Depersonalization-derealization disorder occurs when you persistently or repeatedly have the feeling that you’re observing yourself from outside your body or you have a sense that things around you aren’t real, or both.
Depersonalization-derealization disorder can be severe and may interfere with relationships, work and other daily activities. The main treatment for depersonalization-derealization disorder is psychotherapy.
It’s frustrating how subjective reality is. I have serious issues with derealization when I’m overstressed, and if I try to ground and sort out what’s real, all the other realities try that much harder to convince me that they’re the real one. Like, I don’t even care what’s real at this point. It’s all real, and none of it is. I’m not sure it makes a difference anyway.
So what is disassociation exactly? Like by definition because I think I disassociate but idk and whats the difference between disassociation and depersonalisation?
Dissociation is a perceived separation between an individual and their sense of self, their history, their feelings or emotions, their physical sensations, their thoughts or actions, or the world around them.
Depersonalization and derealization are both specific types of dissociation. Depersonalization refers to feeling as if oneself or parts of oneself are unreal, disconnected, or missing. This can include feeling emotionally numb or empty, feeling like one’s body isn’t one’s own, being unable to recognize oneself in a mirror, or feeling disconnected from physical sensations.
Derealization refers to feeling as if the outside world is staged, unreal, or somehow changed. This can include feeling like life is a play or movie, feeling like things are somehow too bright and discordant, or feeling like one is an outsider in an alien world.
Dissociation can also involve physical sensations such as tingling, numbness, difficulty perceiving or making sense of sensory information, or feeling light headed.
Others types of dissociation include dissociative amnesia (an inability to remember autobiographical information that can’t be explained by ordinary forgetfulness), identity confusion (being unsure of who one is or feeling like one doesn’t have a solid identity), and identity alteration (switching between dissociated parts as is seen in DID and OSDD-1).
I feel as if I rarely speak about being a community college student.
So here I go:
Basically I screwed up in high school,but not because I wanted to.
I suffered about 2 years from panic disorder and derealization which caused me to rarely go to school and just screw my grades up. I didn’t care and felt that college was stupid.
Towards senior year I fell in love with science and decided to start a new ‘me’ at a local community college and believe me, it changed my life so much.
My first initial goal was to get an AA degree and have a short career because I felt as if I was “too dumb for school”.
I didn’t care about being in honors or even learning.
The moment I started school I became this super nerd lol.
I fell in love with learning and school.
I became a math tutor ( one of the subjects I was extremely bad in) and a determined student.
Continuing school changed me and I am grateful that community college was an actual option for me.
-I now want to pursue doctorates in psychology and philosophy.
-I will be applying to the honors program at my school
-I just got a job as a Mentor for first year students at school
And I have never felt so happy and proud in my life.
Don’t give up.
Sure you screwed up (or not)
Look into options.
Community college has always been seen as a bad thing,but I have met some of the greatest professors and students ever.
Do everything for YOURSELF and the ones you love.
Keep up the hard work and don’t pay attention to the negativity.
im really sorry to bother you but im in a really bad mental patch right nkw and i dont feel like im real and i dont know what to do
You’re not bothering me, honey, don’t worry about it!! Listen to me, okay? You’re gonna be alright. Everything’s gonna be just fine. You may be experiencing dissociation/derealization. I’m gonna try to help you ground yourself, alright? I’m here for you. Do you see this message in writing to you? It’s real. It was written by a real human being, just like you. You are real. It was typed up with real fingers just like you have. Look above at the message you sent me. It’s real too. You’re real. Or else you wouldn’t have been able to send this message and I wouldn’t have been able to receive it. You typed it up with your own real fingers. Look down at your hands. Look at the lines on your palms. Trace them. They’re real. Look at your fingers. Count them. See how real you are? If you were dreaming, you wouldn’t be able to count your fingers. Put your hand up by your face. Take a deep breath now, alright? Hold it for a few seconds before exhaling. Do you feel the carbon dioxide pushing out of your nose? It’s real. Feel the small breeze brushing against your hand? Real. You are a real, living, breathing human. Perhaps splashing some cool water on your face might help. If you have a rubber band with you, put it on your wrist and snap it against your skin. Do you feel that little sting? You are real. If you can get to some, grab an ice cube and hold it in your hand or against your wrist.
