dancing so hard!

I never danced
So when all were excited for DJ nights at school
I was very upset
Nobody understood why I just couldn’t move my body, shake a little, smile a whole lot.
Or well I could go down the other route
And be all sexy and show the guys my moves
Sexualizing girls since the age of 10 was not an issue

I would stay at home and have no regrets
But you forced me to come
And your words always melted my inhibitions really quick
So I dressed up and told myself to keep a positive attitude
I showed up and waved at everybody
Got some drinks and small talked with people I would in class never look at once
Checked my phone a 100 times

When the music started,
All the girls came to me
To quickly hand over their bags and cellphones
So I could watch their belongings as I watched them party
Everybody already knew I wouldn’t step on the dance floor
My friends forgot all about me when the music played
I felt so invisible, so unwanted, so insignificant.

The pile of bags just kept growing on the chair beside me,
Many were on my lap,
I just wanted to throw them all and leave.
And so I did
And as I walked out searching for a ride back home
Tears blinded me
Half way home, I felt your phone in my pocket,
I cursed myself and headed back to school.

If this was fiction,
You would have been waiting for me to tell me your true feelings,
You would grab me and take me up to the roof,
You would look at me and recite your love poetry

But instead,
You gave it to me and asked me if it was good enough,
I nodded and smiled still a little hopeful,
But yet again I became completely invisible
You saw her and fell on your knees
And I walked back home that night
Creating a salty river on the streets

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#bouncing together to the rhythm

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Favorite shots from The Get Down

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have some vintage lesbian swing dancing

Happy Pride Month!! Here have a Molly from: The ‘Mane’ Event by @cremsie  !!:D It was supposed to be a headshot,,, then the arms appeared, and after that, I couldn’t just draw her legless, so here you go.  Here’s to my fave artist!!


(P.S. I had it almost done but then my computer overheated and I had to restart everything from the line-art up. I stuck with it though!)