Hey loves! I’m about eight months into my hormone replacement therapy journey, and for the longest time I’ve been searching for the right makeup look. For months I wore full face makeup with eyeliner and lipstick on the daily (and that is totally fine for you to do as well) but it got to a point where I dreaded getting ready every morning. It wasn’t good for my skin and sometimes it did the opposite of what I intended it to do, for I kept getting misgendered. So I learned to start doing less; I feel better about my skin, and I am able to pass much easier. And although I know for some of you passing is not a concern, I am aware that for others passing is a matter of safety and security.
So let’s get into this makeup look!
First things first, priming is very important!! Now I know from paying hormones and other things I have to do financially, I have a pretty tight budget. However, through the help of the internet and some makeup YouTubers, I’ve discovered this very cheap primer. It’s NIVEA for Men Sensitive Post Shave Balm ($5). It works like magic, and it is cheap! The glycerin in the formula helps your makeup stay on all day long. Also, I shave my face right before doing my makeup, therefore an after shave balm really helps. You’ll kill two birds with one stone!
Next up, I like to color correct my five o’ clock shadow, which is mainly my upper lip and chin area. I use Wet n’ Wild MegaLast Lipstick Just Peachy ($1.50). Because my facial hair has a blue-ish undertone, I am using an orangey/peachy color before my foundation to cancel it out. I apply and blend it out with my middle finger.
I like to let it sit for a bit, so to save time, I move on to concealing/highlighting/priming- all with one product! And that is the Maybelline Instant Age Rewind Eraser Dark Circles Treatment Concealer, Neutralizer ($7). I apply it on the bridge of my nose for a subtle highlight, under my eyes for brightening, and on my eyelids for priming the eye makeup!
So once I look like I belong in The Lion King, I use a damp Drugstore Beauty Blender ($4), and blend it all out with patting motions. Be gentle, but really work in the products.
Viola! So now we move onto foundation! I used to wear liquid foundation every day, but I found that it was drying and too cakey for a daily look, so I moved on to bb creams! An lawddddddd, they work wonders! It’s light and breathable, yet is buildable and can cover up problem areas, such as the peachy orange color concealer I use. My current favorite is Maybelline Dream Velvet Soft Matte Hydrating Foundation, 90 Honey Beige ($9). I apply it with my fingers all over my face except for the color corrected areas. I will get to that after with a different application!
I learned that it is not necessarily what brand of makeup you use that makes you look incredible, but the techniques and the brushes are what will do you wonders! So for the bb cream I am using E.L.F’s Powder Brush ($3), which is meant for dry products, but the density and surface of the brush makes for a perfect buffing brush. So blend that in!
Now all you are left with is your upper lip area and chin area that has the peachy tone lipstick on it. So what I do is I take more of that bb cream, and put it on my middle finger, and apply a generous amount on top of the areas. Afterwards, I use the bottom part of my beauty blender and pat that in, making sure to blend out the edges so I’m left with one unison color for my foundation.
Yay! Foundation is all complete! Now because there is quite the thick layer on my upper lip and chin area, I need to set it so it does not move or smudge throughout the day. So what I do is I use Coty Airspun Loose Face Powder, Naturally Neutral ($5) with my beauty blender, and pat a generous amount on my chin and upper lip. This is called baking, where you let the powder cook the makeup and set it really well.
Can’t forget about the rest of the face! So what I do is I take a little amount of that loose powder and apply it mostly on the highlighted areas, such as the under eyes, and the bridge of my nose. But this time, I use a little bit and blend it in really well. Because the deweyness of the bb cream is lovely, and you don’t want to take that away!
While I bake, I like to move on to the eyes. I start with highlighting beneath the brow, with Nourishing Long Wear Eye Shadow + Built-in Primer, Classic Nude ($8). I take the top pinkish highlight color with my ring finger and apply that under my brows for a nice shimmery highlight.
Next, I move on to the eyeshadow, which will actually be the bronzer that I use. I like to keep the eyes simple and nude neutral, for a more natural look. I bought
Wet ‘n’ Wild Color Icon Bronzer, Bikini Contest ($3) bronzer at the dollar store, and it is by far one of my favorite bronzers to date! I will apply it with E.L.F.’s Eyeshadow “C” Brush ($3) and pack it on my eyelids. After, I use E.L.F.’s Blending Brush ($3) and blend out the edges to smoke out the eyeshadow.
Next, I highlight the tip of my nose, inner corner of my eyes, and cheekbones with ColourPop’s Glo Up Highlighter ($8), all with my ring finger. It has a more thick powder consistency, and I find using my finger to be the easiest method.
The reasoning for highlighting is that because we have concealed, applied foundation, and powdered our face, adding shimmer brings back a glow to the face. Also… highlighters are so pretty!
