dance with loneliness

Infinity Stones & Infinity War Targeting

This is a two part theory pertaining to the location of the Infinity Stones and how they might be wielded specifically against Avengers. There is a third part proposing the “present” locations of the infinity stones at the bottom.

I’m very late to the party with this, and I give full acknowledgement that 1) The THANOS theory has been around a long time and is, most assuredly, not mine and 2) the rest may all have been said by others earlier but I have never seen it.

Targeting the Stones

There are 6 stones.

There are 6 original Avengers.

See where I’m going here?

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CREA Magazine: Meeting unknown feelings inside him through reading

A young man carrying a paperback stands still in a pure white room. His serious black eyes delicately chase after the characters on top of the page, while his long and thin fingers carefully turn the page. It’s just a simple gesture, but when the young man changes position, the staff around him sigh “hooo~” in unison.

Amongst fans, Kai-san, who is a member of Asia-s top group EXO, is famous for being a bookworm. Because of his father’s frequent job transfers, Kai has changes school several times, leading to his habit of being completely absorbed in reading books.

“I transferred school a lot and I didn’t have a lot of friends so I immersed myself in books at the library when I was in elementary school. I think my habit of reading books might have developed during that time.”

His shy-looking smile that sometimes appears and his way of speaking that conveys sincerity. Somewhere in the Kai-san of today,  himself of that time slips in and out of view. With accomplishments in classical ballet and modern dance, he conveys loneliness and darkness, overwhelming his audience. At a young age, he embarked on journeys through the stories that he read. One can only wonder if that experience has brought upon beautiful shadows to his being as well. 

About 10 years ago, since stepping into the entertainment industry at 13, Kai’s passion for reading has not run cold. As a trainee, he has always read books while commuting.

“When I think about it, I think the time before I debuted was when I read a lot. When I had breaks or free time, I wouldn’t go out. I’d just stay in my room, away from everyone, and just read and read”(wary smile)

Becoming interested in mystery through Higashino Keigo

Remembering that time, Kai-san’s eyes looked a bit distant. “I really read a lot” he continues. As a big Higashino Keigo’s fan, he first read the widely acclaimed best masterpiece “The Devotion of Suspect X” as a trainee.

“I didn’t read a lot of mystery novels. But someone gave me the book as a present and told me that it was interesting. It was also my first time reading Keigo Higashino-san’s novels, but it was so interesting that I felt very drawn to it. From the intriguing mystery-solving, the development that grips at your chest, and how the composition of the story explains the meaning of “devotion” in the title… I was very moved by it all. It’s a story about the greatest love of all.” 

“The Devotion of Suspect X”  is such a perfect novel! I think I’ve read it about ten times now. Since then I’ve started to look more into Keigo Higashino’s novels. I’ve read “Journey Under the Midnight Sun” and “Hollow Cross” from cover to cover(the last part is cut-off  from the scan)

His passion when he speaks of his favourite author is the complete opposite of his stillness during the photo shoot. In EXO, Kai is regarded with emotional dancing. When he talks about personal information, such as the books he reads, one can come to understand how his “stillness” and “intensity” (from his dancing) coexist. Kai also owns all of Bernard Werber’s novels. “Les Thanatonautes” is his favourite. “It’s very good,” he says in nice Japanese. Does kai-san, who is an artist who deals with dancing stoically approaches reading in a similar way also? When asked if he was the type of person to get completely into things he likes, without even waiting for the translation, as if he got the meaning,

“Um, yes I think so.. in both dancing and reading If I find something that makes me think ‘’oh this is it!’’, I’m the type of person to delve into it.”

Through reading books, you come to discover the unknown feelings inside of you. Through dance, you expose the feeling you have that you already understand. Being able to tie together the imagination and reality he has, and expressing it through dance is Kai’s best strength.

Next year, kai-san will star in his first Japanese drama through WOWOW’s original drama “Spring has come” from Mukoda Kuniko’s masterpiece short story, the drama will explore the universal theme of “a family’s regeneration”.

“I had the chance to read the script and I really felt the human emotion from it. It was very interesting. The way they(a Japanese family) communicate with each other has some difference with how Koreans do, but the story is very heartwarming. I like it very much.”

