dap me up

Chasing Light

I hastily scrambled for a glimpse of sun breaking the rain

I stumbled and fell hard as the clouds never stirred to change

Luminous beauty and enveloping darkness are one and the same

Dawn lights candles the dusk will quench time and again

Yo my dude, after I nut, I am no longer your bitch. Stand up, dap me up n be out. Smh Niggas think cuz you take dick you must be one of these soft ass bitches…nah
Crème de la Crème: 30


“What’s this all about, August?” I asked as I got more comfortable in his leather seats

He switched lanes and looked over at me “Your birthday is during the trip, I wanted to make sure we got to hang out before we go.” He said

“We have like two weeks before the trip, boo.” I reminded

“I’m sorry, love.” He smiled at me apologetically “I’m not trying to say that you’re not important but I pissed off a really important person in my life and I got a lot of making up to do, so my schedule looking kind of tight.” He said

I rolled my eyes. August was as single as a dollar bill, so I’m not sure who in his life could be so important that they’re taking up so much time.

It was probably a family member and it that case I couldn’t be upset because, in reality, I would be spending my actually birthday with him.

“I don’t see why you need to take me home, though.” I said

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I’m tryin to get into hell first class. Devil finna dap me up sayin, “nigga I been waitin a long time for you dawg. Shit boring down here”

About last night

😂 so I got a story for y'all bout my night last night. So I get a text like what’s the move from this guy who’s a few years older then me. Mind you I haven’t spoken to him in a few months we just drifted apart Life took us in opposite directions. So I had plans to go out with one of my homies but he was having baby mama drama so when I got that what’s the move text I’m like 🤔 hmm we shall see how this night goes, so he’s like well a couple of us are going to the bar if you wana come and I’m like shiiiii Ight bet, so I go home get in the shower freshen up do all that good stuff because shit there’s no telling where I might end up or what I might do so I gotta be prepared.. Ok so fast forward to when I get to the bar and mind you we’ve never fucked around like we’ve always been on some bro shit like he used to make lil slick comments at me but I would never even act like I even picked up on them but and we’ve never spoke on it but it’s kind of a It ain’t even gotta be said type of thing it’s just understood but back to my story lmao so I get there and omg it’s hella ratchet and ghetto ass people and I’m just like I know he ain’t tell me come to this ratchet ass shit, so I walk in and I’m looking around for him but it’s sooooo many people I cant find him and he not responding to my messages because at this point he’s already drunk af and I’m not a social person especially when I don’t know anybody there so I walk out and I head back to my car and in my head I’m like I’m just gon charge this L to the game 😂 so soon as I put the key in the ignition he texted me back and was like I’m at the bar so I walk my ass back in there and I’m like nigga fuck You got me up here with all these ratchets for? 🙄 and again I say he’s drunk so he ain’t really even paying attention to me lol so I get him to go buy me a drink and we just chilling listening to the music watching the hoes twerk so we finally getting ready to leave and we talking tryna find a move and he’s like well I rode with my friend he’s bout to take me to get my car so I’m like ok cool just hit me once you get to your car.. so I go and I park and I’m just talking otp then I get a text from him and he’s like come get me and I’m like nigga where are you tf 😂 so he told me where and he was like he’s too fucked up to drive home so I’m like lmfao ok I’m otw the nigga ends up finessing me into taking his ass home bruhhhhhh this nigga stay a good 40 mins away from where we was and a good hour and 20 from my house so I’m like nigga fuck you why I let you talk me into this Idk lol like I’m just being extra and his ass ain’t paying me noooo attention he sitting over there in my passenger seat knocked tf out so I’m like Nigga wake yo ass up tf ion know where I’m going and y'all it ain’t like its general directions to his house This man stay in the BACKWOODS Bitch I’m talking bout no street lights back woods only car on the road type shit. So I finally get his ass to wake up so he can give me directions so we just riding listening to music talking shit mind you it’s like 3 in the morning on these back long country ass roads. We finally get to his house and by this time that Hennessy is about to make my bladder explode 😂 so I pull in the driveway and hop out so I can go pee in the grass, when I come back to the car this Nigga standing outside the car waiting on me I’m thinking he Finna dap me up and be like Ight bro I’ll see you later but nooo this Nigga says walk with me real quick and we start walking through a path in his yard and in my head I’m like tf we going 😂mind you my car still on and we just dun walked off at first I was thinking we was going to the lil garage they got in the very back because he got a old school Monte Carlo SS they he been working on so I thought we was going to see it.. mind you he ain’t said nun since walk with me so we just took a lil 4 minute walk through the pitch black ass woods in silence. So we walking up on the garage and I’m thinking oh yea we Finna look at the car yalllllll why this nigga turns around facing me with his dick out and hard 😳😨 Bitch In my head I was nutting tf up! 😂😂 Bitch when I say I ain’t kno what was going on 😂 but you know I kept my cool pulled my shit out and we stroked each other Shit till i was like fuck it come here and I proceeded to take him into my mouth babyyyyyyyyyy when I say I went to motherfucking work! Bitch I went to WERK on that dick 👅 I’m talking bout sloppy toppy Bitch lmfao That Nigga nutted so fucking quick 😂ahhhhhh that was really the moment I had been waiting on too 😂 he kept messing with his pants when we was in the car but I wasn’t thinking nun of it but yea that’s how my Friday went but he just texted me talking bout hanging out again tonight 👀😝 I’ll keep those of y'all who are interested updates on this lil situation 😂



I walked into the school to have all these bitch go “Heeyyyyyy Drizzzzyyyy.” I cannot be fucked to deal with their bull shit. I nod towards them and head to my locker.

“Ayoo Drizzy.” Tyga says dapping me up. He looks over my shoulder to wink at this girl. He always playing with hoes hearts. But its his life. Just as I close my locker Nicki walks by. Everyone knows I been chasing Nicki for the longest. She too stubborn and won’t let me take her out. Its been like this since sixth grade. Her teasing, me chasing.


“Nicki!! baby? whats wrong.” I asked her we were at my house just hanging out. She looked at me confused.

“With what?” she asked playing games again. I smirked, she began to chew on her lip. I looked at her, like really looked and her beauty blew me away. How haven’t I noticed? The guys at school sure have. But shes my best friend….

“Aubrey!” she yelled snapping me out of my thoughts.

“Yeah babe?” she looked vexed. “You asked me what wrong and when I decide to tell you, you start ignoring me??” tears sprung from her eyes. I looked down

“I know I’m sorry.” She forced my face up.

“Its all good boo. I gotta get home though.” regret filled my heart

“Wait why don’t you finish telling me whats going on?” she glanced at me quickly then dropped her head.

“Do you even know the beginning?” she questioned. Shaking her head she added

“You’re just like them other boys who want me for my body instead of me.” A single tear ran down her cheek.

“Ayye Nicki you know that shit aint true?” I said as she ran down the stairs. She stopped turning around smiled. Not a happy smile. A bitter smile.

“See you around Aubrey.” Did we just break up before we even started dating?

*End flashback*

I ran up to her

“Hey Nicki..” I started. She looked up rolled her eyes and continued to walk.

“What do you want Drizzy.” It hurt me to hear her call me by my street name. She never did that. I tried to play it off.

“You know what I want.” She stopped obviously annoyed

“Yes I know you want to apologize, you wanna make it up to me, you wanna fix things, you wanna talk, you want us to start over but what if I don’t want to huh? What about what I want?” Tears started streaming down her face. I looked over at Tyga and said

“Hey cover for us in class this shit gon get worked out.” He nodded walking away. I grabbed her wrist without her fighting me. I walked her to the black bentley. Opening the door for her, she sat down. I closed the door and ran around to the other side. I started it and sped down the highway. I looked over and she was tryna collect herself.

“Whats wrong?” She looked over smiling. The same bitter smile

“Aint that the same question that ruined our friendship for 5 years ago?” I nodded

“Yes but i’m ready to listen now.” I said sadly thinking back. I headed toward the highway since it is friday and I don’t have much to do. I mean it just a weekend away.

“Onika hand me your phone.” she looked at me curiously then passed it me. I looked down for a second going through her contacts. After a few seconds I found Cassie’s name. I hit dial she picked up after two rings. “Hey baby doll” She said cheerfully. I respond

“Hey Cas can you cover for Nicki. I’m taking her for the weekend.” It was silent for a while.

”Yeah, Drake?” I nodded as if she could see me.

“Yeah?” she sighed

“Don’t hurt her anymore okay?” When I looked over at her, her face said the fuck you talking bout?

“I won’t I promise.” Nicki began to panic, screaming at me over and over. “Drizzy where the fuck you taking me? I don’t wanna leave. TAKE ME BACK RIGHT NOW.” I looked at her and smirked. Time for me to play with her for a while.

“Not till you call me by my name baby girl.” She looked at me like I was insane.

“Not in a million years.” I laughed

“Then I can’t tell you shit.” She sat still and looked forward.

“I hope its somewhere fun at least.” I quickly glanced over at her and smiled.

“You’ll have a blast.” I said sarcastically. Which made her smile. Her dimpled smile. The happy one.


I had no idea what this niggas plan was. Frankly I ain’t care. Its been so long since we’ve hung out and talked for hours. To be honest I have missed him but he stopped listening to what I had to say a while ago. It breaks my heart to know that 5 years ago we were inseparable now we could care less about each other. Well at least he could care less about me. I still know that his birthday is coming up in days. I watched as he passed the sign for Las Vegas. Uh Oh. When we were younger Drizzy talked about how for his 18th birthday he was gonna take me to Vegas with him and then we could say

“What happens in Vegas, stays in Vegas” . It was a dream we both had. I guess he wasn’t playing. It was getting darker outside which made the lights shine brighter around us. He exited off the highway and headed towards the hotel named Bellagio.

“Drizzy you don’t have to actually do this. We were just kids and it was just fun and games. I wasn’t-” he cut me off.

“I said I would. I am a man of my word. I will always be there for you. I was always there for you.” he let out a deep sigh.

“At least before you cut me out.” he mumbled. I glared at him

“What was that?” he looked over.

“hmm what?” I looked at him like he was stupid as fuck and said “Nothing… asshole.” His eyes went back to the road

“Nika baby girl don’t be like that. We are literally two minutes away from our dream vacation.” I sat back in carseat and mumbled

“I know, I’m sorry Aubz.” he sighed.

“Its all good princess Maraj.” a nickname he made for me when we were little because i got EVERYTHING I wanted. Looking back I was spoiled but that still doesn’t change the fact that my foster parent raped, abused, and traded me for drugs. His name is Tyler Empire. Thats part of the reason I didn’t want to go on this trip.

“What you thinkin bout?” I looked over at him as he parked the car. Should I tell him? I mean no one knows about this part of my life. My home life.

“We’ll talk later Drake right now I’m hungry.” I smirked

“You’re appetite sure as hell aint changed” I frowned.

“Are you saying I’m fat?” He shook his head no. We walked into into the hotel with only one bag. Probably shit for him.

“Do you have a reservation?” Drake opened his wallet pulled out his ID, and bank card before he replied.

“Yes under Graham.” The guy at the front desk typed the information into his computer.

“Ahhh here, we have two penthouse rooms with all access. Is that correct?” Drake began to say something before I cut in.

“The reservation is right but I would like to change it to only one.” Drake looked at me like I was crazy.

“What?” I asked. The guy behind the desk responded

“Okay so one suit all access. correct?” Drake again about to say something before I cut in

“Yes it is.” I said as I took Drake’s cards handing them to him. Tonights the night to have fun.


hope you like it. Apparently I had this ff for a while. I like it &hope you do too I’m still so sorry I have been away for that long. I’m trying okay *sighs*~~~~~~ ~like reblog ask ~Rubi <3333



“Where are my fucking shoes?!!?!!” I groaned getting down on my knees and searching under the bed. I’m gonna be late for homecoming. Why the fuck did I listen to Heather when she said to be fashionably late? What fashion when I can’t find my shoes?

“Damn bitch what the fuck is wrong with you?” Heather held a pair of tweezers up to a eyebrow and plucked a hair. “Shit!”

“What’s wrong is that I can’t find my shoes! Did you see them?”

“No.” Heather answered pulling two lipsticks. “Should I do Bubblegum or Cherry Red?”

“Do what you want.” I sighed walking out of the room. “I’m using Bubblegum though!”

I went into my parents’ room where my mom was naked and my dad was undercovers.

“Eww what the hell?!” I covered my eyes.

“Honey! I was getting dressed!”
Mom covered herself.

“I don’t care. Did you see my gold heels?”

“Yeah i borrowed them. Take them and leave.”

I took my golden heels and returned to my bedroom trying to get the image of my parents about to fuck. Everything has to be perfect. Homecoming is pre-prom. I have to show Chris how great I am at homecoming so he can’t wait to take me to prom.

“How do I look?” I spun around.

Heather snorted jokingly. “Ugly as shit.”

“Shut the fuck up, you fat cow.” I hissed grabbing the lipstick.

“Bitch fuck you. This fat cow is going to homecoming with her dream man.”

“So your dream man busts your sister wide open sophomore year?”

The words left my mouth before I could stop it. I was so angry I didn’t think about what I said. Heather looked at me in horror and I felt a pang of guilt. I frowned.


“You fucked Trell?!” She screamed as her tearducts began to produce tears.

“It was before you guys started dating.”

“But I liked him! You’re a dirty hoe, Jasmine. I wish you weren’t my sister.”

Shit, that hurt. Before I could apologize, Heather pushed past me and went into her bedroom. I knocked on her door.

“Heather, I’m sorry!” I felt some tears roll down. Damn, I really didn’t think it would hurt her that bad.


No answer. I gave up going down the stairs to meet up with Chris who dressed in a tux.

“Damn, Jas, you look hot!”

“Don’t I always?” I smiled meeting with him.

We said our goodbyes to my parents and as we walked to his car, Chris turned to me.

“What’s going on with you and Heather?” Chris asked opening the passenger door for me.

“Nothing, babe. Just sister stuff.” I lied through my teeth getting into the car. This bullshit is not gonna ruin my homecoming.


I put on my suit jacket and brushed myself off. I look too fly.
I might have to get more than one date. My phone buzzed signaling a text. That must be Karrueche. I smiled until I saw it was a text from Ty.


Yo we meeting up McDonald’s b4 we pick up the girls. Come thru.

I placed my phone in my pants pocket and grabbed my canister full of vodka putting it in my suit jacket. Whether Karrueche means to or not, this is going to be an interesting night.

We met up at McDonald’s where all the niggas were.

“Why we here? Homecoming is in 10 minutes.” Chris complained taking a seat in our booth.

“Because you know damn our ladies are going to take forever to get ready.” Trey answered taking a sip of soda. “I know damn well Amber aint ready.”

“True. Jasmine got to be looking like a damn supermodel everytime she go out.” Chris agreed.

“I don’t know about Honey but shit nigga I can’t fuck this up.” Tyga shook his head sitting up.

Trell laughed. “Aww Mikey catching feelings for Honey!”

“Eww nigga. Don’t call me that gay shit.”

“So your government’s gay?” I asked.

Ty turned to me. “So is August. Who tf names their kid after a month?”

“My mama. It don’t matter because Karrueche likes my name.” I smirked sitting back.

“The fuck you mean Karrueche likes it?” Chris questioned with wide eyes. “You bagging her?”

“Well not without the help of this.” I smirked wickedly revealing the medium metal canister filled with vodka.

The crew’s eyes widened as they stared at the canister. I quickly put it away due to the fact I was underage.

“It’s my pop’s. Shit’s filled with vodka.” I answered their questions they were going to ask.

