desarmes

Eu estava tentando ser forte, estava lutando contra a vontade de gritar a plenos pulmões que minha vida não tinha mais graça por não ter você, e quando finalmente achei que tinha controle sobre meus sentimentos você veio com essa risada que me desmonta e com essa voz que me faz perder as forças e desarmou em segundos a armadura que eu demorei meses pra montar.

yo soy la que está mal, digo porque el mundo entero no puede estar fallando o puede que si, bah qué sé yo, quizás he reducido todo a un par de giladas que me hacen explotar, de bronca, tristeza, ganas de morir, de no estar. Como hago para volver a empezar? Me desarme, me arme, unas mil veces más, pero ahora no hay a quién culpar, que cagada tener que hacerme cargo, siempre había alguien más que me haga empeorar o me ayude a flotar.

Ayer quería una lección, hoy sólo pido una tregua. Las palabras pesan más cuando las repartes sin que nadie te las haya pedido. Hay culpa en el silencio, en las miradas de soslayo, en el vaivén de los reproches. Hay culpa en las manos llenas de nada, en los pies descalzos de rutas, en la fuerza que ya no sirve. Nadie lo sabe, pero existen más cadáveres de amores que de personas. Eso es fácil de comprobar si en lugar de visitar los cementerios se visitan las plazas llenas de gente sola. He visto al amor pidiendo limosna y al poeta arribando en ciudades extrañas sólo para olvidar lo que le hace daño. Pero en esas ciudades siempre llueve y nunca amanece. La poesía, como refugio y condena, es capaz de seguirle la pista al poeta adonde quiera que vaya. Por eso pido la tregua, quiero un respiro, un viento fresco que se lleve estos recuerdos, una lluvia que limpie las impurezas y saque a relucir todo lo bonito que me queda, que es poco. Todavía espero que alguien me diga que por mucho que lo intente no va a cambiar nada. Necesito eso: un golpe terminal, definitivo, que en lugar de hacerme tropezar me haga caer del todo. Un golpe que me desarme y lance lo más lejos posible todas mis piezas, en especial esas que me impiden soltarme de una esperanza que me apuñala por la espalda y a la que siempre recibo con los brazos abiertos.
—  Heber Snc Nur
Deslizo os dedos sob o teclado, e começo digitando sobre algo aleatório, sei lá, escrever sobre um possível casal que vi na rua, um animal de estimação, qualquer coisa. Mas, no fim de tudo, eu acabo falando de você e do quanto estou sofrendo com sua ida. No fim de tudo, eu sei que meu coração não vai conseguir mudar de assunto. Eu não queria que tivesse chegado neste ponto. Olhar pra você na rua, e ter que inventar pro meu coração, que é apenas um mero desconhecido. Meu coração te conhece bem, eu vou passar direto por você, mas ele vai olhar, meu coração vai chorar, vai pedir pra eu dar meia volta e ir tentar conversar, falar com você, tentar entender o que foi que aconteceu, uma justificativa, um sinal, qualquer coisa que desfaça tudo o que houve entre nós. Qualquer coisa que desarme nós dois e nos faça voltar. Só tem você na fila do banco, na fila do posto de saúde, na porta da escola da minha irmã, nas músicas que ouço, só tem você. Seu lugar ainda está intacto, se quiser voltar, e desistir dessa ideia maluca de partir, eu estou aqui.
—  Anelise Cristine.
12 claves para dejar ir lo malo y empezar de nuevo.

Un eminente filósofo griego llamado Heráclito decía que es imposible para cualquiera bañarse dos veces en el mismo río, ya que todo cambia, tanto el agua que corre como quien se baña.

A pesar de que la gran mayoría de personas es consciente de que la naturaleza impone un cambio constante a todas las cosas, muchos encuentran dificultad a la hora de cerrar ciclos y modificar hábitos, lo que les impide mejorar su calidad de vida y les lleva a sentirse frustrados consigo mismos. Por fortuna, la solución está en aprender a reconocer cuándo es momento de soltar lo que ya no genera bienestar en nuestra vida y qué estrategias poner en práctica para evitar recaídas; a partir de entonces, todo es cuestión de darle tiempo al tiempo y adaptarnos poco a poco a nuestro nuevo estilo de vida.

