do you ever want to rewrite your past?
like I know I wasn’t around in the 70s with a group of punk girls going to clubs and smoking behind bikesheds but it sounds so much better than being the lonely twat who would wander up to whoever and randomly start singing or doing voice impressions at them even if they clearly wanted me to leave.
I know I wasn’t cycling down a seaside with anyone but I was alone for most of my actual life
I know I didn’t start studying media until this year but I just love thinking about what it would’ve been like to be part of the production crew of The Young Ones
I know I got out of the Performing Arts course because of my bad dancing abilities but it would’ve been nice to be on a theatre stage or to have maybe been in a production of rocky horror
I know I was born after Diana’s death but it would’ve been so nice to just chat to her and pleasantly shake her hand
I know when I first discovered anarchism I was only mildly into it and wasn’t as into it as I am now but it’s so much better than the reality of those problematic years when I was a moronic tory centrist who blindly followed others
I know I never got the chance to experience 1980s gay bars where I could jive to sounds of Petshop Boys and Frankie goes Hollywood but it’s a lot better than the reality that it took a long time for me to figure out my sexuality and even when I was starting to learn about it, secondary school classmates mocked me for it.
I know I didn’t listen to much of Bowie’s stuff until this year but it’s better than the times before space oddity where I’d often feel alien like,hollow and disconnected from the world,I felt the exactly same way Bowie did when he made some of his characters,except I didn’t know much about him himself back then and for me it wasn’t characters it was phases/personality traits