dean hugs cas

“The problem here tho is that Dean wouldn’t do the same for Cas”

yup, sadly, Dean would never prioritize Cas over his own safety/life

Originally posted by literarycasualty

He’d never forget to sleep out of sheer worry for Cas

Originally posted by helpimanspnfan

or defend him from people who bad-mouth him like some grumpy bodyguard-bear

Originally posted by superflarrow

It would never occur to him to call Cas his family

Originally posted by stardustcas

I’ve actually never seen him fight for Cas like the stubborn motherfucker that he usually is while shouting “CAAAAS!” like some tragic disney character

Originally posted by xbooksandtea

Originally posted by pondlifeforme

Really, he could be more supportive of Cas, this profound bond thing is so unbalanced

Originally posted by weallneedcastiel


Here is the Metallica “Nothing Else Matters” intro section to 13x01 Lost and Found (and the season’s opener) thanks to Wayward Winchester on YouTube.

These season openers often narrate the thematic arc and its threads to come, and this one does so beautifully.

Firstly, there is an extended sense of family here. So when Metallica croons “Nothing else matters,” that is, thanks to the image juxtapositions, clearly a reference to family, but that family includes Bobby, Jodie, Eileen, Cas, Jack (ambivalently of course)  and even (for Dean) Crowley, as well as Mary, Sam and Dean. 

Family don’t end in blood = a key season theme. And one that also nicely sets up Wayward Sisters, as we get both Jodie and Claire shots.

We see first of all what has been lost and found (the episode is, after all, called “Lost and Found”).

Firstly, Dean finding Mary thanks to Amara’s resurrection, at the start of the previous season:

Then Castiel, also from 12x01 Keep Calm and Carry On, crashing to earth through the mystery spot sign after an angelic banishing.

These are the key figures who have been previously found (both resurrected after death, Castiel several times, Mary once) and are now presumed dead again, but will, of course, eventually be found by Sam and Dean once more as S13 progresses. 

Losing and finding Cas and Mary = emotionally central to the season.

“So close, no matter how far” croons Metallica, as Dean and Mary embrace.

 Yes, we know about Dean’s special connection to his mother and all the changes that connection has been through following her return from the dead, as Dean has had to confront her as a living person, not an idealised memory, but how he loves her still no matter what, and now longs for her once again.

This theme about growing emotionally through revisiting family trauma as an adult, a key theme last season, will continue to be key this season.  

“Forever trusting who we are,” sings Metallica as we get first a Sam/ Eileen hug and then a Dean/ Cas hug immediately following. 

Subtext alert - this direct parallel positions the two relationships as equivalent and therefore equally coded as romantic. Although, hello heteronormativity, this relies on the previous textual signalling of a Sam/ Eileen romantic interest, which took all of 5 seconds for the general audience to get and it’s 9 seasons and counting for Dean/ Cas subtext. However, the parallel is edited in here deliberately. Carefully juxtaposed with the words, “Trusting who we are,” which have a special meaning for LGBTQ+ people, because… that’s always a journey.

This Metallica song is, by the way, a love song, written by James Hetfield whilst on the phone to his girlfriend (see the Wiki page). 

Dean/ Cas continues as a subtextual thread this season (no surprises there, and no promises it will do anything except remain subtextual, but hey, I’d rather have you, cursed or not).  

“And nothing else matters,” Metallica continue as we get Winchester family photos, Sam, Dean and Mary hugging at the bunker, and both Sam and Dean helping Cas to his feet after he almost died following the stabbing with the Michael lance. 

Family is what matters and Castiel is included in the Winchester family. 

Metallica continues, “I’ve never opened myself this way,” as we look straight into Dean’s face.

Uh huh. This both references Dean’s “profound bond” with Cas, and his bond with his mother. The textual covers the sub-textual, as the next shot we get is of Mary. 

Sam’s grief at losing Eileen, is once again paralleled with Dean’s grief at losing Cas, as the song continues, crooning, “Never cared for what they say,” as we see Dean yelling “Nooooooo” at losing Cas to Jack’s power and then Eileen dead with Sam leaning over her sorrowfully.