Aprendiendo a reconocer un fin de ciclo

Puede que la etapa más difícil del proceso sea la aceptación, el doblegar las esperanzas (que siempre desean permanecer) y colocar en primer orden nuestro equilibrio emocional y paz mental.

Entonces, ¿cómo saber cuándo ha llegado el momento de concluir una relación, cerrar un capítulo en nuestra vida o dejar un mal hábito? Veamos:

  • Evidencia de que está en riesgo nuestra salud física o psicológica.
  • Hemos dejado de dedicar tiempo a las cosas que nos importan.
  • Experimentamos una sensación permanente de culpa o reproche hacia nosotros mismos por el estilo de vida que llevamos.
  • Nos sentimos desanimados la mayor parte del tiempo a raíz de nuestras circunstancias.
  • Cuando el evento o relación en cuestión no contribuye a nuestro crecimiento ni al alcance de nuestras metas.

Preparándonos para decir adiós

Como todos sabemos, la vida no es un rompecabezas fácilmente desarmable en el que podamos sacar una pieza de un esquina y colocarla donde nos plazca de manera instantánea. Pasamos años enteros construyendo esquemas de pensamiento, fortaleciendo relaciones y adoptando costumbres que, a la hora de la hora, no son fáciles de abandonar; es por esto que prepararse para soltar es también parte del proceso, una etapa que debe ser experimentada sin prisas.

Si te encuentras en la típica encrucijada dual donde una parte de ti exige un nuevo comienzo mientras la otra se aferra desesperadamente al alivio de lo conocido, una forma útil de prepararte para un fin de ciclo consiste en repasar contigo mismo las razones que han de motivar un nuevo cambio de paradigma. Para ello, hazte las siguientes preguntas y responde con total sinceridad:

  • ¿Qué pasaría si decido dar por concluido este capítulo de mi vida para siempre? ¿Me vería afectado positiva o negativamente? ¿Mi calidad de vida sería mejor o peor de lo que es en la actualidad?
  • ¿Qué pasaría si decido no poner punto final a la situación? ¿Cómo me haría sentir tener que lidiar con las circunstancias? ¿Vale la pena intentarlo?
  • Poniendo sobre la balanza los aspectos positivos y negativos, ¿qué tanto bien aporta a mi vida este hábito o situación? ¿Contribuye actualmente a hacer de mí una mejor persona? ¿Me genera un nuevo beneficio físico o emocional?

Cerrando puertas y tirando la llave

No basta con tomar la decisión de dejar ir todo lo malo que hace sombra en nuestra vida, hay que asegurarse de hacerlo con el menor riesgo posible a sufrir recaídas y “últimas despedidas” interminables.

Esto es lo que debes tener presente para volver a empezar con el pie derecho:

  • Sé consciente de lo que no funcionó. Ya sea que estés saliendo de una mala relación, un mal empleo o un estilo de vida poco saludable, debes saber con exactitud qué es lo que no dio resultado, cuáles fueron las razones exactas que te llevaron a sentirte incómodo con la situación.
  • Tómate el tiempo de analizar qué decisiones fueron tejiendo la telaraña hacia esos resultados. Hazte consciente de tus errores, es más, ocúpate de ellos el doble de lo que te ocuparías de los errores ajenos porque, después de todo, dependerá de ti no volver a repetir la historia.
  • Asume tu renacimiento. Date la libertad de probar cosas nuevas que te generen satisfacción personal (siempre y cuando no te dañes a ti mismo ni a los demás). El truco es dejarle claro al cerebro que eres una ser nuevo, que estás en búsqueda de experiencias más sanas y que no volverás a tropezar con la misma roca.
  • Exorciza tu vida de personas negativas. Cambia tu número de teléfono si te apetece o múdate a otra ciudad si consideras que lo necesitas y tus condiciones te lo permiten. No tiene nada que ver con dramatismos, sino con sentido común: de nada sirve un piso bien lustrado si nuestros invitados tienen los pies sucios.

