depressive spiral

Garrus: Yeah so after you died I messed up my old job, my mom got a terminal illness and I went into a murderous depression spiral where I tried to emulate you but I’m a huge failure so I got all my friends killed and half my face blown off. But enough about me let’s go fight the collectors!!

Shepard: Oh my god are you okay

Garrus: *finger guns*

Shepard: ….Seriously are you oka-

Garrus: *finger guns more aggressively*

I know I'm all to blame
  • Me: nobody likes me
  • Me: *doesn't go out*
  • Me: why should I try...
  • Me: *doesn't talk to people*
  • Me: socializing is hard
  • Me: *doesn't make an effort to stay in contact with friends*
  • Me: everything is too much of an effort
  • Me: *stops doing activities I love*
  • Me: I bet they secretly hate me I mean I hate me so why shouldn't they
  • Me: *pushes people away*
  • Me: *stays locked up in room*
  • Me: *spends free time staring into space*
  • Me: *starts self loathing*
  • Me: *realizes I'm all alone now*
  • Me: *regretting everything*
  • Me: I know I'm to blame...for lost friends wasted time....I can't get out its too far gone how do I fix myself ?
  • Me: How do I make friends ?
  • Me: Where did it all go wrong?
  • Me: *gives up*
  • Source: anx-skinnygirl-94

If you’re 13-15 years old I want to emphasize that you don’t have to be hyper-vigilante of what’s been happening in the world. You need to be aware of it, but you don’t need an opinion. You should have this in the back of your thoughts; you should be aware, but this shouldn’t be your biggest concern. You’re too young to let this completely fuck over your mental health. Go ahead and march, and get informed. But don’t forget to get some sleep, do your homework, pet a dog each day, and reblog Robbie rotten memes. Don’t forget you’re still in your adolescence.

Yes, I get salty about baldness.

You would too if you’d seen the number of women I have in just a short amount of time sit down in your salon chair and apologize to you for having so little hair, as if you were going to kick them out of the salon in disgust.

Or the number of amab trans femmes on this site who go into deep depression and dysphoric spirals because of their hair.

Because society says it’s common for men to lose their hair, even if there’s a strong sense in society that it’s something that should be fixed or covered up, it’s still something that’s accepted as going to happen and most people don’t react with revulsion when faced with a bald man.  On the flip side, society says it’s abnormal for women to lose their hair.

When, in fact, biologically speaking, it’s quite normal across the board, it’s just that it occurs at a higher rate in amab people.  It’s talked about more often with amab people.  And nobody gives a shit about making magic pills for it for afab people.

Hair loss – when not associated with other symptoms that might suggest illness – is normal.  For everyone.

I know that hair is fun to play with and express yourself with, but losing it does not mean that you’re dirty or lazy or a failure of any sort.  All it means is that your body’s decided that there’s something more important to focus on.

And you are certainly not the only one experiencing it.

I’m sorry but I need this to be said

This is my mother.
This is my mother mentally abusing me.

My mother has ruined my life in the following ways:

Divorced my father and took me with her, causing him to spiral into depression

Called me FATASS for eating anything

Called me stupid for not getting As in math

Forbid me from having friends at my birthday party

She’s beaten me several times

She’s ignoring my opinion

She’s treated me like garbage

She’s left s scar on me

She’s kicked me out multiple times

She’s the reason I tried to kill myself last year

She’s the reason I need therapy

My therapist looked at me like I was crazy when I told her of what my mothers done

My mom has ignored me being extremely sick and sent me to school (throwing up sick)
Which made it worse

She threw a plate at my head

She dragged me across carpet by my legs

She’s slapped me

She once acted like I beat her when I bumped into her and winced everytime I came near her

She make my suicide attempt about herself

And the worst part?

The police can’t arrest her. We called them.
At the time there wasn’t a mark on me, like a bruise or cut. We waited too long so any red marks were gone

Please remember mental abuse is a thing, and it’s a very, very serious thing. It affects so many children but nothing is done.

Thank you for your time.

Fun idea: Hanzo having friends

Hanzo and Hana being best buds

Hanzo being one of the few people on base who doesn’t condescend to Hana.

Hanzo acting brotherly and giving her tips on stretching and anti-inflammatory tea so she doesn’t pinch a nerve in her neck.

Hanzo knowing what it feels like to be a young solider in a battle you shouldn’t have to fight in.

