

Only Despair and You

Despair was all Amami Rantarou had.

Despair had taken his family at a young age, leaving him orphaned in this cruel and unforgiving world. The young Amami had to fend for himself and learn how to survive. Despair had told him how to push his emotions aside and empty himself of all feelings. It made coping with the world much easier. Despair taught him how to lie to others, how to put on an act to make people think you were sane, because people didn’t take to kindly to those of Amami’s nature. Despair was the only was Amami could exist in this world, the only way he could communicate, to co-exist with nature itself. Without despair, Amami was just some nobody that no one cared about it.

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Pearl and Rose

I don’t usually post stuff like this but I feel the need to say something.

In regards to the relationship between Pearl and Rose. Yes, it’s unhealthy, but I don’t think the show is trying to say that it isn’t. We’ve seen that this hurts Steven, and we’ve now seen it hurt Connie. In fact the longer Pearl holds onto it the worse she blows up and on some level I think she realizes this but pushes it back. And in doing so, it gets worse. 

And I also don’t think she has the ability to recognise when she’s gone too far until it’s too late, which is why both times Steven’s had to bring her out of it. And the other gems probably realize her obsession isn’t right but don’t know how to say it.

I don’t think the show is trying to tell us that this is a healthy relationship. I think it’s trying to tell us it isn’t. In order for Pearl to get better, she has to move on, something she just can’t seem to bring herself to do. So she holds onto her love in an unhealthy obsession she can’t get over. In the end she’s going to need a hell of a push, or she’ll just keep going until Steven’s not there to stop her from doing something rash.

It’s brilliant the way they’ve built it up, but again, this is not healthy and I don’t think it’s supposed to be. I think it’s supposed to show us the dangers of holding onto one-sided love, or anything for too long and becoming obsessed. In fact, this episode demonstrated first-hand how dangerous it can be. You should never put another person above your own life. You are not nothing and you shouldn’t feel like you are, which is exactly what Steven was so afraid would happen to Connie. It gives us a lot of insight into Pearl and how she views herself. Not as important as Rose, but so obsessed with her that she put her own life at risk to protect her, valuing Rose’s life above hers and acting as though her only purpose in life at all were to protect Rose.

Which is interesting. So we know how it must have felt when Rose gave up her physical form. Pearl, devoting her whole life to protecting this one person, now doesn’t have her anymore. So she projects her own views onto Connie in an unhealthy manner without realizing why it’s wrong. The episode wasn’t showing love, it was about drawing the line. You and your partner are equally important, and obsession can lead to some nasty issues that don’t go away easily. So it’s really nice to see Steven recognise this and snap Connie out of it, it gives such a clear message that I don’t think Pearl even realized.

I really hope Pearl can get over Rose, for both her sake, and everyone else’s.