When asked what kind of environment he’d like to be in, and what kind of book he’d read if he were to be given a long vacation, Kai answered:

“If I’d have free time, I think I wouldn’t read any book,”  says mischievously, laughing out loud. 

“But, if I were to think of an ideal reading environment in Japan, it would be relaxing while looking at the sea in Okinawa. I have a feeling it would be the greatest luxury.”

Trans cr. kimkaiph




Nüwa [女媧] is a goddess in ancient Chinese mythology best known for creating mankind and repairing the wall of heaven. 

Nüwa is not considered a creator of the entire physical universe, but a creator and protector of animals and people. It is said that Nüwa existed in the beginning of the world. The earth was a beautiful place with blossoming trees and flowers, and full of animals, birds, fish and all living creatures. But as she wandered about it, Nüwa felt very lonely, so she began to create animals.

On the seventh day of creation, she bent down and took up a handful of yellow clay, mixed it with water and molded a figure in her likeness. As she worked, the figure came alive – the first human being.

Nüwa was pleased with her creation and went on making more figures of both men and women. They danced around her, and her loneliness was dispelled. She created hundreds of figures, but grew tired of the laborious process. Then she dipped a rope in the clay mud, and swung it around her. Soon the earth around her was covered with lumps of mud. The handmade figurines became the wealthy and the noble; those that arose from the splashes of mud were the poor and the common.

tea time for @autiacora. prompt: moving on

they lost it all.

they lost it all and in it they found each other. 

not physically, not at first. but in those spaces where concerned quips and sure commands used to be. 

levi follows hange, offers those words the moblit said so many times before. cautions against creatures that crawl from the sea, protects them from overactive titans, pulls the drink from their hands when words become too difficult to pronounce. because if they die… if they die.

hange commands levi, offers guidance to a soul that’s lost itself without his liege. erwin comes out through their voice, gentle demands that aren’t demands, because you can’t be commanded if you trust. you can’t question if you respect. because if he dies… if he dies.

they find clothes to be a heavy thing, discard them on the floor as they rush into levi’s quarters. they’re clean and pristine and levi doesn’t care when they muss up his bed, when they leave the clothes on the floor until the next day. they feel dirty when it’s over. they weren’t thinking of each other, they were thinking of those spaces in between, the fractures in their beings that used to be filled with something. fractures turned to breaks that hurt to put pressure on, where every day misaligned the healing, made them ugly.

so ugly.

they try again, hange’s cheek against levi’s back, swollen scars pressing against their skin as they thrust into levi. the summer heat is hot, they’re sweating, and it’s gross, wrong. but levi comes anyway, cries out into a the sheets of his bed that he hasn’t washed in weeks. hange finishes themself against levi’s spent cock, pushes his hair away from his brow and hesitantly kisses the balmy skin. they sit in silence, asking the other what they’ve done without words. they have no answers.

so wrong.

“no.” levi says when hange takes him by the belt of his chest. “we can’t.”

hange stares at him with one eye, blinks, then lets go with a nod. “right.”

they dance around each other. find loneliness to be too strong. there’s nine of them now. two of them that have seen over six years of hell. they’re the only ones that understand. they find brief comfort again between tangled legs. levi makes hange wash before they bed together, asks them to wear his cologne. they draw the curtains closed so they don’t have to see; so they can imagine. it’s for their reptile brains. it’s so their mammal brains can function. it’s so they can be human.

“no.” hange says when levi runs his fingers through long hair. “not now.”

levi pulls his hands back, rubs his fingers together and scoffs. “whatever.”

they continue. they rotate. they fluctuate. they have each other because they had too much before. now they’re the only ones that understand. and for a brief moment, they’re whole, they’re healed. but then the sun rises, and they become commander and captain once again, and they splinter and fragment like sunlight casting against the surface of a lake.

Coldest winter for me. No sun is shining anymore. The only thing I feel is pain. Caused by absence of you. Suspense is controlling my mind. I cannot find the way out of here. I want you by my side, so that I never feel alone again.
—  Milky Chance (“Stolen Dance”)

First of all, this is an interpretation. A head-canon. My feelings. These are my thoughts on Anzu. If you think I’m wrong that is completely okay, but don’t try to lecture me why your opinion is better.

