dark subject matter

The Problem with Fujoshis (aka Straight Women who are Obsessed with Gay Men)

1. They’re Obsessed with Gay Men Getting Abused: I’m fine with people wanting to explore dark subject matter in fan fiction but oh my god, straight women have got to stop with this disgusting obsession with seeing gay men in abusive situations. It’s disgusting and also just really disturbing

2. They’re Racist: When it comes to a lot these ships, it’s rare to see any black men. IT’s usually two white dudes. Now if the ship features a Japanese man, it gets worse because its stereotypes galore! 

3. Biphobia, Panphobia and Transphobia: These women are basically fine with gay men and that’s it. Apparently, bisexuals, pansexuals, and transmen aren’t sexy enough for them.

4. Also Lots of Sexism: I don’t see this happening as much as it used to but a lot of writers would just straight off kill a woman because she solely got in the way of a gay romance. Today, they just hate on female characters for no good reason and try to disguise it with extremely flawed ‘opinons.’

5. Obsession with Incest: Do I have to explain this one?

6. They Think Shipping is All About Them: Every time people bring up problems concerning shipping, these ‘fujoshis’ make it all about them. No, this is not about you and no is shaming you for your fantasies. We’re shaming you because you don’t realize what you’re doing is harmful and if you do realize it’s harmful, you don’t care. Gay men deserve to have good stories. That’s the bottom line. This wouldn’t be an issue if straight women stopped being so goddamn selfish. The feelings of gay men are much more important than your porn.

Why We Need Stories about Dark Things

One of the things I get tired of from time to time is the perspective that if something shows evil behavior then that means the story, song, game, whatever, is inherently bad. But there is a difference between illustrating evil behavior and promoting it.

Not all appearances of bad behavior invite bad behavior.

While one purpose of storytelling is to entertain, another purpose is to teach or educate–a purpose that in today’s world, most people seem to have forgotten.

A long time ago, there used to be all sorts of horrific stories told. Open Grimms’ fairy tales, and you’ll see that Cinderella really isn’t that Disney-friendly. But often some of those older stories were meant to teach a lesson or scare children into behaving (that latter point is one I personally don’t condone). Horrific things happen in the Bible (and the Book of Mormon). We can often learn from these accounts, but some of them are simply a record of what happened (if you believe in that), whether you like the content or not. It is what it is. Conspiring incest, rape, slaughter, and even cannibalism can be found in scripture stories. In today’s world, most people have been conditioned to believe that stories are only meant to entertain. Or entertain and uplift.

Those two things are valid. But what I get tired of, though, is the perspective that all stories should be full of puppies and rainbows (yeah, that’s an exaggeration, but you know what I mean), and that’s what we should be writing, and if a story is dark, it’s “bad” or lesser or … something.

The World Needs Stories about Dark Things

It’s important we write about what I call “the big and heavies”–rape, addiction, suicide, massacre, societal brainwashing, etc. And when I say “we,” I don’t mean specifically that you or I HAVE to; I mean “we” as in us, writers and creatives everywhere. The world needs creatives who delve into the big and heavies, and here’s why:

1. Stories provide a safe means to explore and discuss dark things

The big and heavies are vital to discuss for a healthy society. We shouldn’t be turning a blind eye to dark deeds. We should be turning the right eye to them. Literature offers a safe way to explore and discuss these issues. It offers some distance (because it’s usually a work of fiction) while simultaneously having the ability to offer closeness–empathy.

Also, fiction provides a type of lens to view these behaviors through. Speculative fiction might have a more exaggerated or symbolic lens, such as the fashion industry of Panem in The Hunger Games, or the discussion of pure bloods in Harry Potter. A lens lets us view the issues in a way that may emphasize certain points or give us a new perspective on them, and again, the distance can provide a bit of a “safe” buffer for readers. We aren’t talking about racism; we’re talking about magical blood–and we can have a whole discussion on it that correlates with issues seen in racism, and no one needs to feel uncomfortable because this is about wizarding blood. Even realistic fiction provides a perspective, though less exaggerated, to see these issues through.

2. Powerful, emotional ramification drives home a point or idea or lesson.

Unlike reading text books or the news, fiction writing often works off making the audience feel something. It appeals to emotional experience, even more than intellectual experience. It is one of the only mediums where we can put on the skin and thoughts of another person.