“And what do you plan on doing with that, my nigga?”

I chuckled. “Vodka mixes well with punch. I’m gonna slip some in every cup of punch i give her and then after a few cups, I’m gonna be in between them thighs!”

Instead of dapping me up like I expected, most of them got up shaking their heads and states they were going to pick their girls. Chris shook his head.

“Nigga, you’re dead ass wrong. It’s one thing to try to sleep with a girl but it’s another to get her drunk to do it. Don’t fucking do it.”

I stood up. “Nigga, why the fuck do you care? Last time I checked, Karrueche hated your ass and she’s going to homecoming with me so mind your damn buisness.”

Right when I said that, my phone buzzed and I pulled it out reading the text notification.

From Kae:

I’m ready.

I smirked holding up my phone in Chris’s face.

“And look at that! She’s ready and so am I.”

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I stared longingly at my white and golden dress on my bed along with my gold jewelry and beige heels. Shit. Why in the hell did I agree to go to homecoming with August? Why? Was I that desparate for a date?

I removed my towel lotioning my body and putting on my panties and dress. I strapped on my heels and put on my jewelry. I pinned my ombre hair up in a updo and applied lip gloss. I sighed deeply before stepping in front of the mirror.

“Wow.” I mouthed at my reflection before doing a little spin. I look…..hot.

“Karrueche, baby-”

Mom looked at me smiling wide.

“You look gorgeous.”

I smiled looking down. “Thanks Mom.”

“Anyway, I came to tell you that
We’re not gonna be home.when you get back, remember your key, and no sex!”

I was taken aback then narrowed my eyes smiling. “That was Dad, huh?”

She nodded smiling and left the room. I quickly sent August a text telling him I was ready. As soon as I stepped outside, August was waiting for me cheesing hard. Aww shit. What did I get myself into?

"Well, don’t you look beautiful?”

I smiled a little. “Thanks August. Why are you cheesing so hard?”

“Because I’m really looking forward tonight.” He bit his lip escorting me to the beige Toyota he pulled up in.

When we arrived to homcoming, it was already turnt! Dim lighting, hip hop music playing, and people dancing.

“You want some punch?” August asked in my ear.

“Yeah. Thanks.” I shouted over the music. I scanned over the crowd and peeped Amber and Honey coming towards me.

“Damn Kae! You look fine! I’m not even gay and I want to fuck you!” Amber exclaimed looking me up and down.

“Yeah!” Honey agreed. “Looking like Aphrodite! Work it Coochie!”

“Thanks guys. Where’s Heather?” I asked as August returned with my drink.

“I don’t know but I’ll leave y’all alone and look for her.” Amber smirked pulling Honey away. I noticed August staring mad hard at Amber. I rolled my eyes drinking my punch. Damn that was some good punch. In the corner of my eye, I saw Chris and Jasmine walk in and Chris began dapping up his crew. He looked happy with his group of friends. I guess he doesn’t care about me anymore. I wiped my stray tear looking straight ahead.

“You want more punch?” August questioned taking my empty cup.

I looked at him nodding. “Yeah.”


I drove away from Jasmine’s house gripping the steering wheel.As much as I wanted to push the thought out of my head, I couldn’t. August’s bitchass is really gonna get Kae drunk to sleep with her. That’s a fuck boy move and it makes me really angry. Kae doesn’t deserve to be treated. My angry face and I sighed.

Why do I care so much? Is it because I have a big heart or is because I feel guilty knowing of August’s plans. Knowing August, once he has his mind made up, God and his mama are the only people that can change his mind. I silently prayed that he wouldn’t go through with it because for some reason, it would kill me if Kae got hurt.

“Chris, are you ok?” Jasmine placed her hand on my shoulder. I looked at her shrugging.

“I’m fine. Just deep in my thoughts.”

We finally pulled up in the school parking lot where people were just arriving and taking pictures.

Jasmine pulled out her phone and handed it to someone.

“Come on Chris! Let’s take pics!”
After we posed for many pics, we finally made it inside and danced a little. When we got tired, Jasmine went to her friends while I went towards the crew. I dapped each of them up.

“How’s it going?”

“Man, Honey is a bomb chick! Why didn’t I ask her out earlier?” Tyga cheesed sipping his soda.

“Because you’re a bitch nigga. Where’s Jaz?” Trey asked over the loud music.

“With Amber. Where’s- ”

Trell stormed in and went up to us with anger visible on her.

“Damn nigga did something happen between you and Heather?” Ty looked him up and down.

“Yeah because of that bitch she calls a sister.” Trell huffed and I stepped in.

“Chill on calling my girl a bitch.”

“Nah fuck that! She wanna ruin my homecoming? I’ll ruin hers! Chris, you know Jasmine ain’t a virgin, right? ”

I shrugged. “Well I’m not surprised. A lot of girls aren’t. “

“Yeah she ain’t a virgin cuz she lost her virginity to me!” Trell spat out of breath. “It was sophomore year and we were both virgins so we decided to lose it to each other. I’m sorry bro, but I had to tell you.”


Jasmine walked up to me grabbing my arm and I jerked away from her.

“Let’s go dance!”

“You fucked Trell 2 years ago?”

Jasmine glared at him. “Seriously Trell?”

“Karma’s a bitch, Jasmine. Just like you.”

She rolled her eyes turning back to me.

“Chris, it was a long time ago. I’m sorry.”

“I just need some space, Jaz.” I walked out of the gym to the bathroom where August was with Karrueche. She had no balance in any part of her body and giggled like a school girl. August got her drunk. I clenched my fists walking up to them.

“Hey Chris! You likey homecoming?!” Kae giggled drunkenly almost falling on the floor and I grabbed her pulling her close to me.

“August, nigga you make me sick. You actually got her drunk? Was hitting that important? ” I almost screamed.

August grabbed her back and began kissing her neck.

“Augusttttttt stopppppppp you’re my friendddddd!” Kae slurred pushing him away.

“Not tonight!” He pounced on her and I punched him making him drop to the floor. Karrueche gasped and began giggling again. I grabbed her hand and led her to my car.

I drove back to my neighborhood while Kae was babbling and slurring random shit. Once we made it back, We went up to her doorstep.

“Kae, you got a key?” I turned my attention from her door to her, who was struggling to keep her balance.

“I think…..” she was about to hit the concrete floor when I caught her. Fuck it. I have to bring her to my house. Mama isn’t home because of her night shift at the hospital anyway. I carried Kae to my house and once we went inside, I laid her on the couch. Although she was drunk off her ass, she looked like a petite goddess. It’s a damn shame everything got fucked up because of bitchass August.

As I turned to leave, she stopped me.

“No, Chris. Stay.”

I raised an eyebrow. “You sure?”

She nodded moving over and I went behind holding her tiny waist but I backed up due to the fact we were too close for a nigga in a relationship. Kae turned to face me looking up at me.

“Chris, I miss you.”

I furrowed my eyebrows. “What?” 
Kae began to tear up. “As much as you hurt me, I love you because you’re my best friend. I miss you and our friendship so much and as much I try to hide it…..I just can’t hide what I truely feel anymore. I miss my best friend.”

Even though Kae was intoxicated, I could tell she was speaking from her sober heart. Drunken tongues speak sober thoughts.

“Karrueche, I’m so sorry.” I pecked her lips and held her closer kissing her forehead. “I love you too. I’m sorry. I wish I could take it back. I want it all back. I want my best friend back too.”

Kae wiped her face and smiled widely. “Well she’s right here.”


“Wake up!” I felt someone shake me. I got up squinting my eyes at the small girl in front of me.


She swallowed hard pacing the floor. “Ok I just texted my parents telling them I spent the night at Honey’s. Tell me the truth. Did we sleep together?”

“No!” I exclaimed with wide eyes and looked at the time. 4:30 a.m. Mama still ain’t home.

“Do you remember last night?”

She nodded. “Yeah I remember. Kinda.”

“Well August got you drunk to sleep with you so I brought you here to prevent.”

Kae shook her head. “Bitchass.”

“Do you remember what you told me?” I asked slowly.

Kae sat next to me resting her head on my shoulder.

“Yeah. It was all true.”

“I said-”

Kae grabbed my face making me look at her smirking.

“Chris, I remember. I wasn’t that drunk. I forgive you.”

I smiled widely wrapping my arms around her. “Is my Pikachu back?”

Kae giggled a little before responding.

“Yes. Yes she is.”

Chapter 1: Miscommunication

Robyn POV:

“Momma Robyn, where are you going?” Skai asked as I walked down the stairs.

“To visit a friend sweetheart.”

“Can I come?”

“Not today, but tomorrow we’ll go somewhere, ok?”

“Ok.” She replied going to her room.

I went to look for Chris to let him know I was leaving. I have to get out of this house. I’m tired and stressed out, but I want to get some wedding planning done and also I need to talk to someone about these thoughts I’m having.

I found Chris in his office having a conversation with Daniel.

“Hey you two, am I interrupting something?” I said entering the room.

“Not at all babe. We’re just talking about random stuff, what’s up?”

“Oh well I came to tell you I’m heading out.”

“You need me to go with you?” Daniel asked standing up.

My brother is so protective over me; he hates for me to go anywhere alone. Sometimes it’s overbearing but it’s also a blessing to have two amazing men in my life that love me and will protect me at all cost.

“Nah big brother I’m ok, thanks though.”

“I think she’s good D, but where are you going?” Chris asked.

“I’m going to Keenon’s house, I’ll be back in about two or three hours.”

“Cool…” He said nodding.

“Ole boy has always been obsessed with my little sister. It was cute when they were younger but it’s weird as hell now.”

“Daniel please don’t start, he is not obsessed with me. We’re friends and that’s how it will forever be.”

“He is but whatever just be careful out there.” He replied.

“Ok I love you honey, I’ll see you later.” I said giving Chris a kiss.

“And bye brother.” I said hugging Daniel.

I got in my car and made my way to Keenon’s house. I brought some ideas for the wedding with me because he said he would help me pick out some stuff I couldn’t decide on. I pulled up to his place and he greeted me with a warm embrace.

“What’s been going on friend, we haven’t spoken in a minute.”

“Nothing just working like always. I recently closed this huge deal I’m excited about.”

“Really? I’m so happy for you!” I said.

“What’s been going on with you?”

“Same and focusing on planning this wedding.”

“That’s exciting for you I’m sure. You’ve been waiting on this moment your whole life.”

“Hmm it is but it’s stressful too. I want everything to be perfect.”

“Is Chris helping you at all?”

“Of course, we make every final decision together. Whatever we go over today I will go over it with him too.” I said.

“Alright so let’s get started shall we.”

We spent two straight hours going over flower arrangements, color schemes, etc.

“Chris’ favorite color is red so I’m thinking the reception could be all red with black and white ascents. Sort of like this, what do you think?” I said showing him a picture.

“That looks dope.”

“I know and I don’t want it to be a typical wedding or reception, I want it to scream Christopher and Robyn.”

“It will, do you want something to drink?”

“Yes please.”

He went and got me a beer, and we began to chat a little bit.

“Robyn are you ok? You honestly don’t seem like yourself and you have bags under your eyes.”

“I’m tired and stressed. I haven’t been sleeping much because I’ve been having bad dreams.”

“What are the dreams about?”

“Like someone trying to kidnap me and kill me. I always wake up right before they finish the job. The crazy thing is it’s always on my wedding day.”

“Do you think it’s a sign that you shouldn’t get married right now? Maybe that’s the deeper meaning of them.”

“I thought about that and I think that could be part of it. I’ve been starting to think that we’re moving too fast.”

“You know you don’t have to get married right now.”

“Yea, I love Chris but I still have some other things in my heart.”

“Like what?”

“I don’t want to discuss it at this moment.”

“You know you can always confide in me.”

“I know I always could.” I said smiling at him.

He leaned towards me and if he’s about to do what I think he is then he’s in for a rude awakening. He pressed his lips against mine and I roughly pushed him off.

“What the fuck is wrong with you?” I yelled wiping my lips.

“I thought you wanted to. You said you have things in your heart and I thought that meant feelings for me.”

“I was talking about still having fear in my heart fool. You seriously crossed the damn line. You know I’m with Chris and in love with him.”

“If you loved him so much you wouldn’t be having doubts.”

“Nowhere in this conversation did I doubt my relationship. Why do you still have this hope in your heart that we’ll get back together? I’ve told you multiple times that will never happen and yet you’re still being delusional. I just wanted to remain close friends like we’ve always been, but now I don’t know if I even want that. You just disrespected my relationship and I don’t appreciate that shit. You need to grow up and realize we’re not kids anymore and I have a great life that I’m building with someone else. Yes I’m scared about some things but that doesn’t change my feelings for my man, and that doesn’t mean I have feelings for you!” I said.

I didn’t want to sound harsh but he needed to get the point. I love my Christopher and Keenon doesn’t get that. I wanted to talk to him as a friend and he took it somewhere it wasn’t supposed to go.

“I’m sorry Robyn.”

“I don’t want to hear it.” I gathered my belongings and went home.

When I arrived I was almost tackled at the door by my baby girl.

“Hey mommy, I missed you and what’s for dinner?”

“Hmm Skai, did you miss me or are you just hungry?”

“Umm both.” She said laughing and I did as well.

“Where’s your dad, brother, and uncle?”

“In the game room playing video games.”

“I should have known. Well let’s go interrupt that game, I have an idea.” I grabbed her hand and went to the game room.

“Hello boys.” I said.

“Oh hey mom…dad you’re cheating forreal.” Jaden said.

“Hey babe and I’m not son I’m just better.”


“All I know is I got the winner.” Daniel said.

I took the remote and turned off the TV. They stared at me in disbelief.

“Time for the games to be put away. The men in this house are making dinner.”

“Wait mom, are you trying to get us poisoned?” Skai said.

“Nope, now put these on.” I threw aprons at them and they did what I said.

“Y'all look nice and get to work.”

“If I do a good job, what do I get?” Chris whispered in my ear.

“You’ll see.” I whispered back.

As the boys were working on their mission I decided to call Mel. Her due date is in a week so she hasn’t been feeling like going out.

“Hey preggers, how are you feeling?”

“Like I’m about to pop. Sis I am so ready for my big boy to come out.”

“Put the phone on your stomach.” I said and she giggled.

“Hi pumpkin, this is your auntie. I can’t wait until you get here, I love you!”

“You and Barry are something else.”

“I just love my nephew that’s all.”

“I know and how have you been? Are you sleeping better?”

“Not really. I still have the dreams but when I wake up from one Chris calms me down and I usually can go back to sleep without having another one.”

“Good, I’m so glad he’s there for you.”

“Me too so what did you do today?”

“Lay on my big butt and watch tv. What about you?” Mel is sensitive about her weight but she looks amazing for someone who is nine months pregnant.

“Me and Skai are coming over tomorrow to keep you company but girl let me tell you what happened. So I went to keenon’s house to hang for a little bit and he helped me pick some stuff for the wedding. We started talking and I told him I wasn’t sure if I should get married now because I still have some stuff in my heart. Tell me why that fool thought I was saying I had feelings for him so he kissed me.” I said and she gasped.

“What did you do?”

“What do you think I did? I cursed his ass out, but he’s lucky I didn’t slap him. I was talking about having fear in my heart and he thought I was talking about him. Even after I’ve told him I don’t want him like that. I don’t want to be his friend either if he can’t be respectful.”

“Chris will hurt him if he finds out.”

“Oh I know, which is why I’m not saying anything. I think Keenon finally got the message anyway because I had to be a tad bit harsh with my words this time. Like he’s a good guy but I had to let him know straight up I love my man and that me and him will never ever be together.”