We also see Cas’ death at the hands of Lucifer and Dean yelling “Nooooooo” again…

Key takeaway - the subtext is strong with this season… (although isn’t it sad that the trope of grief for a dead “buddy” as a permissible way to show masculine love persists, whilst a simple, living, reciprocated declaration remains so hard). 

The final shot of Jack, immediately follows Dean kneeling by Cas’ body, making it clear that, as far as Dean is concerned he lost  the love of his life his best friend and all he got was a shitty Nephilim in exchange: 

This places Dean, of course, in John Winchester’s shoes, who lost the love of his life, Mary (however much their relationship was full of fault lines) and had to become a sole parent to two traumatized boys. Dean is filled with resentment towards Jack, just as John clearly was about his situation, which, as we know, led to some bad parenting. 

So, the Sam and Dean parenting dichotomy - another key theme of S13  - is clearly set up here too and carries on as the episode progresses, with Dean wanting to kill Jack and Sam wanting to give him the benefit of the doubt. Because being parents themselves is bound to bring up A LOT OF OLD STUFF, such as Dean having had to be Sam’s parent and Sam feeling “tainted” with demon blood, hence his empathy for Jack as Lucifer’s son.

Overall, this is going to be an emotion focused season… 

Oh balls, here we go…..! 

anonymous asked:

One thing I do need from S13 is for Dean and Cas to hug with nobody else around. It's crazy to think it's never happened, there's always been somebody else there. And it's sad to see the way that impacts Dean's reactions. There's always the hesitation, the side-eye to check if the other person is watching, judging. Completely the opposite of Sam's hugs with Cas.

If this happens…. it will basically canonise Destiel cos come on…they just cannot hug and reconcile without it being romantic at this point, so I’m not expecting it too soon tbh.

I say this tongue in cheek but it is kinda true, there’s a reason why they’re kept separated, because every time they’re on their own shit like this happens

Originally posted by faramaiofnerdwoodforest

Originally posted by impalaofgrace

And before the other two snapped Dean out of it:

Originally posted by smileymultifandom

Then the last time they were alone before this was 10x09

Originally posted by inacatastrophicmind

Literally, if you watch the scenes where they’re ALONE in SPN its just looks like an all out romance story.

Dean being such a protective, caring Dad to Claire - especially when she got bitten - was one of the best things I’ve seen in this episode. He just couldn’t bear witnessing the possibility of her death that he had to leave the room.

Who you gonna call?

So we all know Dean was desperate and determined to get in contact with Cas first when they broke out.  I’ve seen some anti-destiel people argue ‘who else would he call?!’  

For the sake of argument let’s assume Dean had other numbers memorized, which he could–I mean, broken phones have to be commonplace for hunters.

So if Dean’s racing against the clock to get Sam to safety before he Officially Dies at midnight then his best bet would be to call Crowley (isn’t his number just 666?)  Dean would yell,  'We iced Lucifer as a team, you dick. You should have zapped us out of that motel room along with your mom.  You got your throne back with our help, so how about you don’t leave us stranded!?' The King of Hell could apparate right to them and get them both to safety in moments.

Of course, Crowley won’t do something for nothing (even after their summer of love) so if yelling didn’t work, Dean would agree to 'owe him one.’  A nice, no-strings attached favor to be cashed in at a future date, because Dean doesn’t care–he’s dying before the day is through. Crowley doesn’t have to know about it.

But he doesn’t call Crowley. He calls Cas. Repeatedly. 

He doesn’t leave a message and move on.

He doesn’t tell Cas to get the phone from his room and call other hunters who might be closer. 

(Also, Cas misses two of Dean’s calls and one of Mary’s–which came up as an unknown number???–and this angel doesn’t even have to go to the bathroom. So either he was standing in the door of Dean’s room feeling miserable and looking at his weapons on display or he was crying into his pillows–because he certainly wasn’t in the library.  He wasn’t in the bunker to research or he would’ve had some lights on.  He was just depressed and sad and so much of the episode focused on showing us this. I don’t even want to think about how irritated Cas sounded when he answered the phone, like he was mad about being interrupted, but I am concerned about his mental health and wondering what he was doing off screen. I mean this scene with the phone ringing in the dark and Cas off-screen had me terrified for a moment. 

