I haven’t worn a two piece for a very long time because I hated my body so much and my stretch marks on my thighs. I’ve been going through this very long process of self love and I feel as if I’m at the point where I am comfortable enough to get a two piece and go to a beach. That was one of my goals for 2015, let’s see how this works out. I can’t even believe I’m sharing this but yes I am very chubby and I love it :)
Gifts from India: every time my friends go back to the desiland, I don’t tell them to bring me clothes or jewelry but cute things like this. I live for cultural ornaments to fill my room with. But they are a pain to take photos of, had to hold them because they kept twirling. lol
Buzzfeed has recently contacted me about doing a video on cultural appropriation and they are in need of South Asians in the LA area who are willing to talk about their personal connections to the bindi. If you are interested in this opportunity, please send me an email at email@example.com or shoot me a message here and we can get this started!
Muniba Mazari, a wheelchair bound painter whose twitter bio reads, “ An optimist who is physically challenged & differently able.”
“Although it is hard to paint being a paraplegic, it is not easy to paint with a free mind when you are wheelchair bound, yet I know it is the only way through which I can spread the message of strength and courage. So I forget my pain and paint for myself, I paint for people as I believe in spreading the message of ‘Never Give Up’.”
So I recently tried out wearing a nath. It hurt my nose, but I think it was worth it.
I think it’s a bold accessory to wear (especially to a college event) and I got a lot of negative reviews from family etc (it’s too damn big, why do you want to look out of place, blah blah). But I just thought it was so pretty. Though I think I looked better in person than in the photos.
It mattered to me that I did this because I just care so much. I care too much about ‘reviews’ and how I should look and what people (esp boys) will think. I peg so much of my self-worth and self-image on it. I have so much more to unlearn about how I ought to look, what will happen if don’t look ‘acceptable’, and so much more to learn about practising and doing my feminism in little acts of everyday life.
I like wearing conspicuous, big, beautiful desi jewellery and I’m making myself not care about looking like an ‘auntieji’ or a ‘behenji’ or too ‘traditional-traditional’.
And if you’re wondering about this overflow of thoughts triggered by a nath, I think too much and too existentially these days, so yes, every little thing sets off much bigger thoughts. I figured that it’s best to write them down however they come out.
Also, I’m wearing a pattu sari that is technically ‘mine’ first, though I do share it with my mum, as we share all saris. I absolutely loved the colour combination. And you can’t see it clearly in this picture, but my bindi is a little star that I drew on myself. I quite liked that.