i've been thinking for a while that one of the things i experience is dissociation, however i've never really understood what it actually means/entails when i've read explanations before because i have a really hard time explaining, expressing and identifying my own emotions and feelings. you seemed to know some about it, do you think you could explain it a bit?
Dissociation is a pretty broad term that encompasses a wide range of experiences. Typically, dissociation is a disconnection from the self (depersonalization) or from the world around you (derealization). This can present in a variety of ways and can feel like:
- Watching yourself from the outside
- Everything feeling far away
- Feeling like your body is not your own
- Feeling like the world is a dream
- Your voice sounding far away when you talk
- The world seems hazy
- Not recognizing yourself in the mirror
These are just some of the ways that dissociation can present and is certainly not an exhaustive list.
However, what you described (not being able to express or identify your feelings) sounds more like alexithymia which is the difficulty or inability to identify or express emotions and is common in autistic people.
If you have more questions about dissociation or alexithymia, feel free to send them to us!