Don’t leave, please don’t, we can get through this, please I’m sorry".
I see the desperation screaming at me through his eyes but beneath that is nothing but guilt and lies. An apology is simply nothing but words being said for the sake of being said. He only wanted me to stay because the thought of him being lonely was killing him.
“The pain you caused me cannot simply be fixed with another meaningless apology”
I snap back slamming the door behind me.
Tenari Ioapo // excerpt from a book I’ll never write.
*Air horn noise plays as I contemplate how far I’ve fallen, and what I’ve done to get to this point. I think back to the times where I didn’t yell like this, and when my life wasnt so devoid of meaning*
I say I don’t want to talk about it. Actually, I do, but I’m afraid of your reaction. I’m afraid you’ll never see me as an equal again. I’m afraid of the pity in your eyes when you realise how screwed up I am.