“I like Keenon but if he doesn’t get the message by now then there’s something wrong.”

“Hopefully he got it because I didn’t like cursing him out, but shit he pissed me off.”

“I know and you did the right thing. Anyways sis I have to go potty and eat. I’ll see you tomorrow, love you.”

“Ok love you too.” We hung up and I was about to go downstairs to check on dinner and to make sure my kitchen wasn’t on fire, but I needed to change clothes first.

I don’t want Chris to find out what happened because I know exactly what he would do. His anger would get the best of him and he’ll probably end up in trouble. I love him way too much to let something happen to him over this, so I rather keep it to myself.

Chris POV:

I stood at the door and clenched my jaw in disappointment. I can’t believe Robyn didn’t tell me about this shit. I rushed to get my keys, I won’t make this meeting long.

“Dad what are you doing? You know it’s almost time for dinner. Mom is going to kill you.“

Jaden questioned me as if he is the parent.

"I’ll be right back son, I have to handle something important. I promise you guys won’t even know I’m absent.”

I attempted to bargain with him. I don’t want my son to ride with me. I never like for my kids to witness when I’m livid. They have seen me upset before but livid is a different level of anger.

“Oh ok dad I’ll cover for you.” I dapped my mini me up before exiting out of the door.

I just want to have a few words with Mr. Kennon then come back home to my loving family. I snuck into the garage to hop in my vehicle. My anger is consuming me as my feet is heavily pressing on the gas of my Lambo. I am speeding full throttle.

I’m trying to calm down as I’m in route to Kennon’s house. He’s about to get a piece of my mind. I am beyond pissed right now, I can’t believe the audacity of this nigga to push up on my woman. Also Robyn has another thing coming if she thinks she isn’t about to get her ass chewed up for this as well. She was on the phone discussing it but has yet to tell me, but I’ll settle all of this buffoonery. I wiped the sweat beads forming on my face as I reached my destination.

I parked my car in his driveway before proceeding to get out. I chuckled to myself lowly I’m still astonished right now. Instead of knocking on the door I twisted the knob and to my surprise it was unlocked. I stopped dead in my tracks in pure disgust. I can’t fathom what I am witnessing right now. My blood is seriously boiling right now.

“Oh Kennon go deeper.” She screamed out not noticing my presence is in the room. Seeing their naked bodies is sickening to say the less.

I rushed over to her and Kennon and roughly yanked him up. She looked at me with eyes full of terror. I furiously struck Kennon with my fist in a rage. He has lost his damn mind. He tried to woo my woman now this shit. I don’t give a damn what she does because I’m not with her; I just don’t like this nigga anyway.

He attempted to put up a fight but he was no match for me.  He cocked back but missed my face causing him to fall to the floor. I began to stomp him naked and all. My eyes were filled with rage, all I saw is red.

“I’ll explain but Chris please don’t hurt him!! Get off of him!” She said pushing me. Out of reflex I roughly pushed her to the wall. I stared at her in pure disgust while tears cascaded down her face.

I can’t believe in the past I thought I had some feelings for this woman. Is this nigga on a mission to be with every woman I was with?

“You don’t have to explain shit to me. This really don’t have a damn thing to do with you!! This is about your dude continuing to be disrespectful.“ I spat at her with venom in my voice. There is only so much I can take.

"Do you two know each other?” Kennon inquired as he mumbled barely above a whisper.

Now I’m really thrown for a loop. You mean to tell me he isn’t aware of our history?

"Ken we had a brief past together. He’s my ex.” She confessed to him as he struggled to get up from the floor.

He scurried to put back on his clothes and she followed. Both seem to be embarrassed but fuck that.

How dare he cross me more than once? This is like the third time he has done some fuck shit and I let it slide, but I couldn’t do that this time. He crossed the line in a major way by kissing Robyn and I’m honestly ready to lay his ass out again. I don’t like this nigga and I never will.

My thoughts were interrupted by rough knocks on the door. I opened the door, and a frown decorated my face when I saw that it was a cop. This won’t end well.

"We got a report about a disturbance.” A fat white cop barged in with his cuffs in his hands.

This is a quiet neighborhood so I’m not surprised someone reported the noise. It seemed like he was ready to arrest someone. He looked at the whole scenario and judging from the blood dripping from my knuckles and Kennon’s face I think he knows I’m the culprit.

“I’m the cause of this.” Holding my wrist out I motion him to cuff me so I can get this process over with. I’ll just go down to the station with him.

"What if I don’t want to press charges sir?” Kennon pleaded with the officer for my freedom.

He gave me an apologetic look and I gave him a death glare in return. Nothing is forgiven and I’m still extremely pissed.

“The rule is when we are called someone has to come to the station with us. We don’t like to waste the tax payer’s money or our time. So many times we have walked away without taking someone into custody and it didn’t end well.” The cop informed all of us.

"Let’s take a ride to the station then boss.” He finally handcuffed me as Frick and Frack stood there looking dumbfounded.

I’m so upset that I don’t know if he would have survived if I haven’t gotten arrested. As I was placed in the squad car I remembered how I promised myself that I would never see the inside of a jail again. I’m the same person who just gave my son a speech on behavior a few months ago now look at me.

We arrived at the police station and he started to speak to me before placing me in a holding cell.

“I honestly don’t want to start any trouble. I can tell by the expression on your face that you are a good man. I just want to know what happened.” The officer said to me. I see the sincerity displayed on his face. I just want to go home to my family.

“Well sure I’ll explain. I went to the gentleman’s house to talk about a mishap we are having and I discovered him with my ex. I didn’t go over there to fight, but seeing him and thinking about what he did pissed me off even more; which resulted in he and I getting into an altercation. I have a fiance and two kids at home and I should have stayed home with them.” I responded truthfully, hoping that I didn’t dig a hole for myself. The police can be tricky sometimes.

The way this world is these days I never know what may happen in this jail. I may not make it out alive the police are grimy like that.

“You didn’t use any legal weapons or hit the women who was present, did you sir?”

"No sir I’d never hit a woman no matter how upset I am. However, I did shove her in anger but I never raised my hand to her.” I wiped the sweat off of my forehead in nervousness.

Maybe I should have lied about this ordeal. I don’t know what is about happen now.

"Young man I admire your honesty. I can see you are being sincere so you are free to make your one phone call.” I silently thanked God as I made my way to the phone. I’m sure Robyn is worried sick right now.

I decided to go with my better judgement and call Jaden’s cellphone instead of the home phone. I don’t want to draw any unnecessary attention to myself.

He picked up the phone and began to rant.

“Look Mike I told you if you ever went to jail again I wouldn’t talk to your ass. I have a future to think about and I don’t want to be caught up in any bullshit. I learned my lesson and I thought you learned yours.”

I’m extremely proud of my son’s words and also his growth. He finally got it through his head that jail isn’t a place to be.

Jaden POV:

I’m tired of these losers thinking its ok to get locked up. They should have learned their lessons like I learned mines.  

“Jaden this is your father I need you to come get me.” I held the phone closer to my ear because I know my hearing is deceiving me right now.

“Dad?!? Momma Robyn is going to kill you and then me for sneaking out.” She has been looking for him for the past few hours or so, and she doesn’t play when it’s time for dinner. She wants all of us present. Everyone has even parted ways at this point.

“Just do it for me son, I would have called your uncle Barry but I know he has to take care of Melissa.” He sounded as if he was in desperate need. What kind of man would I be if I didn’t help the man who raised me?

“Ok dad I’m on my way.” I paced back and forth around my room trying to figure out how I’m going to do this. Suddenly it dawned on me that I have a spare key to the family’s SUV.

I grabbed the key-chain from my computer desk to execute my escape. I came up with the idea to jump from the second floor window. That shouldn’t be too dangerous, should it?

I said a silent prayer as I climbed from my window and jumped onto a tree mission impossible style; being athletic comes in handy. I struggled a tad bit climbing down but I landed perfectly on my feet. Thank God for that. I slowly crept around the house to the car, and made sure to watch my surroundings perfectly.

I quickly hopped in the car, putting it in drive. I never looked back as I raced down the street. My dad owes me big time for this man. I made it to the station in under twenty minutes.

He looked like a pathetic kid when he saw my face and I couldn’t help but chuckle.

“Officer I’m here to take this young man home.” I stated in a deep authoritative tone. It’s actually funny and weird that this is the same officer who had a talk with me when I was arrested.

“Jesus I see the rebellious streak must run in this family.” He teased us both releasing my dad from the holding cell.

My dad walked to the front to retrieve his things.

“I’m so disappointed in you son.” I yelled to him from afar.

He is going to get a lecture from me like I got from him. He asked the officer if he could come get his car tomorrow, because he felt that both of us should just make it to the house at the same time to get chewed up.

The silence in the car was starting to annoy me, so whoever said it’s golden clearly lied.

“Listen young man I’m only telling you this because I care about you. Jail isn’t a place for someone like you. You have way too much potential and too much to lose. I know I raised you better than this and not to mention Robyn is going to be pissed. How will you explain this to her? Boy you better answer me when I’m talking to you.” I mocked my father perfectly and he was having a laughing fit in the passenger’s seat.

“Remember that I’m the parent and I don’t owe you an explanation, but just know I did some stupid shit and I will never do it again. I have to explain to my woman why I beat the brakes off of Kennon.” My eyes grew wide because I don’t even understand why they are fighting. My dad has Robyn and the other guy doesn’t.

“Dad that’s ludicrous, you have the woman he wants. He already lost in my eyes. Robyn has always been in love with you.”

“It’s more complicated than you think. He pushed up on your step-mom and being that I’m overprotective I kind of lost it.” Damn we arrived at the house when the story was just beginning to get juicy. I wanted the details.

As I unlocked the front door, it swung open with my mom behind it.

“Have you two lost your damn minds I’ve been worried sick.” She yelled at the both of us.

“Jaden go to your room.” My dad instructed me. I raced to my room like the speed of light. He didn’t have to tell me twice because I didn’t want to be caught in the crossfire.

Robyn POV:

I am livid at my two favorite guys right now. Both of them know I am easily paranoid and I worry a lot. Why would they do this me? To add insult to injury they missed dinner.

“Babe I can explain.” Christopher began to attempt to apologize but I walked away from him, and headed up the stairs. He was right behind me on my heels.

“Robs just talk to me please.” I began to throw pillows and blankets his way because he will be sleeping on the couch tonight. I don’t even have the energy to entertain him right now.

“You have one minute to explain, and your minute starts now.”

“Babe I got locked up and I didn’t want you to find out about it.” Ok he got locked up from stupidity and didn’t call me. That’s strike one.

“I called Jaden because I didn’t want to upset you.” So he brought our son into this situation. Ok that’s strike two. He knows damn well Jaden doesn’t need to be involved in anything relating to jail. He is on the right track.

“Why did you get taken to jail if you don’t mind me asking. I already know it was for some stupid shit.” I’m trying to keep my voice down because I don’t want the kids to hear us arguing.

“I went to Kennon’s house and fought him. I overheard your conversation on the phone and lost my mind.” He went to a man’s property and disrespected him over a misunderstanding. I believe we have strike three ladies and gentleman.

“Christopher are you out of your damn mind? You went to the man’s house to assault him. How foolish can you be?” I don’t even want to look at him right now, I’m extremely disgusted.

“Baby I went there to defend your honor and I needed it to be clear that you two are over.” I understand Chris’ point but I’m grown. I don’t need him to fight my battles.

“Baby I appreciate your effort but you went about it all wrong. Trust me Kennon understands that we are together. He should have known that the day I chose you. My heart will always be yours babe. You should know that you will never have to compete with any other man. Don’t do any irrational shit again that could put this family in jeopardy. I love you and I’m sure you will have enough time to think about your decision as you sleep on the couch tonight.” He can’t sleep in any of the spare rooms because that will defeat the purpose, and plus I haven’t picked beds for them yet.

He grabbed the blankets and pillows off of the floor and made a puppy dog face.

“You’re really going to do a brother like that? I need you next to me to keep me warm baby girl.”

“We can cuddle tomorrow night but as of now I don’t want to look at you.” He lightly slammed the door on his way out. I know he has an attitude but I don’t care.

Chris POV:

I’ve been tossing and turning for hours. This couch is extremely uncomfortable and too small for my 6’2 frame. Robyn is seriously wilding. Forget this I’m sleeping in my room tonight. I left the blankets on the couch, there’s no need for them in our bedroom.

I slowly and quietly opened the door to the bedroom. This is a shame I’m a grown ass man afraid of my woman rejecting me. Shockingly I make my way in successfully without Robyn protesting.

I slid underneath the thick comforter and inched closer to Robyn. I wrapped my arms around her and held her tight.

“Baby I’ve miss you so much.”

I say that because yeah she has been present in the flesh but I feel her mind is elsewhere. She has been going crazy between the wedding jitters and her horrible nightmares. She wasn’t responding but I know she’s awake.

I slowly raised her night gown with my hand and grazed her smooth skin with my fingertips.

I stroked her thick thighs and reached for her lace thong, and she opened her legs widely to grant me access. I placed my hand in her skimpy thong and began penetrating her with my fingers.

“Yeah that’s right open up for daddy baby girl.” I growled lowly.

I began to pull her gown up more to get a better view of her beautiful breasts. My mouth became attached to her left breast as I still penetrated her with my fingers downtown. I began to suck her breast hungrily, she taste amazing like honey.

“Mmm baby I love the way you taste. You are daddy’s favorite treat.”

I love talking that shit to her because it amazes me how she has all the bite in the world but she’s so submissive to me in the bedroom. That always turns me on even more. I give her right breast the same treatment as the other as I managed to pull her undies all the way down. I began to kiss all over her body slowly. First I started with her forehead giving it two kisses, then I worked my way to her chest.

Licking her breast is a tease. I can’t help but to make a pit stop to bite her nipple. I made my way to her belly button. I teased her navel with my long tongue as I swirled around and licked inside.

I traced her body with my tongue and finally made my way downtown preparing for my feast.

“God thank you for this meal I’m about to receive, I know I’m not worthy.” I said a silent prayer before diving in her box. I darted her with my tongue and her pussy is my personal target.

I licked the outskirts of her lips hungrily. I wanted to take my time to appreciate my baby’s body. To be honest it’s been a while since we’ve been intimate. My tongue was running around her wildly as if it’s the Tasmanian Devil.

“Baby please stop. Chris I can’t take it.” She cried out but I didn’t let up.

I continued to slurp and suck on her until her lips swelled. I opened her lips with my tongue and slowly stuck it in her tight hole. I know she’s on the brink of an orgasm at this point. I played peek a boo with her box and my tongue.

“Baby I’m…” I began to slurp harder when she tried to inform me of her orgasm. She started shaking beneath me and I’m enjoying every moment of it.

She released a high pitched screech as her juices flowed in my mouth. Her chest heaved up and down as she tried to catch her breath. I gave her time to regroup and she began pulling my boxers down.

“I want to feel you inside of me daddy.” She purred like a kitten and began stroking my dick making it spring to life.

I passionately kissed her and laid her on her back. I slid inside of her fitting perfectly like a glove. She feels so good. I began to stroke her nice and slow.

“Baby I’ve missed this so much.” I groaned truthfully. She’s the only woman that has ever possessed the power to have me weak in the knees.

“I’ve missed you too Chris.”

I rotated my hips in a rhythmic motion making sure I hit her g spot. I sped up my pace and she threw her head back. We reached our peak in unison and I internally smiled at a job well done. Our love making was all night and it crept into the morning sun. Her body will always feel great against to mines.

Chapter 1: Try Me.

