definite love of my life

  • Saeran: (closes eyes and tries to chill for 5 whole seconds)
  • Saeran: I cannot.


What is love?

I’m not sure if I am right or if I am wrong in this or not… but truthfully… I really do feel like love is more than just butterflies and feeling comfortable with someone. I know its that feeling you get when home isn’t a roof over your head. It’s living in your car on a dirt path because you’re too broke to afford rent. It’s sleeping in a tent for months because you would rather sleep together and suffer than be apart. It’s randomly driving to the beach in the middle of the night so you can freeze on a pier while its raining because you have nothing better to do. It’s that argument at 3 am over something so stupid but you can’t sleep without each other. It’s that first date at Chili’s that you had when your junk car breaks down in the middle of the highway so he comes to save the night. It’s those steps right outside where you shared your first real conversation about aliens. The sidewalk you walked upon and shared your very first kiss together. It’s meeting your dad for the first time and being called “Beverly” the whole night because he was too drunk. The fights, slamming of doors, and screaming “goodbye” to one another when all we really wanted was each other. It’s proving to the world that they were wrong because no matter how much they want to fight us, we will win. Love is having feelings for someone the very moment you first start talking to them. When you know that you met for some reason rather than to just become strangers once again. When you become crazy for each other and will do any and everything to protect each other. Love is experiencing life in a way that nothing could ever compare to. Love is packing all of your things up and leaving because you thought there would be no other way… Love is respectfully trying to disappear from their life because they didn’t want to hurt you anymore… Love is waiting and being patient. Love is the one who comes back to you even when you know deep down that they have too much pride. We once had a talk about “true love” and I asked him “What is Love?” and he told me he didn’t really know. Then he stopped the car and said “I don’t ever go back to anyone after a break up. I just don’t. I move on and that’s that.” We argued about it because I was always the positive one about “love”. But what I didn’t realize at the time was, he was telling me that because he does love me. HE came back to me. And for him to do that… It really surprised me and touched my heart. Love is not perfect by all means. Love is exactly what you make it. Love is beautiful.

It’s funny how much I love to hate you.

We argue so much, witty remarks and silly retorts flying back and forth.

And strangely I find myself smiling at your texts and words, my heart jumping a little when you walk in the room.

I guess I never really hated you.
I just liked to pretend to… And in the most unexpected way it made me love you.

—  confusing attraction

It’s WEEK FOUR of Hannah’s Sunday Reading list, and lemme tell ya, I had so much to read this week!! Not complaining - it’s been awesome! I’ve been introduced to so many new authors, and to say I’m excited would be an understatement!!! As a reminder, don’t forget to tag me in future posts, and just in general never be afraid to tag me in anything! Believe me when I say that I love to read all your stuff :-)

Anyway, enough of me rambling. Here’s what I’ve been reading this week:

Profiled by @arewereal3000 (Spencer Reid x Kinsley (OC))
You guys, this is 6,500 words of awesomeness. I am already in love with your OC Kinsley. The bond she seems to have with the team makes me smile so much, and that back story… girl, that’s gonna be juicy!! I’m beyond excited to read more of this, you have no idea. Also, you said this is your first time writing fanfiction in a long time?! You’re a natural, my dear. This was perfect. :-)

Tied Together with a Smile by @original-criminal-fanfics (Spencer Reid x Reader) 
Oh, the fluffy goodness in this beautiful fic! Such a Spencer move to be there for his friends when they get their hearts broken. I’m loving the whole dynamic between Spencer and the reader - as you know, I’m a sucker for the whole “best friends” thing. Lovely written as always, pretty girl.

Seven Years Later by @axstheticminds (Spencer Reid x Reader)
Mari, you clever girl, you. Spencer’s name in the book… too funny! But this whole thing broke my heart. As much as I wanted the reader and Spencer to get back together, at the same time… I didn’t? I loved the tragic ending and I really don’t think there was any other way to end it. Loved this a lot!

Spencer’s Fury by @spencerreidsmiles (Spencer Reid x Luke Alvez)
YES! Another victim of Reidvez!! Muahaha… This fic made me feel all gooey inside. I can just imagine Luke trying to get drunk Spencer in bed and Spencer rambling on and arguing with him. So in character. I needed some Reidvez fluff in my life and you definitely brought it. Lovely as ever, my friend!

The Perfect Family - Part 6 by @axstheticminds (Spencer Reid x Reader)
So obsessed with this series. I know that I’ve said that a million times, but I can’t help it - I must let the world know how awesome it is!! I’m patiently waiting for the next part… or not so patiently, I guess… You’ve left me on a cliffhanger and I must know what happens next!!!

