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Insectophobia

When I was a little kid, I killed bugs because that’s what little kids are supposed to do

I don’t remember who told me that

Where the idea got into my brain

But I knew—like I knew the grass was green—that little kids killed bugs

So that’s what I did

Every day, at recess, we went out to the playground

Some days I would run around and play with my friends

Tag or four square or soccer 

Sometimes we played Star Wars, but I didn’t have the patience for that

The other kids on the playground couldn’t take playtime seriously

They didn’t understand Star Wars

They didn’t understand how to fence

They had already fulfilled the solemn obligations of a carefree youth

But I hadn’t

So I did what I had to do

This is how I did it

First, I would go to the sandbox and dig a hole

We had shovels but I used my bare hands

It seemed more personal that way

Kinder

I dug a hole and I waited patient as the sands below my sandaled feet

Until a beetle or an ant would crawl into my trap

And quick as lightning I poured sand into the hole

I pressed down on the packed grains as hard as my little hands could

And I waited

I waited

I waited

Until the pangs of my conscience became too much to bear 

Frantically, desperately, I clawed the hole back open

And the beetle or ant would go on its way

No worse for wear and without the neurology to register fear or panic or anger 

I never cried when I killed bugs

I never cried at all

Except tears of frustration at the imperfections of the world

I never cry at all anymore.

The world is a cold, cruel place

Respect is unrealistic 

Things can never go right

Little kids kill bugs

Except the world still has beauty

Except respect is mandatory

Except things will go right

Except I never could kill bugs

i was tagged by @dontgetooexcited thank you! ✨✨

COUNTRIES I’VE LIVED IN → France

FAVOURITE FANDOM → Classic rock fandom is my life

LANGUAGES YOU SPEAK → French, English

FAVORITE FILM OF 2015 → Well… The only movie I saw that was realsed that year was Star Wars 😅 I’m not really into movies

LAST ARTICLE YOU READ → Something about Morrissey making a game

SHUFFLE YOUR MUSIC LIBRARY AND PUT YOUR FIRST THREE SONGS HERE → Lucille - John Entwistle | One way hotel - Slade | Ashes to Ashes - David Bowie

LAST THING YOU BOUGHT ONLINE → A pedal effect for my bass!

ANY PHOBIAS OR FEARS? → Spiders that climb on me, and something called trypophobia that litteraly make me want to puke, even thinking of it…

HOW WOULD YOUR FRIENDS DESCRIBE YOU? → Hum… Well… Annoying or something like this I suppose 😅

HOW WOULD YOUR ENEMIES DESCRIBE YOU → Annoying

WHO WOULD YOU TAKE A BULLET FOR? → For Pete! He’s precious

IF YOU HAD MONEY TO SPARE WHAT WOULD YOU BUY FIRST? → AN ALEMBIC BASS

RULES: TAG TEN PEOPLE YOU’D LIKE TO GET TO KNOW BETTER:
@magically-bored @shutthefrontdoor85 @petes-nose @mrs-entwistle @alady-insane @bonzos-moon @firth-of-fiftysecondstreet @kinky-keith @starrmoonzeppelin @rooty-toot-toot-tattoo-too

There’s no obligation to play

I was tagged by @chiyala <3

Countries I’ve lived in → USA

Favorite fandoms → Sherlock… that’s about it? I have occasionally reblogged Hamilton, Hobbit, and Star Wars, a handful of others, but I only consider myself part of the Sherlock Fandom

Languages you speak  → English, some French, a very little Japanese, Spanish, Italian, and Hebrew

Favorite movie of 2015 → Star Wars: The Force Awakens ~ for 2016, it’s a tie between Whiskey Tango Foxtrot and Ghostbusters, unless you count The Abominable Bride in which case definitely TAB

Last article you read → Women and the Environment: A Look at the Link

Shuffle your music library and put your first three songs here →
Disarm Yourself (Club Mix) [feat. Emma Hewitt] - Dash Berlin 
Build These Walls (Philippe el Sisi Edit) - Talla 2XLC & Sarah Russell 
Life, the Universe and Everything, Part 4 - Douglas Adams/Martin Freeman 
(okay, that last one is an audiobook, so let’s do one more) 
Walhalla - Gouryella (Mixed by Tiësto - In Search of Sunrise) 

Last thing you bought online → a new comforter and suitcase

Any phobias or fears → regret

How would your friends describe you → I guess probably outgoing and friendly, thoughtful and creative, silly and weird, giving, supportive, care-taking, sometimes overly so, gives too much advice? 

How would your enemies describe you? → I don’t think I have enemies? I hope not? But I can see people disliking me for being bossy or “assertive” and being blunt and uncensored, sometimes I don’t have a good filter, and can come off as being harsh when I don’t mean to be. I also don’t back down from an argument and can be in-your-face if the situation warrants, but I don’t often get into fights with my friends, more my family…

Who would you take a bullet for? → My husband, mom, and brother. Depending on where on the body, probably a ton more family/friends but I hope it never comes to that!

If you had money to spare, what would you buy first → plane tickets to Sherlock Seattle/Watson Washington!

I tag @alifetimeaheadtoprovethat @iwantthatbelstaffanditsoccupant and @queerquirkydreamer