Inazuma Walker Volume 4 White Day Special - summary
(Apologies for lack of pictures, but they can be found at @shawn-and-aiden-frost-9 under the tag Inazuma Walker and @edgarvaltinas under the tag Inazuma Eleven)

*All prefixes (-san, -chan etc…) are how Hino and Mo address the characters

New Character Contest:
Character designs that were created by fans that will appear in the anime and games
The girl’s name is Ponko and the boy is called Hyoujo
Mo comments his mouth is always like that - it looks like the number three or waves
I think the girl character is an actual tanuki that turns into a human
They talk about how cute she is; Mo praises the design and Hino says it’s a perfectly created tanuki - a real tanuki
They reminisce about the kappas from the original series
They also bring up the fact that playing soccer barefoot is dangerous
They congratulate the two winning designs, then Hino comments that it’s a wonderful idea that fan designs can appear in the show and games. Mo asks him if he is praising himself (for the idea).

Valentine Event Character Ranking:
The Inazuma Valentine’s Event 2017 ran from the 10th-17th of February on Twitter where fans could Tweet chocolate/sweets/food/pictures and ‘give’ them to their chosen character by hashtagging the name of the event and their character’s name. Each tweet counted as one vote. They received about 4,500 tweets and while they’d like to, they can’t show everything so they’ll show as many as possible. They really praise the effort fans took - making their own chocolate, drawing pictures, coming up with their own scenarios etc…

Here are some of the comments about specific characters. 

Shindou
I think they said he received a lot, and they talked about one of the managers calling him Shin-sama

Gazelle
The girl’s message to Gazelle apologised in her tweet since she felt she failed in making her cupcakes. Mo explains the picture of the bar of chocolate surrounded by ice-packs as Gazelle giving a ‘cool/cold’ impression.

Burn
Mou explains the tulip theme is because of his hair, according to a lot of fans

Asuto
Of course, Asuto-kun’s candy is the sun. Mo says ‘Go for it!’ Is that a catchphrase?

Haizaki
It’s a bento rather than chocolate, but it’s wonderfully made, right down to the bangs
Mo says this character is well-loved

Nosaka
The picture of him on the cake was drawn by hand, Mo seems impressed


Endou
The gold Endou-kun figure in one of the photos is a charm, called an o mamori in Japanese, and Endou-kun’s name is Mamoru (same kanji)
Mo says looks like an Ikemen/hottie in one of the pictures, and Hino can’t believe it’s Endou-kun but Mo insists it is. She says he looks cool.

Kinako
They’re both happy to see Kinako-chan. Mo says she ranked very high.
Hino comments that she’s popular in spite of being a girl, and Moe corrects him that it doesn’t matter than she’s a girl - she’s popular regardless.

Midorikawa
Hino mentions Hiroto makes an appearance on the top cupcake, then corrects himself that his name has changed to Tatsuya. I think Mo mentions something about using matcha to make green food, Hino adds because he has a ‘green’ image (like his name means green).

Kira Hiroto
All of his gifts are gum, not chocolate. Mo says, Happy Valentine! Here’s gum.

Goal
Even Goal-san is loved.

Hakuryuu
The captions in his picture are Hakuryuu protesting that he doesn’t eat sweet things, while his fan insists by shoving it into his mouth, and he calls her ‘kisama!’. Mo says fans love him because he’s cool.

Ibuki
The atmosphere is kind of tense in this picture, like she’s apologising while giving him the chocolate
Mou comments he’s popular because he played basketball as well as soccer

Aki
Mo says the picture for Aki-chan looks like official art. Hino agrees and I think he says it looks exactly like a picture by a particular artist

Kogure
He got frog-shaped chocolate

Wandaba
Mo says he gets chocolate because Kidou is inside of him (same voice actor)

Manabe
A lot of pictures have homework, and Mo mentions he’s popular

Gojou
Mo says Gojou-san is great.

Kageyama
Steel-bar shaped chocolate. Hino says the fans have thought this through, and Mo says reluctantly that Kageyama is popular.

Even Hino and Mo got gifts. They once again praise the quality of the gifts, despite fans only having a week. Hino’s happy that the characters are so loved.

