destructive feels

The Wounded Moon

Moon in Aries: Feels ill equipped for the world. A temperamental, abandoned child. There is often a fight for survival, a fanatic charge by a screaming inner child who has been lacerated and left here. Suffers migraines. Coping mechanisms may not be developed, the individual may constantly lapse into the framework of the abandoned or bruised child during times of stress or
heavy emotions. 

Moon in Taurus: Strongly fears being abandoned, and despite giving an aura of calm, the insides resemble quicksand. Can privately binge, over indulge, and self destruct. Feels easily rundown or catches colds easily. Struggles letting go of anything with their emotional investment. Can be haunted by memories.

Moon in Gemini: Emotions are too confusing and complex to be made sense of. The emotional nature can feel like a personality of its own. It’s hard because the individual just wants somebody to teach them how to feel and what to do. Inner needs change rapidly. The individual neglects their own emotional needs, often invalidating their authenticity 

Moon in Cancer: Fears of being left are consuming. The emotional reactivity, fears, and demands of the inner child express the individual’s deep feelings of inadequacy regarding their own sensitivity. The individual leaves claw marks on anybody who tries to leave 

Moon in Leo: The devouring needs of the inner child charter relationships. The individual is drawn to the comfort of unconditional love, safety, and validation that was denied as a child. Severely wounded by invalidation, they search for a mother figure everywhere they go. Reacts dramatically, but fails at explaining themselves leaving people unsure of how to help 

Moon in Virgo: The temperament is a battlefield and the nervous system is in overdrive. During times of distress, the reflex is to withdraw and martyr themselves. Their agitation can be unpredictable. Emotional distress manifests through physical and digestive changes and lack of wellbeing. 

Moon in Libra: Emotional needs are disregarded and ignored. Often the individual feels that their own traumas and experiences are less valid than others. The hollowness inside could swallow the universe. Requires a very close relationship with the mother and becomes severely wounded if this is not actualised. 

Moon in Scorpio: Emotional experiences are intense and lonely. The inner child is screaming, self destructing, and demanding answers for its isolated existence. Pelvic cramps with no organic causation. Early betrayals and traumas run into deep ledges of the psyche and can rule the individual’s whole emotional life and responsiveness as an adult. 

Moon in Sagittarius: The feeling of being lost can become consuming. This can generate a powerful need to control, or be in control. Feelings of escapism infuse with rage and cause severe reactivity. The individual can struggle managing substance misuse. The moon is sentimental and fixed, the moon wants safety and security and time away to be held and nurtured. Sagittarius desires the opposite. Two conflicting needs collide. There is no safe place. 

Moon in Capricorn: Afraid to ask, the individual secretly longs for comfort and guidance. There is a frightened child in the body of a full grown adult. The individual is wounded by their lost childhood. The world feels hostile and unwelcoming, cold and unforgiving. 

Moon in Aquarius: Feelings are intense and unforgiving, the individual feels compelled to distance themselves from emotions to restrict them from becoming ultimately consuming. The condition of human existence is devastating. During severe emotional torment, the Lunar Aquarius can experience complete numbness and the sense of exit from their own bodies. 

Moon in Pisces: Loneliness is exaggerated here. An emotional compass without any direction, feelings take on a life of their own. All life, love, and suffering is born and dies here. Spiritually insatiable, can devote themselves to any guide, creed, or guru that seems to offer salvation. 

-C.

Moon Signs 3

Moon in Aries: You have instinctive reactions to people, and you immediately form your judgments. Your enthusiasm is easy to elicit, as is your anger. When you are in doubt, you immerse yourself in the activity. You are action-oriented, impetuous and determined, but you can also be selfish, irritable, impatient and abrupt. You make your needs known. When you were a child, your mother had to react to your impetuous demands. It was necessary. As a result, you have perceived him as a dynamic person. She taught you, for example, to be independent.

Moon in Taurus: On the emotional level, you are cautious, trustworthy and enjoyable. You react slowly, but once you have decided to devote yourself to something, it’s for the long run. You are stable, but obstinate. In case of doubt, you refuse to move in the least centimeter. But you suffer in times of change. When you were a child, you desperately sought the safety of a present and caring parent. It’s likely your mother tried to be that for you.

Moon in Gemini: You are fickle, agitated, dashing, and you have a clear speech. You express your feelings with spirit and intelligence. But you take a basically cerebral approach to your emotional problems. Though you tend to worry, analyzing your own reactions brings you a dose of calm, and you adapt easily to change. As a child, you were agitated, curious and easily distracted.

Moon in Cancer: The Moon governs the sign of Cancer, and therefore no matter what else happens in your card, you are a lunar person: changing mood, receptive, sentimental, and supremely conscious of the continual flow of your emotions. Tears coqme easily, and the past exercises a magnetic influence on you. You are probably very affectionate and remarkably committed to your loved ones.

