The First Jump
I guess its time for me to make my first post. Being asked out by john was the scariest moment of my life. I knew he had a two year old daughter. Saying yes to being Johns girlfriend meant saying yes to possibly being in this child’s life. As a 19 year old girl just finishing up her first year of college that is taking on a lot. I knew that as scared as I was it was worth the jump. John was the sweetest guy I had ever met. I considered myself so lucky he would want to be with me, as scared as I was. I wouldn’t have been able to live with myself if I said No. The first week or so was amazing. I hate to say love at first sight. But the feelings developed strongly. Neither of us had a good track record with relationship. To find someone who became my boyfriend and then become my best friend was amazing. I struggled with suicide my whole life. I had numerous attempts. To find someone who loved me for all my flaws and listen to me about them was amazing. We didn’t get to have long of a “honeymoon” stage. A week into the relationship my best friend in the world relapsed. He struggled but lost the battle. John had been dating me for a short amount of time and now had to deal with me as my whole world fell apart. He had to hold me in his arms as my best friends plug was being pulled. He had to comfort me when I would break down at work. Any sane person would have left right then and there. But he stayed and got me through the hardest thing I have ever had to face. Shortly after that all the stress got to me. I then became sick, he would get out of work at 11 and bring me my favorite soup from work every night. He nursed me back to health. I know its strange we developed such strong feelings so fast. But the circumstances we had to face were severe and if we could get through them we could get through anything.