Fall in love with someone who doesn’t mind showing you who you are, but whose willing to love you until you’re the best you possible. Fall in love with someone who makes you laugh so hard, your stomach cramps and your jaws lock. Fall in love with someone that has you waking up wondering what simple thing they’ll do to make you fall more in love with them. But when you do fall in love, don’t force it, just fall.
This year.. lol this year is a series of fucked up episodes. 365 days of failing marks and classes and fucking with someones and yosi breaks and looong phone calls of me complaining and being ungrateful about life and missing a lot of parties and drinking alone in my room and half ass work out motivations and unfinished art and longing for some people who are already dead and lonely sleepless nights and not being able to do what I wanna do and missing my judo tournaments and barbaric fights and feeling worthless and losing important things and depressive games and plans that never happened and drinking sessions where i always get emotional and throw up and dissapointments and bodyshaming.Lol bc I’m depressed and I feel negative about my body like 2016 stressed the fuck out of me I could sure go for a nice glass of death about rn.☹
I’ve decided to clean out the closet of my life, so that I can make room for what’s beautiful and invaluable. I understand now that it’s important not to house people or things that doesn’t add value to my existence. So this year will be about decisions, elimination and utilizing my favor for joyful prosperity. This isn’t a resolution, it’s a dedication to myself.