izuku keeps receiving really encouraging yet rude post-it notes from a “secret admirer”
it first happened one week after all the bullying started
at first it was a small crumpled paper he found under his desk with the phrase “don’t let those fuckers get to you” written in half chicken scratch/half cursive and it made izuku smile for an entire day
after a particularly hard shove on his shoulders from a classmate that resulted to him scrapping his knees on the ground izuku found a box of band-aids with a post it note that said “for your shitty knees”
the next thing izuku knew, the messages were now a daily thing: from post-it notes that says “drink this shitty nerd” on yogurt drinks that magically appear under his desk during particularly hot days to some doodles of grenades with the words “you’re pretty smart for a shitty nerd” written at the bottom of his notebooks to really sweet yet threatening messages like “eat more or ill hide your nerdy comics again” or “are you even sleeping these days, shitty nerd?”
izuku’s days are getting better after the messages and one day he decided to write a message back. he writes “thank you” on a post-it note with the question “can we meet?” and puts it under his desk after school but he never got an answer
the messages also stopped coming and izuku is left wondering what went wrong
the bullying only got worse and izuku is left with a bruise too big to hide under his shirt and a bloody nose from a particularly hard punch to his face. he finds a note under his desk after class that day with the words “i wish i could be there, but i fucking can’t” in the same half chicken scratch/half cursive izuku came to know and love
izuku is furious and lashes out and yells “if you can’t even be there for me, than just leave me alone” because he’s tired of feeling like shit and getting hurt.
but while izuku is crying his heart out in an empty classroom, his secret admirer (katsuki, a ghost) is standing right in front of him feeling the same level of frustration and loneliness and anger for not being able to do anything but watch, listen, and write those damned post-it notes
A/N: This is written for @supernatural-jackles birthday challenge. I know I am so late, but my excuse is that I have changed this idea a billion times! I chose a gif for her challenge, and it is located within the fic.
Also, side note yes I know it’s not even close to Valentine’s day, but don’t pay attention to that.
This is unbetaed so any and all mistakes are mine.
23 Hours Before Valentine’s Day
“Ectoplasm. I thought we were done dealing with this disgusting crap!” Y/N complained as she strode into the bunker, wiping the towel over her arms. “I’m gonna need, like, seventeen showers just to rid myself of this goop. Yuck!” A giant splatter of the black goo was flicked from Y/N’s jacket and onto the floor, making Dean and Sam cringe.
“Really? In the bunker, c’mon…” Dean groaned.
Y/N turned angrily at Dean, hurling the dirty towel in his direction. “You’re lucky I didn’t get any in your precious Baby! This is your fault you know!”
“What?” Dean rolled his eyes. “If you knew how to swing an iron bar, you wouldn’t have gotten yourself into this mess. Literally.”
“If you wouldn’t have pushed me in front of the monster barf, I wouldn’t be in this mess. It would’ve been you in this mess.”
“Whatever,” he scoffed. “Just go take your damn shower.”
Hi! Could you do the RFA + Saeran and their reactions of getting a call from the hospital because MC got in some sort of accident (not too serious though) and them going to visit her? It's ok if you don't want to though!
Okay, I really do need to get better at saving this lol. It’s deleted, and right when I was on Baehee! I’m also sorry for being gone so long, jeez it’s been too long! Lol, anyway, whatever, let’s begin!!
It was two days before a big performance of his
After rehearsal he was planning on having dinner with you, and watching your favorite show, something relaxing
But all that was quickly abandoned when he got a call from Jumin
You were going to get some groceries to make your special soup for the cold rainy April weather
And when you were crossing a street a drunk driver hit you on the side
Zen was surprised his phone wasn’t across the room by now
He was however, sprinting out of the theatre, yelling at his manager a babbling excuse, screaming at Jumin for the directions
When he got there he was a mess
The RFA was crowded around you, barely giving you any room to breathe, but the minute they saw him they parted
While he walked up to see you he spied the crumpled groceries, beside your bed, the green stalks of celery still peeking out, and he broke down completely
He knew that you were in pain, not only due to your arm in a cast, but also the fact you had an IV, something he knew you always hated the idea of
So instead he stroked your hair and squeezed your hand
“I’m sorry I wasn’t there. I’m so, so sorry.”
You just smiled kindly at him
Afterwards you were very wary of cars, and he held your hand when you crossed the street, arm around your shoulder
He was terrified of what could’ve happened
About what would’ve happened had that car hit you dead on
He would’ve crumpled
He was playing LOLOL, like usual, and you were reading
It was such a relaxing night
When you finished you kissed him on the cheek and rushed off to get the next book in the series
By the time you got out the sun was setting
You loved this time of day, the weather being remarkably clear for April, streaks of pinks, purples, and reds streaking the sky, the night cool and balmy, slightly wet like the morning dew type feeling of late summer days
You beamed up at the sky
Walking back to your apartment you didn’t notice the car pulling out of a parking lot
As it collided with you, you skidded across the pavement and into the street, your book splayed across the asphalt, just a hair’s breadth away from you
Yoosung got five messages from Seven before he picked up his phone and read it
And when he did he dropped it
Typing furiously into it he slid across the room, grabbing his keys quickly, jacket be damned
The whole way there guilty thoughts danced in his head
Why didn’t I go with her? Why didn’t I pick up the phone sooner? Why? Why…
When he got there you brightened up slightly, you’re smile growing bigger
This caused him to burst into tears at seeing your two broken ankles
You ended up comforting him, but he was adamant on feeling guilty
Gave you tons of kisses
Decorated your wheelchair with stickers of the constellations, moons, and stars
And when you began physical therapy to walk again he was there the whole time
Every appointment, every single thing
And every night he’d hold you close
Grasping you tightly
He feels like he needs to remind himself you were there
Because if you hadn’t he would’ve fallen
It was a hard week for her
Jumin was preparing for a huge trip, culminating with an important conference, then a party when he got back
So that meant a ton of sleepless nights for his poor secretary
You understood how tired Jaehee was
So one night you took the time to take the two hour trip to a reclusive coffee shop, which sold Jaehee’s favorite
You were so happy when you managed to grab the last two bags
Practically happy danced out of that shop
When you stopped at a red light you went to check and make sure it was still standing straight
When a young driver rammed you straight from behind
Jaehee was just about to take a break when Jumin came bolting in, hair disheveled
“Jaehee, MC, she’s been in an accident.”