In parts of society, we try hard to divorce intellect and emotion, but powerful emotional experiences are often what cement ideas and lessons into our minds. Back in the day, fathers used to take their children out to their property line and beat them so that the child would never forget where the property line was. We’ve seen similar conditioning with training wild animals. Both are crude examples, of course, but the emotional experience drove home the lesson. While negative emotions are powerful, this same thing can happen with strong positive emotions. We remember powerful feelings of happiness and of love, and if there are any lessons or insights associated with those, we recall those too.

In fiction, emotional experiences can drive home powerful lessons. And they stick with the audience.

Strong emotional experiences in fiction amplify the conceptual ramifications of dark deeds, and cements into the reader the weight of such behavior, in a way that pure intellect cannot. Once we “experience” an issue, we care more about it. Fiction is a vehicle that allows us to develop and fine-tune our empathetic skills, so we can better understand and relate to those who’ve dealt with such issues.

3. Explore, cognitively, the causes, consequences, and facets of the big and heavies

In the real world, we live our own lives in our own perspectives, and that’s it. In literature, you can include several perspectives of those involved with an issue. You can often see the issue’s causes, consequences, and facets to a degree you may not in your own life. You can see far-reaching effects in a matter of hundreds of pages, rather than decades or hundreds of years. This opens up new ideas, new perspectives on the topic, which leads to more discussion.

4. To provide hope and uplift, in spite of darkness. To overcome.

I sometimes see this weird idea that an uplifting story needs to not cross some invisible line too far into the dark. In some ways, that couldn’t be further from the truth. As a Harry Potter fan, I’ve had friends come up to me and talk about how they’re disappointed that the stories got darker and darker. Maybe I’m weird (okay, there’s no “maybe” about it), but I like that. I like stories getting dark. I like when they get darker and darker. I like my evil, evil. I want the Voldemort who tries to possess Harry to get Dumbledore to kill him. I want the Voldemort who tortured animals as a small child and who murdered others to split his soul into seven pieces. The world is often an evil place. And how much more powerful is it to overcome the bowels of the most wicked, than it is to overcome a guy who shoplifted? I like my evil, evil. Not because I want to be part of the dark, but because I like seeing people overcome it.

A story that includes dark materials can be just as uplifting, if not more uplifting (because of the contrast) than a story that doesn’t. The idea that a story can’t be dark and inspiring is just unfounded.

Every Christmas season, I become a fan of The Trans-Siberian Orchestra all over again. If you’ve never heard of them, you may still recognize some of their most iconic Christmas songs, some of which have gone viral on synchronized Christmas light videos.

What many people might not realize is that each of their Christmas albums actual tells, and comes with, a written story. If you see the Trans-Siberian Orchestra live, they will read the story to you bits at a time, interspersed with music. But not all their stories are about happy sleigh rides, warm fires, Christmas hams, and decorated trees. There are parents who abandoned their disabled children, babies born addicted to crack, love that has been lost. But the stories and albums are uplifting, not because the creators avoided dark subject matter, but because they illustrated the power of overcoming–overcoming difficult times and personal mistakes. It’s hard to make it through one of their performances with a dry eye through the whole thing.

5. To render reality–others’ reality or your own

But some stories aren’t necessarily meant to be about overcoming the dark or inspiring an audience. Some stories are just about reality. Human nature. The natural man. Experiences that people actually go through. Some stories are simply meant to render, often for reasons 1-3. It’s a statement. It’s meant to create social awareness, empathy. Maybe it’s meant to start a discussion. Those stories need to exist too.

Closing Thoughts

Keep in mind that many audiences only see stories strictly as mediums for entertainment and, on a subconscious level, a reinforcement of a positive, maybe even sugary, feelings and ideas. Those audiences may (on a subconscious level) refuse anything that is otherwise, and consider any mention of the dark and heavies as something that shouldn’t be there. That is their right.

And in some cases, they are correct. Some stories do not need and should not have dark content. It doesn’t serve the purpose of the story, it messes up the tone of the story, and it can ruin what was already working. You wouldn’t, for example, put in a serious plot line in The Office about Pam being legitimately raped. It doesn’t fit.

And with all that said, you shouldn’t feel forced to write content you feel very uncomfortable writing. Your work should reflect the writerly you.

Next week, I’ll talk about how to write about dark things without promoting them.