Naoki (Nae)

“Chris, you seriously should stop. You’ve been messing with that damn girl since 9th grade. Leave her alone.” I said sternly to Chris.

This girl has been through hell and back, because of him.

“Man, nah.” I sucked my teeth, and shook my head. My best-friend is a bully. A big ass bully.

“Why you messing with her anyway?” He looked down up at me, and smacked his lips.

“Man, I don’t wanna talk about it. Change the subject. You get on my nerves Nae.” I put my hand over my chest, and moved back a little.

“Well damn! When shots are thrown!!!” I yelled, making the same face that the girl made on a meme from instagram.

“Shutup.” He mumbled, while chuckling. I scrunched up my face, and snatched my phone off of his bed.

“Owe, let me get away from yo grumpy ass and go chill with bae downstairs.” He sat up, and looked at me.

“How is my momma bae?” I chuckled.

“See, I was talking about Ty, but Momma J is bae too!” I said, before skipping out of his room.

“I'ma tell her you said that!” He yelled from upstairs.

“Tell her!” I reached the bottom of the stairs, and my eyes landed on the love of my life. Ty.

We’ve been friends since kindergarten, but we aint start dating til’ we were in the 8th grade.

I took him to meet my parents one day, and they thought this fool was related to me or something. He was high, so his eyes were low. They already chink ass hell, so yea, he looked like one of us. But they love him, now.

“There ya ass go!” He said, getting up off the couch, and jogging over to me. He opened his arms for me, and I fell into them.

“Ayo ma, gimme kiss.” I said, trying to sound like Stevie J, but failed.

“Stop with that gay shit, but foreal.” I chuckled, and grabbed his face, slipping my tongue into his mouth. His hands roamed over my body, as our lips tongues wrestled.

“What the hell is going on in here?” Momma J’s said. She sounded close. Real close.

I looked to the side of us, and she was right there, causing me to jump.

“Momma, is that you? I miss–” She quickly cut me off, and swatted my hand away as I tried to hug her.

“Mhm, y'all better not let me catch y'all doing anything.” She warned.

“Yes ma'am.” Ty and I said in unison. She smiled, and pointed to the door, leaving Ty and I confused.

“Sorry babies, y'all gotta leave. I’m about to clean up.” Well at least she kicked us out in a nice way.

We said our bye’s then we bounced.

“She kicked us out so damn smooth, yo.” Ty stated.

I nodded, and chuckled.


I looked downstairs and sucked my teeth. This nigga Ty said he was still here, ole lying ass nigga. Shaking my head at his lying ass, I scratched the top of my head out of boredom.

I grabbed my keys off of the couch, and walked outside to my car. After everything was situated, I started the car, and drove off.  Turning on my radio, I started bumping some of that PAC.

Riding around with nothing to do or no where to go, I thought about all the possible places that I could go. Licking my lips, a few spots came to mind but they wasn’t satisfying me at the moment.

I should go to Raymond’s house since That’s where everybody is probably at anyways. We always go chill over there, because Raymond has his own house and we can do what we want over there.

If we go to my house, my momma kicks niggas out. If we go to Ty’s house, his momma be yelling all the time. And we cant go to Cameron’s house, cause Ty’s always threatning to fuck his momma. Dumb nigga!

Doing an illegal u-turn, I sped off in the direction of his house, not with out stopping at the near by  Wendy’s  and grabbing me some food.

Munching on my French fries, I took a sip out of my large strawberry lemonade, followed by a bite out of my spicy chicken sandwich.  Driving and eating was nothing for me.

Dropping the top on my lambo, I continued to cruise to Raymond’s house and stuff my face. I hope them niggas got the snacks cause I’m bringing Bookoo weed.

Staring at the full ziplock bag of purp, I smiled at the thought of getting high. There’s nothing better than getting high on a rainy Saturday night and chilling with your niggas.

Sucking my teeth, It clicked to me on who lives with Raymond. His bitch ass, pussy ass sister Raye. Cutting my appetite, I chewed the food that was in my mouth and threw the rest out the window, not giving a fuck that I just hit someone’s car.

Cackling at how childish I was, I swerve into the left lane and sped up so the driver wouldn’t try to tell me anything. Drifting into Raymond’s neighborhood, I pulled up in front his house and hopped out of my car .

Noticing everyone else’s cars, I got out my own and locked the doors. Walking to the front door, I raised my hand to knock but didn’t have to when Ty opened the door with a toothy grin plastered on his face.

“Thought I heard your car la bitch.” he dapped me up. Pushing his head back, it went flying into the door causing me to laugh loud af.

“I told you bout that bitch shit son..” I shook my head waking past him, going farther into the house.

Jumping on my back he tackled me to the grown, starting a while wrestling match. Laughing, I pinned him down on the grown with my butt sitting on his head. Holding still, I farted close to his mouth.

Getting up, I ran around the mini table into the dinning room to get away from his crazy ass. Peaking from around the bar, I made sure the coast was clear before fixing my self up.

Walking into the living room, everybody was sitting around on the couch looking bored as shit. ”Aye my niggas!” I said all hype, trying to hype their asses up.

Turning to look at me, all their faces lit up in excitement. Speaking back, I took a seat on one of the empty love seats.  Propping my legs up, I kicked my shoes off and laid back.

“What’s up y’all?” I questioned as they all looked at me with a slight smirk. Eyeing them weirdly, I heard commotion coming from the top of the stair case.

Averting my eyes towards them, I watched as Raye came down the steps with some pink booty shorts on, her hair in a high bun & a crop top on with her house booties.

Standing directly in front of me, she eyed me up and down through her nerdy ass glasses. ”Can I help you?” I questioned.

“You’re in my seat and I would like to have it back if you don’t mind..” she stated, crossing her arms. That’s why them niggas was eyeing me weirdly, cause I was in her seat.

Chuckling,”You got up and I took your spot. Get over it bitch..” I mumbled pulling the bag of purp from out my shirt.

“ You gonna stop talking to me any kind of way and learn some manners. Now get your stupid ass up and give me back my damn seat!” she spat, shocking us all. Only making this shit more fun for me. Rubbing up and down her arms, I knew she was nervous.

Licking my lips  at how sexy she looked fussing at me, I nodded my head and stood up but not for her to sit back down, but for her to follow me. Pinching her side hard af, she knew I meant business.

Throwing my phone in my previous seat or shall I say miss ”I wanna boss up”  seat , I signaled for to follow me up the stairs. “Don’t none of you nosey muhfuckas follow and try to be nosey either or I swear you can get it to.” I threatened.

Yanking at Raye’s arm, I dragged her tiny ass up the stairs in search for an empty room, matter fact ”Where’s your room?” I questioned with a slight mug.

“No..” she muttered. Slanging her against the wall, I made sure she hit her head nice and hard. Hearing the beautiful sound of a thud, I eyed her intensively.

“I said, where is your room?” I gritted in her face. Reaching over to the right , she twisted the door knob to I’m assuming her room door & pushed it open.

Scoping it out, it was indeed hers once I spotted the wall full of pictures of her, friends, family,etc.  Pushing her body into the room, I smirked at the light dent her head put into it.

Shortly walking into the room after her, I slammed her bed room door and locked it. Watching her jump, I chuckled at how nervous she was from being all alone with me. Pussy bitch I swear.

“Now you would think out of all people I’ll be the one you be the nicest to. But nope, you just had to try me today didn’t you?” I asked getting all in her face.

Turning her face away from me, I forcefully turned it back causing her to let out a low painful groan.”I asked your ass a question Raye..”

”I’m sorry..” she apologized looking me in my eyes. Chuckling in her face, I didn’t wanna hear that I’m sorry shit. Tf was that?

“Oh you’re sorry?” picking her body up, I pushed her up against the wall with my hands wrapped tightly around her neck.

Gasping for air, she beat at my hands and scratched at my fingers trying to get me to let go, but that only seemed to make my grip around her neck tighter.

Titling my head to the side, I watched in amusement as her eyes turned red from straining her self. Finally letting go she tried to drop to the floor but I caught her.

“Next time you even think about telling me some smart mouthed ass shit, I swear,” I paused to slap at her thigh.

“I will break your fucking jaw..” I finished off my sentence. Placing one hand behind her neck and the other over her mouth I twisted her neck, getting a loud crack as an result.

Letting go, I watched as she cried silently in pain because of what I just did.” I swear you’re such a bully.” she sniffled.

Raising my hand to either smack or punch her, I couldn’t decide so I placed it back down to my side. What she couldn’t seem to realize was I’m an even bigger bully out of school, but she just couldn’t  seem to get that through her head.

“I’ll see your ugly ass whenever.” I laughed in her face before breaking her glasses. Throwing em down on the ground, I walked out of her room and down the steps.

Stepping back into the living room everyone stopped their conversations and turned their heads towards me. Smirking, I returned to MY seat and sat back with my hands resting behind my head.

“What you did to my sister man?” Raymond asked with a small grin and chuckle.

Licking over my lips,  “I just handled some business now who ready to smoke?” I mumbled lifting the bag in the air.


"Shit!” I hissed as I tried to move my neck, but failed. It was hurting like crazy thanks to Chris. Bully of the Year.

I should tell Raymond, but it’s too late, and I don’t wanna be a snitch. I wanna tell Chris to fuck off, I really do, but it’s hard. I just tried to, and you see what he did.

Sighing and rolling my eyes, I grabbed my phone off of the dresser, and made my way downstairs. As soon as I hit the last step, I couldn’t see anything, due to all the smoke in the air. Fucking pot-heads. I scrunched up my face, and attempted to get all of the smoke out of my face. They could’ve went in the backyard or something.

I shook my head, and went in the kitchen, going straight for the freezer. Moving everything around, I tried to look for an ice pack, but I saw none. I knew we had at-least one, cause I put it in here this morning.

“Looking for this?” I turned around, and saw Chris standing there with my ice pack in his hand, smirking. Ugh, I wish he would go home.

 "Could you please give it here, my neck hurts!“ He chuckled, and threw the ice pack on the floor.

"Should’ve never came at me like that then.” He shrugged, walking off. I huffed in annoyance, and grabbed the ice pack off of the floor, before placing it on my neck.

Sighing in relief, I made my way into the living room, because they had stopped smoking. Looking around for Raymond, I sat by him, and put my head on his shoulder, when I found him. I did not feel good.

“Yo, you alright?” He asked, sitting up and feeling on my forehead, which shocked the hell out of me. He never showed me any attention. You know, the attention that a brother would show a sister. That little bond. But yea, we’ve never had a bond, he never checks on me or anything, so why is he doing it now?

Plus, before Raymond graduated, he went to the same school as us. He knew how Chris bullied me, and everything. He probably still knows. And guess what? He’s never said anything. He’s always saying how I need to ‘man up’ or 'if I wasn’t so weak’ that Chris wouldn’t be so mean to me. That’s just pure bullshit, though. Raymond could still take up for me, and Chris has no reason to be mean to me. I’ve done nothing to him.

I pushed those thoughts to the back of my head, because I could never stay mad at anyone. You see how nice I a–

I was cut off by a remote being thrown at my head. “I know you heard that nigga Raymond calling your name!” Chris laughed loudly.

I sucked my teeth, and faced Raymond. “Can you kick him out?” I whispered, and just like I thought, he shook his head no.  I rolled my eyes and got off of the couch, going outside to sit on the front porch.

I need to get my own place, ASAP. I’m tired of staying with him. He doesn’t even protect me, so what am I staying here for? I might as well go move back in with my dad, but Raymond says I cant.

“Bye Raye, I’m leaving. Don’t miss me too much. I’ll see yo weak ass tomorrow.” I heard Chris say as he left out of the house, and walked down to his car.

Finally I can go back in.

Without saying anything back, I jogged back into the house and went to the living room. There was only that girl Nae in here.

“Where did everybody else go?” I asked, nervously. I never actually talked to her before, and I’m hoping that she wasn’t mean like Chris, because they were best-friends.

“You don’t have to be nervous around me, I’m nice. But they’re upstairs.” She chuckled, patting the spot next to her for me to come and sit.

“I’m sorry, it’s just Chris.. how could you be best-friends with someone so mean?” She chuckled, but I was dead ass.

“He’s not mean to us, he’s only mean to you. I tried to ask him why, but apparently.. #thatsnoneofmybusiness.” She said, sipping out of her cup, causing me to laugh.

“I like you..” I smiled. She returned the favor. “Yea, I like you a lot better when Chris is gone. You talk more.” She admitted, causing me to sigh.

“Because he makes me feel like complete shit, this has to stop..” I mumbled, not sure enough if she heard me or not.

Today, my coworker learned who I was.

Soooooo, I had told my store manager that I needed the 29th off because I have court, and that I was actually super excited so of course she was like ???, because who is ever excited for court, so I told I her to google “movemojito” and this was Friday as I was leaving.
This morning when I got in she said she couldn’t find it, so I pulled it up on my phone and one of my coworkers came in and I was like “I’ve seen that video” and I was like “yeah dude, I go to court with her soon”, and his face….y'all his face😂
He was just like “YOOOOOOOO THAT WAS YOU?!” And I was like “unfortunately.” and he actually came and dapped me up😭
He goes “I seen that shit on worldstar and I was dying”
The store manager got an absolute kick out of the whole thing😂

Chapter 19: Baby.


*2 weeks later*

“Buns!!! Whea’ you at doe?” I yelled walking in her always crowded ass crib. Shit stay packed. I see why Raye’s always gone.

“My room!!!” I heard her sing from down the stairs.
I smiled and shook my head running up the stairs. I ain’t notice people in the living room, but Raymond loud ass called out to me.

“Yo nigga, what’s good? How you gonna come in and not dap?” He called out.

I looked over and laughed, “My fault I ain’t peep you.” I said running back down the stairs to him.

He dapped me up,“You need to forget about Raye big head ass and come smoke with us.”

I looked over at Chris and shook my head at Raymond. 

“Nah I’m good.”

“Babe, come upstairs what’s taking you so long?!!” Raye whined from behind me.

“Man, let the boy have an L with us! You stingy Raye! You know he my boyfriend too!” Raymond said stomping his foot making me bust out laughing along with everyone else.

“Chill, I ain’t with that gay shit.” I said laughing.

“Really August? My brother? You gonna cheat on me with my brother after I done had two of your kids, and we got another one on the way?! I thought I was your cinnamon apple!!!” Raye screamed with serious face making me and Raymond fall out on the floor dying.

“Yo, y'all are stupid forreal.” Ty said choking on his juice from laughing.
See this why I loved being with Raye and her bro, these niggas were clowns. I found myself here all the time now since Raye and I started chilling more. Of course I want for us to be more than friends but I’m not pressuring her. She keeps how she feels on the table, and that’s all a yung'n really needs. 

I leaned my back up against the wall, and Raye climbed into my lap. 

“Let’s go upstairs now,” she whispered in my ear. 

“Woah buns, you sure you want that with all these people in the house?” I said lowly smirking at her. She can’t get enough of the D.

“Imma be quiet.” she said making me chuckle.

“Y'all bout to fuck ain’t y'all? I’m tired of hearing Raye screaming bout some ‘oh August’ 'right there’, do that shit tomorrow.” Raymond whined. 

“Stop cock blocking, my nigga.” I said standing up following closely behind Raye.

I bit my lip watching her ass jiggle, “Stop staring so hard Auggie!”

“What, I can’t stare at what’s mine?” I asked making her giggle.

I could faintly hear as we headed upstairs Chris complaining about me being there to Raymond. That nigga was never satisfied. He had Alisha sitting right next to him, but his main concern was still what I’m doing to Raye. We got in Raye’s room, and she slammed the door before roughly pushing me up against it.