Hanzo recognizing Hana’s ‘battle personality’ as the same type of coping mechanism Genji used.

Hanzo glaring and shutting down anyone who tries to suggest Hana’s too young to fight with them.

Hana helping Hanzo out of his shell.

Hana making damn sure that Hanzo knows she thinks he’s great.

Hana distracting Hanzo when she notices him start to retreat and go into a depression spiral.

Hana letting Hanzo just sit and watch her play games so that he doesn’t have to be alone without having to overwhelm himself.

Hana distracting people in conversations when she notices Hanzo start to get overwhelmed.

Hanzo and Hana keeping eachother company late at night, playing games and reading and drinking tea, tired but with nightmares of fallen friends too clear to risk trying to sleep again.

Hanzo and Hana being friends.

I took a couple of weeks off for personal depression spiral reasons but now I’m back to cry over STAR WARS FEELINGS HELL because, hey, guess where I am. Star Wars Feelings Hell. I’d ask someone to save me but honestly I just want to drag everyone down with me, so here, have some quality feelings hell fic!

five time anakin and obi-wan got cockblocked in the spirit world, and one time they finally got it on by kasuchans, obi-wan/anakin & luke & leia, 1k wip
   It’s a busy time for a couple of the galaxy’s most famous and powerful Force ghosts, and they can’t just seem to get a moment alone. (or, exactly what it says on the tin)
Broken by lilyconrad, obi-wan/anakin & rex & ahsoka & padme & cast, NSFW, sith!obi-wan, dark themes, 14k wip
   The Twins are unstoppable enforcers of the Emperor’s will, the sun and moon that hang in the black void of his rule. It is said they are not the same age and that under their hoods they do not look alike, but they fight as one entity, silent and terrible as an eclipse in a spring sky.
Anakin Skywalker and the Stray Droid by protos_metazu_ison, obi-wan/anakin & anakin/padme & cast, 21k wip
   Anakin adopts a stray droid, much to Obi-Wan’s displeasure, which is fine because Rusty doesn’t like Obi-Wan all that much either.
untitled by writegowrite, obi-wan/anakin, ~1k
   Obi-Wan wakes up, the whole world muffled and dulled by painkiller powerful enough it takes him a solid minute to understand the pristine white ocean slowly shifting all around him is actually the privacy curtains marking off his little corner of the base’s med tent.
untitled by gaealynn, obi-wan/anakin, NSFW, 1.3k
   They don’t often have a lot of time together, so it takes them a while to figure out that Anakin’s strength in the Force has also blessed him with a nearly instantaneous refractory period – under the right circumstances.
The House That Obi-Wan Built by Smitty, obi-wan & anakin, 10.4k
   Obi-Wan and Anakin find that home life isn’t what it’s cracked up to be.
In All The World by Ammar, obi-wan & anakin & padme & cast, 70k wip
   The story of how Anakin Skywalker and Obi-Wan Kenobi tamed each other, from Naboo to Anakin’s early days at the Temple.
time to change the road you’re on by wreckageofstars, obi-wan & anakin & ahsoka & kanan & ezra & cast, 20.8k wip
   The end of the Clone War is near - the fall of the Republic even nearer. Anakin Skywalker, caught up in the events that lead to the rise of the Empire and the loss of everything he holds dear, finds himself sent nearly two decades into the future.
untitled by stonefreeak, obi-wan & ahsoka, 2.2k
   Finally, we have Ahsoka’s POV! I have a few other asks about how she reacts to Chancellor Kenobi, but this isn’t quite that (too late in the timeline).
Old Man Luke by scarletjedi, obi-wan & anakin & luke & cast, 10.4k wip
   Obi-Wan narrowed his eyes. “Who are you?” He asked, hoping a direct question would yield answers. The old man seemed adept at side-stepping information when asked a bit more deftly. “I’ve never heard of a Master with your level of talent.”
Empire’s Shadow by Guybrarian (drjanetwatson), luke & ahsoka & mara & winter & cast, 44.9k wip
   In the Rise of the Rebellion, Prince Luke Organa works to help the fledgling alliance with his teacher and bodyguard, Ahsoka Tano.
Spindle Puppets (chapter 5) by arnediadglanduath, obi-wan/anakin & cast, NSFW, forced drug use, 5.5k
   Obi-Wan and Anakin are sent to Corellia under instruction from both the Council and the Senate to apprehend a dangerous narcotics dealer. Under the guise of interested buyers, both men understand that one of them must be administered the drug in order to gain the seller’s trust.
untitled by prideandprejudiceandkittens, obi-wan/anakin, NSFW, ~1k
   So he steadies himself, focuses on the feeling of Obi-Wan’s fingers in his hair and the floor under his knees, and moves forward until he’s nose-to-pelvis, lips flushed and swollen against the skin of his abdomen.
Ikhthus by DarthSnug (themikeymonster), obi-wan & anakin & shmi, 6.6k wip
   You can take the boy out of the Order, but you can’t take the Jedi out of the boy. A young ex-padawan stumbles across a most curious mother and her even more curious child on Tatooine.
untitled by likealeafonthewind, obi-wan & anakin, 3k
   Prompt: And now I’m picturing an AU where Obi-Wan DOES die in Order 66, and Anakin feels it and realizes…how would he react?