Football for Dummies by @dontshootmespence (Spencer Reid x JJ)
I’ve always wondered about this date… I remember the first time I watched the episode where he asked her out I was rooting for them so hard! My guilty pleasure is Spencifer… Jenecer? Idk… Anyway, this was so awesome to read because I can imagine that was exactly how that date went. Made me smile :)

Bubblegum Bitch by @reidbyers (Spencer Reid x Reader)
I can’t even tell you how much I love this reader!! She seems so badass and opposite of Spencer… A match made in heaven. I love that Spencer is wrestling with his feelings so much in this. Poor guy doesn’t know whether to slap her or kiss her. I won’t give away the ending… but just know that I love it so much. :-)

Passive Aggressive Partnership - Series by @dontshootmespence (Spencer Reid x Reader)
Once again, you have outdone yourself with this one, Nicole. The detail and depth in these cases are mind blowing! I for one do not have the patience to seriously think all of that stuff through. And the reader, omg! I love her to bits. I think I’ve said this before, but this series is a masterpiece. If you guys haven’t read it yet, please do!

Second Chance by @axstheticminds (Spencer Reid x Reader)
I needed this Zugzwang do-over so badly. I loved that Penelope and JJ were in on it this time and helped Spencer get through it. I’m so excited to see where this goes! I could see it going so many different ways… I just hope that your version ends better than Maeve’s. ;-)

Intertwined by @holagubler (Spencer Reid x Reader)
This really touched me. The way the reader felt before Spencer, the way Spencer made her feel… I’m basically just a puddle on the floor right now. This was so beautifully written! Like, I’ve read it over and over again and each time it gets better. You are so so talented, my friend!

Counter Act by @criminal-minds-fanfiction (Spencer Reid x Reader)
Flood warning!!! Your smut is amazing as always. I look up to you with all kinds of writing, but especially smut. You are too good at it! The descriptions, the way everything flows… I envy your skills, Cher! This was too good. I love that you included Penelope into this - she makes me laugh! Also, the title… you crack me up!

Touch by @zugzwangxo (Spencer Reid x Reader)
Oh Lee… are you trying to kill me? You captured how I imagine Spencer in bed perfectly. Sure, he puts on his vanilla front, but I think we all know that he’s a kinky son of a bitch… I also looked up the song and loved it. Your attention to detail is amazing and makes reading everything you write so enjoyable. I don’t know how you do it. The Queen of Smut strikes again!!

Why Are There Letters in Math? by @dontshootmespence (Spencer Reid x Reader)
This was so beautifully light and fluffy… I wish I had Spencer as my calculus tutor when I was taking that class! The relationship between Spencer and the reader felt so right. I love the playfulness of the relationship! Once again, you have outdone yourself with all of the details. I don’t know how you do it woman!

Spidey Senses by @imagicana (Spencer Reid x Reader)
I am on the floor. I friggin’ loved this so much!!! It was an interesting twist having it told from Penelope’s point of view. The humor in this was perfect… it made me all giggly inside. I know that you didn’t tag me in this, but I just had to put it on my list. It was too awesome not to be on it. Your writing is so awesome!

Attack by @wrecklessimagine (Spencer Reid x Reader-ish)
This was such a unique read for me that I had to add it to my list. Your writing is always one that I have admired! It’s everything about your writing - the way your words flow together, your word choices, the way you break your paragraphs… I can’t get enough! I would read anything you write. You are so amazing!

Finally getting this part out. It shouldn’t have taken as long as it did but my mental health took a turn for the worse recently as a result of uni work. Thankfully, I finished uni for the year yesterday. I’ve got a lot more time now so these updates should be a bit more frequent now. In the meantime, enjoy, my darlings!

I love it!❤ The whole idea is amazing. Loki and fairytales elements is definitely something I need in my life!😂

I love how Loki is such a dick still lmao

‘The Tower’ (Part 4)

Part 3

By the time you reached the top of the stairs, your calves were screaming in agony. Though the tower had indeed looked tall from the outside, it hadn’t looked that tall. The mysterious owner of the tower had long since left you behind and you weren’t entirely sure whether you were permitted to find sanctuary alone or whether you should seek permission first.

Your manners dictated that you pursue the second course of action.

That last few steps had been negotiated on your hands and knees, the weight of your wounds all but crippling you. Thankfully, the cool floor kept your muscles from failing entirely, and it welcomed you once more at the summit as you lay on your back; panting and slightly shaking, but still alive.

Eventually, after having caught your breath, you sat up and examined your surroundings. Straight ahead was a crystalline door that held a pattern akin to a clear stained-glass window. Though blurry, it was otherwise transparent and you could see the mysterious man within, sat down on something.

Using the handle of the frosty door, you pulled yourself up and limped further inside. The sight before you was exquisite.

Keep reading

Jupiter (Chris Beck x Reader)

Prompt: I was driving home from my job, and I work 3rd shift, so the sky was gorgeous and I saw Jupiter and I immediately started crying. I love space, and then all I could think of was Chris Beck, So here I am. 😊


Word Count: 1,083

“Chris?” You sat up in the dark room, realizing that your bed was empty. Reaching over you turn on the bedside lamp to confirm that the room was empty. You climbed out of bed and towards the open bedroom door. “Have you been murdered? Because that’s be unfortunate.”

