deep poem

I don’t want someone who completes me

or someone who is my happiness

I believe I am already a complete person

imperfect, full of flaws but complete

my happiness doesn’t depend on anyone

it comes from within

“Intimacy is not who you let touch you. Intimacy is who you text at 3 am about your dreams and fears. Intimacy is giving someone your attention, when ten other people are asking for it. Intimacy is the person always in the back of your mind, no matter how distracted you are.”

                                       BTS’ POEMS | Run ep. 56

JUNGKOOK ━  ❝ Gold ❞ 

When my mother had me, she dreamed about golden rain. Wherever the rain goes, the rain turns into gold. I could not do anything. I met you in the golden time. I find myself starting to shine. At first I was gold. I looked around, after a while everything around me turned into gold. I don’t want to lose this priceless light. 

TAEHYUNG ━  ❝ It’s not a big deal

It’s not a big deal.

Seokjin.
Don’t be sad when you make a mistake while dancing, it’s not a big deal. You just don’t have to make the same mistake. 
Cheer up, cheer up. 

Namjoon,
Don’t panic after blowing a kiss,  it’s not a big deal. 
Your blowing a kiss makes a lot of armys’ hearts flutter
Pound, pound. 

Yoongi,
you want to be a stone in your next life, don’t worry, it’s not a big deal. 
I’ll bring you to a lot of beautiful places. 
Stone, stone. 

Hoseok,
you give us a scary look when we make a mistake on stage. Don’t do that,  it’s not a big deal.  
A slip of  wise man, everybody makes mistakes, understand it with a warm smile.
Bbooing, bbooing.

Jimin,
because of a diet and singing out of tune or making a mistake on stage, don’t be stressed out, it’s not a big deal.
No matter what you do on a stage, it won’t change the fact that you’re the coolest performer I’ve ever seen.
Gasp, gasp.

Jungkook,
stop exercising to tease us more, it’s not a big deal.
The more you act cute, the cuter you look. You’re not cute anymore.  
Coochie coochie coo.

JIMIN ━  ❝ To be together

To be together is very hard. To meet a stranger, to meet different people, I come to think if I make a mistake or what is wrong with that person. To be together is so hard. But without them I feel empty. When I’m happy, sad or want to be comforted, they came to my mind, to my surprise. Those who were with me are with me now as “us” which I feel so grateful for. We became to share small things. I hope they stay healthy. Again today, we are together as night sets in. I think that is what being together is like.

NAMJOON ━  ❝ I Giyeok

I remember. Taehyung’s half buzz cut, Jungkook’s bambi eyes and stone wash skinny jeans, Hoseok’s gray padded jacket, Yoongi’s blue sweatpants, when Seokjin wasn’t into dad jokes, Jimin’s chubby body. I remember. Our Han River. Our bikes.  Our Gxxx V necks. Our Gxxx V chino shorts. Our showcase. Our bulgogi. Our chairs in the waiting room, and our blood, sweat and tears. All those memories are in the corner of the drawer in my head. All those memories are like “Giyeok”, the 1st Korean alphabet consonant, my precious first. 
So again today I “Giyeok” memories. 

HOSEOK ━  ❝ Seed (Mr.)

Mr. Namjoon,  Mr. Seokjin,  Mr. Yoongi,  Mr. Jimin,  Mr. Taehyung,  Mr. Jungkook and  Mr. Hoseok. These seeds became beautiful flowers. They bring beauty to someone, they bring joy to someone, they bring the scent of memories to someone.  Mr. Namjoon,  Mr. Seokjin,  Mr. Yoongi,  Mr. Jimin,  Mr. Taehyung,  Mr. Jungkook and  Mr. Hoseok. Bloom like a rose ~
Flutter like a cherry blossom ~ 
Fall like a morning glory ~ 
Just like that beautiful moment  ~
Let’s stick together, I love you. 

YOONGI ━  ❝ What a relief

It’s already been 5 years since we debuted. Just the boys with many dreams. We had nothing but we have many things now. We were only dreaming, but we became a dream of someone. Life is full of choices and regrets. I’m scared and so are we. We dreamed about flying high up in the sky, but it’s too high and cold. It’s hard to catch our breath. The brither the light on us, the darker the shadow. What a relief that we have seven members, what a relief we have each other. 

SEOKJIN ━  ❝ Run BTS!

We worked around the clock. Run BTS! and BTS alike. Everything in the world gets tired, I want to hope that this is not the moment. I wanted to go with the flow, but I realize I’m a man who lives fiercely. We have become a family. We were always happy and we achieved anything we want together. But we can’t go against nature. 
Looking at myself growing older, I look back on our dance. I’m so tired. Mr.Seongdeuk, so many dance moves are too difficult. I trust you. Namjoon, let’s go for it. 

He was the type of person to kiss you at stop lights and bite your lip when the light turned green.
—  E. Grin, lover.

Tell me darling, would you still love me If I told you about the monsters I need to sing to sleep every night?

If you understood the way I need to tiptoe across my own mind so I can fall asleep before daylight?

if you knew where the nightmares came from, if you saw my scarred soul, would being with me terrify you?

If you knew the full extent of the damage they have done to me, would you stay, would you still want to?

— Nikita Gill, Questions I Am Too Broken to Ask