Anyway, Stranger Things 2 did the impossible in the realm of pop culture:

(No specific spoilers, though I 100% understand wanting to go in completely blind)

  • In my opinion, it exceeded its original iteration.  
  • It constructed intelligent character development while also managing to be set on a [much] greater cinematic scale and not detract from intimate relationships/sequences.
  • Resolved most of the general questions the audience had in season one (and created a nice after-show that allows for further insight into this season’s creative and formal decisions).
  • Used CGI about as responsibly as any sci-fi/fantasy media can these days—especially a television series—and established some truly stunning visuals with and without it.
  • Wrote characters being realistically impacted by traumatic events over time, and called it out for what it was (trauma).
  • Yet another show choosing to explore the gruesome nature and consequences of domestic abuse.
  • Introduced new characters and new dynamics between old characters that worked extremely well.
  • Like the original, did not attempt to thwart serious themes and dark subject matter—in fact, it took it a few levels further.
  • Balanced said serious themes with what I perceive as some of the funniest dialogue on television at the moment.
  • Nearly all of its original cast—especially the younger members—showed significant growth in their performances, and were allowed to do so through the writing!!!
  • Also have to give props to Noah Schnapp; he was the focus of season one, but not the protagonist; he only now got to perform. That put a lot on his shoulders and he absolutely carried this season. 
  • The production and plot got ambitious, but not stupid ambitious. And even at the moments when they might have, it still made sense in the greater development of the characters (which grants my forgiveness).
  • Basically, sequels are infallibly expected to be worse, so it’s shocking and satisfying when one does a good job. Stranger Things 2 did a great job.

Splitting of The Breast is remarkable for its striking, supersaturated visuals. It’s no accident that the episode is marked by such high contrast, light and dark, when the subject matter involves Shinji embarking on a psychoanalytical voyage within the surrealist confines of a shadow. The “angel of the week”, Leliel, is a massive floating behemoth in black and white – diametric opposites – and likewise the entire episode is built upon complementary inter-textual contrasts: the rational vs emotional, parent vs child, boy vs girl, physicality vs the soul. After 15 episodes of relative tame and exposition, Episode 16′s harsh colors, formalist diagonal structure, and oppressive shadows allow the more arcane Freudian undertones to finally take their command.

Me: Using Baroque aesthetics for Derse is so perfect, especially St. Peter’s Basillica because the whole project was just ripe with overblown luxury and misplaced use of government funds for the sake of aesthetics,  not unlike the situation between Jack and the Black Queen in the beta kids session which eventually lead to Bec Noir. Not to mention the focus of Baroque art on dark scenes and violent subject matter is so quintessentially Derse that I cant think of a better time period for the Kingdom to be based in  

Also me: damn thats a fucking huge office. thats gotta be drafty and echoey as shit

honestly, i feel like DC’s hanna-barbera comics are (for the most part) the best thing to come out of DC in years

like, the juxtaposition of the flintstones or snagglepuss with dark subject matter and an uncomfortably realistic artstyle is pretty funny in itself, but then you see that it’s actually well-written, too - somebody put genuine effort into the most ridiculous concept and it actually worked

not to mention, when they approached the writer of the flintstones book with the project, he openly admitted that he never liked the flintstones and DC was just like “that’s not a problem”

and reimagining wacky races as a mad max-style wasteland where the cars can talk because fuck you is absolutely incredible

Everyone needs to go watch Hotel Beau Sejour on Netflix right this second. You have to be comfortable with subtitles and dark subject matter but it actually is a really good show. A lot of people claimed it was boring when it first came out because it is slow moving in a sense, but it’s still worth watching. The acting is very believable and it has both chilling and upsetting moments that make the show worth it. 

Basically the plot is a girl wakes up at the local hotel and finds her body in a bathtub where she runs around town trying to communicate with people. Though it’s clear she is dead, a few select people can actually see her. The one thing everyone seems to have in common is that no one knows why she was killed. 

Across the Stars, Chapter 4

Prologue   Chapter 1   Chapter 2   Chapter 3   Chapter 4    Chapter 5  Chapter 6  Chapter 7  Chapter 8

AN: Trigger Warning! This WILL show a…rather graphic description of Rhys having sex with Amarantha. And though she doesn’t necessarily tie him up or hold a gun to his head, he is having sex essentially against his will, which is rape. So please be advised and stay safe my darling readers <3

On that note, in case anyone was wondering why I’m writing a fanfiction that deals with such dark subject matter…One of the things that plagued me about Rhys after I read ACOMAF was just how abusive his relationship with Amarantha was. And how toxic Feyre’s relationship with Tamlin ended up being (I don’t necessarily think it started out that way). We read these books and we think ‘Well, of course. If I saw that, I’d KNOW I was being abused!’ But that got me thinking…would we? Especially with Tamlin…It’s far more subtle and he certainly isn’t doing it on purpose. He truly does everything out of love. But thinking more and more about it made me feel even more strongly about both of these characters (if that’s even POSSIBLE omg Feysand 5eva) and…well, I really wanted to explore those parts.

