People are always going to leave. It’s just a part of life. And it’s going to happen, whether you like it or not. There’s no stopping it.

It’s always the ones you don’t expect. The ones you gave your heart too. The ones you told your everything too. It’s always the ones that you care about most that end up walking out. It’s always the ones you love the most, who end up hurting you the deepest.


it’s been a while! went to europe with the best person in the world & got to make some super lovely friends and stay in some amazing places. it’s just a few days later but it still doesn’t feel real 😭😭 next up is momocon this week! / ig

This was my second day on birth control pills and I’ve had crazy mood swings, is that normal? Like laughing so hard and being really fucking happy, to literally self harming and crying. Wtf is up with that, whether that’s the pills or not 🤷🏻‍♀️

Dear diary

When I checked into the ER last week for my monthly documentation and the MHP was new and a man. He was shocked at my story of not being able to find a surgeon to perform oomphectomy and being blacklisted from WMC & suggested I call Kalispell.

Monday my case manager called to check in and wanted to know when my next med appointment was. She has the same concerns about my med provider as I do and wants to make sure she is at the appointment, and also wants to try to help me find a new one as well as a second opinion on surgery (!!!) I was and still am in shock after that call.

I am doing better at the med level I am at but still not really ideal at all. I would like to start a zoladex trial ASAP. I was not happy that the surgeon said six months and then jumped to a year and never once mentioned what the next step might be. That really upset me.

Anyway…it’s nice to know I have someone in my corner.