Jaehee bolted out of her chair like a missile
Sprinting towards the elevator she barely paid enough attention to get the location
Jumin couldn’t keep up with her
And he’s tall
And she was in heels!
When you saw her running down the hall you twisted around yourself, desperately looking for where the heck they put the bags
When she reached the room, panting, looking so worried, you broke down
She immediately gave you a big hug, stroking your hair, avoiding the spot where your head was bandaged
“I-I’m so, so sorry! I, I w-was just trying to get you the c-coffee, you like. A-and now you’re behind schedule, a-and it’s all my fault!”
She shushed you and kissed you on your cheeks
Jumin could get someone else’s help for the last two days, she was going to take off
You also broke your ribs and she needed to make sure you took your meds and ate enough
Every night when you fell asleep she’d brush you bangs to both sides
“Coffee beans could never replace you, you’re so much more to me…”
You two were coming home from a party
Jumin was happy to get home, away from the crowds of people, he wanted to be with you
You were just waiting for when you could get out of those heels
Already unbuckled you lagged a bit behind him
He laughed a bit at your struggling, which earned him a glare
“Here, let me help you.”
You smiled gratefully at the hand and went to grab it
When the motorcycle came out of nowhere
Jumin screamed when you fell backwards, your shoes in a moment of cruel irony let behind
He didn’t have time to look at the cyclist, who was looking, bewildered, stoned as Hell
Jumin scooped you up and pulled out his phone, calling an ambulance
Rode with you in the back, holding your hand as you cried
They sedated you to set the broken collarbone and Jumin flinched
When you shook it off and came to he kissed you firmly
“Oh my God, I thought, I thought that, that you were going to leave me.”
You began tearing up,
“I wouldn’t be able to go on like I do now, you, you’re too important.”
Since he was in his apartment he just arranged a lazy boy to be brought in
And made sure the cyclist was brought to justice
There doesn’t need to be people like that driving, not with all the troubles already in the world
You had stormed out after even more pushing away
You hadn’t planned on going anywhere in particular
Just needed some fresh air
Unfortunately fate just wasn’t on your side this day
After cooling down enough to go back to that Hell of an apartment you quickly walked towards the apartment
Unfortunately you didn’t see the public garage opening
There was a horrible scraping of metal on cloth and flesh
And the door knocked you into a fire hydrant
You thought of Saeyoung right before the world went dark
Saeyoung had begun tracking you the minute you left
And the minute the phone blinked out he picked up his keys and ran
Terrified that his fears had come true
He hadn’t expected the scene on you being carted on an ambulance, phone spotted with blood, falling from the rim of a sickly yellow hydrant
His stomach had dropped and for a minute he couldn’t breathe
Running in he barely stopped to explain it to the nurses
You weren’t responsive, but that didn’t stop him from apologizing for everything
He had to wait while they set everything, you had a concussion, but when they left and he was alone, the RFA hadn’t yet arrived, he poured his heart out to you
You woke up to him talking
“I didn’t understand, I thought if I pushed you away it would get better, you’d find someone better, someone more deserving. Instead I got you hurt, I can’t believe it, you’re at the center of my thoughts and I’m so sorry, I’m so damn sorry.”
You reached out, despite the pain, and touched his hand
He jumped, but seeing you, a light smile on your face, he enclosed you in a tight hug, clutching you like water, something that might slip away if he didn’t hole you tight enough
You hugged back and he began crying
“I love you so much MC, I love you so damn much.”
“I love you too, I will always love you.”
You two were planning an ice cream date
And he was so excited
Smiling around the house, practically beaming
Kissing you a lot, causing you to laugh
God, he loved your laugh
When the time came to go out he was dragging you
You barely had time to grab your purse
It was an amazing night, not too hot, not too cold
After the ice cream you two walked slowly around a park, looking at the statues in Greek style
Just enjoying each others company
Saeran was completely at peace, he couldn’t believe that there was a happiness such as this in the world
As he led you through the park he pointed eagerly towards a statue, dead center of the park
“Look MC! Look!”
He started running towards it, and your hand started slipping
He noticed after a few seconds, and turned around to laugh, teasingly
When he saw the motorcycle ramming into you
The cyclist didn’t even stopped
Saeran took a quick mind of the plate before picking you up
Your leg was bent oddly and you were crying
He was shaking with anger, and fumbled with his phone
At the hospital he wasn’t allowed to be there while they set the bone
He turned his phone on again and looked up the guy
Sexual assault charges, physical and verbal abuse, the list went on and on
Saeran was grinding his teeth in anger
How was this guy not in jail
It didn’t matter, Saeran knew how to change that
Pulling a few strings he smiled in cold, cruel, satisfaction
The guy was going to be in jail for a while
Just then your room opened and he rushed in
Seeing you, tears still at the edge of your eyes, leg in a cast
He went over to hug you and kiss you
And the tears started flowing, something that surprised him
After everything, his mother, Mint Eye, the attacks, the whole time he’d never cried
But seeing the center of his universe, the light in the never-ending darkness, the love of his life, seeing you hurt made him so sad
So he just held onto you, showing that it would never happen again
He wouldn’t let it
I hope you like!!! Again sorry for it being so long, but hey I hope it’s really good!!! Have fun reading, and again hope you like!!
understood what irony was. You didn’t scream when that mugger attacked you and
almost harmed you over a phone. You were silently scared, and scarred, fearing the
words that could have left your mouth if you had opened it. So why was it that
when you were with your savior, the famous Spider-man, you were screaming
because after blinking, he had wrapped his arm around your round waist and
hosted you up with one swift web swing.
onto him for your dear life, your screaming shamelessly had not decreased, despite
his begged you to calm down and trust him.
please! I won’t drop you!” he reassured gently.
