depressive disorder not otherwise specified
I Do, I Don't, I Die by prisma134
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
By Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 1/1

Fandom: Marvel Cinematic Universe, The Avengers (Marvel Movies), Captain America (Movies)

Rating: Explicit

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: James “Bucky” Barnes/Steve Rogers

Characters: Natasha Romanova, Bruce Banner, Sam Wilson (Marvel), Clint Barton, Tony Stark, Wanda Maximoff

Additional Tags: Angst, Angst with a Happy Ending, Engaged, Alpha/Beta/Omega Dynamics, natasha and Bucky are bffs, Love, Romance, Steve Rogers Feels, Hurt Steve Rogers, Recovery, supportive friends, First Kiss, First Time, Mating Cycles/In Heat, Steve Rogers Has Issues, Broken Heart, Broken vow, Past Relationship(s), Alpha!Bucky, Omega!Steve, proposal, Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified, Top!Bucky, bottom!Steve, Misunderstandings, Depressed Steve, Medicated Steve, Hurt, True Love, Name Calling, Barren Steve


Steve Rogers was not bonded to Bucky Barnes. He was not in a relationship with Bucky Barnes anymore. Bucky had no obligations towards him except a pewter ring that was so faded and rusted that hung on his dog tags. Bucky had no promises to break, because he didn’t remember them. Steve was okay with that, he really was. He would have to be, because Bucky wasn’t his anymore to have. Instead, Bucky was Natasha’s to cherish and Steve was not going to stand in his way.

Steve was going to let Bucky go, even if it killed him and even if his heart was shattering into a million pieces to see his best friend–his soul mate–be in a relationship with someone else.

You guys have got to read this! It’s wonderful and sweet and sad and so lovely ❤️❤️

Name: Persephone ‘Percy’ Fairbairn

Competing for: Lyra

Ambassador: @theunnamedsimmer

Traits: Compulsive | Eccentric | Perfectionist | Shy | Vegetarian

LTW: Descendant of Da Vinci

Gender: Genderfluid

Pronouns: She/her/her, they/them/their

Sexuality: Lyra, not otherwise specified

Disability: Generalized Anxiety Disorder, depression, obsessive compulsive symptoms, chronic stomach problems due to dietary issues, left hip and knee pain

Lyra’s Thoughts: “Ugh, stupid stupid stupid…! Hope putting my foot in my mouth doesn’t become a common thing with these people, or I’m never gonna have a chance with any of them. At least Percy took it a bit more in stride than I feared. And they really are striking to look at. If I bridge the gap with her a bit more, don’t fuck up again, she could be striking to be around too, long as she’s got enough to say.”

Lorelei’s Thoughts: “I didn’t notice the vampire fangs at first either, until Lyra pointed them out. It’s odd… maybe she was one at one point, and then got turned back, but they stayed? I don’t want to dwell too much on them, but… they’re there in her mouth, so I might have to. They make them look… menacing, a little bit, like they could attack Lyra on the neck at any minute. …I’m overthinking this. Sorry.”

Attraction Ranking: 10/10

Interview: Here

wandering-in-fangorn  asked:

How do I know if I have bps?

Bipolar disorder can manifest itself in different ways.

-Bipolar I: a person has at least one manic episode lasting at least a week. He or she also has multiple episodes of major depression. Time spent with depressive symptoms, may outnumber time spent with mania symptoms by about 3 to 1.
-Bipolar II: a person has a milder form of mania, called hypomania, lasting several days or longer. Periods of depression, though, outnumber the time spent with symptoms of hypomania by almost 40 to 1 in many people with this form of the disorder. Because hypomania can be mistaken for ordinary happiness or even normal functioning, bipolar II may often be misdiagnosed as depression alone (unipolar depression).
-Bipolar disorder not otherwise specified (more recently called “not elsewhere classified”), people have symptoms of mania or hypomania that are too few in number or too short in duration to meet currently accepted definitions of a manic or hypomanic syndrome or episode.
-Cyclothymic disorder (sometimes unofficially called bipolar III), a person has hypomanias (as in bipolar II disorder) that alternate frequently with brief periods of depression. When present, though, the symptoms of depression do not last long enough and involve enough symptoms to define major depression as a full syndrome.

Hypomanic episodes are characterized by:

A. A distinct period of abnormally and persistently elevated, expansive, or irritable mood, lasting at least 1 week (or any duration if hospitalization is necessary)
B. During the period of mood disturbance, three (or more) of the following symptoms have persisted (4 if the mood is only irritable) and have been present to a significant degree:
(1) increased self-esteem or grandiosity
(2) decreased need for sleep (e.g., feels rested after only 3 hours of sleep)
(3) more talkative than usual or pressure to keep talking
(4) flight of ideas or subjective experience that thoughts are racing
(5) distractibility (i.e., attention too easily drawn to unimportant or irrelevant external stimuli)
(6) increase in goal-directed activity (either socially, at work or school, or sexually) or psychomotor agitation
(7) excessive involvement in pleasurable activities that have a high potential for painful consequences (e.g., engaging in unrestrained buying sprees, sexual indiscretions, or foolish business investments)“

The difference between manic and hypomanic episodes is that manic episodes cause psychotic symptoms (such as hallucinations).