So the next step is to dust off the powder on the chin and upper lip with a very light and fluffy brush.
Now, I move on to contouring/bronzing. I like to use one single product to do the job. Contouring and then bronzing is too much work, and I’m not going for a night time party look, therefore a warm and bronze glow will do the job, if done strategically. I use E.L.F.’s Complexion Brush ($3) and the bronzer earlier and work it right above the natural hollow of my cheekbones, and blend it in in circular motions, whilst blending in the highlight on the cheek too, to make one uniform look.
Don’t forget the forehead, sides of the nose, jawline, and down the neck. I also blend some on the upper lip and chin because the powder earlier can make the areas look slightly ashy. Blend, blend, blend! Very important!
For my eyebrows, I like to use
Maybelline Volum’ Express The Rocket Mascara ($6) because it darkens my brows, and the waterproof formula keeps it in place. Eyebrows frame your face, they are very important, so experiment to see what works best for you!
You can honestly end right here, but I like to do mascara. I find that applying mascara on my eyelashes helps feminize my eyes. Take a looksie!
As you can see, simply curling them makes a big difference. Now let’s apply the mascara! My favorite is L'Oreal Paris Voluminous Miss Manga Mascara, Waterproof Blackest Black ($6). Unfortunately, my genetics did not bless me with the best eyelashes, but this mascara knocked me off the park and gives me length I never thought I could have! Look at the difference in the two eyes.
I focus the mascara mostly on the outer corner because it almost gives it a darker smokey/gradient eye look. Now do the same for the other eye and we’re almost done!
For the lips, I like to line them with Rimmel 1000 Kisses Stay On Lip Liner Pencil,
Café Au Lait ($3), and fill them in with CoverGirl Lip Perfection Lip Stick, Sultry ($2)
Because I’m going for a more naturalistic look, I like to make the lips more matte. Here’s the trick: You take a tissue paper, put it over your lips, and use a fluffy brush and a loose powder and lightly brush it over my lips for a matte effect.
AND YOU’RE DONE!!
Now finish up getting ready, and live your life!
You can either add more, or take it all off. At the end of the day, your makeup is your own art, so go with whatever you are most comfortable with!
you know what i want from descendants 3? i want a villain who isn’t from the isle. i want a brand new villain who grew up in auradon because banishing all the bad people and their fuckingg kids on an island didn’t change the fact that sometimes bad people exist and i want mal and evie and jay and carlos and uma and gil and harry to all work together to take the new villain down and that’s what heals the rift between mal and uma and i want harry hooks eyeliner to get progressively more outrageous than it did in d2
⁃ The Space Paladins is their band name
⁃ Their genre is a little bit all over the place
⁃ Sometimes it’s more 2000s alt rock
⁃ Sometimes it’s indie rock
⁃ Sometimes it’s just plain out pop
⁃ Allura on main vocals and extra percussion
⁃ Keith on melodic guitar because his guitar solos are just beautiful
⁃ Lance on rhythm guitar
⁃ (he thought he would be on melodic guitar but them he saw that Keith was a fucking god)
⁃ Pidge on bass
⁃ And she’s really good
⁃ (When first making the band everyone was shocked that Pidge can play the bass bc they’re so small and basses are super heavy)
⁃ Hunk on drums and can play sax
⁃ It’s just in case he needs to play Careless Whisper at concerts to piss off Keith and Lance
⁃ Shiro on keyboard and backup vocals because he has a HUGE range. He’s like fucking Brendon Urie
⁃ (Guys. I know it’s usually Pidge on keyboard in these head canons but this how I’m gonna do it okay?)
⁃ Coran is their manager but more like their goofy uncle
⁃ And in all honesty, Coran isn’t the best manager but he’s definitely a keeper
⁃ Their top selling songs (lyrics w/ them) are:
⁃ Playing Pretend: “I’m tired of playing pretend// let’s never be friends again”
⁃ That one was written by Lance (fans think its about Klance)
⁃ 1992: “Let’s live like its 1992// listening to Nirvana// and climbing fences with you”
⁃ That was written by Keith (fans also think it’s about Klance)
⁃ Falling Up: “We’re falling up// we’re flying down// we’ll spin the world round and round”
⁃ That was written by Pidge
⁃ and Whine: “ All you do is whine with your wine// always on the break up hotline”
⁃ Written by Allura (about a girl she knew in high school)
⁃ And of course their fandom ships Klance
⁃ Everyone else in the band does too
⁃ Hands out flowers to their fans during concerts like The Smiths did
⁃ Has done covers of:
⁃ Three Small Words (Josie and The Pussycats)
⁃ Ain’t It Fun (Paramore)
⁃ Time To Pretend (MGMT)
⁃ Space Age Love Song (A Flock Of Seagulls)
⁃ Creep (Radiohead)
⁃ And others I don’t wanna write down the whole list
⁃ During interviews Pidge and Keith make snarky remarks during interviews like the Beatles usually did
⁃ Reporter: “Do you have any input on the current political situation, Keith?”