“Damn girl.” I said as she roughly pulled my belt out my jeans and unbuttoned them before pulling my shirt off.

She giggled and pulled me off the door pushing me onto her king sized bed. She had on this sheer black top that showed her lace bra, and these tight black jeans shorts. Damn she was so bad. Her long purple hair flowed down her back, and she swayed her hips slowly like she was dancing.

Baby girl was giving me my own personal strip tease. I sat up on my elbows so I wouldn’t miss not one thing.

 "You know I missed you the past few days.“ she said slowly removing her shirt.

"Did you? How much?” I asked watching her unbutton her shorts.
She turned around and looked me as she pushed them down poking her ass out for me. She had on no panties so all I saw was nothing but that beautiful pink pussy.

“Oh, I’m about to show you..”

she said unclipping her bra throwing it at me.
She turned around and walked toward me climbing onto the bed. She attacked my lips with hunger, and I returned with the same exact fire. She moaned into the kiss making my erection grow as she rolled her hips on top of me. I used the hand that wasn’t occupying her waist to push my jeans and briefs down.
I flipped us over so that I could properly remove my bottoms. Once they were gone I reattached my lips to Raye’s kissing along her neck to her breast.

 "Mm baby..“ she moaned quietly placing her left hand on the back of my head as I roughly sucked her nipple.

I fondled with her right breast as I nibbled on her left.  I switched my stance giving attention her right, and fondling with her left before trailing kisses down her stomach. I raised up a little bit and looked at her as I rubbed my fingers against her clit. 

"Fuck babeh’, you so wet.” I grunted. 


"What you need babeh’?” I asked slipping my index finger inside of her. I groaned out as she moaned from how wet and warm she felt around my finger.

“Mm I-I JESUS!” She cried rolling her hips on my finger.

I added another finger, and a loud strained moaned left her mouth because she was breathing so hard. I licked my lips watching her and she writhed her hips on my fingers, but I was moving them at a deliciously slow pace. I loved watching consumed in complete pleasure ridden frustration. When she finally did release it was the sexiest sight to see. 

“Aug p-pleasssseeee!” she begged me whining.

As much as I wanted to keep teasing her, I couldn’t handle it anymore because I wanted to be deep inside her. I pulled my fingers from inside of her and put them in her mouth letting her suck her juices off while I dove my tongue into her sea. 

She arched her back and almost jolted off the bed,“fuuuuuuuuuuckkk!”
I focused my tongue on her clit, and she pressed her haven closer to my face. I slipped my tongue deep inside her making her legs shake. 

“I’m about to cum baby!!!” She screamed out pulling on my thick head of curls. I swirled my tongue around her bud, sucking on it hard. With in seconds her whole body trembled as her orgasm hit her letting her juices pour out of her.

“Mmmm …. mmmm … mmmmm.” she whined bucking her hips.
I lapped up her juices before replacing my body on top of hers and attaching my lips to hers. 

“Give it to me.” she mumbled onto my lips making me chuckle.

“Your supposed to be showing me how much you missed me.” I said smirking at her.
She wrapped her legs around my waist flipping us over. I bit my lip as she rolled her hips on me. She angled my dick at her opening and slid down before pecking my lips. She turned around without removing me from inside of her. Then she flipped her purple hair to the side and arched her back. 

“Mm you feel so good inside of me Auggie!” She moaned biting her lip looking at me as she rolled her hips.

I couldn’t think straight the way her walls were squeezing my dick. On top of that she was so wet and warm. I groaned as I watched her work my dick like a pro. I gripped her ass in my hands thrusting my hips up to meet hers.

“Raye, fuck girl!” I grunted now squeezing my waist. 

“Pussy good ain’t it?” She asked smiling at me making me chuckle.

“Keep playing Raye.” I said slapping her ass.

Every time she came up, I used my hands to slam her back down. Her moans and my groans were constant and hella loud. I know them niggas downstairs heard Raye loud ass bucking on my dick like crazy. She rolled her hips in the sexiest way every time she came in contact with the base of my dick. A nigga was hella close to bussin’. 

“Fuck.” I grunted when I felt her walls start to squeeze my shaft tighter and tighter with each thrust.

“AUGUST IM GONNA CUM BABY!!” she screamed as she started bouncing rougher making me groan.

“Cum with me, let me feel that shit drip on this dick.” I grunted slamming her down harder on me.

She started whining her waist on my dick, and that’s when I lost all my senses. 

“Mmmm Auuugustttt!!” She whined releasing profusely on my shaft.

“Ahhhhhhhhh fuck!” I grunted as I released inside of her hard.
She fell back against my chest, and sucked on her neck lightly.

 "Damn you really did miss me.“ I said making us both laugh.  

"I told you I missed you Jody, come on carry me into the shower so we can go eat. We going out tonight.” she said moaning as she pulled herself off of my still twitching member.

“Where da’ fuck we going? I want some more pussy.” I protested.

She smacked her teeth “Pussy, lussy lets go daddy we got things to do.”

“You know I love it when you call me daddeh’ buns.” I said putting my face in her neck.

“Yeah, well come on so I can feed daddeh for giving me that good good.” she said making me fall out.

“You know I really love your silly ass, only you would want to crack jokes about sex after sex.” I said making her giggle.

“That’s why I’m your baybay.” she said turning so she could kiss my lips.
I chuckled, 

“You right about that.” I said kissing her again this time way more meaningful before picking her up to head into the shower.

I sat her on the sink, and turned on the hot water. Once she secured her hair up to her liking I picked up again and put her directly in front of the hot water. I watched her shower and I smiled thinking to myself I could get used to this. 


“Damn, are these my true’s that you wore that day?” I asked Raye as I looked at myself in her mirror. 

“Yea and I like how you didn’t put on no drawls. Ya print showing and everything.” Raye laughed as I smirked at her. 

“I really ain’t got a choice tho, none of my shit over here.” I shrugged as I grabbed the muscle tee that Raye gave me.

“We’re going back to your house anyways..” She said, grabbing her house key and purse. She was all dressed up and I’m over here looking like a damn bum. Once I noticed that she ain’t have on a bra, I looked at her like she was stupid.

“Go put a damn bra on, you making it noticeable that you got nipple rings.” I laughed as she sucked her teeth and waved me off. 

“That’s the whole point of getting them." 

"Whatever man, let’s go chill downstairs for a little bit before we go..” I suggested as she widened her eyes. I knew what she was thinking.

“You sure? We ain’t go–” I cut her off. 

“I ain’t mean chill with all them. You know I fuck with your bro and Ty though.” I said making her raise an eyebrow.

“I’m hungry anyways, and your about to cook for me.” she said making me smack my teeth.

“Man I ain’t your personal chef, what you think this is?” I asked following her down the steps.

She turned around once we got in the living room and faced me, “I made you cum, so you gotta cook for me!”

“Yeah, we all heard.” Ty said scrunching up his face making me laugh.

“Awh, what you want me to throw it back for you Ty? You jealous?” Raye asked making him smirk at her.

“You couldn’t take this dick even if I put the tip in baby.” he said making everybody chime in with a unified “ohhhhh”.

“Please this box so good I’ll make you moan like a bitch. Just ask my nominees here.” she said pointing at me and Chris.

I grabbed her, “Dont play with me.” I whispered in her ear.

“I’m just playing daddy.” she said cutely to me squeezing my hand.

“It was aight..” Chris chimed in.

“I rest my case.” Ty said making everyone laugh but Raye and I.

“This nigga can front all he want, but you clearly heard today’s events to know facts.” Raye joked.

“Come on buns daddeh’ bout to feed you. But when I’m done just know you paying me in some more pussy.” I said lightly slapping her ass.

“See Ty I told I was good, look at him tryna bargain for more.” she said making me laugh.

“Yo, shut up that’s why your ass limping now!” I said making Ty laugh with me.
She smacked her teeth and headed into the kitchen. I followed behind her and headed toward the fridge. 

“What chu’ want your man to cook you babeh?” I asked looking around for something to make.

“Ehhh just make me that chicken spread thing with the lettuce and put some chips at the side please.” she said sitting on the kitchen island smiling at me.
Spending all this time with Raye really made a nigga feel good. She wasn’t my girl or anything, but I was still happy. I wanted her for a long time and now that I got her it’ll be like hell if I let her go. I seriously don’t know how this nigga Chris let her fall through his fingers. I would’ve been at shorty house 24/7 begging her to take me back. Call me a bitch ion care, but Raye is perfect.

“Here you go babe,” I said handing her a plate with what she asked for on it.
She got so excited, 

“Thank you!!!”

I chuckled, “You that hungry?” I asked watching her stuff her face.
I kissed her cheek.

“You know Imma make you my wifey soon right?”

She blushed and continued eating her sandwich. “You know I’m waiting for you to ask me right?" 

"Oh yeah? Shit, I ain’t know a nigga was valid why you ain’t tell me?” I asked poking her sides making her giggle.

“I don’t know, I figured when the time was right everything would fall into place. I don’t want to push you away.” she said looking down at her plate.I grabbed her plate and put it next to her before lifting her off the counter. I lifted her head up and kissed her.

 "You making a nigga way to soft. I’m a fucking thug Silver!“ I said looking hard making her laugh.

"But nah, you can’t push me away unless you tell me this ain’t what you want. The ball is in your court now.” I said letting her know I was letting her call the shots.

“Awh Auggie wanna settle down and make me wifey! It’s king overdue though cause I already had two  of your kids. I was tired of them asking when Imma marry daddy.” she said making me smack my teeth and laugh.

“You had to ruin the moment?” I asked making her giggle and nod her head yes.

“I’m just playing, but I’m hearing you. I don’t want you to go anywhere. Unfortunately I like you.” she said rolling her eyes.

I chuckled and started pecking her lips just how’d she do me when she wanted to wake me up in the morning. “I luh you buns.” I said grabbing her real close.

“I-I love you too.” she said back to me after a few seconds.
I looked at her, and she smiled before kissing her deeply. Never thought I’d hear her say it back. 

“Let’s get out of here, go to the cave. Imma go grab your beach bag.”

“Alright meet you in the car.” she said grabbing her plate to wash. Once I went upstairs to grab some of her things, it only took me a good five minutes. A couple of minutes later I was done, and I caught Raye heading towards the door but I stopped her. I had to get a picture, she looked so good.

“Let me take a picture of you.” I smiled as she nodded and stood by the wall. While she posed, she accidentally moved her hand while I snapped it but the pic was still cute. Uploading it to ig, I couldn’t think of a caption so I just tagged her. 

augustalsina:  @rayeisbae 

“Okayyyy, let’s go now. In tired of being here.” She whined, dragging me out of the house 

Damn today is a good day! I thought to myself.


“These lil hoes nasty.” I chuckled to myself as I was going through my dms. There was hella nudes in here that I ain’t even ask for. There was even videos. I’d be a hoe ass nigga if I exposed they asses. Nah I ain’t gone do them like that though. Some of em were kind of sexy.

“Who?” Alisha asked as she looked at my phone and scrunched up her face.

“Ew, control your hoes Chris.” She said, laughing a bit. I’m glad she wasn’t tripping about that shit.

“My hoes is your hoes.” I joked as I gave her my phone. Her messy ass was replying back to them. Some replies were mean as hell, some were funny, and some were nice.

“Here. Could you go fix me something to eat please? I ain’t ate all day and I’m starting to feel mad dizzy.” She said as she handed me my phone back, making a cute little sad baby face.

“I gotchu’.” Giving her a quick peck on the lips I walked to the kitchen but stopped mid-way once I heard Raye and August talking. I ain’t wanna just walk in, it’d be mad awkward.

“I love you, buns.” I heard August say as I rolled my eyes.

“I-I love you too.” I heard Raye say after a few seconds. Widening my eyes, my heart dropped. She gotta be playing. It’s only a couple of weeks later and she already telling this nigga she love him? She gotta be fucking kidding me!

Once I saw August walk out the kitchen, I was glad he ain’t notice me cause I ain’t feel like arguing with his bitch ass today.

“So you love him Raye?” I asked her as I entered the kitchen. Once she heard my voice, she turned around started stuttering. I know I said I was gonna stay out her way, but goddamn.

“Chris just g–” I quickly cut her off by putting my hand up. Walking up to her, I held her arms above her head as I looked down at her brown orbs.

“So you ain’t got love for me no more?” I asked as she sucked her teeth.

“Did I say that, Chris?” She asked as she looked up at me, licking her pink plump lips.

“Well if you do, forget about yall friend zone ass relationship and let’s work on us.” I said making her chuckle a little bit before her face went back to a straight face.

“No Chris, you don’t des–” The sound of Alisha coughing made Raye cut herself off.

“You might wanna go check on your bitch.” Raye said, smirking.

“Don’t call her a bitch.” I blurted out on accident. I was thinking but I didn’t wanna say it out loud cause I knew she would get mad.

“Oh so I can’t call her a bitch, but it’s okay for you to call me one? Wo–” The sound of my phone vibrating cut her off again. Damn I was actually trying to talk to her and there kept being interruptions.

Looking at my phone on the counter, the first thing I saw was a text from Alisha that made me furrow my eyebrows. “Get the fuck on Chris, you got some fucking nerve.” Raye spat as she seen the text. Pushing me away from her, I tried to grab her but she ran away.

Sighing out of frustration, I re-read the text to make sure that my eyes wasn’t just playing tricks on me.

Boo Thang  😜😍🐱💦🙊👪-  Chris.. 😔 I just threw up. You think you could get me a pregnancy test? I’m so sorry 😣

Putting my phone back in my pocket, I went to the bathroom that was closer to the kitchen and found Alisha haunched over the toilet still throwing up. Holding her hair up for her, I waited until she was done to let go of it.

“You good?” I asked Alisha as I kissed her forehead. Shaking her head no, she started whining.

“No, I feel horrible again.” She whined, wrapping her arms around my torso. Sighing, I wish there was something I could do to help but there wasn’t. Only thing I could do was comfort her.

“Want me to go to the store now?” I asked, sitting up in her bed. Nodding, I bent down to give her a quick peck before I left.

“I’ll hurry up, alright?” I said as she nodded. Grabbing my keys out of my pocket, I jogged towards the door and made my way to my car. Once I got in, my music blared throughout the speakers, scaring the shit out of me cause the first thing I heard was gunshots. I need to start turning my shit down when I pull up.

On my way to the store, I couldn’t stop thinking about hearing Raye tell this nigga she loved him. It killed me because I still wanted her so bad. All the name calling, and yelling was my way of dealing with the fact that I lost her. I sighed turning down the music so I could call her. My palms started to sweat because I was nervous wondering if she’d at least pick up.

“What is it Chris? Don’t you have a baby mother to attend to?” She snapped making me crack a smile.

Raye seriously was a tough cookie these days. Shit got me going when she would come for me like that honestly “You gonna talk to me or you gonna keep trying to argue? Raye it’s been almost 3 months can we talk forreal?” I asked hoping she’d agree.

“Fine, talk.” she said being short.

“Not on the phone, meet me at my house in about 10 mins. Don’t have me waiting Silver Raye Lovins.” I said sternly.

“Whatever nigga.” she said hanging up the phone.

I quickly made my way to the store, bought three pregnancy tests, and got in the car going to the my crib real quick. Once I parked, I killed the ignition. About two minutes later Raye pulled up and got in my car closing the door. She was glowing, and she looked so damn good. I don’t know what I was thinking letting August get her.

“Raye, Chris.” we both started at the same time but ended up laughing.

“Go first.” she said smiling for a second before looking down at her fingers.

