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  • Something In Common - short
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My mom overheard me singing Griffin’s lower harmony, then proceeded to get all philosophical by asking me what I think the lyrics mean. Me. The person who sings drum and bass parts more than words. I told her that this particular passage is very important to me because I wanted to learn the chord changes, but I ended up learning the words (I know the words to less than 20% of the songs I listen to, so it’s rare for me to learn words).

So I feel like a man behind a camera
who waits patiently for something he won’t see.

As a photographer and someone in the film industry, this line caught my attention. Like, while waiting for an animal to pick its head up and look at the camera lens. But it’s deeper than not being able to photograph something that doesn’t exist in your frame; if you wait for success to just come to you, then you’ll never be successful.

I need to stop giving suggestions
and just eliminate illuminate the questions.

Maybe I should trust in my own abilities as a sound engineer/photographer/editor/filmmaker. Stop saying to directors “Well, I can do __ if you want.” Instead, just do it and if they don’t like your editing choices, they will tell you! Believe in yourself.

That seems much more accurate to me;
to keep the frame as wide as it can be.

In a physical and metaphorical sense, look at the big picture of things. If you zoom out, a majestic eagle might fly into frame that you wouldn’t have seen before because your zoom was too narrow. In other words, an opportunity to do something bigger and better may arise so don’t give up.

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Song of the Day: Things Happen by Dawes.

In the end, it will all be okay. Things happen. But happiness awaits. 

"Para kay B"

A book review. (Chos feeling writer!!!)


So, kakatapos ko lang basahin yung book ni Ricky Lee. 5 tragic love stories with unusual endings. Sabi daw sa book, may quota ang pagibig, 1/5 lang ang nagiging maligaya. Totoo kaya yun? Siguro totoo, but you’ll never know nga diba.

Para sakin, unfair bibigyan natin nang quota ang pagibig. Sa libro niya kasi na yun, ang main character ay yung writer, si Lucas. Si Lucas ay isang frustrated artist na nameet ang isang frustrated artist, si Bessie, which is the most important story in the book. At ang babaeng nagudyok sa kanya na maging writer, but at the same time and babaeng nanakit sa kanya nang sobra. At dahil nga nasaktan si Lucas nang sobra nung babae, ang ginawa niyang book ay puro tragic ang ending, which is sabi nang main characters ay hinawaan lang sila nang kalungkutan ni Lucas.


May 5 stories ang book, love story nina Irene, (may photographic memory na babae na malaki ang boobs), Sandra ( na nainlove sa kanyang kuya), Ester ( na lesbian at baklang anak), Erica (taong galing sa imaginary place, isang lugar na walang Love) at si Bessie ( ang frustrated artist na inspiration ni Lucas na isulat ang book at ang rason sa title, Para kay B). I won’t go into details, sasabihin ko nalang kung ano yung pananaw ko sa book.

Ganun talaga siguro pag nasaktan ka, parang lahat nalang nang bagay sayo tragic, malungkot, tulad mo. Mahirap maging masaya or magbigay nang kasiyahan sa iba. Kasi nga nasaktan ka. Sinaktan ka nung tao na sobrang pinagkakatiwalaan mo, sobra kang umasa sa tao na yun, at akala mo okay na lahat, pagtataksilan at iiwan ka lang pala. Mga ganung bagay kasi ang parating naalala at nagsstick sa memory nang mga taong nasaktan kaya akala nila lahat nang bagay ganun din ang ending. Ito yung mga bagay na nagiwan nang malalim na sugat satin.

Yung mga taong nasaktan, they wallow in self pity and self hatred. Naawa sa sarili kasi ibinigay ang lahat tapos ganun lang ang nangyari, galit sa sarili dahil binigay na lahat, nasaktan pa rin. And i guess totoo yung quota, na 1/5 na umiibig, isa lang talaga ang totoong naging masaya. And thats just how life is.

And wala na akong masabi. Please ignore this shit hahahaha sadyang nasiyahan lang ako dun sa book kaya i wanna share my shitty opinion 😂 goodnight

Yung umuwi ako kahapon, walang kinakausap, umiyak hanggang sa makatulog. Naisip ko lagi na lang walang magandang nangyayari tuwing malapit na birthday ko. Natulog lang ako hanggang madaling araw. Ilang beses nagising para umihi. Ni hindi ko napansin yung table ko.

Kanina pag gising ko, ni hindi ko din to napapansin. Tapos bumangon ako past 11, nag cr para makita na mukang palaka na naman ang mata ko. Tae
Hahahaha at nung napatingin ako sa table ko, eto. Nakita ko to. Noon ko lang nakita kasi nabasa ko ang pangalan ko. Hahaha di ko pa talaga siya mabasa nong una, pero “ CHEER UP” pala yun. Hahaha sorry naman.

Napangiti na lang din ako. Tapos gusto pa daw nila akong gisingin kagabi para surprise daw. Pero in the end, hinayaan na lang nila ako matulog. Siguro a little nacheer up talaga ako. Kasi unexpected to. Sa ganitong bagay talaga ako natutuwa e. Yung may effort :)

Thank you sa mga roomates ko na kasabayan kong maging active pagdating sa pagkain. Hahahaha

Thank you!! Siguro pwede pa din na maging masaya ang birthday ko? Kasi kahapon naisip ko talaga, there’s nothing to celebrate. Pero sana. Maging masaya pa din. 😢

P.s hindi ko pa birthday. Matagal pa. Chos. Hahahaha