⁃ Keith: “No, I don’t even smoke.” *smokes cigarette*
⁃ Reporter: “Shiro, what’s your favorite type of girl?”
⁃ Shiro: “I guess my girlfriend?”
⁃ Reporter: “What about you Pidge?”
⁃ Pidge: “I guess Shiro’s girlfriend”
⁃ People also ship Shallura
⁃ (but it’s already canon but the fans didn’t know that until later)
⁃ Keith is labeled the Emo™
⁃ He sometimes even wears eyeliner and everyone loves it
⁃ He’s also a fucking savage on twitter
⁃ Like, about as savage as Frank Iero
⁃ Lance was on Instagram Live and someone asked if Klance was real
⁃ “Umm…” *live video has ended*
⁃ Everyone was fucking pissed
⁃ Someone asked Keith if Klance was real
⁃ “Next question…”
⁃ The fans are onto them
⁃ Once they did a special cover of Sweatpants by Childish Gambino
⁃ But Pidge was the one who rapped it
⁃ They made it look like Allura was about to rap it but then Pidge jumped in and started rapping like a god
⁃ Everyone was absolutely shocked
⁃ After about three years of dating, Allura proposed to Shiro (yes, the girl proposed to the boy. That is how it’s gonna work, okay?) during a concert while singing a song they wrote together called I Wish For Forever
⁃ None of the band members knew it was going to happen and everything just stopped
⁃ Shiro cried
⁃ Hunk and Lance did too
⁃ And oF COURSE HE SAID YES
⁃ That’s all I have for now
⁃ I might make a part two because I love this au
⁃ Imma go listen to Careless Whisper on repeat and see how long I can last
Request: can I request a harry hook imagine where reader is now with harry but she used to date jay so when the vks come back to the island harry is afraid past feelings can resurface but reader assures harry not to worry and all fluffy please!!
Warnings: Swearing, fluff, a tad bit of angst
A/N: Jay seems like the type to cheat on his girlfriend (at least when he was on the Isle) so I kinda added that little tidbit in for a bit of spice! I hope you enjoy!
Isn’t it funny how your past just never seems to leave you alone? It doesn’t matter how long ago it was or how much you try not to think about it, but it’s always there. And your past happened to be standing right in front of you.
“Hey [Y/N]…you look good. How are you?” Jay asked as he stuffed his hands in his pockets, shifting awkwardly from side to side as he looked at you. He kept looking over his shoulder, and for good reason. He and the others weren’t exactly welcome on the Isle anymore, so he had to watch his back.
You crossed your arms. “Oh, I’ve been great.” You said bitterly, you’ve always been one to hold grudges against someone. And you felt that him cheating on you was a very worthy reason to hold a grudge.
Jay sighed and ran his hand through his hair and looked at you. “[Y/N], please let me explain-” He started to say when suddenly your name was called from elsewhere so you both looked over as your current boyfriend made his way over to you both. “Hook.”
“Jay. What are you doing with [Y/N]?” Harry asked, putting his arm around you and pulling you in for a pretty heavy kiss, pulling back after a moment to look back at Jay, and you knew that Harry was trying to get the point across: you were taken.
Jay frowned as he looked at you, then his eyes went on up to Harry where the sad look turned to a glare. “I was just talking to her, catching up. She’s her own person, you know.” Jay snapped, crossing his arms as he glared at Harry, who kept his calm composure, even though you knew good and well he was itching to hook someone.
“Harry. Let’s go. Now.” You said, giving him a look and not wanting this to get out of hand. “You need to save your energy for the fight.” You said, pushing him away and looking back at Jay. “It was nice to see you.” You said as a formality, pushing Harry away. You hoped that was the end of that, but it seemed to you like it was only the beginning.
Harry barely looked at you after that, and if he spoke to you it wasn’t his normal self, it was more one or two words to acknowledge the fact that you said something.
After a few days of this treatment, you got sick and tired of that real fast. “Harry, what the fuck is going on with you? Ever since Jay-” You began to say, only to be cut off.
“Ever since Jay what? I’ll tell you what. Ever since Jay came back you’ve been looking out towards Auraboredom all longingly, do you miss him? Come on, flat out tell me! I’m a man, I can fucking take it!” Harry snapped, finally looking at you and letting it all out.