This is just my head-canon of Anzu based on what the crazy Penguin during the Noah arc said. He mentions in the original Japanese version that Anzu’s father is a business man and that they have spend some years outside Japan when she was still a child. So this made me think about her whole situation both manga and anime. People tend to hate her a lot or make up the most craziest stories about her parents. She lacks characterization and even though I like her I agree that both anime and manga wasted a lot of potential. They could have develop her better. Actually, most of the female character’s could have been better developed.

Why is it that she values friendship so much that people would hate her for this?

I think that the reason why Anzu values friendship over anything else is that she hasn’t any siblings and was pretty much left alone when she was a child. Her father was working all day so she was living all alone with her mother who would go to musicals with her now and then. So she started to dance away her loneliness and tried to find new friends. Since she was in a new country and didn’t know neither the people nor the language she was frustrated and felt lonely, missing her friends in Japan. She was torn away from her usual environment and dragged into another country.

They probably moved to America, New York. First she hated this country trying to stay distant to it but her homesickness made her feel depressed. She was thinking a lot about her home and she just wanted to go back. There was no one she could talk to and she didn’t understand English yet so it was difficult for her to find new friends. She cried a lot and missed Yuugi who even brought games to her. She felt sorry that she smashed that game only because she wasn’t good at it. She wanted to see him again and play games with him. She felt sad and left alone until her mother took her into a musical that made her realize how interesting this country was. The dancers and singers in that musical took her pain away and for the first time since long she felt happy and at ease. The music, the lights, the dancers and their costumes fascinated her introducing her to a new world.

The musicals she has seen gave her inspiration and dancing made it easier for her to forget her sadness and homesickness. Since she was still young she was influenced easily and started to love America and dancing.

After all, there is no actual reason for her to go to America only to study dance. She could study dance in her own country as well but for some reason it has neither been explained in the manga nor the anime why she insists on leaving her homeland. Is it really necessary for her to leave Japan to become a dancer? Japanese people value their traditions and their country a lot. This always made me wonder why a girl like her had such an urge to leave her homeland. Why she was ready to leave everything behind. During the manga Shadi enters Anzu’s soul room in an attempt to lure out Yami no Yuugi. Inside he sees items that represents Anzu’s dream of becoming a dancer in New York and a photo of a hero, whose face is blank. Even her soul room reminds me more of a young American teenager than of a Japanese girl.

Of course, this is just my interpretation of Anzu but I think the mix up of the anime and manga does make sense here and would explain a lot about her.

Anzu is one of the character’s who don’t get much characterization neither in the anime nor the manga. Although she is the main heroine she reminds me more of a minor character since we don’t see much about her background. There really is just one moment in the anime where that Penguin says something. It’s easily overheard. Many people hate her for being shallow and always lecturing others about friendship. But I think that she isn’t really lecturing but that she is only trying to help. This is just her personality.

In summary, Anzu was still very young. She may have been in kindergarten or elementary school when she had to leave America. It doesn’t really matter. What I am trying to say is that she was forced to leave her homeland because of the work of her father. Yuugi was like a kid brother to her who she wanted to protect and with whom she could laugh and have fun. But she couldn’t see him for several years, she worried about him since he was easily ripped and hurt by others. Yuugi has a soft and kind personality and probably has been bullied before. She always protected him.

When her father finished his work they agreed to go back to Japan. After they got back to Japan her father got a different position in his company so that he didn’t have to move around all the time and was able to stay in his homeland. Anzu who finally got back to her old life realized how important friendship was and that she wanted to become a dancer. Dancing was her way of dealing with her feelings and made her feel comfortable and calm. To me it was always strange that she knew what she wanted to do with her life although she was only 16.Many young people have problems to find out what they want from life.

Since there were times in her life where she felt lonely and sad without having anyone to talk she started to value friendship more than anyone else. Even Yuugi mentioned somewhere during the manga that it has been a long time since they last walked together to school. This might be because she wasn’t around and lived somewhere else. Even Sugoroku said that she has grown a lot which means that he didn’t see her in a long time. He knew how Anzu looked when she was young but he had no idea how much she changed over the years. He even points her breast size out since it did surprise him so much how much she has grown.

So I interpret that she wasn’t around. She lived somewhere else.