That being said. If any of you HAS been abused, and I am portraying it incorrectly or devaluing what you and so many others have gone through…please, please do not hesitate to tell me. You can send an anon with a parenthetical that says ‘Please don’t post!’ and I will not say anything at all. And know that you are all loved <3

In the end, Feyre couldn’t bring herself to tell Tamlin about Rhysand. Not when he’d been in such an unusually good mood when she returned home from the café. She stared at the ceiling of their bedroom, watching the light of the late morning dance through the windows. She stretched, her muscles pleasantly sore from the previous night. A twinge of electricity shot through to her toes as she remembered why her muscles were sore, as she remembered why there were a couple of little bruises on her hips and her stomach, and trailing up her sternum…

She grinned and pushed herself up on her elbows, the thick blankets falling from her shoulders as she did so. Tamlin hated sleeping in, so it wasn’t a surprise to her when she woke up and the bed was empty…but for him to let her sleep in until ten o’clock without waking her up with his lips on her breast and his fingers gently nudging her legs open…

She got up from the bed and picked his oversized thermal shirt up off the floor where she’d thrown it the previous night, pulling it on over her head and savoring the way the forest green cotton felt on her skin, smiling as the hem fell to the tops of her thighs. She hugged herself and crept toward the door, and that’s when she heard voices.

“Your time is almost up, Tamlin,” a voice she recognized almost immediately growled.

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My Observation on Katsudeku

Okay, there seems to be a misconception about the entire concept of pairing characters that fight/argue/abuse/hurt/or hate each other.

These types of pairings draw a certain crowd I think, but that depends on how it is portrayed. I’ve been drawn to complicated pairings with dark subject matter since I got into the stuff.

Here is why I think Katsuki and Izuku as a pairing is both potentially negative and positive. Take this as you may - because I am weird when it comes to “shipping.”

Katsuki told Izuku to kill himself. He has physically beat him up, vocalized his dislike for and berated him, and looked at him like dirt. As for exactly “why” he did these things…I think it’s a complicated question with no definite resolution. Many people have broken this down and analyzed it. I chalk it up to Katsuki simply becoming a nasty person. He had a gift in the power of his quirk and it went to his head.

Izuku was this pathetic weakling that he felt was of no value to him. He felt like he was being mocked when Izuku followed him and praised him. God forbid, praise coming from the biggest loser, right?

Katsuki has many layers as a character. He’s an interesting character because he seems to be the embodiment of what unfortunately many people are like (albeit exaggerated): selfish, prideful, and stubborn. He is the character that (in my opinion) makes you question what truly is right and wrong. What it really means to be a hero.

In short he is misguided. He has part of the equation figured out, but not like Izuku. He hates the idea that Izuku is stronger than him where it matters - in being SELFLESS. Katsuki just wants to beat up villains and win all the battles. In retrospect, that’s not heroic in and of itself.

Izuku, the weakling with nothing, showed ultimate selflessness when he tried to help save Katsuki from the villain in the beginning of the manga. That was the pivotal moment that changed their relationship. Because that was what got Katsuki thinking.

He began to doubt himself.

So after the fight he and Izuku had, most of these sentiments became obvious. All Might drove the point home as well. Izuku will get himself killed if he doesn’t control his instinct to dive in and try to save everyone, thus resulting in people dying, and Katsuki will unintentionally be the result of people dying by focusing solely on defeating the bad guy. Innocents might have to die in that process.

Therefore, they are going to start supporting each other (as already implied) and drive out improvements where the other is lacking. This is where they start to make amends.

It’s sad because Izuku is such a kind and compassionate character. He puts others above himself. He is what most people strive to be: understanding, selfless, empathetic.

He was a victim of pure, classical unabashed bullying. And there is no excuse for what Katsuki did other than he was simply being a horrible person. Yes he received excessive praise, but arrogance and abuse don’t always go hand in hand.

He had no genuine reason to bully Izuku.

I say this because bullies, despite all being detestable, are not all cut from the same crop. Some people end up torturing others because that’s all they know (ie. abusive parents, poor living conditions, trauma, etc.) Others, because they are ill and think it’s funny, or it gets them attention, and so on and so forth. Please note I am not condoning bullying in any way. No amount of suffering gives you the right to take it out on others.

So as for Izuku - this is where it gets a little murky for me. We know he looked up to Katsuki more than anyone else, they were childhood friends, and he wanted to be like him.

But there seems to be little content solidifying his connection to Katsuki. I mean this in the sense that in the flashbacks we have been given so far, they haven’t been shown doing many mutually “friend like” things together.