“Harry, what the fuck are you talking about? One, I’ve always wanted to go to Auradon, you know that, and two, I can’t believe you’re insinuating that I actually miss Jay! You know how I feel about him.” You said, glaring at Harry and crossing your arms, feeling extremely hurt by what he was saying.
“How you feel about him? What, like you miss him?! Like you want him back?! Why else would you be so quick to pull me away from him, [Y/N]? I always told you if I ever saw him again I’d hook him for you, for what he did to you. Yet when given the chance you pulled me back!” Harry screamed, glaring at you and you looked up at him, tears filling your eyes.
“I pulled you back because I didn’t want you to do anything in the heat of the moment. I never said I wanted you to hook him. Do I like him? Fuck no. Do I want him back? FUCK no! Does that mean I want him hooked? Fuck no. Because I want you, Harry. I don’t want anyone else. I could never want anyone else, Harry. And I can’t believe that you would even think that I would ever leave you for someone who hurt me so badly in the past.” You said, finally breaking down and letting yourself start to cry, putting your head in your hands.
You stood there crying for a little bit, and after a couple moments, you felt a pair of strong arms wrap around you awkwardly. After letting you cry it out for a few minutes, Harry pulled back and tilted your head up with his hook so you’d have to look at him. “[Y/N]… my love…I’m so sorry. I…I didn’t mean to make it sound like that. I just…” He sighed. “I know how much you used to love him. Because you did. And I’m just…I’m afraid that since he came back, you’re going to realize that you still do.” He said, his voice cracking some on that last sentence, and you saw a tear fall down his cheek, some eyeliner going with it so you reached up and wiped his eyes.
“Harry, I don’t love Jay. I love you. I used to love Jay, but I don’t anymore. You can’t change the past. But that’s just what Jay is…my past. And you’re my future.” You whispered softly as you looked up at the crying pirate, you unsure of how to console him because you’ve never seen Harry cry before, so you just stood up on your tip toes and gently pressed your lips to his, putting as much intimate passion in the kiss as possible to ensure that he knew just how much you loved him and that he was your future.
Summary: You’re daughter of the Queen of Hearts. You’re wandering the Isle when you stumble upon none other than Harry Hook.
Warnings: None I think? A bit of sexual tension at the end and that’s all. Enjoy :)
A/N: Requests are open!
The sound of rocks crunching under my boots was all that could be heard on the Isle. I was away from the main part of the Isle, walking along a dirt path between two buildings. I always liked being alone. I never talked to anyone on the Isle except for Cheshire Cat’s daughter, but she often disappeared, literally. I hated it here, it was so much uglier than Wonderland. I hadn’t been there since i was a little girl. A war broke out and my mother and I fled Wonderland, to keep safe. We were hoping to go to Auradon, but being villains and all, we ended up on the Isle of the Lost.
When suddenly, I heard a twig snap and I immediately looked up and pulled my sword out of my sheath. I waited for another noise.
“Well, well, well. Now who do we have here? Never seen you before.” A voice with a thick Scottish accent said from behind me. I turned around to come face to face with an extremely attractive boy. He wore eyeliner and a hook on one hand. I knew who he was, none other than Harry Hook. “Wait, I know exactly who you are. (Y/N) Heart. I’ve heard of you before. How’s Wonderland?” He said in a mocking tone.
“Shut it Hook, if you want to keep that head of yours.” I replied, gritting my teeth. I always did have a short temper.
“So you know who I am? That’s great. Now what is a pretty little thing like you doing over here all alone?” He questioned.
“Trying to get away from dirty pirates like you. Now why don’t you go back to your little ship and leave me alone, Hook.”
“Now, now. Don’t lose your head, princess.” he winked. “I’m here for a reason.”
“And that is?” I asked.
“My crew and I have been watching you for a while, we’ve seen what you can do with that sword. If you’re anything like your mother, you’d be great in a fight. Uma wants you part of our crew.” Harry said.
“Me? Part of your crew? I don’t think so Hook. I don’t play well with others. Especially wannabe dirty pirates.” I put my sword back in its sheath.
“Why not, Heart? You’d get to be with me.” He gestured to himself.
“Why would I want that?”
“Come on now, princess. We both know you fancy me already. I can see you practically melting in front of me.” He came closer and brought his hook up to my hair, pushing it behind my ear. He leaned in towards my ear and whispered “What do ya say (Y/N)? Join us?” His lips grazed my ear and I shivered.
I smacked his hand away from my face and pushed him backwards. “In your dreams, Harry.”