But did you
care? No, you did not. Because Spider-man was swinging through Queens while
using one arm and carrying more than 150 pounds with the other. How is that
in the middle of trying not to look down, you remembered something important.
Spider-man! How do you know where you’re going?! I never told you where I
lived!” You tried not to yell right in his ear as you pointed out the obvious.
know, I’m just waiting for you to calm down and tell me!” He exclaimed
for a minute, feeling your stomach drop every time a new swing happened and his
grip tightened around your body. Now that you were calmer you actually looked
around in a brave attempt of catching your breath.
told him your address with a serene tone, you had no knowledge if he heard you,
but Spider-man confirmed this as he nodded. He shot his web string to turn
around the corner, almost immediately you recognized the street.
that I’m not screaming for my life, this is kind of awesome.” You giggle.
his tension drop immediately as he chuckles with you, “Yeah, it never gets old!
No matter how many times I swing around I always feel free!”
so Spidey was talkative.
That was sort
of cool, and cute?
something about his voice that you couldn’t put a pin on as well, it was like
you had heard this excited tone before. But dammit, maybe it was the adrenaline
not allowing you to think straight, or maybe because you were tired and scared.
almost there! Do you have a balcony or fire escape that I can land us on?” He
around and you noticed, you guys were indeed close. You could see your building
from where you were.
there’s a balcony connected to my room. It’s on the fifth floor in the back of
the building!” You tell him hurriedly, his swinging was fast and calculated,
you could tell he’d been doing it for quite some time.
He grunted, “Hold on tight!” He said before he shot a web on your building and
circled around it swiftly.
squealed and hid your face in his shoulder, afraid to hit the wall, but you
soon felt that he had stopped you peeked and there you were, home.
balcony, Miss?” He asked quietly, looking at you as his Spider-man eyes
He was so
close to your face that you couldn’t help but to blush a little.
one, right below us actually.” You informed him timidly.
dropped you on the balcony’s railing, never letting go of your hand, and you stepped
from it into the stoned floor of your balcony. You were never so happy to see
your bonsai tree.
you turned to look up at him, but Spider-man was right in front of you,
crouching steadily on your railing and staring intently as if you’d break with
the wind, you felt a little self-conscious under his keen gaze.
thanks for saving and bringing me home safe.” You awkwardly said as you placed
your right hand around your left wrist. You started brushing your arm with your
sighed, “You’re welcome… you know, I’ll make sure that never happens again.”
your head, “Isn’t that what you do? Fight small crimes?”
mean, yes. I meant to you, I’ll make sure that never happens to you again.” He
have looked confused, because Spider-man groaned.
don’t have to understand. I… I actually have to go!” His Spidey eyes widened in
realization, “Oh crap, I really have
to go! You’re going to be okay, right?” he asked once again, more urgently this
You told him quickly.
again and stood from his crouching position, giving you a mini heart-attack.
How on earth does he find his balance? Is it part of his powers?
good evening, Miss.” He said with a soft tone.
you could respond, you mentally screeched when he dropped backwards from the
railing. You quickly ran and leaned over the edge to see if there was a
splattered spider on your building’s backyard, but you gasped when there was
that you needed to make hot chocolate, with extra chocolate to calm yourself.
The Next Day
telling your parents what happened, because there was no way you could have
kept it all to yourself, they hugged you for almost half an hour as you cried
in their arms. Apparently, when the rush of being saved by the neighborhood
hero disappeared, all the emotions you had from the traumatizing event exploded
as soon as your mom asked if you were okay.
fallen asleep in the embrace of your parents. And of course, when you woke up
disoriented on the couch, you felt stupid by the concern you caused your
parents. They were already stressed from work.
you forgot to reply to Peter’s texts.
believe you were mugged last night. God, (Y/n) I’m really sorry about that.”
Michelle sighed as you two walked down the hall.
at her. She had immediately noticed that there was something off about you as
soon as you had walked into homeroom. And when you reluctantly told her, she
had given you a funny look, at least the way she widened her eyes seemed
hilarious to you.
situation wasn’t pleasing, so you were trying to comfort yourself with
thankful that Spider-man saved me. I don’t know if I would be standing here if
it wasn’t for him.” You confessed with a tired tone.
you even come to school today?” Michelle scolded you dryly.
trying to look casual when honestly, you just wanted to see Peter.
“Because I can’t let my grades down.”
her eyes at you as you two stopped in front of your locker. You were in the
middle of opening it when you saw someone rush to you through your peripheral
Peter sighed in relief as he pulled you into a hug.
trailing right behind him when you saw him give Peter a knowing smirk. Michelle
however, looked annoyed and confused throughout.
you reply to my texts?” He mumbled near your ear, in a familiar way.
him back and patted him on the back, “Sorry, Peter, but something horrible
happened and I don’t want you to freak out but… I was almost mugged.”
pulled back and looked at you with horror, while Ned looked shocked.
(Y/n)! Are you okay?” Ned asked you quickly.
him the best smile you could muster, “I’m fine Ned, thanks to Spider-man.” You
looked at Peter with a reassuring nod. “He saved me.”
need to quit that job.” Peter told you firmly after being silent for a while.
