Christian who died by suicide. I really don’t think He would. He loves you so much and the Bible speaks often about pain and how He can lift us out of even the darkest of places. So many verses correlated completely with how I was feeling when I was suicidal and I don’t think God would condemn a person to whom the Bible itself seems to speak. I think His unending, unfathomable love just tells us that he would love even the suicidal, and love us so tenderly, and so completely, knowing our pain.
So I don’t think you’d go to Hell. However, God’s love is SO great and so full and so unfailing that it *in and of itself* is reason for you to stay. I understand your pain, I went through it, too, but God lifted me out of it. I just thought of Him all the time, treated myself with the love I know He holds for me, prayed and went to church and read and talked to the pastor in the hospital, and you would not believe the healing and warmth I felt. I really wouldn’t say this if I didn’t believe it,
but PLEASE do not give up on your life right now. So much of the Bible is for the forsaken, those whose spirits are broken, and so on. God is writing for YOU, my dear, and He knows exactly how to provide healing for you. Please keep connecting with the faithful around you and the spirit within you. I PROMISE God will never leave you. You have so much joy you have not found yet. God is thinking, “I can’t wait to see his/her reaction to all the joy that I have planned.”
Thank you for taking the time to write this. It really is beautiful. What an amazing testimony you have. You have a kind heart for sharing. I pray it helps anyone suicidal who reads it. God bless