Moon in Leo: The Moon in Leo adds heat, luster and exuberance to any solar sign. You consider yourself an outstanding number. Although your pride is easily crumpled, you are generally confident and happy. But when things do not go as you wish, you conceal the doubts you have about yourself and your ambivalence by a firework of emotions.

Moon in Virgo: Shy in terms of emotions, you prefer to repress them rather than express them. You try to be discreet, and you may find it difficult to cope with major problems. Instead, you divert your attention by focusing on details or working so hard that you barely have time to think. You are industrious, you have practical sense and you are helpful.

Moon in Libra: You are gracious, kind, romantic and diplomatic. You avoid vulgarity and try to express your feelings in a balanced and reasonable manner. Love and relational life are indispensable to your well-being, and you can barely imagine life without a partner. But you also enjoy serenity, and you will do what is necessary to achieve this elusive goal.

Moon in Scorpio: Passionate and easily crumpled, you are a complex person. Stubborn, intense, and sometimes self-destructive, you express your feelings indirectly and you often try to keep them secret, which may require a certain amount of manipulation. You avoid confrontation in terms of emotions: you feel that it is safer.

Moon in Sagittarius: You have a philosophic attitude, you are frank, cheerful and generous. Well-intentioned and idealistic, you are also a risk taker who depends on his independence and will do anything to preserve it. When a problem arises, you tend to look for rational explanations. It is easier for you to take action than emotions. You may believe that you are always right, even if it is not, which can inadvertently hurt you. But your optimism eventually comes back, and you embark on a new adventure.

Moon in Capricorn: You are stable, reserved and well disciplined. You know your limits. You may be pessimistic and sad because, in one way or another, the typical joy of childhood has passed you by. Reserved and complexed, you feel more stable and calm when you succeed. The exuberance of feelings and the dramas of other people make you anxious. But in times of crisis, you take responsibility. When you are in control, you experience a sense of authority and control that you try to maintain with great effort.

Moon in Aquarius: In the depths of yourself, you consider yourself a sort of Crusader or pillar of good works of charity. You like to think that you are able to make a difference in the world. Whatever else you see in your natal chart, you are attracted by what is original and non-conformist. It is difficult for you to express your emotions and you can give people the impression of being reserved. In reality, you do not know what to do with your feelings, and you are trying to pretend you do not.

Moon in Pisces: You are gentle, sentimental, influential and compassionate. But each emotional wave puts you down. Extremely sensitive and easily injured, you also possess a very fine intuition. When you act upon it, you are well. Although you may be dreamy and sometimes lack practical sense, it is imperative that you protect yourself emotionally.

The Zodiac Signs as Bad Things

Aries: Destruction

Taurus: Surrender

Gemini: Dishonesty

Cancer: Betrayal

Leo: Abandonment

Virgo: Failure

Libra: Injustice

Scorpio: Loss of control

Sagittarius: Restriction

Capricorn: Disappointment

Aquarius: Judgment

Pisces: Heartbreak

despite all relatable memes to the contrary, most people aren’t suicidal! please understand this. if you’re experiencing self-destructive feelings please please reach out to someone, because it’s not just a standard feature of being a person to want to die, I promise you. even if you’re traumatized or mentally ill. really. 

legacy, what is a legacy? it’s planting seeds in a garden you never get to see

so basically i’m going with the idea that rome knows lovino is a sign that his time will be up, because he can sense that he isn’t just another of their kind but…a successor. and it’s bittersweet; naturally noone likes the thought of dying— it’s an ending. but lovino is also…continuity. that some part of him lives on and endures, even if in a different shape and form. and that he loved lovino even if he admittedly wasn’t very good at showing it all the time. 

i’m just having too many emotions about baby nations as you can probably tell from my recent stuff

I think I have always been a fan of self destructive behavior
There comes a time when you are not afraid of anything anymore
And there’s only this rush of exhilaration at any chance of pain

For instance I’m slowly pushing away all the friends I have and it’s killing me but somewhere deep down I know I deserve it
For instance today I was crossing the road and this car was racing at me and I thought “for fucks sake mate just hit me”
But they slowed down and avoided me like I was a train wreck and they were mercy

I’ve been staying up till midnight and getting up at four in the morning
Living off of coffee and bad dreams that happen when I’m awake
My hands shake so much I can’t seem to write correctly anymore but that doesn’t matter because I haven’t been studying for tests anyway
I am painting my skin with red lines that look like accidents
I am leaving my hand on the burner for just a bit too long
I am walking in dark alleys at night when the moon is hidden behind clouds
I am doing all of these things
Hoping that one of them will kill me
Hoping that someone will stop me.

—  I am self destructing and no one is watching– Lily Rain