Top 10 Character Ranking:
Hino comments that even though they only had one week, so many people send tweets. A lot of magazines like Animage already guessed the most popular characters in their last issues, and they bring out one article as an example (for reference, that magazines lists Kazemaru, Fudou, Tatsuya, Aphrodi, Fubuki, Kidou, Gouenji, Endou, Gojou in that order as their guesses). Hino makes a joke about asking people to buy the magazine they showed (Famitsu?).

Kirino - 113 Tweets
“I’ve been supporting Kirino since my youth. And he’s still my favourite today.”

Mo says the picture looks really high quality, like something from a real manga or an anime frame, the image of him accepting the chocolate with a smile.
Then I think (and I could be wrong) Hino mentions that afterwards he’s going to have a worried look, which is why Mo reacts with ‘kowai, kowai, kowai…!’, meaning scary. (If I’m right, this is because Kirino shows hesitation about being popular with girls/ receiving things like Valentine’s…) EDIT: I’m completely wrong. Hino says the girl who drew the picture should come work for him as an animator lol

Tsurugi - 115 Tweets
“Please take my honmei choco*!!! And because you look freezing, please take this scarf too!”

Hino says there was a fair amount of tweets for Tsurugi, and Mo adds because he’s cool. Hino then mentions that Kirino and Tsurugi were the two from Tenma’s story to make the top ten. They talk about the picture and Hino comments he doesn’t think Tsurugi looks cold at all, but he does look embarrassed. Mo says Tsurugi is a tsundere, except in front of his brother - then he acts like an angel.

*honmei chocolate - chocolate given to a boy on valentine’s day out of genuine sentiment

Gouenji - 131 Tweets
“The strawberries are fire, the whipped cream is your hair, and the blueberries are what the ball looks like after you make a shoot.”
His gifts are supposed to look like his face/image. Mo likes him so she was upset he wasn’t ranked higher, and only got 8th. A letter from the fan says she loves every aspect of Gouenji, from his hair to his face seen from the side to the kanji for his name. This fan loves him so much she can’t express it, and asks him to eat the cake she made if it’s alright.

Aphrodi - 134 Tweets
“Kami no cocoa. When you drink it you’ll feel refreshed.”
Mo says Aphrodi is a really popular character, loved by everyone. Hino comments on the Kami no Coco. They go to the next picture, and the message reads: “Don’t worry, it’s not Kami no Aqua - it’s Kami no Hot Chocolate!” Hino and Mo feel like these two would be friends, and find it amusing. They talk about how Aphrodi is cool.

Sakuma - 145 Tweets
“I’ll be your biggest fan from here on too! I’m supporting you! Do your best as a player for Teikoku and with the new coach!”
They talk about the eyepatch bear-chan, and the origami penguins. They mention Sakuma has become captain.

Kidou - 196 Tweets
“For White Day, I’d like a written notification for an offer to join Kidou financial group and Teikoku! Oops, you’ve seen my ambition!”
Hino says Kidou’s finally appeared. Mo says that while Kidou received a lot of chocolate, they chose the picture which really went all out to include everyone, like the koutei penguins, penguin Sakuma and Genda, Kageyama and even Gojou. Hino says it looks like a wallpaper. Another message from a fan says she made lots of onigiri chocolate, so please eat them with your close friends at Teikoku.

Kiyama Tatsuya (Hiroto) - 226 Tweets
“I love Kiyama, who always does his best to believe in his own path!! I’m looking forward to see what you do next!”
They talk about the cookies, in the form of Aliea, Ina Japan and even kappas. This fan mention since she can’t cook, she drew a picture.
He’s liked no matter what his name.
Hino mentions that when this person watches today’s PV, she’ll be amazed, and Mo teases him about praising himself again.

Fudou Akio - 374 Tweets
“Akio-chan, act as you did before.”
(I saw him called Fudou-chan/Akio-chan on the chat quite a lot too, must be a thing…)
They mention he’s very popular, and talk about the bear in the photo dressed as an Inazuma Japan rep.

