The channel of DesandNate will forever be one of the best accomplishments of my entire life. That being said, it IS a two person channel. A duo. A pairing, a coupling. And when one person no longer wants to make videos, it is a force beyond my control that effects the entire channel.
I cannot say why Nathan refuses to post to DesandNate or to his other channels for that matter, but it is a entirely out of my control. He is his own person, who wants to explore new passions and ambitions in his own life right now, and WHO AM I to deny him of that?
So for the people constantly asking “where is Nathan?” I cannot say. He is in another state doing whatever he wants to do, and I can’t force him to make videos.
That being said, I realize DesandNate is a duo channel. So it’s my priority at this point to only focus on the videos on Capndesdes and DESPWNS, two channels that are entirely mine that don’t REQUIRE anyone’s approval or meet with anyone’s dismay when I upload or DONT upload. Or when someone else uploads or DOESNT upload. A channel where I can be personal and myself without having to act or be a certain way to get approval. Or where someone says “you don’t upload enough. You don’t upload different content. You don’t act the same. Blahblahblah”.
I hope everyone who reads this understands my position and respects my decision to focus on what I believe are my priorities in life. This doesn’t mean I won’t EVER upload to that channel, it just means my priority will be Capndesdes and DESPWNS. Thanks loves :)
for those of you who didn’t watch my stream, this picture will make NO SENSE to you.
Basically I just thought it would be funny to make a beautiful flowery tumblr picture with a hashtag that made NO SENSE, that way people thought it was some trend that they’re missing out on and reblogged it, even if it meant absolutely nothing.
“What the fuck is this picture you reblogged? BLOODFARTS? WHAT IS THAT!?”
“Oh you don’t know? man it’s crazy!”
“WHAT IS IT?”
“It’s bloodfarts, man, GOD. YOU SHOULD KNOW WHAT IT IS.”
Really though guys, I would be no one without all of you wonderful people subscribing and watching and buying merch and caves of ice and listening to my music on Soundcloud and just being amazing in general. A captain couldn’t wish for a better crew/fans :D
Hey guys so I just wanted to write a post about my stance on my videos. After so long of making videos for youtube, a lot of youtubers come across the existential question of “WHY DO I CONTINUE DOING THIS?” Some do it because it’s routine, or because they don’t know what ELSE to do, but I have personally found that I enjoy making videos for no other reason than I am passionate about them. I don’t care about views, or how many subscribers I have, I am simply doing this because I love it and want to make a living out of doing it.
I love connecting with the people that like my videos and find them entertaining, and it inspires me to continue down this road and see where it leads.
My game reviews that I post to my gaming channel, Despwns, get about 10 - 30 thousand views each, which is pretty low to most standards. So why continue doing them? Because I LOVE doing it. I love putting forth THAT much effort in editing, writing, gathering clips, green screen work, JUST because I personally love them.
THAT is the message I want to spread, is just that if you’re passionate about something - if you love what you do, Sometimes you’ll never see rewards for those things, but WHO CARES? If you’re NOT proud and passionate about what you do, WHAT IS THE POINT IN DOING IT?
So who cares about hate or trolls, because I AM PERSONALLY FUCKING PROUD of everything I make, and nothing they could ever say will ever convince me I am something I’m not.
Anyways, enough pointless ranting. I just wanted to put this into words. I love you all <3