The way he was looking at you had to be the most serious you have ever seen
back at your locker and collected your AP Sciences book, then you looked back
at your friends and chewed your lower lip thoughtfully. You weren’t going to
lie. Quitting that job was the first thing that crossed your mind as you cried
in front of your parents. They even told you they could find you a better
part-time job and closer to home.
“But I do!”
he cut you quickly.
Michelle barked, “Don’t tell her what to do, loser, it’s her life and she
glared at Michelle, but then he sighed, “You’re right, sorry (Y/n)…”
him a pitiful smile, it was nice that he was paying attention to you, and
caring too much about you, and looking at you with those puppy eyes…
cleared your throat and looked at Michelle, “Well, all I know is that I don’t
want to talk about it for a while. So let’s just… you know…” You looked at
Peter and Ned now, “Talk about something else.”
them all a pleading look, and their shoulders dropped with surrender.
Peter gave you a pout and you almost chuckled at that.
passed by quickly, there was only a period left. And it was the class that you
skip gym with me?” You attempted with an innocent smile.
her eyes at you, “(Y/n), you know I can’t. Why don’t you just tell Mr. Maroon
that you’re on your period?”
“Because if I tell him now, when I really have it, it will cause suspicion.”
her thick eyebrow at you in an amusing way.
“I can skip
gym with you.”
around and there was Peter, without Ned–which was surprising–staring at you
with what you would call another puppy look.
you skip a lot of classes, but I’ve never seen you skip gym.” Michelle
interjected while giving him an odd look.
along. There was a dilemma right here, on one side you could spend time
together with Peter but on the other, you would have to spend time alone with
Peter and that terrified you. What if you said the wrong thing? What if things
got awkward? What if he asks you about last night?
I don’t mind it. Besides I need to speak with (Y/n)…” He drawled out your name
while giving you a nervous stare.
Michelle shared a look before she gave in and bid you goodbye as she walked to
gym class. Now you were alone with Peter. And you were both excited and
frightened about it.
did you wanted to talk about?” You asked him warily.
He took a
deep breath and you found yourself almost melting when his brown eyes captured
your (e/c) ones.
he could speak, you two could hear a sneer echoing down the hall.
Penis Parker. Skipping gym with your girl because she doesn’t feel like
exercising, like, ever?”
Heyyyy can you write how RFA+V+Saeran would react to MC coming home really late (without telling them) because she's a professional ballet dancer and she was understudying a role? And the lead got injured so she had to take it on short notice? And she gets home with crazy stage make up on and scares them?
Sorry for the LATE HC. I’ve said before I’ve been pretty busy and I’m just trying to find time to catch up. But here’s one! I wasn’t too inspired to do V or Saeran for this one so I apologize! Enjoy!
precious nugget was spending all night at the library to study for a big test coming up
he was texting you to tell you that he’s on his way home
but you weren’t answering???
he gets home and you’re not there
even though he was very tired, he used the last of his energy to make a few calls to find out where you were
meanwhile you had just got off the bus after a long day of rehearsal
and you had to start getting used to that
you were so EXHAUSTED you just left your makeup on to take off at home
trudging through the front door, you heard Yoosung in the other room on the phone with someone
just as you set your bag down in the entry way, Yoosung came into the room
the lighting was not flattering to your face
he let out a yelp
poor baby jumped so bad he dropped his phone
you felt so bad for spooking him
thankfully his phone was fine
once he kind of came back to reality you got hit by a barrage of concerns
“oh my gosh why were you out so late???”
“why do you have all that makeup on???”
you were supposed to work with Jaehee in the afternoon
but you called her a little before noon explaining the situation you were in
Jaehee understood and ran the shop by herself that day
after closing time she headed back to the apartment
was a little tired so she just picked up some bentos from the store for dinner
but you weren’t there???
when she texts you, you said you were on your way home
so she waited for you
just sat on the couch and watched some TV to pass the time
you were rushing to get out of practice
you didn’t realize you were still wearing your slippers
and you still had your makeup on
when you got home you were just so exhausted you just wanted to eat dinner and chill with your bae
aw your sweet amazing gelato is asleep!
you decided to nudge her awake
but the moment she opened her eyes, she saw a horrifying face she followed her instincts and went straight for a punch
(╯°Д°)╯︵ /(.□ . ＼) !!!
you blacked out for a hot second
next thing you know you hear rustling in the kitchen and the guilty gelato running to your side with an ice pack
rehearsal on his end looked like it was going to be a long one
the only thing he asked was to check in with him whenever you can *^^*
time just flew by but Zen was home actually the time he originally expected
now all he had to do was wait for you ^^
you on the other hand, was at rehearsal until 11:30 (23:30)
you were so damn tired
you dressed into your street clothes but you forgot to take off the makeup
your friend was kind enough to have you carpool with them
as he was changing in the bedroom, he heard the front door open
naturally heading toward it, you approached the doorway to the bedroom, exhausted
“Uh, sorry I’m lat—”
the whole makeup on your face startled him, he just slammed the door in front of you
there’s a slight pause between the two of you
you going wtf
and Zen going wtf I just slammed the door in their face
he sheepishly opens it and you two are just staring at each other
afterward, there is plenty of laughs and helping you wipe that makeup off
he was coming in from Hong Kong late at night
was pretty exhausted when he came home
all he wanted was to just head to bed with you and Elizabeth 3rd
but you weren’t home!
you must have had practice or something
when he texted you, you were on your way home
while he was waiting he decided to crack open a bottle of wine
then Jaehee called from work and he had to deal with that pot of mess
this donut was so focused on the call he didn’t hear you come in!