“Oh trust me, you will be in some of my dreams.” He winked and his eyes roamed across my body. Why did he have to be such a god damn flirt? I allowed my eyes to graze around his body, he was tall and handsome. He looked like trouble, and I wanted in on him. He immediately intrigued me, his talk, his walk, his physique, his attitude. It was like being under a spell. I couldn’t let this handsome pirate win me over just yet, though. I had to make him want it.
I replied “Screw you, pirate.“And with that, I ran off as fast as I could. Determined to get away from his interrogations. He’s a dirty pirate, using his flirtations to manipulate me, well, that’s not gonna work on me. It’ll take more than a handsome face to get me to join a damn pirate crew.
— The Next Day
I sat on a rock at the edge of a stream. I was in the forest completely alone. Nothing more I could ever ask for.
“Hey princess.” I jumped up and was startled to see Harry Hook behind me, chuckling to himself at my reaction.
I tried to play it off that I was frightened, “Oh, you again.” I sat back down on the rock. “I’m not joining your damn pirate crew.” He sat down on the floor next to me, and I took that moment to realize how attractive he was. His ruffled brown hair didn’t have a hat on today, his eyes reminded me of blue gemstone, he was captivating. His words pulled me out of my daydream.
“That’s not what I’m here for (Y/N).” I looked at him with a half confused, half annoyed expression. “I’m here because I want to get to know you better. After our encounter yesterday and you running off, I couldn’t get my mind off of you, Heart. You got a hold on me.”
“Shut up Harry. I know what you’re doing. I’m not gonna let your words manipulate me.”
“You think that’s what this is all about? Me manipulating you? Well, I’m offended Miss Heart. Why would I do such a thing. I wouldn’t dream of hurting you.”
“Then prove it, Hook.” I replied.
He reached into his pocket and pulled out a necklace. It was gold, with a big red jewel on the center. “I stole this from Dizzy for you.” He handed it to me.
“You’re bad, Hook.” I smirked. I quickly caught him off guard and took his hook, and slammed it into a tree. “But still not working.”
He got up and pushed me into the tree. “Princess, you’re really testing me right now.” His face was inches from me, I can almost feel his lips graze against mine.
‘Two can play at this game.’ I thought. I ran my hand up his chest and he smirked and let out a deep laugh, Before his eyes returned to mine. “You’re mad, Miss Heart.” He said in a deep tone.
“I get that a lot.” I whispered, my heart beating fast in my chest, I’m pretty sure he could almost hear it. All of a sudden, he slammed his lips on mine. They were soft and moved quickly with mine, like we was desperate to get a taste of me. It started off as lusty and full of desire but slowly turned into a sweet, longing kiss, like there was more to it. But just like that, his lips were gone. Harry’s hand creeped up next to me, and pulled his hook out from the tree. I was left there breathless and in shock, his hands above me kept me pinned to the tree. “You’re evil.” I said to him and looked up, grazing my lips on his. He got up and brushed his pants off and turned to me.
“Come back here tomorrow at 12 pm and I’ll show you what evil really is, Miss Heart.” And with that, Harry Hook turned and walked off into the forest. Disappearing between the trees.
to Perfect Just the Way You Are. Though I recommend reading it first, you don’t
technically have to as both are standalone one shots. Based on this Ask, hope
it’s what you wanted nonnie! I give you The Fluffer.
Pornstar!Bucky x Reader | Word Count: 4554
Warnings: It’s about a porn star, if I have to warn you it will be smutty, you
shouldn’t be on my blog. Also, Bucky’s foul swearing mouth, as well as Steve
being a shit. Enjoy!
flush on your face had to be lobster red by this point. Not just a rosy blush
which would bring life to your cheeks, but a red so dark you could feel it burn
from the roots of your hair all the way down your chest.
couldn’t believe you were here, doing this, acting this… part, being
part of this lifestyle you’d only come to know because of your boyfriend. Never
in your life had you been more fascinated, morbidly so, turned on, and jealous
all at the same time.
The sun’s rays pierced through the curtains of your bedroom. Signifying that it was a brand new day at the Isle. You checked your clock it was 11. No wonder you slept so good, you hadn’t woken up early. You got up and changed as for hair you decided to leave it down. Right before you were about to leave your room you heard your boyfriend Harry’s lovely voice.
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“Tell me it did not happen… tell me you didn’t do the chopstick thing again… Baekhyun…. you did not…” *someone’s ready to kill*
“Baekhyun? No… no I haven’t heard from him in a while? Who knows… maybe he ran away… to another galaxy… I hope… for his own good” *Galaxy is not very happy*
*Processing the info* “He… saw… my… girl… naked… in… the… shower…” *Can’t quite understand yet* “I haven’t even done that myself!”
*Someone had to intervine before he killed Baek* “Suho this is not fair! Chopsticks should be forbidden in the dorm! I don’t want this to happen again! Wasn’t it enough with us?”
