deer head

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.

A little blue, Blue Sargent.

I love that Blue has scenes where she’s just so angry and petulant, but also scenes where she’s incredibly vulnerable. IMO, a very good example of a “real” teenager in fiction.

Why Agni might die now, plot-wise

We know why Agni would try to save Soma; he’s what Sebastian calls the “epitome of a butler”. He would jump in front of Soma or push him out of the way out of his sense of duty (and worship).

But I just thought of a good reason why Agni might have taken that shot instead of Soma, *plot-wise*. Agni saw the torn up photo, but if he dies before he can tell anyone else about it, whatever he saw dies with him…. until either someone else finds the photo bits (or Mr. Pitt comes back)…. This allows the timeline to be drawn out even more before the earl’s secret is revealed.

Like I told @shinigami-mistress the next chapter could be the gunman on a rampage to “clean house” until the earl and Sebastian can be notified and return. They might come back to find the gunman gone, the death and destruction left in his wake, and the servants totally confused.

And she pointed out that’s a good reason for having Agni on the cover of this chapter.

Honestly, as soon as I noticed how Agni and Soma were reminiscing over their adventures with the earl and Sebastian (and the return of “Deer” on the mantelpiece to top it all off)… I seriously started to worry about them. (Just like seeing ch120 made me think about the impending end of the series.)


I know I’m uploading this a day late, but better late than never, right? I wanted to put a bunch of stuff on the walls, but they didn’t want to stay in place :(

At least I remembered to put something in the fireplace…. haha.

Happy St. Patrick’s Day from my diorama!