In years to come
I might forget you
But I will never forget
The way you made me feel.
Though it seems like an illusion
Maybe it is a delusion
Of my heart, and mind
That there was a different,
A special connection.
But this must cease
Must it not
Nothing is going to result
It is my delusion
You are my illusional escape.
“I see a bird. With tits. That’s not good.” Mortals end is boring, follows boring reasons. Usually it’s wounds and diseases their body can’t confront. And what is an immortals end? Your body has no fear of every kind of wound,
you don’t need to feed it, no disease can take it, no ages.
However, there’s always a catch. In this realm, at least.
End of mortal is distant and known to come when needed. Your
end is always here, with you. It is in your head. You named it the
Delusion, the curse of your kind. A creature, invisible to other eyes,
comes asudden, it exhaust not your body but your mind until you turn
into nothing, until you become insane, until people kill you for your
crime. It takes you home you was stolen from, child of the Desert. An end a poet would envy.
Identifying as otherkin
is not a delusion. I think that many
people who say “calling yourself otherkin makes you delusional” do not have an
accurate idea of what being otherkin is. In many cases, they don’t have an
accurate idea of what a delusion is either.
If otherkin were claiming
that their bodies were physically non-human,
that Steven Universe is real on this
plane of existence and they physically
arrived here from the gem home world, or that they can physically shift
into a centaur, that might be classifiable as a delusion because if these things were true, they’d be demonstrable, and they’re not. I’ve only seen a small
handful of people make such claims during my time in the otherkin community,
and most of those people were relatively new community members who were either trolls
or deliberately embellishing to sound cool.
Most otherkin believe
that spiritually or mentally they are non-human. Ask
yourself this. Is a person who believes he lived human past lives delusional, or is it only delusional to think you
were non-human in a past life? Is belief in reincarnation delusional all by
itself, or does it only become delusion (in your mind) once a person starts
talking about remembering past lives?
Is a person who observes that her mind works differently than most people’s
automatically delusional, or is it only delusional if she compares her unusual mind
to that of a cat?
Delusions are not just
uncommon or unprovable beliefs. They are believes that do not follow a logical
A to B to C progression. Remember, delusions are a sign that your brain is not working right, not a sign
that you’re following a belief system that other people aren’t into. A
psychiatrist once told me that he saw a patient who believed that a d’jinn was
harassing him at night. The psychiatrist observed that there was logical
thinking going on in the patient’s mind (specific things were happening that
the patient did not have another explanation for, the patient observed that
those occurrences matched what he had read about d’jinn, and then he concluded
that a d’jinn was causing the disturbances), even if he was not sure that he believed
delusions are often a lot less unusual-looking than being otherkin or living in
a haunted house. For example, let’s say that Cheryl’s husband comes home at the
same time every night and is very loyal and attentive to her. She believes he
is having an affair, but she is not basing
this belief off of anything she is seeing or perceiving. Her husband is not
acting distant, he is not coming home late, he is very loving and affectionate,
he never has unexplained absences, etc. Because there is no A to B to C
progression in Cheryl’s thinking, a psychiatrist might wonder if she was
delusional. EVEN IF SHE WAS DELUSIONAL, the purpose of therapy would be to help
ease Cheryl’s concerns and to get her to a place where she was no longer
suffering. The point wouldn’t be to go “YOU’RE DELUSIONAL YOU SPECIAL
SNOWFLAKE, OFF ACCUSING PEOPLE OF SHIT! YOU’RE A HORRIBLE PERSON!” on her blog.