*At Baeks room* “Baekhyun… I’ve been waiting for you… we need to talk.. but first… you should know I burned all your eyeliner… to teach you a lesson”
“Baekhyun you can’t hide from me! I will find you! You will apologize for what you did! Come on Baekhyun! If you don’t come out and promise you won’t do it again, I won’t give you your favorite eyeliner back”
“This… this doesn’t look like Kyungsoo… no… oh no… oh no… I better run! Disappear for a few days… I’m so done… life is over” *No one hears from him in days*
“He. Did. Not! How dare him! And I thought he had potential to be manly! someone needs to teach him a lesson! I volunteer!” *Manly Lu is in action*
“Oh yeah.. wait what? You did what?! My girl? Shower? You thought… it was me? Consider yourself dead Baekhyun… and not by me… but her”
*If you thought Soo’s physical revenge was the worst thing that could happen to Baek… well you thought it wrong*
*Legend says this is how the Monster Arc started. From Unicorn to Monster… to save his girl’s dignity*
“Hahahahah so funny right? Always doing things like this. We’ll see if you’ll laugh the same when I ground you…. with no wifi for a month. No cellphone and definitely not my platinum credit card. Still funny right?”
i remember the first time i read 13 reasons why. i was 16, and in troubles. nurse recommanded me this book. at the time, i just got out of a abusive relationship. i had to stay in an addiction shelter because all of the shit that happened to me made me depressed, and suicidal. i had a permission once a month. i could go back to my family just for 48 hours and pretend to be fine. like nothing happend to me. but once, i did it. i took a bunch of pills and drink half of a bottle of vodka to try to end the pain. luckily, my mom came home earlier this day. i was already unconscious, but my heart was still beating. i woke up in a hospital bed, alone. my family, they were forbidden to see me. when i asked the nurse for how many hours, she smiled and said “sweetie, no one will visit you for two weeks”. three days later, when they thought i was recovered from what i did, they asked me why. i just said i couldn’t face it anymore. that all of the hits i took from him destroyed me. that i couldn’t take it anymore, that i was afraid to see him and go through this again. that i wanted the pain to leave. forever.
that’s when they asked me if i ever thought of my folks. “how do you think they will react?”, “i don’t know” i said.
“their lifes are never gonna be the same. they will ask themselves if they could have done something differently”, “i don’t care” i said.
And i meant it. By this time, i didn’t freaking care about what they would have feel if i really did it because all i care about was to be in peace.
Then, i went back to this addiction shelter. I still had the same nurse. When i saw her, something was different. She didn’t wear that eyeliner anymore and her hair were not as shiny as they were. She looked real tired. She came to me and gave me that book. She said “read it. don’t act like you’re her. act like your parents, your classmates, your friends are her parents, her classmates, her friends. you’ll see the pain you’ll cause if you don’t fight this.”
So i did read it. all over again over those two weeks. And i never try to kill myself again. Not that i didn’t want to end the suffer anymore but because i didn’t want to start their suffering.
So thank you Jay Asher, for allowing me to live my life.
Now, 6 years later, i’m okay. Not everyday, and it’s okay. There’s always be bad days. It’ll be a part of mde for the rest of my life, but i’m okay, i got over this darkness.
Me, internally: that looks like my cat smudge, oh no have a smudged my makeup, no its fine my eyeliner looks good, this reminds me of when i put eyeliner on my friend, i wonder how they’re doing, i remember they dyed their hair last week
Could we have some some Nya and Kai sibling headcannons??
They always make fun of Kai for being a rubbish leader
Nya: “Who let Kai be in charge of breathing” Kai: “What are you talking about I am an excellent br-” *chokes*
Nya totally gets in the way of him flirting
Kai in the store: nya look at these sick cactus socks!!! *someone cute walks by* Kai: I mean,,, my shoulders are SUPER SORE from all the PUSH UPS I was doing this morning. I went easy on myself and only did 7000 just as a WARM UP. I didn’t even- Nya: Kai what are you talking about. You got up at 1pm, and yesterday you asked me to open a jar of salsa for you. Kai, sweating: hAHA NO NYA, I WAS DOING P USH UP S,, REMEMBER
“I’d sell you to Satan for a single corn chip” “Excuse me?! I’m worth at least 3 decent sized ones!!”
Nya: Kai have you seen my new eyeliner? Kai, walking out with flawless eye wings: no. I haven’t seen it at all. didn’t even know you had any.