Fubuki Shirou - 374 Tweets
“The white thing is a scarf. I like Fubuki no matter what series.”
Mo says the Fubuki-shaped cookies are absolutely adorable. Hino comments that the design is great, right down to the scarf, and Mo says they look like they could be sold as professional character-based cookies. Although the new Fubuki has no scarf.

Kazemaru Ichirouta - 512 Tweets
“I’ve supported you since I fell in love with you at first sight nine years ago! In contrast to you cool appearance, you’re so caring and sacrifice yourself for your team, with a warm Inazuma spirit. Do your best in Teikoku too! I’ll continue to support you from here!”
Mo says Famitsu (the magazine that guessed the top-ranking characters) and Animage were right, and Hino agrees it’s amazing a character got over 500 tweets, a huge amount. They congratulate Kazemaru.

They both mention they’re curious about Gojou’s rank, then move o to commenting on the top 50 character ranking.

From 50-30 (Character ranking can be found on my tumblr)
Even Kageyama’s name is there, in 50th place, with some female and GO characters. And in 33rd place is Hino himself! Before Desarm-san (34th) and behind Fideo (32nd). He thanks fans, as he’s happy, then Mo teases him if he eats all that chocolate he’ll get fat again. Hino mentions Matatagi (36th) and is impressed GO Galaxy characters made it. Hino mispronounces Matatagi’s name (Matatabi?) and Mo teases him that Japanese is difficult.

From 28-11
Both Hino and Mo talk about Minamisawa-senpai (22nd) (they call him senpai) for a little bit, as if they were expecting him to appear. Gojou-san got 21st. Hino looks amused that he’s near Minamisawa-senpai’s ranking. They mention Minamisawa-senpai’s pink phone. Hino notes Sangoku-san didn’t make it. Mo says he was 62nd. They talk about him for a bit, saying he’s very caring, though Hino calls him the ‘keeper who can’t stop goals’ and that there’s nothing really he’s able to stop, no joke. (Translator’s Notes: apologies to sangoku-san) They say it’s a pity Endou is in 11th place, just missing the top 10
Tenma is only 26th, even though he’s the protagonist of GO. Mo assures him tenma is very popular so it’s okay.

They thank everyone again for participating, then say they’ll give their White Day gift - a message from the top three characters.

Fudou’s Message
(I’m so sorry, but I had trouble understanding the second part of his message, so I’ll need more time before I can translate it properly!)
It seems like you went through a lot of effort to give me unnecessary things. Well, since you went through all that trouble, I guess I’ll accept.
But (missing) this isn’t a thank you or anything.
What? You want something in return? No way!

Hino smiles and says he’s very rude to fans. Mo says that’s the part of Fudou fans like. Hino wonders if this ‘thank you’ message is really okay… Still, it’s a Fudou-kun-like comment. So that’s Fudou’s ‘thank you’.

Fubuki’s Message

Thank you for these wonderful gifts!
I have to say something appropriate in response to your thoughts, right?
It might be difficult for Atsuya to feel the same way, but he’s not a bad person.
Because we’re going to show you cool moves together, stay with us from here on out too! 

 Hino comments Atsuya made a guest appearance in his picture, then I think they said his ranking was quite low in the top 50.
They said Fubuki-kun’s voice sounds genki and confident - he’s a new Fubuki-kun compared to the previous series, thanks to Atsuya.

Kazemaru’s Message
That you remembered me like this makes me so happy!!
Now I’m running in a new ground…
I feel a different wind, with new feelings.
But, I have a feeling not good things are going to happen…
Whatever happens from here on, I’ll only run forward, without forgetting Raimon spirit!
I’m depending on you to support me!

They said Kazemaru-san gave a perfect ‘thank you’.

Another White Day gift is the picture (Kaze, Fubu, Fudou), which can be downloaded from the Inazuma Walker page in many sizes. They talk about the picture for a bit, how all three look cool and Shirou’s doing his special training with his ski board to become like the wind, and Kazemaru-san has his running tracksuit. They said Atsuya’s not in this pic, but he makes his guest appearance in Shirou’s message.

Hino and Moe talk about how fans think so carefully about the InaIre characters, and they’re glad they held the event.

(I’ll upload the second part of the summary about the PV in another post)