You Are My Sunshine

Dan’s eyes blinked open slowly, his hands reaching from under the covers to rub his eyes. He thought he had heard a knock at his door. His ears strained to hear another knock and after a few seconds of silence, he turned back on his side and closed his eyes. Another knock echoed through his door and made his eyes snap open. 

“Come in” he said, his voice cracking slightly from sleep. He heard the door creak open, light flooding into the dark room. Dan turned to face his flatmate, blinking rapidly at the sudden light. 

“Phil! Close the door” he said, groaning as he rubbed his eyes once more. 

“Sorry, sorry” Phil apologised, closing the door quietly. 

“Whats up?” He asked, propping himself up with his elbow. 

“I, uh” he paused, rubbing his neck. He looked down at his feet before glancing up at Dan. 

“I couldn’t sleep and I was wondering if I could sleep with you tonight?” he said it in one breath, biting his lip after he finished. 

“Oh, um… Sure?” Dan replied, his voice soft. He moved over in his bed, making room for Phil. Phil awkwardly half got in bed half fell in bed. Dan stifled a laugh with his hand, his brown eyes crinkling up. Dan laid back down, unsure if Phil wanted to talk about whatever was keeping him up at four am in the morning. After minutes, though it felt like hours, Phil broke the silence. 

“Hey Dan?” He asked. 

“Hm?” Dan replied drowsily. 

“Can I tell you something? And please don’t get mad” Phil asked him. 

“Um Phil, of course you can, you dork” Dan said, laughing softly. Dan turned towards him, waiting for a response. Phil was silent for a minute, unsure on whether to say it or not.

“Dan, I’m sorry. We were supposed to be flatmates, best friends… And I screwed up. I’m sorry” he paused, “I just can’t help my heart and the fact that I love you” he said it, he had finally said it. Dan’s eyes were wide, as if he had seen a ghost. 

“I uh” Dan started to say, before Phil cut him off.

“Sh, I’m talkingggg” he said, exaggerating the ‘g’.

“Dan I know that you don’t love me but I can’t keep living like this anymore. I can’t keep pretending that I don’t love you when I hand you a mug of hot chocolate that I burnt myself on but I suffered through the burning of my flesh to see that incredible smile light up when you see hot chocolate” he said, taking deep breaths after. He was freaking out on the inside.

“Phil… How do you know that I don’t love you?” He asked, a grin on his face.

“No! Wait you mean you-” Phil was cut off by Dan suddenly kissing him. Dan’s soft lips were on his. Phil’s blue eyes widened before they closed, his arms wrapping around Dan’s waist and pulling him closer to him. Dan pulled back, a wide smile on his face.

“Yes, Phil Lester, I do love you” he whispered before trying to kiss him again, but instead kissed his nose. Phil laughed at him, his own laughs joining his flatmate’s.

“Good one Dan” he smirked, snuggling into Dan’s bare chest. Dan wrapped his arms around Phil, pulling him closer. 

“I love you, Dan” Phil whispered.

“I love you too, Phil” Dan whispered back into Phil’s black hair. They fell asleep like that, holding onto each other as if that was what held them to the Earth. 

Dan woke up to a scream and a shaking Phil. 

“Phil?” He asked, sitting up, brown eyes wide. He shook Phil, who’s eyes were squeezed shut. 

“PHIL!” He said, his voice much louder. Phil’s eyes snapped open, blinking at the man leaning over him. Tears stained his pale cheeks until Dan wiped them away with his thumbs. 

“Phil? What’s wrong, love” He asked, the last word just slipping out of his mouth. He didn’t mind, it felt natural… It felt right.

“I-I had a nightmare. You left me in the middle of the night, saying you hated me. You never came back” His voice cracked at the end as more tears streamed down his cheeks. Dan sighed before hugging Phil close to him.

“I will never ever leave you, Philip Michael Lester” he whispered into his ear. Phil relaxed in Dan’s arms. After a few moments, Dan’s arms were slung around Phil’s waist and Phil had one arm around Dan’s neck and one hand in his curly hair. His fingers played with the curls, a smile coming to his lips as he whispered “You have hobbit hair.”

“Hey! I wasn’t gonna straighten my hair to go to bed, okay? I didn’t know my flatmate was going to come into my room and confess his love for me” Dan replied, rolling his eyes. 

“Don’t straighten your hair, I love your hobbit hair” he murmured. Phil put his arms around Dan’s waist, burrowing his head into his chest. Dan smiled down at Phil, his eyes crinkling when he smiled. With a yawn, Dan started to doze off. Phil on the other hand, was getting nowhere near sleep.

“Dan? Hey Dan… Wake up” Phil said, “Dan!”

“Hm… What?” He asked.

“I can’t sleep, can you sing me a song to help me sleep?” Phil asked. Dan chuckled before realising he was serious.

“Sure, but I mean my voice isn’t very good, as you know” he said.

“Thanks” he said, pausing before saying, “I love you Dan.”

“I love you too” Dan said, smiling. Phil snuggled into him, waiting for Dan to begin.

“You are my sunshine, my only sunshine. You make me happy when skies are grey. You never know, dear, how much I love you. Please don’t take my sunshine away” Dan paused, glancing down to see Phil’s bright blue eyes were still open.

“The other night, dear, as I lay sleeping. I dreamt I held you in my arms. When I awoke, dear, I was mistaken. So I hung my head, and I cried” He looked down to see Phil’s blinks were getting longer.

“You are my sunshine, my only sunshine. You make me happy when skies are grey. You never know, dear, how much I love you. Please don’t take my sunshine away,” Phil was starting to doze off

“I’ll always love you and make you happy. If you will only say the same. But if you leave me to love another. You’ll regret it all one day” Phil’s perfect face was relaxing as sleep started to take over his mind.

“You are my sunshine, my only sunshine. You make me happy when skies are grey. You never know, dear, how much I love you. Please don’t take my sunshine away,” Phil was asleep, he looked at peace at last.

“Please don’t take my sunshine away,” Dan finished the song, his voice soft. He looked down at Phil as he slept. His warm chocolate coloured eyes took in every inch of Phil that he could, a small smile on his lips. His eyes drooped and eventually closed. He fell asleep, holding the love of his life in his arms.