and you didn’t want to bother him while he was on the phone, so you were just patiently waiting by the counter until he noticed you
he hangs up and as he turns around he jumps a little at the sight of you
he spilled some wine on his shirt!
this donut was ok about it
he has a billion other shirts anyways
but you kept apologizing like the sweetheart you were
“Well how about you help me get this off…”
(°ロ°) ! “S-sorry g-gotta go to bed, bye!!!”
cue you running away to the bedroom and locking it behind you
this donut is so confused but just chuckles a bit because you’re just so darn cute!
it was another long night for Seven
Vanderwood was really driving him up the wall with work
he had been texting you periodically but he knew you were in rehearsal so he didn’t expect you to see his texts until you were on your way home
but you didn’t come home at the usual time
genuinely concerned so he tracked your phone
still said you were at the theater???
it must have been a long rehearsal so he had went back to work
while he was in the bathroom, he heard the door open???
who broke into the inner sanctum???
cautiously tiptoes in the dark (too lazy to turn on the lights)
turns on the flashlight on his phone instead
first thing he sees is you with your hair loose and makeup still on
jellybean’s training kicks in
instinct is to throw his phone at you
hits you square in the face
poor you gets a bloody nose
in his defense, the light was unflattering
and instinctively Seven FREAKS out and scrambles to find the nearest first-aid to take care of you
Kai Parker x Reader word count : 4 998 summary : Reader has feelings for Kai and tells him but he rejects her which leads her to become a vampire and turn off her humanity just as Kai comes back a new person after the merge. * gif by shelleyhenign
“You don’t get it , do you?” said Kai with a little hint of amusement in his voice.”I dont feel emotions , I don’t care or feel anything. Emotions are nothing but a distraction plus I don’t even like you and even if those things werent true - you and me still would never happen. You are just not good enough for me. Why would I chose a human ?”
Kai’s words kept echoing in her mind. Having the person you have feelings for turn you down was not something unheard in human history , but doing it the way Kai had done it – her feelings had gotten hurt so badly she wanted it all gone. All the love she felt for him , all the pain - absolutely everything. Her friends didnt know about her feelings for Kai or about what had happened and Y/N didnt plan on letting them know either meaning compelling it away wasn’t an option. So that left her with option number 3 because clearly moving on wasnt going so well either. Becoming a vampire hadn’t been on her bucket list , but it was her only option and she could already hear the lectures from Elena and Caroline. They’d say how lucky she is to be still a human and be able to have a future , kids and a family. But those things just didnt matter to her if she couldnt have them with the person she loved. Kai wasn’t going to change - he will always be the same , so there was no point in waiting for the impossible either. He will always say whatever pops into his head , not caring what his words or actions do to the people around him simply because he had no emotions. Why should she remain a human ?
It had been a few days since Christmas and the siphoner had been safely tucked in into Alaric’s apartment on Whitmore campus until Jo was ready to do the merge. All her friends were taking shifts guarding him just in case and that day it was her turn. Y/N sat on the couch , glancing at him every few minutes refusing to go anywhere near him. There was a part of her that was 100% sure she’d pull out that tube from his arm and let him go. What she felt for him was so strong that even after he hurt her , she’d still free him and cross her friends. What the hell was wrong with her ?! "Hey Y/N. How is our comatose patient?” asked Damon handing her a cup with coffee. “He hasn’t caused any trouble , has he ?” "Comatose and no.” she said blankly, taking a sip from her coffee. What kind of a trouble can he cause if he is being unconscious ? "Whats wrong ?” "Nothing. What makes you think something is wrong ?” she wondered , trying to sound as normal as possible. Damon knew her too well not to pick up on her tells not to mention the way he was studying her face made her feel a little nervous. "Because I know you and short answers are not what you do.” said her best friend , lightly rubbing her shoulders. “Usually you dont shut up. Sometimes you are even more annoying than him.” Y/N sighed. “I was just thinking how all my friends are supernaturals and wont age while I will turn into a wrinkled sag in a few short years. Its depressing. And of course there is that time at the corn maze when my human friends were all dying and I couldn’t do anything to help.” "You know if you want me to , I’ll turn you. Even though after that Elena and Caroline will bite my head off.“ said Damon sitting on the couch next to her. Y/N started laughing. “They would wouldn’t they?” "Yeah. Look Y/N , there was a reason we tried to find the cure for Elena.“ he said calmly. “Being a vampire is not all that is cracked out to be and if you make that choice there is no going back.” "I’ve already made the choice Damon. I want this.“ she said serious. “You , Stefan , Elena , Caroline — you guys are not just my friends , you are my family. I love you all more than I can put into words and I cant imagine ever being without any of you. I want us to be together forever.” Damon tucked up his sleeve and bit his wrist. “Well , if you are absolutely sure.” "I am.“ she replied taking his wrist , feeling his blood trickle down her throat for a few moments until she let go. He wiped away some of it from her chin with his thumb , still having doubts about what he had to do next. Y/N was his best friend , one of the few who can put up with him and were always willing to defend him even when he makes huge mistakes. What if turning her into one of them was one of those ? "Promise me , you will explain to Elena thats what you wanted and I didn’t push you into anything?” "You got it.