So I see it as a form of a somewhat unhealthy obsession. Izuku is kinda obsessed with Katsuki, as he is in general with heroes (especially All Might.) This is similar to the Naruto/Sasuke dynamic. And as we all know, the author of MHA was influenced by Naruto.

So now we have a victim obsessed with his friend-turned-bully-turned-rival.

It could very well be viewed as unhealthy in this regard. But it is a two sided coin.

If you look at it through the pairing glasses, it comes off as them being infatuated with each other and not knowing how to handle it at this point. That opens a world of opportunity for character exploration in fan works.

But realistically, it’s now a matter of time before Katsuki finally accepts what he did wrong and apologizes to Izuku. I don’t know if it will be a traditional apology per say, but it’s highly likely to happen. It’s been confirmed Katsuki is not walking the villain path any time soon, so he can only improve from this point on.

My guess would be it’ll end up being a reciprocal of what Izuku did for him in the beginning, but this is just speculation this early on. We have a lot more material on store for us in this story.

Based on their history together, Izuku and Katsuki harbor a deep emotional connection. It is a little weird, because like I stated, we haven’t seen much of a given reason as to why. Factoring in the obsession theory makes it a little clearer.

It can be a great pairing in the sense of emotional healing and bonding. Deep relationships do not always come from a picture perfect background. People aren’t perfect. We make mistakes and screw stuff up all the time. We hurt people in many ways - both intentionally and unintentionally.

The fascinating part of this relationship is how these characters are demonstrating evolvement. They started as the thorn in each other’s sides and are growing to become each other’s biggest inspiration and support. This is how the pairing should be viewed.

You can mess around with it in so many ways because of how unique it is. Frankly I haven’t seen anything like it in a while, and that’s why it snatched my attention. From both a platonic and romantic point of view.

That and the classic sadomasochistic characteristics. Can’t go wrong with that. Usually lol.

So in conclusion, please don’t degrade us into a basic “abuse supporting” cage. These characters are written with far too many nuances of intricacy to just chalk it up to basic feelings and surface actions.

As noted, yes, there are those who choose to write this relationship a certain way because yes - there is source material to work with. Do I condone this? I have no right to judge other people based on what they write.

Fiction and reality are not the same thing. Fiction can enhance or diminish real life motions. For better or worse.

So enjoy the ship if you like it. Don’t feel intimidated because people are trying to guilt you out of liking it. There is nothing wrong with it. In fact, I think it’s great because it demonstrates that true connections run deep. The ability to forgive and apologize and understand - katsudeku can show this with or without the romance.

I rest my case. Peace out.

Welcome to the NHK (ExtraMana Archives)

‘Welcome to the NHK’ is an anime focused around hikikimori disease. To those who don’t know a Hikikomori is someone who never leaves there house or apartment, in the West we would see this as something like agoraphobia, or social dysfunction. With such a weighty subject you’d think this anime would be truly deep, perhaps even to the point of analysing the complex nature of Japanese society as an insight to the rest of the World so that we could finally comprehend why someone might spend their entire lives indoors. Sadly the anime falls short on this. The main protagonist Tatsuhiro Satou is a 20 something college drop-out hikikimori. His soon to be friend Karou Yamazki is a video game programmer, otaku and dakimakura owner. That’s as much as the plot I can delve into without giving anything away. The general feel of this anime is that of unrest, the comedy is very dark and the protagonists all lead deeply troubled lives even if they are all middle class young adults with potentially burgeoning careers or relationships. 

The writing for Satou is what ultimately unhinges this anime, in one moment he is a hopeless case barely able to feed himself, in another he is out strolling on a beach or shopping, the state of his condition is entirely relative to what interesting scenarios the writers conjure up. Additionally the main female protagonists; Misaki Nakahara and Hitomi Kashiwa although given weighty issues such as depression, drug addiction, and schizophrenia, they somehow remain 2 dimensional with back stories that either don’t make us care for their plight or sympathise with them, which we are supposed too. The music in this anime however is fantastic. From the opening song which is full of false optimism that contrasts perfectly with the dark subject matter, to the heart wrenching quieter more reflective songs that play during the Satou’s lowest moments. It’s a shame that the writing doesn’t have the depth or nuances of its highly compelling soundtrack. 