full details + recs under the cut!

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When Alec's hurt
  • Jace: Why didn't you call me?
  • Alec: Because I'm fine.
  • Jace: Okay. Are you absolutely certain if I don't call Magnus, that you won't die?
  • Alec: Yeah, I'm certain.
  • Jace: Yeah? You pretty sure? It'll weigh heavily on my conscience if you do die.
  • Alec: Yup.
  • Jace: Probably spiral into depression, and possibly drug addiction, and you'll be too dead to help me.
Co Workers (Part Eighteen)

A/N: Hi friends, this part touches quite heavily on depression. I wanted to take this moment right here to say that if you ever need anyone to talk to, please never ever hesitate to message me, talk to me on anon, anything. I know what it’s like, I myself have been there. Depression and anxiety are actually two big reasons that I’m here on tumblr. So please remember that if you ever need a friend I am here and that you are not alone!! I love you guys <3

Pairing: Misha x Reader

Warnings: Depression, language, Y/N spirals a bit in this part.

Word Count: 2.1k

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Originally posted by collateraldamageaf

You walked forward just as the doctor walked out of the room, hugging your mom, and then Jen, then Derek. You all had just been standing there holding each other for a while, you didn’t need to hear what the doctor said to know what happened. Your dad didn’t make it.

You opened your eyes to see Misha standing in the doorway to the waiting room. By the look on his face, he figured it out. You motioned for him to come over, melting in his arms. No one knew what to do right now. Not to mention that you felt awful. You should have been there sooner. Your family was close and you’d been nothing but distant for the last few months.

For the first time since you started acting on Supernatural, you considered coming home.

The next week drug by very slowly. You spent it with your family, Misha was there until he had to get back to Vancouver for filming. You had to get back soon yourself. Going back to Vancouver was not what you wanted to do. You wanted to stay. But you were in the next episode, and this wasn’t a job you could just stop showing up to one day. Your mom assured both you and your brother that it was okay for you guys to go back home. You were really proud of her, she’d been so strong through all of this.

You were happy to get home to Misha, you were so tired and you just needed to sleep. This week was one week you quite honestly would like to forget. Not having slept much due to being without Misha for the last few days, you just wanted to snuggle up with him in bed.

It was early Monday morning when things started to feel slightly normal. You and Misha were both up before the sun, moving around each other as you both got ready for work. You were brushing your teeth in front of the bathroom mirror while Misha was in the shower when you started to feel funny.

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uuh hey

HEY YALL this is the “reigen’s depressive spiral” notes ive written out. kind of a shitty fic sorta thing but in note format

warnings are in the tags (although you can probably guess what they are). plus ive enabled comments so yall can give me your opinions. be nice pls

crazyloveable  asked:

I have bpd and when I split, it really affects my eating. Ill go "FUCK IT" and eat something, sometimes binge, and nothing can stop me usually. And then ill go into a depression spiral and usually attempt suicide. Idk if this is just me or if its actually when i split or i just have 0 self control.

That sounds tough, for me when I say “fuck it” I binge and am like “I will eat normal tomorrow this is just a one time thing” but it continues day after day after day. 


ive decided that im not going to delay my hormone consultation appointment even if my parents throw the biggest fit in the fucking world. my dysphoria is too bad and i am going to continue to spiral into depression if i keep putting it off for their sakes.

anonymous asked:

Probably tmi, but I was going into a depression spiral this morning, and reading some of your work helped me pull out of it. So thank you for like... putting yourself out there/ writing excellently. Keep being awesome! And thank you. Like a lot

Thank you, that’s so nice to hear <3