I chuckled, “Remember when I took you Dave & Buster’s and won you that tweety? I still have it in my room. It smells just like you. Would it be too much if I said I missed you so much it hurts?” I asked looking at her trying to read her emotions.

“You’ve called me every kind of bitch and slut that exists these past three months. I went to him because I have no one else. I’ve always been by myself because of how you made me look in school, but it’s ok cause I forgave and forgot. I let myself give you a chance and I began to love you. But in the midst of all that nothing ever really changed except you didn’t bully me anymore and we were intimate. You still talked to me anyway may not have been that bad, but you still did it. But what took the cake was after everything when I told you I loved you, you couldn’t handle it. I had to wait until you felt it was Chris’s time to feel love for Raye too. And on Christmas when she gave you those shoes you looked at her like she was the only girl in the universe. For the life of me I couldn’t get why you didn’t make her leave because it wasn’t like you couldn’t. But no, you used your family as an excuse because you deep down wanted her there. And then when she said you fucked her I knew she was lying, but I could see how much putting her in check was a dilemma for you. So I decided to let you be great.”

She paused and put her hair behind her ears as always. She took a breath and continued “You love her far more than you do me or could ever. At least this is what you show me. The first time I even let him touch me was an entire month after we broke up, and we still didn’t have sex. It took me two months because a part of me was still thinking of you. You’re selfish Chris. You want what you want when you want it, and that isn’t fair.” She said wiping her eyes from the stream of tears rolling down her cheeks.

I felt like shit. I never knew Raye felt like this, and honestly three months ago I probably wouldn’t have been willing to listen. It wasnt that I cared for her less, I just didn’t want things to end with Raye the way they did with Alisha. But, it’s like everything I touch I fucked it up quick.

“I’m sorry. I honestly never meant to make you feel like she was ever superior to you. I was scared of what I was feeling for you. You made me vulnerable and I didn’t like it, so I resorted to way in which I could push you away a bit. This shit ain’t easy man. I got you who I want to shut the world down with telling someone else she loves them and it’s driving me mad. You gotta give me a chance to at least show you I can be a better man.” I said grabbing her hand.

“You know three weeks ago I would’ve jumped at that, but I don’t think it’s right. I enjoyed our moments, and the sex was so damn good,” she said making me smile.

“But we’re in different places now. You could possibly be a dad, and well me.. I’m actually so happy. I forgive you and I’m hoping we could try to be friends because you will be seeing me at UCLA as well seeing as I got in. Be good Chris, be good without me.”

I sighed, “So that’s it huh? You really love him? You can honestly look me in the eye and tell me you don’t love me like that anymore?”

She nodded, “I’m sorry Chris, I’m so sorry.” she said kissing my lips softly.

“You got Chinese?” She asked excitedly as she looked in the backseat.

Grabbing the bag that it was in, she opened the box and looked around for a spoon before I thumped her on the forehead.

“You didn’t even ask me first..” I chuckled as she wore a salty expression on her face. Foreal though, how she just gonna take my food.

“I shouldn’t have to ask, now can you please give me a fork?” Pointing to the fork that I was already eating with, she scrunched up her face.

“Eh, you probably been doing all kinds of things with that nasty girl. I’m not eating after you. I heard you talking about her to Ty. I’m good.” She said, making me chuckle. Didn’t she just kiss me though? And she just got done sucking and fucking August, but I ain’t complaining.

“Why you kiss me then?” I asked as she looked in her purse for a fork. Once she found one, she shrugged at me.

“Mhm, fuck this is so clutch right now.” She moaned, making my dick jump a little. I ain’t heard her moan in a long time and that was so fucking sexy. Upstairs don’t count.

“Let me take this and can you take me back home?” She said as she lightly smacked on her food. She had sauce around her mouth and everything. She eats like a 2 years old.

“You want too damn much, but ok.”

“You still got Frozen in your house?” Raye smirked as I shook my head and did the same. We watched that shit like 1,000 times. Once I thought about Alisha and I watching it a couple of days ago, my smile dropped. I really shouldn’t be with Raye right now, but we needed this.

“Yea, but I gotta go get Alisha..” I sighed, looking down at my feet.

“Oh ok..” Raye mumbled, grabbing her things to get back in I’m guessing August’ car.

“See you around.” I faintly smiled.

“See you around.” She said before giving me a quick peck on the lips.

She pulled away and smiled before opening the car door to leave but I grabbed her hand, “I love you Raye, I really do.” I sighed and turned on the car again heading back to Raymond’s to get Alisha.

Once I got outside I called her and told her to come on. This was personal so we were doing this at her house. If we were having a kid then I had to do right by her.

“What’s wrong baby?” Alisha asked softly rubbing my cheek.

“Just scared. We haven’t even graduated yet and here we go again you know.” I said tightening my hands in the wheel.

“Chris I didn’t want this to happen either I even took birth control to try and prevent it. Don’t be mad at me baby.” she said tears falling down her face.

“I’m not mad at you baby girl, just worried. Let’s just see what the test says, aight.”

I pulled off, and headed towards Alisha’s crib. Today just was not a nigga’s day. Things with Raye and I are really done. Like I can’t believe I fucked things up with her like this. Now what I thought was fun with Alisha turns into my possible fatherhood. What the fuck is life? I pulled up to Alisha’s place and handed her the bag as we headed inside for her to take the tests.

I sat in her room on the bed with my head in my palms. My heart was racing a million knots an hour. After about ten minutes Alisha didn’t come back so I went to the bathroom to make sure she was ok.

“Aye baby you ok?” I asked knocking on the door.

“Yeah.” I heard her sniffle from the other side of the door.

“Can I come in?” I asked putting my hand in the doorknob.

“Yeah..” she said as I heard her start to cry.

“Why you crying Lele? Come here.” I said picking her up off the floor sitting on the toilet with her.

“Chris I’m pregnant, I’m sorry. I’m ruining your life.” she cried into my chest.

“Aye, stop crying. We having a mini me. It’ll be aight, you aren’t ruining my life. We’ll do this together I’m not going anywhere I promise.” I said wiping her tears and pecking her lips.

I held her a while longer because she kept crying and shaking. I was going to be a dad. Is it fucked up to say I wish it was with Raye?

“Go to sleep babe, cause your head gone be hurting like crazy. You ever got a whooping then cried so hard that you got sleepy? Them be the best naps.” I said trying to cheer her up. A couple of seconds later I heard her soft chuckles causing me to smile.

“I love you, Chris.”

“Love you too.” I whispered in her ear before closing my eyes


Sliding on some sweats, because I had just got out of the shower, I went downstairs to fix Alisha and I something to eat. I hope she wasn’t expecting a big ass breakfast cause a nigga could barely cook. I burned my noodles once cause I forgot to put water in them.

Once I reached the kitchen, I saw Elijah sitting on the counter jamming to some J Cole. He was doing hand gestures and everything. Nigga was in the zone. When he noticed me, he took his beats off  and started talking. “What’s good, Chris?” He asked, holding his hand out to dap me.

“Nothing, stressed the fuck out.” I sighed, after dapping him back. Furrowing his eyebrows, he asked why and I hesitated on telling him. He would probably tell Alisha’s mom, but I guess I can trust this nigga.

“Alisha pregnant..” I mumbled as he looked at me like I had two heads.

“Man, I basically told you to keep ya dick in ya pants and I told her to keep her legs close. Yall motherfuckas’ don’t listen.” He sighed, shaking his head.

“Maaaaan, Alisha fine as fuck. You know ain’t neither one of us bout to do that.” I stated truthfully as he chuckled.

“But damn man, yall ain’t never heard of a condom?” He asked as I sucked my teeth. Don’t nobody wanna use no goddamn condom. That shit dead.

“Yea but..” I trailed off, trying to find the right choice of words to say but I couldn’t. It would’ve came out nasty either way.

“Ew, I know what you’re trying to say. But still, I warned yall. You know her moms bout to be mad as shit. Ain’t this like the second time?” He asked as I sighed and nodded. It would be pointless of her mom to send her to her dad’s like last time cause we’re seniors now. I was still worried about how she would react though.

“Alisha was up there beating herself up about it.” Mumbling a 'damn’, he shook his head.

“I thought yall wanted kids though?”

“Yea, but not now. We supposed to go to UCLA and she probably can’t be a dancer anymore. That’ll crush her.”

“It’s gone be okay man. Just focus on the positive.” He said as I nodded. He was right. I mean we wanted a baby, we got one now right?

“Good morning sleepy head, we was just talking about you.” Elijah said to Alisha as she rubbed the sleep out of her eyes. Walking over to him, he braced her in a big comforting hug.

“It’s gone be alright, baby.” He mumbled as he kissed her on the forehead.

“I know, it’s just that Chris talked about going to UCLA for years and I messed that up..” She said.

“I’m scared Eli!” she said squeezing him as tears fell from her eyes.

“Chris is supposed to play basketball,  and I’m supposed to dance. And mama’s gonna hate me. I-” she started to rant but her mom walked in the kitchen.

“Baby? What’s the matter come here,” her mom said trying to console her.

“Uh, baby.. Ion think she wants to tell you.” Eli said, giving her a small smile while trying to calm Alisha down.

“Aw come on baby, it can’t be that bad unless you’re pregnant.” She said as alisha started crying harder and Eli and I got quiet.

“Jesus Christ..” Her mom said as she stormed out of the kitchen.

“Eli go check on her, I got this.” I told him as he nodded and let Alisha go. Sitting her in my lap, I held her as she cried.

“Baby stop crying, that’s how we lost the baby last time.” I sighed as she wiped the tears that were on her face.

“Ok, I’m sorry.” She sniffled before grabbing my face to give me a quick peck on the lips.

“Just give your mom time. My mom’s gone be mad too but oh well.” I shrugged. I knew my mom was gone be mad but she just had to deal with it. She wanted me to finish college and shit first before I had a baby, but shit happens.

“You deserve some bomb ass head.” She said a few minutes later causing me to laugh loudly. She did give some bomb ass head though.

“Nah you do.” I said even though I’d rather fuck the shit out of her. She was flexible as fuck and she always did positions that I ain’t even know existed. Too bad her mom here.

“69?” She suggested as I nodded. Putting her on my back, I jogged up the stairs to her room and shut the door behind us. Locking it, I laid back on my back as I watched her strip out of her clothes. I needed this.


“What you wanna do today, baby?” I asked Alisha as I drove away from the her driveway. We had just got done packing some of her stuff cause she was gone be staying at my house for a few days since I told her to give her mom some space.

“Aren’t you supposed to go grocery shopping for your mom?”

“Oh yea, shit I forgot.” I chuckled, turning the radio up a little.

“Yea, just take me to the Sally’s by the Target you’re going to and I’ll be the happiest girl on Earth.” She cheesed.

“So you feeling better now?” I asked and she nodded.

“Yea, I guess I just needed that wonderful tongue of yours.” She smirked, wiggling her eyebrows.

“You a freak. You freakier than me and that’s maaaaad freaky.”

“Nah son, don’t even go there cause you eat a–” I quickly put my hand over her mouth and she licked causing me to snatch it away.

“You tried it Alisha.” I chuckled, as I turned up the radio a little louder. Twisting my face up in confusion as an old ass Pretty Ricky song blared throughout my speakers, I looked at Alisha. She the only person I know that listens to them still.

“Can you make it juicy for me?” Alisha sang as she tried to take my shirt off.

“We gone be in a car accident making it juicy if you don’t stop.” I chuckled as I turned the radio all the way down.

“I’m sorry.” She laughed as she leaned over to give me a quick peck on my cheek.

“Your horny ass..” I mumbled, shaking my head.

“Whatever. What do you want the baby to be, though?”

“A boy. Ima be stressed out if we have a girl.” I stated making her chuckle. Alisha and I are fine as hell so you know our daughter gone have all the good looks. I ain’t trying to be killing no lil niggas so I’ll pass on having a girl.


“You remember the first time I smashed?” I laughed as she rolled her eyes, trying to fight the smirk that was trying to appear on her face.  I’ll never forget that day. She was talkin’ mad shit, and that dick shut her ass right up. I had to turn some music up loud as hell so nobody would hear us.

“Eh, yea I remember that shit. You gave no fucks that you were taking my virginity. You were so rough and hardcore,” she paused to laugh.

“It happened right after we showered. We were arguing all damn day, you had pissed me off to the max. I think it was cause you couldn’t keep your eyes off that girl’s ass. How many girls did you fuck anyway? I heard from the football team that you fucked almost the whole school. You’re a hoe.” She laughed, shaking her head.

“Oh yea, cause you were pissing me off too with all that damn yelling and I was rough cause that got yo ass to stop talking shit. And you can’t even deny that her ass was stupid fat. And Ion’ even remember. They thought I was different though, so they let me smash.” I chuckled lowly as she shook her head.

“They dumb as hell. If you would’ve did that shit to me, your dick would’ve been cut off, no doubt.” Her ass was telling the truth, too.

“I know, that’s why I ain’t do it to you. Plus, you were important. I wouldn’t do you like that.” I said, pulling up to Sally’s.

Turning my car off, we both got out and went into Sally’s. I know what the fuck she came here for. She came here for the same thing every time. Eyelashes. She always complaining about how she doesn’t have any eyelashes so she wears fake ones. If we leave the house and she doesn’t have any on, she wears sunglasses. It ain’t that serious to me.

“Babe should I get these so they can look more natural?” Alisha asked holding up a pair that were smaller than the ones that she usually gets.

“Yea cause them big ass bat wings that be on your eyes ain’t gonna cut it. How the fuck you see anything with those on?” I joked as she rolled her eyes.

“Ugh, fuck you.” She mumbled so nobody would hear us. This store was pretty small.

“Chill, I was playing but yea those are better. Gone head’ and get a lot so you won’t have to keep coming back. You ask me to go with you every time.” I said as she jumped up and down like a little kid.

Once she finished, she put everything on the counter so the cashier could ring it up.

“Your total is $82.35.” The red-headed cashier smiled. She was kinda’ pretty.

“Damn Alisha, all that on some eyelashes?” I chuckled as I handed the lady 5 20 dollar bills.

“You told me get a lot!” She laughed as the cashier did the same.

“Are yall a couple? You guys are so cute.” She asked, staring at us as she handed me my change back. Everybody always ask that same question every time we go some where.

“Nah.” We both said at the same time.

“Well excuse me. But you guys have great day.”

“You too.” We both said, leaving out of the store.

“You need to just grow some fucking eyelashes.” I shot at her as she pretended to cry. Smiling while shaking my head, I got behind her and rested my hands on her waist as we walked next door to Target.

“Who pushing the basket?” She asked as we walked in. It wasn’t as packed as it always is.

“You push it and I’ll get everything.” Getting excited like she was a little kid, she ran to the baskets. Catching up to her, we went straight to the food aisles. I was trying to hurry the fuck up. Grocery shopping takes too damn long.

“Eh don’t get those, they been making my stomach hurt lately.” I scrunched up my face as Alisha picked up a bag of hot chips. Every time I eat them my stomach starts burning.

“Oh these are for me, not you sweetie.” She said as she threw them in the basket like she was gone pay for it.

“Ok and you can pay for those too.” I shrugged, walking off the aisle like a boss. Once I heard her suck her teeth, I laughed to myself. It’s funny as fuck when she gets mad.

“Don’t play with me, bitch.” She said, playfully punching me in my arm. Even though she was joking, she heavy handed as fuck.

“Whatever, let’s hurry up though cause I’m already tired of being here.” I said, holding onto her waist as she pushed the basket.

We got a long way to go.


“Ahhhhh Tyyyy!” I screamed holding my stomach. I was just peacefully watching a movie and this sharp pain shot throughout my stomach.