Usually when watching an anime I would choose the original Japanese undubbed version over the dubbed. Not because I’m some kind of hardcore anime fan but because dubbed anime tends to have at least one character that has a headache inducing sugary sweet take on a character. However when it comes to ‘Welcome to the NHK’ the dubbed version features solid performances except for Satou he comes off as a little too suave.  Welcome to the NHK (Opening)   Welcome to the NHK OST - Hitori no Tame no Lullaby The art style is another huge plus for this anime, there is a lot of very careful detailing from discarded tissues and computer screen monitors to the moody lighting inside Satou’s apartment. Most of the time the art direction is excellent, however more so toward the end of the anime we get frames that are clearly under detailed when compared to certain others. Overall it still looks great but a little bit more consistency would have gone a long way.

The narrative arc of this anime is rather uneven it almost feels as if we are being given two stories, one is an exploration of why the protagonists are as screwed up as they are and the consequences of their lifestyle. The second being a more traditional adventure narrative, with new escapades and amusing schemes for the characters to become embroiled in. For this reason there can be a somewhat jarring transition every 6 episodes or so. This also leads to the conclusion not only being wholly unsatisfying but it also ends up feeling flimsy and tacked on in order to have some sense of completion that really doesn’t seem natural at all. Sometimes hilarious, often frustrating this anime is worth a watch because in it’s better moments there are some truly compelling character interactions even if it all falls apart by the end.

Circa 2014.

imagine | | dating riddler ed nygma

a/n: so here’s part 2 of dating ed nygma where he is now the riddler now although i have idea with him and villian reader where they’re like zatanna but that might be more of an imagine. i’ll get to rewriting stitching into the heart eventually, i just am not in a flash mood due to the fandom while i was going through. it’s sad that it’s so toxic when it comes to who you ship and many other things, it breaks my heart since the flash is one of my favorite superheroes besides green lantern (hal jordan verison) but i don’t know. anyway here you guys go, i didn’t think people would like the first part let alone make a part 2. warning of dark ed, kidnapping, stockholm syndrome / mind control, and mostly dark subject matter. should i change the layout of how imagines are or not? ships are discounited and as always requests are open unless stated otherwise by me!

nonnie requested: please write part two when he’s the riddler i’m ready to be blessed lol

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                       RELATIONSHIP(S): Edward ‘Ed’ Nygma/Reader

Of course before dating you, he tried to swoon over Miss Kringle who ended up dying in his hands but Ed tried to hide it from you which did work. .for awhile

You never expected of course that Ed had a dark version of himself looming over since he was a sweetheart that would pick you up for your dates or give you flowers to brighten up your day

Him doing the early Riddler work behind your back such as when he did the bomb at the museum to the one at the train station and killing an officer to get revenge on Jim

When Ed got caught for Miss Kringle’s death, you were shocked and torn since you really fell for the sweet Ed but he also killed someone which made you break up with him when you went to Arkham

You went and moved on to someone else after a few months with help from Lee since she was your friend who wanted you happy

Although Ed never moved on from you, you were supposed to be his and only his since you were really the only who ever understood him and his riddles

So when Oswald broke / helped him break out, he was going to go after you while helping Oswald with his mayor campaign 

Ed saw you at the celebration with your hand around someone else’s arm, he was instantly jealous that you had moved on and wanted to figure out everything about the person you were with

Because nobody touches what’s his and gets away with it especially with dark Ed taunting him to go kill the person in his head

You both were kidnapped but Oswald’s men dealt with your new love interest so you were in the same room as Ed who acted nothing much like the old one you knew besides telling riddles

Dark Ed told him to kill you but he shook his head since he knew you could be valuable as he kept for days, telling you that you had to lie whenever Lee or Jim called to say you were okay

It was a scary experience since you had close calls of being choked by Ed yelling at you that he’s not a monster and that you were the only one who really understood him

He couldn’t lose you like Miss Kringle so he went into a panic when you collapsed into his arms as he hurried to check your pulse, luckily you were still alive

Basically that was when you were ‘reborn’ into your new self when you woke back up to see Ed grinning so wide since he was glad you were alive and didn’t die like his previous attempt with Miss Kringle

Ed being extremely overprotective over you, like nobody touches without permission unless they want to get hurt and helps create your new identity

You being furious when Ed gets into ice but unluckily you were also part of being frozen too since Oswald saw you as a threat to possible getting him out of the ice

Chapter 3: Morla the Aged One

I’d like to take this moment to throw out my thoughts on children’s literature, here we go, I hope you’re ready: The best kind of children’s literature is the kind that doesn’t underestimate children. A lot of adults run around like, “This book has dark, complex subject matter and that just isn’t for children,” and you should never entrust a child to these people.

