Have you ever failed anything? I "failed" a practical exam that I needed 80% on and they we're saying I couldn't graduate and all of that even though during my exam I have a fever and it was the week my cousin died. Still no excuse but it has made me feel awful
Yes, I’ve failed. Maths has always been a sticking point for me- there’s something about numbers that takes a little longer to click. A few consecutive fails, a ton of hard work, even more tears and the blessing of the bell curve/ scaling helped me pull through.
(On a side note: I can’t shake the feeling that I’ve failed when I don’t reach my personal goals. I’m working on that. Forgiving myself.)
I’m sorry to hear about the results of your practical exam. Are there any formal channels you can pursue? Whilst I am not familiar with the specific policies of your university/ school the circumstances you’ve outlined above typically allow students special consideration (i.e. An alteration of your marks) or a deferred exam (retaking the exam). If you have formal documentation to support your claim it might help. Shoot an email to your dean/ head of faculty/ student advisor and ask?
*hugs tight* It’s ok to feel awful. You are still intelligent, beautiful, resilient and strong. Heck, you have made it all the way to your final year! One fail mark does not outweigh the rest of your achievements. Be fair to yourself- in this case, there were circumstances beyond your control which affected your ability to perform. Forgive yourself. Give yourself time and remind yourself of who you are outside academia - whether it be exercising, travelling, spending time with friends, going on a Netflix binge, tumblring.
And then? Build yourself up. Think of it as a advantage- you know what the practical exam is like now. You know what to expect. What you did well; where you can improve. You’ve got a leg up on all the other candidates- experience. Success often comes after failure.
You can do this. You will graduate. People often think graduation is some movie like fairy tale event. It’s not. The road to graduation is fucking tough- and may involve tears, late nights, crippling doubt, assessment after assessment, the constant pressure to perform.
You’ve gotten this far; I’m confident that you can pull through.
You’ve got this.
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All the best xx