Besides that, the mood episodes must not be caused by another mental illness, and the mood symptoms must cause significant distrass or impairment in any areas of funciontioning. The symptoms must not be due to effects of a substance (drugs, medications or another treatment) or a general medical condition.

Hey, I’m Solar the Space Explorin’ Sea Turtle!
Though, you can call me Solar the Sea Turtle or Solar for short. I’m a new member of the Sea Family, and I’m so excited to be here!
I mean, I’m so used to being out exploring space, so it’s good to have a place to call home.

Likes: Space! … also, web design, pokemon, sushi, fursuiting, pixel art, bubble tea, and probably some other stuff.

Dislikes: Aggression, arguing, being alone, bad sensory experiences, feeling sad, and most definitely some other stuff.

Age: 18 (19 on July 21st!)

Gender: Bigender - a hybrid of male and female, that is to say, aspects of both at the same time, but technically neither.
They/them pronouns!

Sexuality: Who knows! I don’t really actively pin that down. I like some people, and I dont like other people but I like any type of people. Sometimes I don’t like people at all.

Hobbies: Video games, pixel art, and scrolling through the internet for hours at a time.

I’m autistic, and I suffer from gender dysphoria, depression episodes, severe anxiety (particularly social), a mood disorder (not otherwise specified), and suspected psychosis. I’m an abuse and bullying survivor and a former self harmer.

I live in Australia so I’ll probably be mostly seen by the ‘night crowd’.

If I’m feeling too anxious I might end up popping into my shell, but I always want to be here for you guys!


You are trying, and that’s what matters. Your struggle is not an indication of failure, but of strength.

You’re not a burden. You’re a child of the universe, no less than the trees or the stars - and you have a right to be here.

It’s okay to be overwhelmed, and it’s okay to take time for yourself.

I care about you.

I was thinking…I’ve been tagged for the selfies of 2015 tag a few times (I just did the regular 6 selfies). And it was honestly hard today for some reason. You know when you have those days where you’re really not feeling at your most confident?? Most of you know me as an upbeat, cheery, super positive person. But that’s not me 100% of the time. Yes, I am like that MOST of time, but I have my moments too. Moments of insecurity, of doubt, of shame, of guilt…

For the past few weeks I’ve been contemplating something. To let you all know (and in a way make it public) or not. Some days I was like “of course I should! What’s the worst that can happen??” And other days I was like “There’s absolutely no way this won’t change things”.

So it leads us to today. Honestly one of my most insecure and vulnerable days in the past while. And I’ve decided to share it. To put it out there. Some of you might think this is silly, but for me (and for a lot of people) this is a big deal. And I’m always talking about reducing the stigma surrounding it, and the best way I can do that is by sharing this about me.

Under the radar many of you come to me for advice, for help, to vent, or just to talk and share funny posts or jokes. I honestly love that! I love that you trust me, that you see me as someone to share things with!! And I guess that’s what I scared the most about. That this was all going to change. Not drastically, but change. And maybe it will. Maybe it won’t at all. But right now, even though I’m feeling vulnerable I’m willing to take the risk. I aways encourage you to be brave, so it’s my turn to show it too. I even included two selfies without makeup as well.

So the truth is yes, I’m about to become a social worker and I have successfully completed my minor in neuroscience and mental health. However, i also suffer from chronic pain (for about a year and a half) and I am currently diagnosed with two mental illnesses: cyclothymia and general anxiety disorder (for about 2.5 years now). Between the ages of 16 and 20 I was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder and an eating disorder not otherwise specified. I have successfully overcome MDD (that feels so good to say!!) but battle daily with the first two and every now and then with the eating. I am on daily medication and have gone through many many different therapies over the years.

You guys have no idea how scared I am of putting this out there. On the Internet. For everyone to see. It’s terrifying. I’ve worked so hard to be the best person I can be both off and online. And I think I’ve done a good job. My blog here is exactly what I love: hockey and mental wellness.

I haven’t lied on here. And always share the true me. This is something that I felt was personal. However, after so many of you sharing your stories….I related to you! And I felt it was fair that I shared this too.

Maybe one day I’ll share my stories publicly. Some of you already know it, and that means I trust you with something very personal to me. My story by no means is linear, it’s been an up and down rollercoaster but has been steady for over a year. I’ve kept fighting. I’m not giving up and I’ve been so rewarded for that.

Since this is a tag after, I wanted to tag those people whom I’ve shared special moments with on here in no particular order. Whether it has been talking for months on end in private or just a simple moment. Every one of you has made an impact on me. And for that I thank you. You don’t have to do the tag, and maybe some of you have done it already, but i still wanted to let you know.

I hope you all have a fantastic rest of your day, stay safe, stay strong, but most importantly stay beautiful 💕

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