“ she smiled. “Um … could you do it painlessly ?” "Of course , but I have to ask again - are you sure , really really sure ?“ Y/N nodded and a few seconds later Damon broke her neck , letting her lay down on the couch. He went to the kitchen to get a blood bag from the fridge to be ready for her when she wakes up , but somehow he couldn’t shake the feeling something was wrong and she hadn’t been completely honest about her reasons. When he came back Tyler was in the room , pulling out the tube with the sedative from Kai’s arm. Not too long after , Tyler was the one laying on the ground unsconcious and the young siphoner regained consciousness. On their way out of the house he stopped pointing at Y/N and glancing at the blood bag on the coffee table. "What is she doing here ?” he asked curious. “Is she sleeping ? Awwh look how cute she is now that she is not talking. I might even like her now.” Kai took a step towards her but Damon pulled him away before the siphoner had figured out Y/N wasn’t breathing and had put two and two together. "Y/N? She was keeping an eye on you and you bored her to death.“ said Damon dragging Kai out the door. “Come on creeper. You want to do the merge , you have a deal to uphold."Not too long after that Y/N woke up , finding a blood bag on the coffee table waiting for her. The girl grabbed it without hesitation and completed the transition noticing Kai wasn’t where he was supposed to be and that this wasn’t the only thing that was off in that moment. "Tyler?” she said getting up and running towards him, checking for pulse. “Oh my God wh-what happened ?!” Her eyes followed the tube in his neck and she pulled it out sitting on the ground next to her lifelong friend. What had happened after Damon had snapped her neck ? Damon. Y/N’s eyes widened and she reached for her phone in her pocket dialling her friend when Tyler groaned and started to wake up. “Hey , are you okay ? What happened ?” “I’m going to kill him.” “Him ? Who ? Kai ?” “No. Damon.” Y/N looked at him with confusion in her eyes. “Damon ? Wha-” “I have to go. I’m sorry Y/N , thank you for pulling that tube out but I have to go now or Liv –” “Y-yeah of course.” Y/N sat on the floor running her fingers through her hair , watching Tyler run out of the apartment when her phone buzzed - DAMON. “What the hell did you do ?” she said answering the phone. “Saved Liz’s life.” he said as if it was obvious. “I take it you completed the transition?” “Yes ? Why ?” she wondered. “Because we have a psychotic siphoner out on the loose. Kai gave me the slip.” he sighed. “Come over at the hospital. I’ll explain everything.”
THE NEXT DAY
After the merge with Luke , Kai had found himself in a situation he had never thought he’d be in. During the merge with his brother he had absorbed not only his ability to do magic but quite a few other things including his empathy. He had spent the entire night after the merge trying to figure out how to process all the emotional pain he felt. Every bad thing he had ever done came back into his mind and her regretted , if not all , at least most of them. Kai had no idea what was happening to him or why there was water pooling in his eyes while he kept writing it all down , including a letter to his twin Jo because for some reason he couldn’t find her. Afterwards he went to Damon to ask for help to deliver the letter to his sister. Kai talked for a while with Damon and Elena and then someone else he had been wanting to see showed up , as if he had wished for it to happen - Y/N , the only person who had shown him some kindness among the Mystic Falls gang. About a week ago she had told him she has feelings for him and he had said some really hurtful things to her and he wanted to make it right. Y/N stopped right at the door when she saw he was there. Kai couldn’t help but smile a little seeing her there though there was something different about her and he couldn’t understand what it was. Her hair had a blue strand mixed with her curls and her outfit nearly knocked him over. Last time they had met Y/N had looked hot , now she looked beyond hot wearing a slightly baggy ripped jeans with sneakers and a plain top. "Oh hey Y/N. I’m so glad you are here.“ he said getting up from the table. "I wanted to talk to you.” "Yeah. No , sorry. I have exams to study for.“ she said with a blank expression. "Can I go grab some of — you know ? Downstairs ?” "Why ? Did you get tired of – ?“ "Y/N, please , I have to tell you something. I am s-” he blinked and she was gone. Kai turned around towards Damon and Elena with a look of confusion on his eyes. “Where did she go ? What – What did you do to her ?” "Haven’t done a thing. Y/N just doesn’t like you. None of us do. Haven’t you taken the hint already?“ said Damon. No. That wasn’t it. Y/N might not have told her friends about the feelings she has for him , but Kai knew this girl couldn’t hate him. It just wasn’t who she was - he had gotten a good sense of her. Y/N was too good for her own good , too kind and too forgiving. Something was wrong. "The blood bag. You turned her.” thought Kai out loud. Why did he feel like his entire world has crashed and burned right this moment? “Why would you do that to her ? Was she hurt or something ?” “Because she asked me to.” said Damon. “Though that backfired. I should’ve seen it coming -” “Backfired ? What do you mean by that ?” interrupted Kai. “Damon. Tell me now or I am not going to help you.” Damon took a sip from his bourbon. “Y/N turned off her humanity and turned into one of the biggest problems I’ve ever had.” said the vampire. “One thing I can’t figure out is why she’d do this right after she turned.” Kai gulped. He knew exactly why - because of him. Another rush of guilt pulled him under at the realisation. There had to be a way for him to fix this and he was going to fix it , no questions about it , but first — “Where is the Ascendant ?”
