destroy your reputation

“Run from what’s comfortable. Forget safety. Live where you fear to live. Destroy your reputation. Be notorious. I have tried prudent planning long enough. From now on I’ll be mad.”

~ Rumi

“Run from what’s comfortable. Forget safety. Live where you fear to live. Destroy your reputation. Be notorious. I have tried prudent planning long enough. From now on I’ll be mad.” ~ Rumi

Imagine if a person would completely ruin your life. Imagine that they hurt you so much that you never thought that you could feel so much pain, destroy your image of yourself, destroy your reputation, destroy your mental health, destroy your social life, and leave everything you have and know in a million pieces. Imagine if a person raped you and then turned every person you love against you. Imagine moving across the country to escape all the mess that this person made of your life and not seeing them for 2 years. And then when you least expect it, in a place where you least expect it walk straight into them and looking up and seeing that the reason you are in all this pain for is standing in front of you looking into your eyes.

So yeah that just happened to me about 12 minutes ago.

[Slytherin] Having Social Anxiety And Dating Fred Weasley Would Include...
  • Fred would always give you small talk in the morning
  • Which meant him always having to sneak into your room
  • He usually gives you nose and cheeks kisses rather than on the lips
  • Whenever the two of you go out, you would cling to his arm, which he enjoys a lot
  • He never pressures you into meeting a large group of new people so it’s usually the same people when you go out
  • But it takes you quite a while to get used to going out and talking to people so you both go out to meet one person every time
  • You like to be hugged a lot
  • So you and Fred cuddle a lot
  • Though, it’s usually in private because he knows you don’t want to ruin your Slytherin reputation
  • But then you also think that you’d rather destroy your reputation as a cunning Slytherin to be with Fred
  • But you never voice those opinions because … you’re a Slytherin
  • When you’re both in the hall eating your food, you’d both spare glances at each other
  • He’d usually wink at you with a devilish smirk
  • Whereas you’d roll your eyes but inside you’d be giggling and blushing
  • When he talks you into meeting his family, he gets you to meet his mum and dad first because of your anxiety
  • His mum is very weary of you at the start because his first words were; “Mum, Dad, this is my girlfriend (Y/N), she’s a Slytherin.”
  • But then as you two talking more (or more she talked and you smiled and nodded a lot) you both bonded more
  • His dad found you adorable even though Fred told him you were a Slytherin because you kept hugging his arm and hiding behind him for most of the introduction
  • After a while of dating, you decided that you wanted to meet all of his family
  • The introductions were the same and they all felt weary at first (except George, because Fred always talked his ear off about you) but then they saw how awkward and sweet you were to the family
  • So the family grew to love you like their own, they even knitted you a Weasley sweater which you now always wear
  • Even though Fred was a professional at persuading, he was unable to persuade you to join in his and George’s pranks because you were too scared that you would get told off and embarrassed in front of people
  • By then, you were shaking so he had to hug you for a few hours
  • Bonus: you both got free chocolate from Molly and Authur when they heard about it
Run from what’s comfortable.
Forget safety.
Live where you fear to live.
Destroy your reputation.
Be notorious.
I have tried prudent planning long enough.
From now on I’ll be mad.
—  Rumi

The Potter siblings were all very close. James, Albus and Lily fought worse then anybody -supper loud and aggressive, a bit scary to witness- but they were extremely protective of one another and would do anything for each other

James is the worst. Like he teases the shit out of them, but seriously, you squint at one of his little siblings wrong and he’ll be up in your face in an instant with a wand at your throat. He already has so many detentions regularly that he’s not afraid to curse a bitch and get more. And Lily will destroy your reputation forever (not to mention place roaches in your bed or give you a permanent case of hideous acne (a trick learnt from aunt Hermione)). Albus isn’t so much on the defensive/protective side (he know’s his siblings can handle themselves) so much as just really being there for his brother and sister in support.

Here is a thing that is excellent about sex work

It’s a big part of the accessibility of the industry generally, and one of the pragmatic reasons that fighting lateral whorephobia is so important.  

You always, to a greater or lesser extent, have the ability to change the way you work.  Which is not to say that all changes are equally feasible for all workers at all times (that obviously being impacted by the sorts of privilege to which one has access), but the pool of sex work is exponentially larger than that of most civilian fields.  

If you’re a nurse, and you fuck up in some way, you might have your license revoked and never be allowed to nurse again at all.  Or you might simply destroy your reputation and have no way to access a clean slate.  With sex work, a change of scenery, a change of hair, or even just a change of stage name, and bam, you can be right in the land of “if only I knew then what I know now.” You can raise your rates, you can lower your rates, you can change what services you offer and to whom.  There’s no limit to how many times you can do this, at least as far as the general market goes.  (Gosh, even if your goal is to work in one specific venue and you blow it, a couple of years later it’s  likely that the entire staff will have turned over.) You can be a dancer today and a fetish worker a year from now and an agency escort last month, and maybe do a bunch of those things at the same time. Far more so than other fields, you can do the thing that best meets your particular needs in a particular moment. 

And what this does, contrary to the a lot of the weird aspirational blogging about carefully crafting your persona that’s going around, is give you time.  As long as you have enough to meet your needs right now, you can always figure out how to optimize tomorrow.  

What I’m saying is: don’t fucking shit on people for not businessing the way you business. 

Rumi quotes for the signs (based on people I know)
  • Aries: "Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing/and rightdoing there is a field./I'll meet you there./When the soul lies down in that grass/the world is too full to talk about."
  • Taurus: "Why should I be unhappy? Every parcel of my being is in full bloom."
  • Gemini: "Stop acting so small. You are the universe in ecstatic motion."
  • Cancer: "Forget safety./Live where you fear to live./Destroy your reputation./Be notorious."
  • Leo: "Don't be satisfied with stories, how things have gone with others. Unfold your own myth."
  • Virgo: "Very little grows on jagged rock./Be ground. Be crumbled./So wild flowers will come up/Where you are./You have been stony for too many years./Try something different. Surrender."
  • Libra: "Ignore those that make you fearful and sad, that degrade you back towards disease and death."
  • Scorpio: "When someone beats a rug, the blows are not against the rug, but against the dust in it."
  • Sagittarius: "Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it."
  • Capricorn: "Nothing can nourish the soul but light."
  • Aquarius: "When you do things from your soul, you feel a river moving in you, a joy."
  • Pisces: "Don't grieve. Anything you lose comes round in another form."