Nya has to run around after Kai putting out all the things he set on fire
They duel all the time to see which of their elemental power is better
The ultimate dream team when they have gaming competitions, they’ll team up and murder everyone like they are so good
But when they’re against each other you’ve literally got to stop them from getting in a sibling fist fight ok
They get into wrestling matches more often than you’d think
“The only rule is no mercy”
They often have to be broken up because they’ve gotten in a fight over some stupid thing
Cole: *walks into a room at 6am with his coffee to see nya and Kai fighting each other over the last bowl of the good cereal* Also cole: *immediately walks back out the room*
When Ray and Maya show up again they’re like “what did we give birth to"
When Nya finds out about Kai’s water phobia she’s like lmao I knew you were always scared of me
“Here nya catch" *throws one of those giant yoga balls right at her face*
Kai uses all of her nice smelling shower gels and she is so mad because they were not cheap and Kai used up like half a bottle in one wash
They are also the masters of sneaking out and getting snacks without anyone knowing so they don’t have to share
Kai: great what are YOU doing here Nya: the same thing as you you idiot I’m going to cook a pizza Kai: half it with me and I’ll use my powers to cook it so no one will wake up to the sound of the oven being turned on Nya: … fine
Kai used to get super mad when Nya would try to get involved in battles because
one, can he not just have one thing where his cursed sister isn’t trying to one up him all the time
and two, he can’t afford to be watching her all the time she could get hurt and it would be all his fault and he can’t live with that guilt just go back inside
He gets a little grumpy sometimes because he’s supposed to be the example for her but he feels he’s awful and she’s actually better at it than him.
She’s level headed and a fast learner and sits him down long enough to think a plan and the repercussions through before he goes off and does it
Little does he know Nya is thinking the same, she wishes she were as brave and fearless as him, and that she were more careful to see when someone was taking a lend of her, like Kai sees, rather than just blindly accepting everyone she meets as family because she keeps getting hurt for it
When Nya first becomes a ninja and is really struggling, Kai was actually able to really give her some support.
He felt totally useless when he started out, he made some bad decisions, and he constantly feels like he’s behind the others.
When Nya says he gave her some really good advice he almost cried he was so happy it was the best day of his life
Instead of having 1 older brother nya now has 4 and one baby bro
This video - nya is the one that walks into the lamp and everyone else is the rest of the team
Also this video - Kai is RDJ Nya is Chris and Lloyd is Elizabeth
Kai: *sees any brother and sister duo on TV* Nya look it’s our fursonas Nya: can you not be a furry for just one minute of your life
Zuko and Azula are their fave duo because Kai gets his honour and Nya gets to be the kick ass older sister who’s better than her brother (she brushes over the whole evil part)
They always had to share a room when they were kids and they always argued, but when they lost their parents and moved into separate rooms they realised how much they hated being alone so they squished back into one room
When they do get their parents back, Kai takes a step back so Nya can get to know them more.
Kai remembers them but Nya has hardly any memory of them at all, and he wants to give her the opportunity to be with them alone so she can feel more included when they all do family stuff
“I don’t know but it’s probably Kai’s fault"
Will sing high school musical until the day they die and then will request it to be played at their funerals
‘I don’t dance’ is an obvious classic
also ‘bet on it’
Ok so when me and my brother were little and we argued, my mum would make us give each other a sincere hug and say “I love you"
if we didn’t do that, we had to hug each other for 30 seconds
if we didn’t do that we had to give each other a kiss on the cheek and we were like pls no I do NOT want to
so yeah that’s totally what their parents made them do as kids and still make them do now
“Oh, you have a lame sword? Well we have a double edged blade that we can use to make a two headed fusion dragon so suck on that”
don’t tell anyone but Kai is so good at sewing ok he will make Nya clothes all the time and she will make him cool weapons that he doesn’t know how to use
Kai is like “check out these guns” and flexes and Nya is like “lmao same” and she has better biceps than Kai get wrekt boy
nya has definitely shaved kai’s head before and he has definitely drawn on her face while she sleeps
“kai WHY are you wearing my heels” “balance practice. also they make my legs look killer”
she looks after him really, teaches him how to swim so he doesn’t have to be as scared of water
he’s like “thanks you shouldn’t have to do that for me :(” and she’s like are you kidding?? because kai stepped up to be her dad and taught her stuff like how to ride a bike and how to drive a car and took her to all the information evenings at school and literally raised her by himself
he actually dropped out of school to be her full time carer and get a job and tutor her, and she never appreciated it as much as she should have so she’s doing what she can to make up for it now
Have you seen what the fandom is complaining about recently? I'm talking about Lea and how he "shouldn't be forgiven by Kairi because he doesn't deserve it". What do you think? Honestly, the whole thing is making me sad if not completely upset...
Yes, I’ve been holding my tongue because it really is leaning into the discourse ™ but it’s so gosh dang annoying so I will comment.