“What, what, baby you alright?” Ty said running to me holding my belly as I leaned against him.

“The ba-baby. I think the baby is coming! Ahhhhhhhhh!” I said screaming again.

“Alright, sit down real quick let me put the stuff in the car. I’m taking you to the hospital.” Ty said running up the stairs to my room to collect the baby’s things.
I was in way to much pain sitting down, so I tried to stand. The moment I did my water broke. Ty ran back inside at the same time.

 "Fuck, babe run upstairs and get me a dress and some towels to clean this up.“

I pulled out my phone and decided to call up Raye. I’d been trying to get in touch with Chris all day, but he hasn’t been answering. 

"Hello?” She answered giggling.

“Raye, it’s Nae.” I said figuring she probably deleted my number from her phone when her and Chris broke up.

“I know, what’s up?” She asked seeming to be in a good mood.

“Well I wanted to call and tell you my water just broke.” I said screaming from an on coming contraction.

“Oh my God! Are you alright? Is Ty there, where is Chris?” She rambled making me laugh.

“Ty’s here and I’m not sure, but I wanted to know if you’d come to the hospital. You can bring August if you’d like. I’d really like for you to be there though.” I said truthfully. Even though it’ll be weird for August to come, I’ll still let him. Raye likes him and she’s my friend so I guess o have to respect that.

“Of course, I’ll come. I’ll meet you there baby.” she said happily.

“Ok thanks Raye..” I said hanging up.

I for the life of me could never understand why and how Chris let her slip through his fingers. I know now that August finally got her, he wasn’t letting her go. He’s liked Raye for a long time. Chris is a total and complete idiot!

“Alright here, throw this on so we can go. I want you and the baby to be in good hands.” Ty said scrambling like a chicken with his head cut off.He was more frantic than I was, and I’m the pregnant one.

“You called Chris?” Ty asked after I put my dress on. Sliding on some flip flops, I grabbed my bag and wobbled my way to the door with Ty. 

“Yea, he’s not answering.” I replied, rubbing my belly and taking deep breathes. Ty called out for his mom and we all left to go to have our baby. 


“He’s beautiful..” I mumbed as I held our new son. King Cairo Stevenson. 5 lbs, 8 ounces. This was a long, tiring process of having him. Everyone argued, it hurted when I pushed, and I’m just super sleepy. 

“Can I hold him?” Alisha asked, as I looked at Ty. His aggy ass had a mini heart attack in the corner when he was watching the baby come out. I bet he was overreacting, I dont think it’s that bad.  

“Yea, sure." I smiled as I gently handed him to her. She rocked him as Chris stood behind her and smiled down at King. No lie, they looked happy. The way they looked at each other as she held King was so cute. But, it’s team Chris and Raye over here. I still have faith in them. 

"This is how were gonna be in a couple of months.” Chris said, as Alisha nodded. Putting my attention on Raye, she stormed into the bathroom, wiping her eyes. I wish I couyld go comfort her,m but I cant get up. I think I was the only one that noticed she left. 

August had left earlier while I was pushing, because I think he felt uncomfortable. You know, the whole drama between me, August, andChristina? I think that’s what he was thinking about. I still feel sorry til this day. 

“Ok, I’m ready to holkd him now baby.” Ty sniffled as he took King from Alkisha’s hands. 

“What was your ass ove there doing?” Chris asked, chuckling.

“Crying ” I said, rolling my eyes. Ty sucked his teeth, and focused back on King. 

“Damn, he looks just like me.” He smiled. 

“Both of y'all asian as fuck, so you really cant tell. He got Ty’s head tho. That big ole’ thang’.” Chris joked. He was right though. We really couldnt tell who he looked like tbh. 

“Get the fuck out Chris.” Ty said, rolling his eyes. Giggling to myself I told Chris and Alisha bye as they left. I really do need to get some rest. 

“Okay you guys, we have to take him now.” One of the nurses said. Ty handed the baby to the nurse, and I frowned as they left out of the room. I already missed him. 

“Can I sleep with you?” Scooting over in the bed that I was in, I patted the space for Ty to lay at. It was small, but he’s skinny so he shouldn’t have any problems. 

“Get some sleep.” He said as he kissed me on the cheek. Nodding, I closed my eyes and a few minutes later, I drifted off into a much needed sleep. 

My LT Experience 1/07/2014 - "Pop My Trunk"

Alright guys, it was bridick (new word I learned from Sica) yesterday, but someway somehow, I still made it to the workshop. Myself, my BFF and my other homegirl beared the icy winds to go see them. SMH. By the time I made it in the building, I couldn’t feel my toes. It took about 10 minutes for my toes to come back to life and I was worried I had lost them. Thank God I wasn’t dancing. Anyway, fast forward to when we made it upstairs. (BTW, they almost tried to play me and say they couldn’t find my name on the list, I was ready to flip a table, thank God they finally found it though.)

So we get inside and the room was arranged a little differently than it was the last time I was here. My friends and I rushed to the front to get good seats; we bypassed Les Twins and everything just so we could get the good seats. At this point, people are just lounging around settling in etc. The twins are moving around talking to a few people, and then Larry passes right by me and I call his name. He goes,

“You call me like you know me”

I say, “Yeah I do, it’s me with the ear rings”

“Oh girl that’s you? How you doing?” he daps me up

Then he tells me he lost the ear rings on stage. So I throw a little pity fit. And he’s all apologizing saying it was a mistake, and he said he wish I had like 5 more to give him. I told him I’ll see if I can find it again and give it to him the next time I see him. Then I said, “I have another gift for you.” But he was already holding a small gift bag from someone else. He says,

“I got candy already, is better than what you have”

I go, “Just look at it, read the card, and don’t judge me”

He takes the bag and before he opens it I lean in a little closer and say, “It’s so you can brush your teeth with swag”

He looked like he didn’t get it, but he realized what I was talking about when he pulled out the toothbrush and toothpaste I got him. LTLADIES!!! He started cracking up, dying laughing, shaking his head in disbelief. He came in and gave me the tightest biggest bestest hug ever, eyes closed and swinging side to side hug. I didn’t wanna let go. And then he explained to everyone looking that I gave him this not because he has bad teeth or anything (he gave the Larry smile to show off his pearly whites saying “im good”) but because of the IG vid he posted a couple days ago.

Now let’s backtrack a little. I wasn’t even gonna get them gifts this time. I really had no time to get anything and I was like, how can I top the ear rings? But then, like, the day before the workshop I was like, let me get Larry a gag gift about his freestyle. I didn’t even wanna give it to him. I was worried that he might not like it, or that he wouldn’t get it, or that he would be offended. But he took it all in stride and he got the joke and gave me the best hug I ever wanted.

Woo! Well, I could stop right here, but I’ll keep going. I’m sure you guys already seen the videos, but I was under the impression that they were gonna do Yonce choreo again. But I hear Larry talking about some song that he loves but it’s not popular and its by Wino…..I almost went mad. I was like, I know he’s not gonna do Pop My Trunk. And he does!!! He did a little freestyle to it and it was beautiful. My fav video of him is when he dances to this song in Vlado, so I was hyped. I was actually just showing my other friend that video while we were out in the lobby.

Anyway, moving on, they start the warm up, and interestingly enough it’s to Panic At The Disco’s song I Write Sins Not Tragedies. At one point Larry has them do a balancing thing on their foot while he went around pushing people. A little later, they gave little speeches, and Lau was talking about Larry’s dance style and you could tell that he holds his brother in high regard. But he proceeded to tell the dancers that they have to be better than Larry. As for him, he said that if he finds somebody better than him, he gonna kill him, we all laughed. They continue the choreography and Larry keeps saying “is easy is easy, is like mathematics”, with the strongest accent that had me dying. I loved it though.  

Ok, last thing before the end. Larry gives no effs, whatsoever. He was like, I’m looking for a “Jackie Chan.” And he goes and finds an Asian boy talking about “if he can do it, anybody can.” He asked the guy where he was from and he’s like,

“I’m from The Bronx”

“Yeah, but your family from China right?”

“No, Korea”

I tell you, Larry don’t give a nothing. SMH!! And a little later on, Lau was speaking to the class and he asked everyone not to record anything because he was talking about Beyonce. He starts explaining that they choreographed Flawless so that everyone could do it, they couldn’t make it hard. But then that’s when they catch an Asian guy still filming. And Lau is like, no, please stop. Now Larry’s wild ass starts speaking fake Chinese. Shaking my friggin head at this boy’s ridiculousness. Lau gave him a huge slap on his back to shut him up. If anything, that night, I saw a whole nother side of Larry, he’s really a mess.

After that they start the cypher and everyone forms a circle. There were some people there that did their thing, but there was this one girl that absolutely killed it, she was small and petite but she was breaking, flipping, shaking, the whole nine. She did that and the twins looked impressed with her. This time around I was in the front so I could see everything. But my BFF pulled me out and she was like, there’s a line forming to take pictures. So I got on the line and I was closer to the front, but I missed the twins dancing in the cypher L. Anyway, it comes time to take my picture and I sit between them and hook my arms around their arms and we take the pics. I asked Larry for a kiss and he tells me, “oh the line is long.” I gave him the ‘don’t make me punch you’ eyes and then he gave me my kiss. Yeah, he better had not played himself, lol. I got up to leave and I saw that Lau kinda looked like I swerved him and I felt bad so I went right back and said “oh sorry, you too” and I bent down to kiss him. His lips were this close to mine yall, lol. It looks like they would much rather give kisses than receive them. Their faces are all scrunched up when the girls give them kisses and they look uncomfortable.

I wanted to stay and watch for the rest of the night, but the security was kicking everyone out. But I have to say that this time around, the people at Alvin Ailey were much more lenient about taking pictures and videos. I had my big old Ipad out for all to see, lol.

Oh, one more thing. Lau was wearing shorts and ladies, yes he’s still ashy. I might just get him lotion the next time I see him. But anyway, I noticed a vein running down his calf….and I must say it looked so good. My BFF really held me down, and no I’m not just saying that because she’s gonna be reading this, I mean it. My experience is always magnified when I’m with her. She even asked Larry to follow me on IG since I gave him the gift, he said “never,” lol, clown! I found myself to be a little less jittery this time around. I was much more calm than I was last time, and more comfortable with them too. Still excited, but much less star struck. I think I’m getting the hang of this guys. My BFF would probably beg to differ though, lol.

Anyway, that’s that for that! I had a blast and I will be uploading some pics soon. I have some vids too, but I just need to figure out a way to upload those too (I wish I was more tech savvy). As soon as I do, I will. I hope you enjoyed reading this. Bisous my loves.



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The final bell rang and I couldn’t comprehend why my heart was pounding quick as shit. What if she doesn’t take me back? Techinally, I didn’t cheat on her with Jasmine. What happened between us was Sophomore year and Heather and I became a couple during that summer.

Getting out of my thoughts, I picked up my books and placed them in my bookbag swinging it over my shoulder. I dapped up my niggas and made my way out of the classroom. I spotted Chris and that bitch he calls a girlfriend.

That bitch you fucked.

I ignored my conscious’s slick remark going up to them. Jasmine rolled her eyes attempting to pull him away but he looked my way raising his hand to dap me up.

“See you later, my nigga.”

“Yeah hopefully not with this bitch.” I spat in her direction.

“Trell, get over it. I regret busting it open for your dumb ass.”

“Can y’all chill!” Chris boomed looking at both of us.

“Come on, baby. I wanna show you something.” Jasmine announced seductively biting her bottom lip and pulling Chris away. Maybe she ain’t Chris’s bitch. Chris is her bitch.

Shaking my head, I exited the school stepping on the concrete steps where Heather was chilling there in her black windbreaker, navy blue jeans, and black Nike running shoes. She pushed her blue hair behind her ear.

“So are you going to stare at me or we’re going to talk? Because I got homework to do.”

I woke up at her comment and made it down the steps. Unlocking my car, she got in the passenger seat folding her arms and I got into the driver’s seat.

“Heather, I’m sorry? Aight? I’m sorry for not telling you about me and Jasmine. I’m sorry you had to find out that way.” I sighed glancing down and then looking back at her. “I’m just sorry.”

Heather breathed finally looking at me straight in the eyes.

“Do you still have feelings for her?”

“Babe, I never did. It was sophomore year lust. But what you and I have-” I took her hand in mine. “Is everlasting love.”

Finally she smiled and pecked my lips. I smiled knowing I was forgiven.

“Don’t hide shit from me again, Terrell.” She scolded using my full name and pushing my head. She knows she’s wifey because I wouldn’t let anyone call me that except her and my mama.

“Won’t happen again, bae.”


“Wow. That…was *sighs* amazing.” Jasmine turned into my chest smiling. “Our first time was amazing.”

I chuckled with my hands behind my head and closing my eyes. “Yep.”

“You used a condom, right?” Jazz got up eyeing me fearfully. I furrowed my eyebrows. Does she really think I didn’t?

“Of couse I used a condom.” I sat up stretching and went to go throw it away. “Does it look like I’m ready to have kids right now?”

Jazz shrugged securing the baby blue blanket on her bare chest. “I don’t know. I’m just making sure. A lot of dudes don’t wear them.”

I shook my head pulling up my boxers and jeans and buckling a belt. “And how many guys you’ve been with to confirm that theory? “
I heard her scoff from behind me swinging off the bed. She was silent so I turned to see her dressed in her hot pink crop top and lime green panties. She had her arms folded and I didn’t have time to be turned on due to her pissed expression.

“I’m not some cheap hoe, Chris. My body count is 2. You and Trell.” Jazz rolled her eyes, anger evident, and I grabbed her arm touching it softly.

“I’m sorry, ok? The Trell thing is still bugging me, bae.”

She sighed looking up at me. “Well, get over it. It was the past. I’m pretty sure I’m not your first.”

I snorted smirking. “Yeah you’re the third.”

She was taken aback. “So now I’m just a number?”

“Wait, what the fuck?” I inquired placing my red t-shirt on my body. “Jasmine, chill. You’re my girlfriend. Not a number. Ok?”

“Whatever. You gotta leave before my mom comes home.” She put on some booty shorts and exited her bedroom. I sighed grabbing my keys and following her lead. Getting in my car, I started the ignition and checkee my home. A text and missed from Kae.

Pikachuuuuuuu 😜😁

Where r u? Plz tell me you didn’t forget ὡ😳

Forget what? My eyes grew big. Oh shit! I forgot that I was gonna do that driver’s ed shit. She’s gonna kick my ass. I sped to my neighborhood and pulled up in my driveway. I walked towards her house knocking on the door and she answered it dressed in an oversized t-shirt and navy blue EverLast shorts with her hair in a bun.

“Hey Pikachu!”

She shook her head with her left hand on her hip and her right hand up with the index finger waving in my face.

“No, no! Don’t Pikachu me, Stevie! You promised to teach me how to drive!” She reprimanded with a bad Joseline impression.

“First of all, that was horrible. Second, I’m sorry.” I pouted putting my hands in a heart shape. “I love you.”

Kae playfully rolled her eyes. “Shut up.”

“Is that Christopher? Honey, come in and get some cookies!” Kae’s mom shouted from inside. I grinned during the birdman hand pushing Kae to the side. I greeted Mama Tran and attacked the cookies.

“They’re mine!” Kae’s little ass tackled me to the ground as we fought over one cookie as I chomped. It was difficult to laugh, chew, and fight her small ass at the same time. She tickled me bringing my arm down and took the cookie stuffing it in her mouth.

“Victory!” Kae ran out but forgot she was wearing socks on hard wooden floor so she fell and busted her ass.


I couldn’t breathe. “That’s what you get!”