I think we all can remember how in Hunter Heroici he blamed himself to the extent that he mentioned suicide and that was when he was hunting with Dean and Sam, not sitting alone for weeks in the dark and silence with the blame and guilt of failing his friends weighing on him. He even considered the deaths of his unsolved case to be his responsibility, my poor sweet Cas.)   

Anyway, Dean sees the map and knows the country well enough to understand that Cas is hours away (at least seven according to Google maps and it’s a looong stretch of highway that Dean asks him to find them on).  The whole ‘meet us’ thing is such a hail mary plan. If it was just about getting one of them to safety, then Dean would have been better off telling Sammy to head for the highway while he tried to mislead or slow up the men following them, especially once they got a gun.   

It wasn’t about a rescue mission. Sam and Dean have been on the run from law enforcement so many times. They’d have found a way to get a car when they got to the highway. 

No, it wasn’t about needing help in the form of wheels.  Dean said, “The sooner the better.  We’re kind of on the clock here,” when he was talking to Cas and he was specifically referencing the time he had left alive, hoping against the odds that he’d see Cas one last time.     

Dean plunks the beers on the table, flicking off the spilled liquid with his fingers. He nudges Cas with an elbow as he sits.

“Your turn.”

Cas squares his jaw and shoulders in a display of obstinance.

“No,” he says. “No, I don’t think so.”

Sam chuckles from his left, pointing a finger from himself to Dean.

“We both went, Cas,” he slurs. “Besides, it IS his birthday.”

Dean raises his arms emphatically. “Yes!,” he agrees as if he’s just remembered. “It’s my birthday, babe. So you have to do it for my present.”

Cas scowls at his boyfriend’s triumphant grin, but defeated, he straightens Dean’s borrowed shirt and runs his hands through his hair before making his way to the front of the bar.

“What’ll it be?” asks the D.J., biting at a lower lip ring, like he likes what he sees as Cas stumbles forward.

Cas sighs. “Surprise me.”

The D.J. winks. “Random it is. We’ll let the computer decide.”

Grabbing a mic, Cas shuffles to the front of the stage, trying to ignore the crowd and instead focus on Dean’s drunken smirk.

“This song is for my boyfriend,” he hiccups. “It’s his birthday today, and for some reason this is what he wanted.”

A group cheers in the back as the song comes up, and Cas tries to focus on the lyrics on the screen.

“We were both young when I first saw you

I close my eyes and the flashback starts

I’m standing there on a balcony in summer air.”

A few people start to laugh as Cas stumbles through the words awkwardly. A few cheer louder.

Sam smiles, looking from Dean to Cas, all three of them well passed buzzed. Cas is a terrible singer, and, is this a Taylor Swift song?

“Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone

I’ll be waiting, all that’s left to do is run

You’ll be the prince and I’ll be the princess

It’s a love story, baby just say yes.”

Somewhere along the line, Cas hits his stride. He starts dancing awkwardly, well, more shuffling and pointing into the crowd, now, and Sam KNOWS they are all drunk. But Dean is standing, too, smiling and cheering while he points Cas out to the nearby tables.

“That’s my boyfriend,” he says proudly.

By the end, a few people have hopped on to the stage and are singing/dancing with Cas’s terrible, out of tune performance and the audience is clapping and cheering while Cas smiles shyly at the attention.

“Because we were both young, when I first saw you,” Cas ends, and the whole room is cheering.

Cas is blushing bright red as he hands his mic off. He hops from the stage, weaving through the tables to Dean, who has two fingers in his mouth while he whistles.

“Thanks,” says Dean, smiling, hugging Cas when he finally gets to him.

Cas kisses Dean shyly on the cheek, but Dean pulls him in for a real kiss which leaves Cas even more red when Sam laughs and the crowd cheers.

“You’re welcome,” Cas says, blushing furiously. “Enjoy it. Because it’s never happening again. Happy birthday, Dean.”

“Ok,” Dean says, with a wink.

But, over the next few weeks, it turns out that it isn’t even close to the last time Dean catches Cas humming or singing off key Taylor Swift.

He doesn’t say a word, though. Because he never wants it to stop.