I let out more tears when he gets closer. He wraps his arms around me and I cry into his chest. He pulls me off of him after a few moments.
“I need you. That’s terrifying to me. I haven’t. I don’t know. You make the crazy seem less crazy. The voices quiet down when we kiss. You’re my weakness. I’ll die without you, but you just might kill me yourself.” He kisses me.
I wrap my hands behind his head pulling him close.
“I’m not afraid of dying. I’m not afraid of living. I’m afraid of doing either of those things without you..Things will never be perfect. We won’t be a happy family. I know we will fight many more times. I can’t fight without you though.” He kisses me again and then pulls away, we make eye contact, “Let’s go home princess.”
I wipe my eyes and nod.
He helps me up and has his hand at the small of my back. We walk out my door and get into the car. It was just him and I. He opened the door for me and I got in the passenger seat, he went around and got in the drivers seat. The car ride is quiet. I know we both feel really raw and exposed right now, I don’t want him to snap so I just let everything settle. We pull up to his place and he comes around and opens the door for me again, “My lady.”
He gives me a grin and i give him a slight smile back “Well thank you Prince Charming.”
“Enjoy it while it last sweetie.” He closes the door behind me.
I’m spent emotionally and physically.
“I’ll be right up darling.” He heads into the kitchen and I head upstairs.
I put on some purple silk shorts and a tank top. ‘He can’t just get casual things can he’ I let out a sigh of exhaustion and get into bed. I curl up on my side facing his side of the bed, waiting. He doesn’t take long and he comes in the door with 2 glasses of whiskey. ‘I guess things got a little too raw for him to handle.’
I laugh at him and cover my head.
“One drink darling, you’ll sleep like a baby.” I sit up and yawn. He hands me the drink and sits on the edge of the bed next to me.
He goes to take a sip, “Wait! Aren’t we supposed to toast or something?” I pull his hand down.
“Sure baby! What should we toast to?”
“I don’t know but whatever it is let’s cross out arms when we do it, like fancy people!”
He laughs at me, “This isn’t champagne doll, it’s whiskey. You know that right?”
I sigh, “Yes I know! But let’s just do it! It will be fun!” I don’t think he even knows what fun is. “So pick something to toast too!” I give him a full smile,
“Ok, to the king and queen of Gotham!” We cross arms and he drinks his in one gulp and I take a small sip of mine, he sighs and drinks mine too.
“See that was fun!” I give him a smile and tuck myself back under the covers. He throws his clothes on the floor and gets in bed next to me. He brushes my hair behind my ear and his touch gives me chills.
“I have to work in the morning darling. I have to pick up money that is owed. I know you want to go with but, I can’t. I can’t let you.”
“J, i understand but I need information at least. If something were to happen I wouldn’t even know where to start. I just want to be able to find you if something goes wrong.” I have only my head sticking out of the blankets.
“Doll, I will get you some information tomorrow. Ok? I’ll be gone early in the morning but I’ll be home by 11.”
I sigh, “Ok, thank you. Good night J.” I snuggle under the covers more, i fall asleep almost instantly.
He lets out a faint laugh “Goodnight darling.”
It is barely light outside when I feel his cool hand on my face.
“Ill be home soon.” He gently kisses my forehead.
“Come back to me J.” I whisper out while his face is still close. My eyes are still closed and i’m still tucked in bed.
“Every time doll.” He kisses me one more time. I fall back asleep.
I wake up and its 10:30, ‘Oh shit! He will be home soon and I’m not even up!’ I rush out of bed and throw my clothes on the floor with his. I get in the shower and clean myself up. I go to the closet and pull out a tight fitting red dress, ‘Just a little something for him to get excited about.’ i put on some black heels and head downstairs. I get to the kitchen and help myself to some coffee. He should be home any minute. I walk around the house a little trying to make it look like i’m not pacing, but i am. Its almost 1, where is he. I go to one of the guards
“Did Mr. J say anything before he left? To give me anything?”
“Uh, no Miss, he didn’t. Well at least not to me.” He doesn’t break his focus.
“Ok, well thanks….” I linger asking for his name.
“Jackson, Miss.” He gives a smirk.
“Nice to meet you Jackson. Please call me Kat. ” I smile back and walk away.
I text Jay.
From me - Is everything ok? He said he would be home by 11, its almost 2.
From Jay - Yes.
Well thank God you are so well with words Jay. His text does put me at ease a little bit. I try and relax.
I go and sit on the couch and lean my head back and close my eyes. ‘Ugh, I miss him.’ I get another brilliant idea, this one i know he will love.
I head to the garden and pick out a few roses, i run and get a glass of whiskey and head upstairs.
I pull the petals off the roses and place them on the edge of the bed and spell out ‘Daddy’. I laugh a little, seeing it seems ridiculous but he will love it or laugh at it. I’ll be happy either way. I clean the room up and throw the clothes in the laundry basket. I shake my hair out and let it down, i go into the closet and change my clothes. Lingerie.