Another thing you can do is the 5-4-3-2-1 Grounding Exercise. Here’s how it goes:
5: Acknowledge FIVE things you see around you. Maybe it is a bird, maybe it is pencil, maybe it is a spot on the ceiling, however big or small, state 5 things you see.
4: Acknowledge FOUR things you can touch around you. Maybe this is your hair, hands, ground, grass, pillow, etc, whatever it may be, list out the 4 things you can feel.
3: Acknowledge THREE things you hear. This needs to be external, do not focus on your thoughts; maybe you can hear a clock, a car, a dog park. or maybe you hear your tummy rumbling, internal noises that make external sounds can count, what is audible in the moment is what you list.
2: Acknowledge TWO things you can smell: This one might be hard if you are not in a stimulating environment, if you cannot automatically sniff something out, walk nearby to find a scent. Maybe you walk to your bathroom to smell soap or outside to smell anything in nature, or even could be as simple as leaning over and smelling a pillow on the couch, or a pencil. Whatever it may be, take in the smells around you.
1. Acknowledge ONE thing you can taste. What does the inside of your mouth taste like, gum, coffee, or the sandwich from lunch? Focus on your mouth as the last step and take in what you can taste.
You are real. I really hope you feel better soon, darling. I know how hard it is to deal with this kind of thing. You’re not alone. So many people have to deal with this same thing. You’re brave, you can handle it. You’re strong. You’re gonna get through it, I know you are. Please take good care of yourself and stay safe. You’re a precious human being and you deserve so much happiness. I’m always here if you need to talk. Sending love & positivity. ♥️
I just wanted to ask if it's possible to be dissociated a lot but not be diagnosed with a dissociative disorder? I'm a csa survivor and just recently got diagnosed with ptsd and started trauma therapy 2 months ago. My therapist said that my (pt. 1)
(Pt. 2) brain saved the memories of the csa in a “different” part of the brain (dissociated memories) and i’m just really confused all the time. I’m not in touch with anything that’s going on inside and my T said that’s the dissociation and i
(Pt. 3) know that it makes sense somehow but i just feel completely disconnected to anything thats goin on inside of me. I found a drawing i did as a child which is strong evidence that the memories are real. Sorry for rambling
Yes, that’s very possible! Technically speaking, if you have both PTSD and clinical dissociation and/or dissociative amnesia, you’re supposed to be diagnosed with the relevant dissociative disorder(s) in addition to the dissociative subtype of PTSD. However, it doesn’t make a big difference in the long run because it sounds like your therapist does acknowledge and is treating your dissociation in addition to your PTSD symptoms.
Dissociative amnesia is fairly common among child abuse survivors, so it’s not at all strange that you have it. The same applies to depersonalization, which is what it’s called when you feel disconnected from your own internal processes. That you’re not officially diagnosed with a dissociative disorder doesn’t change this.
hey Rachel! since you're studying psychology, I was wondering if you could help me through understanding depersonalization/derealization/dissociation? bc I think I'm experiencing it but idk to what degree or if I should be concerned and my therapist is shit. sorry to bother you, love, thanks for your time!! :)
I would be happy to walk you through those things and let you know what to look out for (: (DISCLAIMER: I would like to state that I’m not a trained professional and have only been studying psychology for about a year and a half so a professional is definitely better off than I am at these sort of things! Also, it is best to get medical help if concerned you have a mental disorder because it is easy to self-diagnose since a lot of people can connect with different mental disorders and if you have concerns it would be beneficial to get a psychiatrist to help you through it!)