Dissociation feels
  • everything is happening 0.5 times too fast
  • numb
  • everything but a little bit to the left
  • Numb™
  • it feels like Monday the 17th at 3:31pm but also like Saturday at 4:57am
  • ….. existing?
  • why are the end credits playing I didn’t even hit play
  • Current emotion is coma
  • I need to self-harm but I physically cannot move
  • feeling panic rising up inside but being too numb to physically react
  • Must Do Thing. Do Not Know What Thing Is.
  • N҉͏̖͇͕̥ư̷̭̪͇͉̰̱͢ͅḿ͝҉̠̬̘͇̫͇͍̘͜b̴͓͍̱̣
  • everythingeverythingeverythingeverythingeverythingeverythingeverythingeverythingeverythingevery
  • …I should start a religion
  • I A M G O D
  • *vibrating softly* everything in the world is my fault
  • Numb
  • Existence Is Fraud
  • Do I still have legs?
Types of dissociation

1. Amnesia - this is when you can’t remember incidents or experiences that happened at a particular time, or when you can’t remember personal information.

2. Depersonalisation - a feeling that your body is unreal, changing or dissolving. It also involves out of body experiences, such as seeing yourself as if watching a movie or floating above.

3. Derealisation - the world around you seems unreal. You may see objects changing in shape, size or colour, or you may feel that other people are robots or generally unreal.

4. Identity confusion - feeling uncertain about who you are. You may feel as if there is a struggle within to define yourself.

5. Identity alteration - this is when there is a shift in your role or identity that changes your behaviour in ways that others would notice.

  • me: wow today was actually really good and nothing went wrong
  • mental illnesses:
  • me:
  • mental illnesses:
  • me:
  • mental illnesses: get fucked

Neurotypical: I can do stuff like leave my house and eat three meals a day!!!
Me: yeah but can you do this? *dissociates for three hours*

Some effects of dissociation

- gaps in your memory

- finding yourself in a strange place without knowing how you got there

- out-of-body experiences

- loss of feeling in parts of your body

- distorted views of your body

- forgetting important personal information

- being unable to recognise your image in a mirror

- a sense of detachment from your emotions

- the impression of watching a movie of yourself

- feelings of being unreal

- internal voices and dialogue

- feeling detached from the world

- forgetting appointments

- feeling that a customary environment is unfamiliar

- a sense that what is happening is unreal

- forgetting a talent or learned skill

- a sense that people you know are strangers

- a perception of objects changing shape, colour or size

- feeling you don’t know who you are
acting like different people, including child-like behaviour

-being unsure of the boundaries between yourself and others

- feeling like a stranger to yourself

- being confused about your sexuality or gender

- feeling like there are different people inside you

- referring to yourself as ‘we’

- being told by others that you have behaved out of character

- finding items in your possession that you don’t remember buying or receiving

- writing in different handwriting

some dissociation feels:

  • my thoughts are far away and I can barely hear them 
  • feelings and reactions are all fake
  • emptiness
  • personality???
  • there’s another person in my body
  • there’s someone trapped in the mirror
  • I can’t die because I’m not real
  • why is the world so blurry and bright?
  • time goes fast but everything else goes slow
  • always performing in front of an invisible audience
  • nothing makes sense so what is rational/irrational??