A FEW DAYS LATER
Y/N was at the rave at Whitmore, having fun with Caroline who had just turned off her humanity too because of her mother’s death. Both of them had fun dancing and feeding , though Caroline had invoked a rule - no victims so they don’t attract attention. Y/N didn’t care much about that , or about anything really. Only thing she seemed to care about blood. “That guy keeps checking you out.” said Caroline pointing at one of the guys , not too far away from them. “He hadn’t taken his eyes off you the entire night.” “Maybe he is looking at you.” “No , no. It’s definitely you.” “Well then , I better go meet him.” Y/N turned towards her friend with a smile and purple / black veins flashing under her eyes. Slowly she made her way through the crowd until she got to the guy. Her hands automatically hooked around his neck and they started dancing to the beat , almost in perfect sync and then out of the blue he kissed her. It felt weird not feeling a thing while making out with a hot guy like him, well almost nothing until Y/N’s vampirism kicked in feeling his blood pulsating in his veins. “You are not going to make a sound.” she compelled him , sinking her fangs into his neck the next moment. Not too long it felt as if every blood vessel in her head was exploding and she backed away from the guy , having her neck snapped a split second later.A couple of days later Kai convinced Damon to bring him over to Bonnie who had found her way out of the Prison World , so he can apologise to her and after that hadn’t gone well he had started losing hope anyone would ever forgive him for anything. Right before the vampire had pulled him away , Kai had spotted Y/N in the crowd , ditching Damon straight away to get to her. Y/N had looked hot before but now wearing those black boots and those tight black skinny jeans with a white top with a skull like print on it , she looked even hotter. Quite literally taking his breath away the way she jumped up to the beat with a blue strand in her hair dancing around her shoulders. Last thing he wanted to do was cause her anymore pain but he had no other option if he wanted to grab her and find a way to turn her humanity back on — and maybe find a way to reverse her vampirism turning her back into a human. After her body started to drop , he caught her and carried her to his car and then to his apartment , putting a boundary spell around it before cloaking himself and sneaking into Alaric’s apartment to ‘borrow’ some of his vervain supply.
A few hours later Y/N woke up tied to a chair with vervain ropes. Her surroundings were unfamiliar but she got an idea where she was when a familiar face popped right in front of her. Of course. Who else would be stupid enough to get the drop on her ? Under other circumstances she probably would’ve rejoiced to have Kai standing barely a metre away from her but not in this moment. There wasn’t a trace of emotion left in her. “What the - ” she wondered , struggling to get herself free, groaning in pain more and more each time as the vervain stung on her skin. "Hi.“ grinned Kai. "If you keep struggling , you will only get yourself hurt , Y/N. I just want us to talk , that’s all and then I will let you go.” "Charming. Do you always tie up the girls you want to talk to ? Or do you do that just to the ones you know can’t stand you?“ "I tried talking to you the other day , remember? You ran off before I had said a word to you.” he said blankly. “So , you are a vampire now. Why would you do that to yourself?” "I had my reasons which do not concern you.“ she replied continuing to struggle against the vervain ropes. Y/N had been a vampire for a few days but already hated vervain more than she thought possible. Kai had tied her ankles to the legs of the chair too making sure she couldn’t move even if she wanted to. "Did you do it because of what I said ?” he asked. "So full of yourself.“ she said a little amused. "Not everything happens because of you Parker. Why don’t you let me go and we can maybe go grab a bite somewhere ?” "Not letting you go until you turn that switch back on.“ "Funny. Why have you taken that upon yourself ? Did Damon roped you into saving his best friend from ‘the biggest mistake she had ever done’ ?” she asked blankly. Seeing Kai like that was different - maybe because she was different or maybe because he had merged and according to the billion messages Damon had left her - he had feelings now. His eyes were filled with worry , sadness and regret. He looked almost broken. "I care about you thats why.“ "You care about me ? Do you even hear yourself ?!” she said incredulous. “I dont feel emotions , I don’t care or feel anything. Your words , not mine.” Kai got up from his chair , going to pour himself some coffee and Y/N used his distraction to pull on the ropes again with all her strength ignoring the pain from the vervain. A few seconds later she was free and quickly she ran towards the door , opening it and bouncing right off it the next moment. "What the hell?!“ she wondered , her hands hitting the invisible barrier over and over , pointlessly trying to get through it. Y/N sighed and turned towards him. Kai was grinning at her while taking a sip from his coffee as if he hadn’t done a thing. A boundary spell. Should’ve known. she thought to herself. "You are not going anywhere sweetheart. Not until we talk and you turn that humanity switch back on.” "I’d rather kill you than talk to you or see you or be in the same room as you.“ she said through gritted teeth , whooshing herself towards him until their bodies were barely an inch from each other. "Let me leave now , or I you die.” "You won’t kill me.“ he said calmly. "Owhh ? Are you counting on my feelings for you to kick in at some point? Because they won’t. They no longer exist and as far as I am concerned neither do you.” she said with a mocking look on her face , seconds before purple black veins flashed under her eyes and her teeth sank into his neck. Kai dropped his coffee on the ground , trying to push her off. Truth to be told he had been expecting that maybe seeing him would get her to flip the switch back on. He had heard multiple times that love is the strongest force there is and blah blah even though he didn’t understand any of it and he hadn’t expected her to actually try and kill him. "Motus.“ he muttered , sending her flying off him almost hitting the wall at the other end of the room. "Dang Y/N , maybe Damon was right. I didn’t want to believe him at first but you have lost everything that made you who you are by flipping that stupid humanity switch. You are not this person.” Y/N wiped his blood of her chin and launched at him again , dropping on the ground with a spectacular witchy headache a split second later. Now she knew why Damon was always in a horrid vengeance mood after those. It felt as if every blood vessel in her head popped all over , healed and popped all over again. “I am going to kill you.” she said through gritted teeth. “No. You won’t.” he said calmly , taking a step towards her. “I am going to get you to flip that switch back on and then I will find a way to reverse what Damon did to you.” “Don’t — waste your t-time.” she struggled to speak. “I don’t n-need fixing.” Y/N kept struggling to get to him and somehow break his concentration but he wouldn’t stop. He placed his hand on his wound healing it with magic wondering who was this person in front of him ? Surely he hadn’t been the nicest person ever , specially to her but — Kai couldn’t stand seeing her like this , though he had to admit her being a vampire how made her even hotter in his eyes than before. He closed his eyes hearing her scream and groan in pain rolling on the ground for a few moments before he stopped the spell and he knelt down next to her , brushing his fingers against her cheek. "You are not this person Y/N. “ said Kai taking a step towards her. "You are kind , caring - ” "Was.