To all the people upset because of the Yakuza idea in Yansim:

Who knew that in a game about MURDERING PEOPLE that there would be DARK SUBJECT MATTER?

Newsflash: Ayano is an awful person. So are the Yakuza. They do awful things. If you don’t like that, take the pacifist route.

You don’t have to get involved with the Yakuza if you don’t want to. You also don’t have to take a peaceful route if you don’t want to. That’s the beauty of this game: Ayano is shaped by your decisions. You have the freedom of choice, use it how you wish to use it.

adam-lanza.info vlog 001

awkward, goofy, rambly stream-of-consciousness thing that i tried to piece together to form something vaguely coherent. it’s nearly 15 minutes long so if anyone actually watches it, i will be astounded.

things briefly discussed:

  • why i am interested in the Sandy Hook school shooting
  • why i empathize with (not approve of) Adam Lanza
  • why i too, am not thrilled about the extra jimmies on my ice-cream cone
  • the romanticization/sexualization of mass murderers and serial killers in the tumbler ‘true crime community’
  • mini-rant re: why i find Dylann Roof particularly repulsive even though what AL did was equally as cowardly
  • why i don’t judge ‘Roofies’ and Columbine fangirls
  • “maybe we are all Adam Lanza??” omfg 😱
  • “i wanna, like, clarify here that i never would should up a school”
  • special appearance by my dog

i was a little concerned that this was too upbeat in tone, given the dark subject matter, and that if i was really gonna do a video thing, i should probably script it out first, practice a bit before i film it, keep things serious… but then i thought about how much extra work and less fun that would be, so i just did this.

does anyone know of any other true crime bloggers that do vlogs?? i’d like to follow them :) 👽


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F9cAmdWI10c&list=PL7T-HA-IgKUmhSk05v9F4-vwJrFRt9_yt THIS IS SOME GOOD SHIT



First of all this is some classic Sound Horizon right here. I’m talking about DARK ASS SUBJECT MATTER, I’m talking about KICK-ASS MUSIC AND TONAL DISSONANCE, I’m talking about VAGUE AS FUCK FRAME NARRATIVES, I’m talking about MEMORABLE AND POIGNANT VIGNETTES, I am talking about PEOPLE FUCKING DYING, and I am, of course, talking about some MOTHERFUCKING MICHELE MALEBRANCHE

But in all seriousness, people write off Lost as just being confusing and not having much of a story, but let me tell you I think Lost is one of my GOD DAMN FAVORITE STORIES IN THE SOUND HORIZON UNIVERSE. It’s up there with Chronicle 2nd and Marchen. 

The story is, essentially, a series of stories about people experiencing loss being analyzed by a number of objective observers, as well as 2 biased entities, Lostko and the The Eternal Boy (as depicted on the cover). Symbolism of the water of memories aside, the idea is that Lostko, when people are at their lowest point, begs for them keep on searching to find new things to replace what they lost, while The Eternal Boy tries to convince them to give up and fade away.

What’s awesome about the vignettes these characters watch is how they manage to not double dip at all: every song seems to cover widely different themes within the topic of Loss. Let’s go over them, shall we?

WHITE ILLUSION (Shiro no Genai) (Track 2)

“I see green cow”

We don’t talk about White Illusion.

THE DAY I SHOT MY LOVER TO DEATH (Koibito wo Uchiotoshita Hi) (Track 3)

“The cold flames springing from my silver bow freezes the entire night sky above. Bravely and with and azure poem of our farewell, I shoot you to death my love…”

AIGHT SO THIS SONG IS FANTASTIC. It’s this upbeat pop song with the greatest synthetic trumpet part you’ll hear in your goddamn LIFE. However, the subject of the song is REALLY FUCKING SAD. So you got this boy who protects this girl from a beast, but he gets hurt in the process and cursed so that one day, he will become a beast too. Before he does, he begs his lover, the girl he saved on that day, to shoot him down with a bow and arrow. He wants to die by her hands if he is doomed to die. 

The girl, torn apart by grief, asks “In a world without my lover, what color flowers will bloom?” And with that, she shoots her self down with her own bow and arrow.

Their very meeting doomed them to one day lose each other. But, doesn’t every meeting inevitably result in loss? When that day comes, what is one to do?

Oh, don’t worry, shit gets even crazier. But for now, a little break.

SARABANTE THE MAGICIAN (Mahoutsukai Sarabanto) (Track 4)

“And then, the man made his wish…”

This is like, the only happy story in the god damn album. You’ve got this magician who lost his lover to death. Doesn’t say much more about him

A suspicious man wants to get his hands on a magical lamp that can grant him wishes, but he knows anyone who tries to get the lamp is doomed to die. He meets a young traveler, and he makes a deal. He pretends to have a bad leg that prevents him from entering the cave with the lamp. He agrees to tell the man the whereabouts of the lamp if he saves one wish for the old man. 

