They say that dating someone you wouldn’t marry is a waste of your time. That the endless giggles and butterflies aren’t worth it unless you’re both in it for the long run. That while you’re falling asleep in his arms, you’re stealing him away from the soul mate he’s supposed to have and he’s keeping you from the love of your life.
And honestly, I don’t know what the future holds for us. I don’t know if I can see you at the end of an aisle in some beautifully flowered church in 10 years. I don’t know if I can feel your hand squeezing mine as I bring new life into this world or if falling asleep next to you every night for the rest of my life is a decision I’m going to make, but I’ve all too recently learned that there’s no point in making such long term plans because no matter how strongly you will them to stay the same, they’re going to change.
And when I look at your goofy smile and listen to your laugh that sounds like you’ve known no heartbreak and I drift in and out of consciousness in the most comfortable embrace I’ve know for a long time, I realize: I don’t know if we’re supposed to fall in love or just waste time…
but, boy, I’d love to waste time with you.