I put on the small black lace bra and the even smaller black lace thong. I put on red heels and put on one of the long necklaces he had gotten me. I freshen up my makeup and add some perfume.
I sit on the bed sipping whiskey, waiting for my prince, my king to come home.
I hear the downstairs door open and i know its them, they are loud. My heart starts beating faster, i know he will be headed up these stairs soon. He finally opens the door, he smiles and it turns into a grin.
“Daddy sure is happy to be home darling.” he lets out a laugh when he sees the rose petals like i figured. He walks over to the edge of the bed and takes the whiskey from me and drinks it in one gulp, I scoot over towards him place my legs on either side of him. “I missed you daddy.” I look up at him and bite my lip as i start unzipping his pants. He lets out a low growl so i know its ok to continue. I pull them down with his boxers just enough and he is already hard. I bite my lip again as i start to stoke his dick, he lets out another growl as he looks at me and kisses me. He lays me on my back and gets on top of me, he kisses me again and i feel the fire run through my body. He reaches one hand down and starts rubbing my clit over the lace underwear, he lets out a low purr once he feels how wet I am. He has his finger perfectly placed on my clit and i’m close to an orgasm already, “Im going to cum baby!” I cant help but almost yell it. He doesn’t stop. I arch my back and dig my nails in his arm as i moan loud and cum. “That almost makes me think I could possibly love something.” He whispers in my ear and we both laugh. He gets up and undresses himself, He slowly undresses me like he wants to linger on my skin. He gets back on top of me and he bites my neck, i let out a moan and at the same time he has his whole length inside, i dig my nails in his back and scream his name, he loves it, He keeps his thrust slow, driving me crazy and wanting more of him.
“Say it, say it, say it. Pretty, pretty, pretty, pretty, pretty..” “Please daddy, fuck me!” “Beg.” he whispers in my ear as he is still slowly sliding in and out. My breathing is rigid “Daddy, please fuck me, I need you to fuck me!” I moan at the end and he does as i ask.
He thrust are hard as he slams against me and the pace is fast, my head is spinning and I can feel orgasm 2 come close, and he knows it.
“Don’t you fucking cum yet.” He says quickly.
I reach up and kiss him and bite his lip as i pull away, it takes everything in me to keep the orgasm away. He is breathing heavy and his grunts are more often, i know he’s close too.
“Daddy! I-I can’t.” I cant get the words out. He kisses my neck again and i cant hold back anymore, I tighten around him and he lets out a loud growl and we cum at the same time, I dig my nails in his back and he bites my shoulder. a few seconds pass and he lays next to me. We both lay there not saying anything, letting out breathing slow down.
I look over at him and smile, “You didn’t ruin anything with a knife this time!” i giggle.
He smiles back “Ahh, I wont forget next time, I will make sure of it.” He closes his eyes but his face is still towards me. I reach over and brush the hair out of his face, he slowly opens his eyes. They are piercing.
“What should we do for the rest of the day?” he asks in a low voice.
“I don’t know, we could, maybe hang out here and, if you want, maybe we can have dinner together?” He can tell im nervous.
“Are you asking me out on a date Kat?” He laughs a little bit.
“I think I am Mr. J.” Im blushing, trying to play it cool.
“Well, i could never deny such a beautiful creature.” He smiles and adjust himself to lay on his back and closes his eyes.
‘Man, i am so in love with that smile.’ i instantly get a pit in my stomach.
I just lay there not saying anything. ‘Did I, I did, i used that word. I, fuck.!’
He must notice the expression on my face, like im trying to sole the worlds hardest math problem, “Everything ok baby?”
His voice snaps me out of it, “Yeah, yes, yup, i’m, fine. Yeah. Im going to, uh, shower for our date tonight.” I spring out of bed and smile at him and I go to the bathroom and lock the door. I actually get in the shower and it feels so good, I wash my hair, trying to scrub the thoughts of ‘love’ out of my head. I finish up and wrap a towel around my hair and body. I walk back into the bedroom and hes still laying on the bed, his eyes are fixed on me. “Ah, the itch in my crotch.” I laugh at him and walk in the closet.
“How should i dress?” I yell out.
“Something that says you are ready for bed.” he can’t see my face but it reads confusion.
I grab a robe, “Like this?” i laugh.
“Like pajamas darling. I’ll plan something here, ok?”
“Wait, you, you’re serious, you want me to wear pajamas to our date?” I walk out of the closet so i can see his face.
“Would I lie to you?” He gives a big smile.
I get butterflies and give an awkward smile, “Probably.” I say with a laugh.
“Probably is right darling.” He laughs with me. “I will be in the office if you need me darling, but i am serious about your clothes tonight.” He comes into the closet and puts his arms around my waist and kisses my neck. “Wear that perfume again too. I’ll pick you up around 7 baby.”