“ "You still are.” "No.“ "Please Y/N. I am really sorry about what I said and did that day.” he said gazing into her eyes. They were so cold and empty it broke him in half. “I didn’t see it back then but now I do and I know it is my fault you did this. I was a idiot , the biggest one rejecting you.” "Finally. One thing we can agree on.“ she said sitting up and starring at him blankly. There was no way he’d actually think any of this and even if he was , that wont make her flip it back on. Wont change what he made her do or erase all the pain he caused. Y/N leaned in towards him , brushing her palm against his cheek giving him a small smile. For a moment he smiled too , thinking probably somehow he had broken through the tough exterior or at least had made a crack. "You are pathetic.” she pit. “I am bored. Do you hate a deck of cards somewhere?” "Fine then. We do it the hard way.“ he said getting up, breaking her leg in the next moment. "You are going to turn it on now or I will keep breaking and breaking cuz – sweetheart , we both know I am the actual monster here.” Y/N screamed in pain rolling on the ground but before she had had time to heal Kai flicked his wrist and her leg broke on another spot and another. Something in her mind started pushing its way through hearing his words. A flicker of emotion , but she shoved it back where it came from before it had crawled its way out of the black door in her mind. “Turn it on.” “NO.” Kai flicked his wrist again breaking her other leg and her arm. He couldn’t stand what he was doing to her. Every flick of his wrist only added more to the guilt he already felt. What was he even doing ? After all of this there was no way she’d forgive him , ever. “Keep breaking Parker.” she started laughing. “It will be even more satisfying when I get to rip your head off after that.” “You are the best thing that has come into my life and I was so blind not seeing it back then. I can’t live with the guilt of everything I did to you.” his voice breaking. “I didn’t even know guilt can drown you without actually drowning you. It keeps me up at night -” Y/N wasn’t listening. Instead she was running scenarios in her head on how she’d get her revenge after that , not caring that would mean Liv’s death or Jo’s death. Not giving a damn about how Alaric would react to losing his future wife and his unborn twinsies. Not caring what Tyler would do to her if his girl dies. Kai knelt down on the ground next to her , studying her face. His eyes were so different in that moment - filled with tears, pain and regret. “Kill me.” he dared her, stopping the spell. “Come on. Kill me.” Y/N caught her breath laying on the ground. “You are bluffing.” “Rip my heart out.” he dared her again getting on top of her , placing her hand on his chest. “Put me out of my misery because I can’t live another second with the guilt about everything that I’ve done to you. Or to Jo or Liv. Or even Bonnie.” Kai’s heart was racing so fast it felt as if it was trying to leap out of his chest and then a tear rolled down his cheek which he completely ignored. Their eyes were locked on each other and none of them was willing to look away from the other. “No.” she shook her head, pulling her hand away from his chest. “No , you deserve to live with it eating you away for the rest of your pat-” Kai didn’t let her finish. There was one thing left for him to try , hoping that maybe it would get her to turn her humanity back on. He pinned her hands on either side of her head and his lips crashed against hers , hungry and demanding , pulling the air out of her lungs. At first she struggled trying to push him off her which only made him kiss her harder until she stopped struggling and returned the kiss. His grip on her hands loosened and she tangled her fingers in his hair , both of them moaning into the kiss until Kai pulled away , resting his forehead on hers. “I should’ve started with that.” he said out of breath , gazing into her eyes. “Please tell me it worked.” His heart was racing faster than ever , still feeling her lips on his. Y/N just stared at him and a few tears rolled down her temples. “Get off me. Now.” Kai’s face darkened but he did as she asked , rolling onto the ground next to her. He had hoped this would flip the switch , he hoped it had flipped it back considering how she had kissed him back. How it was possible that it hadn’t worked ?! “What did I do?” she muttered , covering her face with her hands. “Oh my God what did I do?” “Y/N?” he turned towards her. “What are you talking about ? Hey , talk to me.” Y/N shook her head refusing to say a word and then it hit him - her switch had flipped back on and every emotion had came rushing into her mind. Kai removed her hands from her face , pulling her into his embrace. He knew exactly how she felt in that moment because he had experienced the same thing a few days ago. “I’m sorry. I am so sorry Y/N. It’s all my fault. I was an idiot , I am an idiot who hurt you so many times and led you to do that to yourself , but I am going to fix it. I promise. I will find a way to fix everything.” said Kai , kissing her forehead. “I am so sorry and I know I don’t deserve your forgiveness but I need you to give me one more chance to make things right.” Y/N’s mind was racing like crazy - what was she thinking becoming a vampire. Turning off her humanity and shutting out everything that made her who she was ?! All those people she hurt , the ones who got killed because she couldn’t handle rejection. Tears were streaming down her face so fast it was pointless to try and stop them. “I know you hate me and you have every right to… I will spend every day until the rest of my life trying to make up for everything.” Kai waited for her to say something , to stop crying holding her tightly towards him. Slowly rocking back and forth trying to calm her down. “I bit you. Oh my God , I bit you..” her hands covered her face. “All the things I said. Everything I did.” “It’s okay. It wasn’t you , I know it wasn’t” “I am so sorry.” she cried turning towards him. Kai was crying too. “Does that mean you w-will you give me one more chance? I promise I will find out a way to make you a human again and — maybe we can have a future – together. ” he wondered , wiping away a few tears from her cheeks. "Y-you want me to be a human ?” she said through tears. “But you said -” "I was so blind and ignorant , not realising what I had until I lost it. Please Y/N , give me one more chance. Just one.“ he pleaded. Y/N smiled at him. "One more chance. D-don’t screw it up Malachai.” Kai grinned at her , usually he’d have other reaction to people calling him by his full name but not with her. He loved the way it had rolled off her tongue , like its the most special thing in the world to her. "Wouldn’t dream of it.“ replied Kai , kissing her again.