Mama Tran shook her head laughing and exiting the kitchen.

“Nothing’s changed.”

I grinned and laughed as I watched Kae rub her ass rolling over the ground like a fool. Yeah, nothing’s changed and I really loved that.

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No, Honey. If you don’t answer, maybe he’ll stop texting. I smiled to myself. How did I go from thinking this guy was an absolute douche to a cool, sweet, fun loving guy? Maybe under all that doucheness was an awesome guy.

The buzzing ceased. I smiled returning to my Trigonometry homework. I’m about this close to calling Kae and asking for the answers because I’m lazy.

I don’t tell niggas, I show niggas
And it’s never less than like 4 niggas
4 wings and some french fries
Hot sauce and ketchup nigga

My ringtone Chiraq went off and I answered it without looking at the caller ID.



I scrunched up my face removing my phone from my ear looking at the caller ID.


I groaned placing it back to my ear.

“Ty, what the hell do you want?” I shook my head as I erased an answer. “Don’t you got homework to do?”

“I wanted to say WHASSUP!” He replied and my eyes automatically rolled my eyes. “And yeah i do. Don’t feel like it yet.”

“Yeah I’m not feeling this homework either. I’m about to drop and become a stripper.”

There was silence on the other line. Before I knew it, Ty’s laughs filled my ear.

“What?” He cackled

I cheesed. “I’m being serious.”

“Alright what’s your stripper name gonna be?”

“Ready? It’s gonna be Honey Cocaine.”

He began hyperventilating between laughter.

“Girl, you’re killing me!” Ty finally breathed then sighed. “I’m really feeling you, Honey.”

I beamed at his admission and sighed.

“I’m feeling you too, Ty.”

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I groaned loudly agressively pressing the “Dismiss” button on my phone. I hate waking up for school. Honey and I really need to put our stripper plans in action because I can’t take another day of this waking up early bullshit.

After doing my morning routine, I got dressed and made my way downstairs where Chris was helping himself to my damn fridge. Oh the fuckery. He popped his fat ass head out and smiled wide at me.

“Good Morning Kae.”

“Chris, what the fuck-”

“Language, Karrueche.” Mom gave me a warning look setting a plate of waffles in front of Chris who was seated.

“Wha-Why is he here?” I gestured towards him.

“Because you got the poor boy waiting on you. He deserves to get a full breakfast.” She smiled at Chris who smiled and stuck his tongue out at me. I scoffed rolling my eyes taking a seat to eat my breakfast.

“Your mama likes me better.” He sang in a taunting tone. Seeing Mom’s back was turned, I hit the back of his head.

“Ow! Mama Tran, she hit me!”

“Karrueche! Apologize!”

I shrugged returning to my food. “I’m not sorry.”

Once Chris and I finished, we left my house and went on our way to school.

“So Kae, are you a virgin?”


“Excuse me?” .

“I’m sorry. I’m just curious. Damn that was too personal.” He shook his head at himself.

My face softened. “No it’s ok. We’re best friends so nothing’s too personal.”

Chris smiled in relief and I sighed looking down.

“Yes, I’m a virgin.”

For some reason that made him smile a lot.

“Oh that’s good. Ever have a boyfriend?”

I shook my head. “No.”

“Damn. Have you ever had your first kiss?”

I felt my face get redder by the minute. “No.”


“Yeah. I never been in a relationship, never been kissed, and never did anything sexual with a guy. Ok?” I confessed sighing.

Chris let out a low whistle. “Wow.”

“What?” I got defensive and felt really embarrassed because I was as virgin as olive oil.

“No, Kae. Don’t be embarrassed. I’m just surprised that a beautiful 17 year old girl is not tainted by this generation. That’s actually really impressive and I’m proud of you.” He turned to smile at me. “Really proud. You should be proud of yourself.”

I smiled kissing his cheek. “Thanks Chris.”

We finally made it to school, got inside and Chris stopped facing me and grabbing my wrist.

“Kae, I want you to meet someone.”

I eyed him skeptically. “Who?”

He sighed pulling me. “My girlfriend.”

“Hold up! You didn’t tell me you had a girlfriend!” I was shocked. Why does Chris choose now to tell me this shit? I should’ve known beforehand. Not when I’m fucking meeting her.

Finally, he brought me in front of a blonde mixed girl with blue eyes. He kissed her lips and I recognized who she was. Jasmine. Oh fuck no.

“Kae, this is my girlfriend Jasmine. Jasmine, this is my best friend, Kae.”

Jasmine stuck her hand. “Hey Kae.”

I squinted my eyes. “Bitch, don’t Hey me.”

Jasmine’s eyebrows raised and so did Chris’s.

“You’re a evil bitch and I want nothing to do with you.” I pushed past her storming away. Chris caught up with me grabbing my arm and I yanked it away.

“Kae, what the fuck is wrong with you? Why the fuck would you disrespect my girl like that? You don’t even know her.”

“But I do, Chris!” I pushed him away holding back my sadness.

“I fucking do.” My voice cracked as I continued to storm away.


“Karrueche, baby, are you ok?”

I was too busy picking at my food and thinking about what occured at school to hear my mother’s question. I managed to ignore Chris the whole day which was not that difficult, believe it or not. How could he? How could he date her? After what she did to me? Does he even know what she did to me?


I looked at Mom. “Yeah?”

“Are you ok? You’re not eating and you’re always eating.”

I shrugged sighing and returning to my food.”I was just thinking.”

She finished washing her last dish when the doorbell rang. She went over to the door opening it.

“Oh Hey Chris!”

My eyes widened. Shit. Shit. Shit. I slid out of my chair to creep up the stairs but due to my dumbass wearing socks on wooden floor and not learning my lesson, I fell on my ass again.

“Damn it! Mom! Why don’t we have carpet?!” I hissed holding my ass rubbing it.

“Because we don’t. Now Chris is here to talk to you. Get up.” Mom commanded but I could tell she was holding back a laugh as she helped me up. I went outside staying on the porch with Chris.

“So Jasmine told me how she used to bully you back then.”

“Hmm did she also tell you that she’s the one who triggered my suicide attempt?” I scoffed shaking my head. “I can’t believe you’re dating her ass. After what she did to me.”

“Kae, I didn’t know! Give me a break!” Chris exclaimed with his arms outstretched. “She’s not like that anymore. Come on.”

I sucked my teeth nodding. I mumbled an “Ok.” And opened the screen door when he closed it.

“No. I just got my best friend. I’ll be damned if I lose her again.” Chris declared staring into my eyes. I swallowed hard.

“What the fuck do you want from me?”

“Please forgive her. I swear, Kae, she’s not like that anymore. Please.” Chris begged dropping his arm sitting back on the white plastic chair on my porch. “I love her.”

He placed his face in his hands and I took a deep breath. He loves her and if he’s happy, I should be happy for him. No matter who he’s dating.

“Ok.” I whispered and Chris looked at me with hope.


“Ok. I’ll forgive her.” I whispered again and he grinned hugging me tight and I hugged back as he thanked me.

Yeah, I’m gonna forgive but I won’t forget.

~Twenty Four~

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I held my stomach as it rumbled furiously. I finally broke down yesterday and ate some Doritos with a sandwich. I trudged towards the bathroom and looked at the eggshell white scale. Ok, Heather, if you lost weight, you’ll eat a banana and maybe some yogurt, but if you didn’t lose shit, then you can’t eat shit. I breathed deeply stepping on the scale and looking down.

One pound. I only lost one fucking pound.

“Bullshit.” I grumbled under my breath taking a sip of water. I guess water will be my breakfast this morning. I looked through the cabinet for my pill when a little white and blue wand caught my attention. I took it in my hands and my eyes widened.


Who’s pregnant? I’m not, due to the fact that I haven’t had sex. Jasmine? Who the hell could Jasmine be fucking with? I scrunched up my nose. Mom is too old to be having a kid but it might be her. I sighed placing it back in the cabinet then realized that I held a USED pregnancy test. Eww! I washed my hands and did my morning routine. After getting dressed, I got into the car waiting for Jasmine. Once she entered, I pulled off. We arrived at school and I made my way to Trell, Amber, and Trey.
“Hey guys.” I smiled kissing Trell’s lips.

Trell looked me up and down. “Babe, are you ok?”

“Yeah, I’m fine.” I concluded and we returned the conversation Trey was having about his job. Trell suggested for us to go on a date there and I tried to be ok with it. I was weak, water was not holding me over. I watched as Tyga, Honey, Chris, and Kae walked up to us with food. I rolled my eyes. Kae and Honey are always eating but never gain a fucking pound.

Must be nice.

“Heather, you want my hash browns? I know how much you love hash browns!” Kae sang waving it in my face. In response, I slapped her hand away.

“I don’t want your fucking hash browns.” I hissed and Kae was taken aback. I felt a little guilty but it’s not easy being nice to someone you’re jealous. Kae’s so slim and skinny and I was a pig. I rolled my eyes entering our school and heading straight for the bathroom, which was surprisingly empty. The wooden door opened and I glared at the mirror to see the person who stepped in.


“Heather, are you ok?” she walked up to me with concern etched on her face. I felt myself breaking down. I couldn’t be mean anymore. Tears fell down my cheeks and my voice cracked.

“I’m……*sighs deeply* fine.”

She wrapped her small arms around me hugging me tight.

“No you’re not. Heather, I’m your friend. Tell me.”

“Fine. Kae, look at you.” I looked her up and down..

“What about me?”

I sighed. “You’re……beautiful.”

Kae furrowed her eyebrows. “Um, thanks? You’re gorgeous, Heather. What’s the problem?”

“I may be gorgeous, face wise but I’m not body wise. I’m a fat pig, Kae! And you’re a petite goddess!” I breathed.

Kae raised her eyebrows. “Are you kidding me? Heather, I would kill for a body like yours. You got all the curves and boobs and an ass! That ass! You do not want a body like Boyrueche.” She shook her head and I shot her a look of confusion.

“What? Boyrueche?”

“Forget I said that. But, Heather, you’re a dime. Starving yourself is not the solution.”

I gaped at her and she nodded with her arms folded.

“Yeah that’s right, I’m not an idiot. I know you’ve been starving yourself. If you really want to lose some pounds, exercise. Starving yourself isn’t doing shit but killing you.” Kae stuck out her pinky. “Promise me you’ll eat.”

I hesistated before hooking pinkies with her. “I promise.”

Honey randomly barged into the bathroom with Amber behind her.

“What’s going on here?”

Kae looked at me as if she was requesting permission to tell them. I shook my head.

“Nothing, guys. Don’t worry about it.”

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I slowly walked through the crowded hallway making my way to the one person I haven’t talked to in a long time.


He cut me off when I got Kae drunk at homecoming. Yeah you would think he would be completely done when I slept with his girlfriend but nope. That one event ruined our friendship. Jazz was anxious about returning to the table since she was only friends with Amber, Heather, and cool with Honey. She knew Kae would not approve of her boyfriend’s ex at the table but maybe I can change that.

“Chris.” I smiled holding my hand out to dap. He looked me up and down.

“The fuck you want, August?”

“Come on, man. We’ve been friends since middle school and you’re gonna let a couple of girls come in between us? I’m hurt, man.”

Chris snorted closing his locker. “Nigga, I’m over that shit. I just need you to stay away from my girl and we can be cool again.”

“I got Jasmine. It’s gucci now.” I replied holding my hand up and backing away.

He raised an eyebrow. “So you dating my ex? The one who cheated on me with you?” Chris let out a low whistle.

“Didn’t know you liked leftovers, August.”

He got jokes.

I chuckled. “What can I say? One man’s trash is another man’s treasure.”

At that point, I knew Chris had something smart to say but decided against it. Good.

“I’ll see you at basketball practice.” He put his bag over his shoulder and walked away. I felt a tap on my shoulder and turned around.

“Hey Jazzy.”

“August….I’m pregnant.”

My eyes widened. “Wait, what?” then I grew angry. “The fuck you mean you pregnant?”

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I shifted in my seat in homeroom, unable to sit still. What the hell am I doing? One of my good friends revealed that she had body issues and starving herself and I’m withholding this information from Honey and Amber. This is wrong. They’re her friends, but she only told me for a reason. If she wanted others to know, she’ll tell them.

“Kae?” Amber’s voice broke me out of my thoughts.

“Yeah?” I turned to her.

“Are you ok?”

“Never better.”

“You’re fidgeting. What’s going on?” Amber raised an eyebrow and then came in closer. “Does it have to do with Heather?”

Yeah, I have no fucking clue if she’ll keep her promise.

“No. It’s just that that O.J I had went right through me.” I lied through clenched teeth.

“Girl, go before you pee on yourself.” she almost laughed.

“Nah. I’ll go during first period. Besides, I can’t stand Mrs. Derocher’s bitchass.” I glared at the middle aged blonde woman who was grading papers. Once the first period bell rang, I bumped into Chris, on purpose, and smirked knowing there will be a consequence for that. I walked casually into Ms. Filkins’ class when she ushered me over to her table.

“Ok, Karrueche, remember how YOU agreed to be a tutor for me?”

“Of course, Filky.” I brushed off my jacket and she looked at me with a look I couldn’t decode.


“Your boyfriend is rubbing off on you.” she shook her head as I smiled. “Anyway, I need you to tutor Devante.”

My smile dropped. “Devante? Seriously?”

“Yep. Matter of fact, he requested for you to be his tutor.” she closed her textbook smiling wickedly at me. “Have fun.”

Devante stolled into class grinning at me.

“Hey Tutor Bunny.”

I rolled my eyes. “Don’t call me that and cut the flirting shit out. Our relationship is academic only. Got it?”

“Got it, Tutor Baby.” he continued his way past me and I breathed deeply resisting the urge not to curse his Lil Romeo ass out.


3rd period. Trigonometry. 3rd period is just before lunch but a nigga is hungry as hell. I got a last lunch and Kae’s fat ass ate my damn breakfast. The sausage egg McMuffin was mine and she got the egg, bacon, and cheese bagel. I only look away for a few seconds and she took two bites. Imma kick her ass for that, but a nigga had 2nd period off so I made my way back to McDonald’s to get another sandwich, but didn’t get a chance to eat it so I will here. I pulled out my phone and my sandwich and texted Kae.


😒😒😒 you know I’m fucking fighting your ass, right?

Seconds later, I got a reply.

Fatass Pikachu ❤:

Your high yellow ass ain’t gonna do shit. Looking like a walking highlighter with some bushy ass eyebrows. 😂


I gotchu. Keep talking shit.

I put away my phone and unwrapped my sandwich as Ms. Filkins finally removed herself from her desk. I discreetly kept my sandwich in my bag along with the hash browns and began grubbing.

“Christopher, what are you doing?” She suddenly questioned causing everyone to look at me. I chewed some more before swallowing and cheesing hard.

“Nothing, Beautiful.”

Everyone began to giggle and she shook her head.

“You know there’s no eating in class.”

“Miss, you don’t understand. I didn’t wake up at 6 AM to make it on time for school to starve on all day. If I want to eat a breakfast sandwich, please let me eat this sandwich. Especially since my bottomless pit of a girlfriend ate my first breakfast. So miss, please chill on me!” I took a bite of my sandwich. In response, everyone died of laughter and clapped. As much as Mrs. Filkins tried to hide it, she couldn’t, letting a laugh exit her mouth.

“Can I least get a few hash browns?” she breathed.

“Yes, you can.” I handed her a few and she continued with the lesson. When class ended, I exited the class ready to go to 4th period when a hand on my bicep stopped me. I turned to the source.

“Jasmine? What do you want?”

She swallowed hard before looking me in my eyes.

“Chris, I’m pregnant.”