Kiki’s Delivery Service is one of those movies that I feel any aspiring artist should see. The struggle of Kiki in this movie is one that ANYONE who wants to further themselves goes through, that transition from taking what you love to do to something that you make a living off of.
As artists we have all been in the place where Kiki is. That place where we can’t draw anything right, can’t paint anything right, can’t sculpt anything right, that place where everything comes out wrong over and over and we begin to question if we’re actually good enough for the talents and skills that used to come to us like second nature when we were just using them for fun. That place where we want to give up because we suddenly can’t ‘fly’ like we want to, because everything seems too difficult to do that.
But that doesn’t mean it isn’t there, just because it isn’t working right then and there when you want it to be. If you can always fly, then it wouldn’t make those times when you did as special. It isn’t necessarily easy to grow up, nor is it necessarily easy to live with the artistic struggle of losing inspiration. But you can’t just throw up your hands and say ‘No, I can’t do it anymore’ because you’ll NEVER fly if you do that.
Magic and painting are a lot alike. You know, a lot of times, I just can’t paint.
Really? When that happens, what do you do?When that happens, all one can do is struggle through it. I draw and draw, and keep drawing. Then I stop drawing. I take walks, look at the scenery, take naps, do nothing. Then after a while, all of a sudden I get the urge to draw again.
I want to begin this letter by telling you about the magic
of Brett Dier. He took a character – built
from the beginning with secrets and moral lapses – and made him so likable, so
funny, so sincere in all the right ways, that most of our writers’ room became #teammichael
by the end of the first season. And I
honestly don’t think I’ll ever love a moment on our show as much as I loved
Michael’s vows to Jane… Which is to say,
this was a devastating episode for us to write.
It was also a decision made very early on, when I thought
about our story as a whole. And even in
season one, I knew it would be a hard thing to actually do, which is why there
was a line (which many of you noticed) about how Michael would never stop loving
Jane. And the Narrator confirmed, “For
as long as Michael lived, until he drew his very last breath, he never did.” Honestly, I put that line into the script at
the last minute to hold our feet to the fire, to make sure we went through with
it. Because even back then, the writers
could all see the magic of Jane and Michael together. Not to mention Rogelio and Michael!
The other reason I put that line in the script was to
prepare you… a little. If the writers
and actors loved Michael so much, then I knew it would be devastating for the
fans. So then, the only surprise we had
left, was when…
And again – that goes back to the magic of Brett Dier. Originally, I thought Michael would die earlier. But Brett is such an incredible actor – he
gave us such great comedy and drama and first-rate exposition delivery (!),
often all in one scene. And he and Gina…
well, there’s that word again – magic. So, we changed some things in the writers’
room. Jane and Michael got married. They had sex.
They moved into their first home.
And I’m so glad we did that and
I’m so glad all those firsts for Jane were with Michael. But this is a telenovela, as we so frequently
remind you. And we are only at our midpoint.
You’ll recall, back in the pilot, Jane was on a path. Things were mapped out. And then she was accidentally artificially
inseminated and everything changed. Well
now, everything is changing again. How
does our romance-loving hero move on, how does she get back the light and the
Well, it’s certainly not quick. And that’s why we’re now three years later in
our story. We’ll be flashing back to
those three years and filling in gaps, but mining emotions realistically is
something we work hard on and we knew the immediate pain of that loss would
overwhelm our storytelling. After
talking to grief counselors, this felt like the right time to reenter Jane’s
journey. She’ll always feel Michael’s absence
(and trust me, we will too), but it opens up our storytelling in new and
exciting ways, while allowing for the light and bright Jane world that we love
Which brings me to something I feel really badly about.The
timing. I’ve had so many tweets lately about
how Jane is a bright spot these days.
And I know you just watched a gut punch of an episode. So, I just wanted to reassure you that Jane’s
optimism will rise up.
Thank you guys so much for watching the show, for caring so
passionately, and for going on our journey.
And thank you so much to Brett.
For his talent. His passion. His humor on set. Michael will be missed in Jane’s world, just
as Brett is already missed in ours.
Bank sent me a bill for 8 cents using a 40 cent stamp. If they would of just forgiven the 8 cents they would of saved 32 cents plus the cost of paper, printing the bill and two envelopes (one for delivery and the other for return payment)