The two head out to the cave. However, the cave collapses on the traveler. He, in the middle of the darkness, hears a voice, saying that he can’t come here yet, he still has things to do. Instead of looking to the past, he should focus on what’s in front of him.

He wakes up in the desert in front of a beautiful girl. She was trapped in the lamp for committing a great sin, and for releasing her she promises to grant him any 3 wishes. However, once the third wish is granted, she will disappear back into the lamp.

“The man makes his wish”.

The story closes with the traveler leaving town, with one extra camel in tow, the girl from the lamp riding the second one.

You know, now that I’m writing this, I realize it never really specified whether it was the old man or the young traveler who was the magician who had lost his lover.

THE GAME INSIDE THE CAGE (Ori no Naka no Yuugi) (Track 5)

“Remember, remember, until you forget. You’re not allowed to leave until you’ve lost it”

SO LEMME TELL YOU BOUT A GIRL NAMED MICHELE MALEBRANCHE. This girl. this GURL. Best character ever. She appears in so many of Sound Horizon’s musicals, and in this story we learn about one of her many exploits.

A woman sings about a man cornering Michele and then choking her to death. He hides her body, but something that sounds like a gunshot is heard, and the whole thing loops. She’s alive again. He loves her more than anything, and he can’t bear the idea of her living away from him, so he desperately tries kill her over and over again… for the rest of his life. It’s also in this that Michele drops a recurring phrase… “You’re not allowed to leave until you’ve lost it”… a phrase that is later repeated by The Eternal Boy. Repeatedly.

In the end, it wasn’t Michele in the cage. It was the man.

THE LOST POEM (Ushinawareshi Uta) (Track 7)

“Good or bad, feelings are flowers to be nurtured”

Okay, so this song is written in a fucking CONLANG. A FUCKING MADE UP LANGUAGE. Here’s the first verse.

Ay faw styul-li, ay fawnt layx.
Fo lof ti hayn, za tu fayn di el-mows.
Kuz el fi nos, styul-li er-ayz.
No wez wi, en fi lo stul-li.

It’s not even a series of random syllables. There is grammar and I think some latin roots to it. What the fuck.

The song is an excerpt from a lost poem, from a land and time that historians are unable to discern. It talks about how a single lie spread into a great conflict that destroyed her whole country overnight. It talks about hearts that trust one another, the opposite of the hearts that bred the conflict. It describes them as things we can’t afford to forget.

THE CRIMSON FLOWER (Hiiro no Hana) (Track 8)

“Here I am to trample on… myself”

A great war is being waged in a forest, and the nature is destroyed by the battle. In an act of revenge, a girl who serves the forest ties up and kills a number of soldiers.

In his final moments, he reflects on his actions and the irony of it all. How he lives his life, protecting the things he cares about by taking away things that other people care about. And here’s this girl, who is about to do the same to him. He describes himself as a flower, stained with blood.

CRADLE (Yurikago) (Track 9)

“If the boy and girl would even call that lost, then the blue sky of that day would expand without end, till it covered all”

A woman is walking through her town on the cape, chatting with her friends and carrying her child in her arms. She thinks everything is wonderful. But no one wants to break the news to her, either out of pity or of fear of her mental condition, the sad truth.

The baby she carried in her arms had died a long time ago, and now was nothing but a skeleton.


The musical ends with a monologue from The Eternal Boy. He is in all of us, and trying to hide the darkness inside of us only makes it grow deeper. People are doomed to wander between loss and oblivion. It is best if we just disappear. This is the message he gives to us listeners

But throughout the play, in every song, Lostko repeats these words: “Are you forgetting something?” There is a topic of forgetting and of memories, and here’s what I personally think it means: When we lose something, it consumes our life. We forget there is anything for us but the despair of loss. This is why we give up in the face of it. These songs are about people facing the worst of loss. However, we forget that there is something else. We can keep on flowing, and even if we meet loss again, there is always something after it. As the lost poem says, the fact that there are hearts out there filled with trust, that there is good in the world, is something we can’t afford to forget. 

Lostko, in every song, when she asks them if they forgot anything, she asks them if they’ve forgotten all the good in the world that goes with the bad. That’s why she asks them keep going. Even if they’ll face loss again and again and again, they always have to keep on flowing.

It’s such a beautiful fucking message I love it.