You headed down stairs and walked towards the kitchen. “Babe?” Sometimes Chris would walk up in the middle of the night to make a snack since his body systems were always messed up from space, but this wasn’t one of those nights. You looked in the living room and dining room, and still no Chris. You began panicking a bit when you saw the back door open and Chris sitting on one of patio chairs, looking up. You grabbed one of his sweaters hanging up by the door and walked outside.

“Babe, what are you doing? It’s freezing.” The quiet thuds of your feet against the stone patio were the only sound to be had in between the two of you.

Chris looked over at you. “Y/N, come here!” He ushered you over and you obligated. He grabbed your hand and pulled you onto his lap. You looked at him and his eyes lit up like a kid in a candy shop when he looked back at the sky. He wrapped his left arm around you, giving you a squeeze before using his right hand to point at a bright star in the sky. “See that bright one right there?”


“That’s Jupiter. It’s only visible with human eyes tonight, so I wanted to come out here.”

He wrapped his other arm around you and rubbed your arms. You settle back into his chest still looking at the sky, catching random shooting stars.

“There must be a meteor shower, there’s a lot of shooting stars.” You spoke quietly, afraid to disturb Chris in his element. You sat with him for a few minutes, comfortable silence falling between you two, Chris drawing patterns into your thigh.

“Chris, it’s almost 4am.”

“I know, but it’s the perfect time to stargaze.”

“Um, baby, I don’t want to be the one to tell you, but you do know you travel through space, right? Like you know you’re an astronaut. You don’t have to stargaze, you’re literally going to Mars.”

Chris laughed and pinched your thigh lightly. “Shut up, it’s just great to see from down here. Plus, there’s a meteor shower tonight, and it’s safer to observe down here, than up there.”

Chris put his head on your shoulder and place a small kiss, before looking back to the sky.

“Chris?” You kept your eyes fixed on the stars. Chris hummed in response, lost in the sky. “Don’t you get scared? Ya know, to go up there.”

“Yeah. Every time. It can be hard sometimes to forget that something could go wrong at any point but, you can’t let fear control you. So, I do my job, marvel at the amazing sights, and get the hell outta there so I can come home to my girls.” Chris placed a soft kiss against the exposed skin on the base of your neck.

“I hate to ruin the moment, but I’m actually freezing and I can barely feel my feet. Can we go back inside?” You chuckled and Chris grabbed a hold of you and stood up. “What are you doing?”

“Well I don’t want your feet getting colder from walking.”  You just smiled at the man and he winked at you. “I’m the greatest boyfriend to walk the Earth, you’re really lucky.”

“Oh, shut up.”

Once you were inside, Chris set you down before closing the door and turning the lights off. You made it back to your room and sat on your side of the bed, tucking yourself under the blanket. Chris came in a few minutes later and closed the door.  He sat at your feet and pulled the blanket down, exposing your legs.

“Here let me warm your feet up.” He grabbed one of your legs and began rubbing your foot, warming it up. You watched your fiancée intently, taking in moments like this for when he leaves. You really thought you were the luckiest girl, and while you dropped out of med school, meeting Chris was the highlight of that 2-year mistake.

When he finished with your right foot, he grabbed the other, repeating his actions. He eyes met you and he smiled. “Whatcha thinking about?”

“Do you ever wish you’re still a doctor? Like ya know, not in space?”

“Not really, I always loved space, so when the opportunity arose, I jumped to it. Being able to be in space and just be there, it’s truly gorgeous Y/N. The second most stunning sight I’ve ever seen.”

“The first being?”

“Definitely the cat. Pluto is the love of my life.” Chris chuckled and smiled down at you.

“Ha. Ha. You’re very funny.”

As if on command, Pluto jumped on the bed and settled herself in the front corner. Chris laid down, pulling you over so you were laying on his chest. He grabbed the blanket and pulled it up, your feet warmed up.

“Do a favor for me?” You spoke, watching Chris run his fingers over your arm laying on his chest.

“Anything baby doll.”

“Come back from Mars in one piece, and god forbid, you miss you flight back and get stranded.” You started fiddling with your engagement ring. “Because I will not hesitate to remarry.” You lifted your head and set your chin on his chest, looking at his amused expression. Chris grabbed you and brought you lips to his, placing a soft, but passionate kiss to you.

“No promises, maybe I’ll fall in love with an alien or space rocks? I’m open to anything.”

You laughed and put your head back onto his chest. Pluto’s purrs filled the room but you focused on Chris’ heart. Studying every beat, how it slowed as he relaxed and fell back into sleep. You wanted to remember and cherish the sound, knowing that in 3 days the bed would be colder and the nights, quieter.