1) Lea deserves redemption, and forgiveness. Yes absolutely.
Did Axel do bad shit? Yes. He did. So did most of the other nobodies. But he also attempted to do good shit.
He took a hit from Saix so Kairi could run (Manga). In game helped Sora and apologised thru Sora for hurting Kairi. He has shown already he feels regret for what he’s done.
Lea meanwhile, sought out Isa, his best friend who he essentially disowned as a nobody right away, went and helped mickey while also pledging to use a keyblade. And saved Sora.
He may not be broody like Riku, but Lea is trying his best. The story doesn’t necessarily have to have him fall into a pit of despair to prove it. If anything, that would be even worse.
What I want Lea to show us is he isn’t Axel anymore, and to see him apologize to Kairi just like Sora told him too. Please. (I’ll be furious if it isn’t in game because it’s a big frikkin part of his development. Anyway.)
2) Kairi deserves the right to dislike Lea.
Knowing they’ll end up friends doesn’t mean that won’t happen, but it will be ridiculous if we don’t see it, because it’s another aspect of her character we’ve only seen in tiny bursts. Distrust, anger, forgiveness, understanding. And really, it will be detrimental to the development for both their characters if we don’t see it.
All that being said, I do think them being friends and KNOWING they will be is pretty much the greatest thing since the ffvii remake was announced.
It meanS we get a fucking awesome kickass red heads from radiant garden. And with Lea “too much fucking screen time” memorized around, we’re basically assured to get a hell of alot more Kairi in 3.
I think it’s a good thing for both their characters. Lea will be around someone that knows his shitty past and isn’t going to stand for bs, while Kairi will not only be off the island but with someone that isn’t going to let her get left behind.
The fact their not exactly the closest means we’ll have RIPE OPPORTUNITY FOR CHARQCTER DEVELOPMENT from both of them while they hang out. What class type is kairi? What eyeliner does Lea use? How did he end up a nobody? Does Kairi remember radiant garden? Are they going to get to do their own thing while Sora saves the world’s and Riku goes on a date with mickey??
The possibilities are not only endless, but exciting, and I’m not about to let fandom wank ruin my fun, and neither should you, anon. Take it for what it is and worry about the issues when 3 comes out. Have fun with their possible friendship. It’s what kh is all about.
One time in freshman year of college I was walking with a friend who like, had visible tattoos and piercings and colorful hair and cat-eye glasses and winged eyeliner, and someone walks up to her and is like “hey, do you know where I can get some adderall?” and she’s just like “yeah” and gives this lady a phone number and the girl’s like “thanks” and my friend is like “no prob.” So I ask “did you know her?” and she’s like “nah, I guess I just give off that vibe?”
And I wondered for a while what vibe I gave off but then a year later the same thing happened to me on the bus, when a stranger came up to me and, totally out of the blue, asked to help him set up his PS4 just by describing the process to him from memory while he took notes. I don’t have or know how to use a PlayStation.
Summary: A one night stand turned into various visits. No strings attached, or at least that is what you told yourself every time he walked through the door. His first name was the only thing you knew, besides having memorized every sensitive spot that laid upon his skin.
One night you catch a glimpse of his world. One that you had never had the temptation to roam on your free will. Jungkook though was addicting, and your craving for his touches led you to venture into his life. This new found world offering you a freedom you didn’t know existed. The consequences of your actions instead of taking you a step closer to him, formed a barrier. Jungkook’s sweet touches turned rough with rage, his passionate kisses turned possessive, and his comfortable casual talk went to promises/lies of a forever.
Rating: M [Language, Strong Scenes, Drug usage, Sexual Scenes]
Author’s Note: Hey Guys, sorry for the slight delay. I had it ready, and as I was editing I decided to delete and rewrite the last half like 3 times. I hope you all enjoy. This Fic only has one chapter left(long very long chapter), but I am debating whether to add the sequel I had outlined for it.
Also quick confession….. I have never written in 2nd POV till now, so sorry for any mistakes I might commit while writing in this form.
Trigger warning: Drugs, alcohol, and Sexual scenes
Not 100% edited yet. Might have minor mistakes :)
Feedback is greatly appreciated! It makes me Happy!
“Meeting someone at the wrong time is the saddest thing I have ever come to comprehend. There is this unfathomable pain rooted deep in knowing that you have to let go to continue growth separately when in your heart, you just know- you know that since the first day you were both put on this planet, you must have been two seeds planted right next to each other, the crossing of roots inevitable because what else could explain how you see the world almost identically? What else could explain how when it rains on the other, you feel it too? And it is for these exact reasons I know that us meeting was not a coincidence; we will meet again someday when we have bloomed a little stronger in order to maximize each other’s growth.”