dead lover

Just finished scarlet heart episode 11 raw

AND I AM NOT FUCKING OK I AM SCREAMING AND CRYING AND MY EMOTIONAL WELL BEING IS NOT STABLE AND I AM NOT GOING TO BE OK AT WORK TONIGHT LIKE HOLY FUCK I WANT TO JUST CURL UP AND CRY 

Originally posted by neutronstarrcollision

AND THIS IS WITH NOT KNOWING WHAT THE HELL WAS BEING SAID! HOW AM I GOING TO SURVIVE WHEN I SEE THE SUBS?!

Originally posted by staliagarbage

WHY WOULD THEY DO THIS AND THEN MAKE US WAIT A WEEK?!

Originally posted by wannafloodtheocean

Trust is hard

We attempt to wield it, curve it into a circle, a heart around us. But it can’t be done. Trust is or it isn’t.

The broken are broken. They will never fully trust without the most strong, certain, loving and reassuring person. Reassure. Then reassure again, again and again.

Some of us have been left for dead.
Or our ex lovers have cleaned our blood, scrubbed it from the grout in their floors. Bleach and brillow pads.

The broken are broken.
Most men become mouses in the presence of the broken.

We come along as sirens. Our crippling song draws them in and cracks them within the skull.
At first amusement excites. And then they run wild back and forth.

Sirens are sirens.
They’re broken creatures, mad in the head.

The men that are really mouses will never find love. They think they will, until they get bored with their keep. Then the sirens draw them back in. Their skulls crack back open. Endless cycles of shitty mouses falling upon shitty broken sirens.

Where is my lion?

Move on, leave, run away, escape this place… but don’t forget about me, about us, about this town. Always remember where you come from so you can appreciate how far you’ve come.
—  c.j.n.
You claim to love her, inside and out, but the only time you call her beautiful is when it’s 3 in the morning and I’ve already turned you down.
—  girls tell each other everything, c.j.n.