That is also the reason why she values Yuugi as a friend so much and tries to protect him. Yuugi always has been an important friend of hers. She even protected him against bullies and this might explain her sense of justice as well. Since Yuugi who was weak and hated violence was bullied she felt the urge to protect him. So she hates injustice because other people hurt her most important childhood friend. They were like siblings and she valued him a lot until they lived apart from each other because of her family circumstances. When she came back her urge to find many friends and have people to share her interests with has grown stronger and stronger. Although it does seem like that Yuugi-tachi are their only friends in the manga (and anime) I believe that she has way more friends than we expect. You don’t believe me?

One day she realized that they didn’t have much in common and that Yuugi was the opposite of her. She was open, while Yuugi was shy. She loved to go out and meet other people, while Yuugi rather stayed at home playing the newest games. She was interested in life-style and fashion, while Yuugi only cared for games. So they had different interests and she started to hang up with others as well. I don’t think that Yuugi was her only friend. If that was the case she would have stayed together with him and spent most of her free time with him. But Yuugi even wishes for a friend who doesn’t leave him alone and never betrays him. Couldn’t this be because he felt disappointed about Anzu who left to another country and easily found new friends when she came back? He wanted friends so badly although he already had a very good and important friend on his side. This was always making me wonder about what happened between these two.  

Even in the first chapter of the manga she left Yuugi alone in order to play basketball with her other classmates. Just take into account that she was the class president which obviously means that her classmates respect her and consider her a trustworthy person. To me she seems like a self-confident person whose cheerful personality tends to make other people smile. Hanging around with her is really comfortable that is why she is popular in her class and even was class president. So I think that Yuugi was still important to her, but that she also had other friends around her so that Yuugi felt exluded and maybe thought that he wasn’t important for her anymore. Though she likes him a lot and would never leave him alone.

What I’m trying to say is, that Yuugi is her most important friend but that she has many other people around her which shows how important friendship is for her since she is afraid to lose the people she cares about again.

Thus, the years she spent in America made her more mature than others in her age. She is self-confident, determined, convincing, powerful and knows how to defend herself with words. Even bullies like Jonouchi and Honda respect her. She works hard to achieve her goal to become a dancer. She wants to leave her homeland in order to study dance overseas and she sees forward to it. She isn’t afraid of leaving but she rather enjoys the thought of meeting new people to share her dreams with. She realized how important it is to have people around you who support you and with who you can laugh with. So even in America she will easily find new friends because she is cheerful and kind person who would never betray anyone.

In summary, she values friendship because she is afraid to be alone again and experienced how it feels to be left alone. There were times in her life where she had no one to talk. This would explain why it is so important to her to remind Yuugi-tachi that they can always count on each other. Thus, I don’t think that she exaggerates with her behavior because that is how she really feels about her friends which, if you ask me, makes her a wonderful person. And it’s not like that she is rambling about friendship all the time, this is what 4Kids made her look like. She isn’t that persistent about friendship in the Japanese version.

I can’t understand why people hate her so much. Only because she has a crush on the main protagonist (Yami no Yuugi)? I have never seen people bashing on Mai. She still is a wonderful person with a great personality. Although, when it comes to the manga… okay, that’s a whole different story because I think that manga-Anzu contradicts herself way too often and acts at some times ooc. She even stumples over her own principles so I rather like anime-Anzu since she stays true to herself.

Well, basically, I really like her and I can understand why she values and loves her friends so much.

anonymous asked:

What are your all time favorite fics? (If you don't mind answering this type of question)

Liz’s Top 20 Absolute Favorite Fanfictions

(opusamore) (j2wincest-recs)

I don’t mind at all! ♥ Here’s a list of  my personal absolute favorites, out of the total more or less 900 fics I’ve read till now. I may get more favorites in the future, but these are my favorites at this moment, and were from the moment I read them.

You didn’t specify what pairings you wanted to see, so I went with all of them, which are basically wincest, weecest and j2. 20 fics in total on this list so it’s a long one but I couldn’t really make it smaller either. I’ll probably make a “fics that aren’t favorites but are still amazing fics” or “favorites part 2″ or something like that later but for now the top 20 list is below the cut.

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When we feel lonely we keep looking for a person or persons who can take our loneliness away. Our lonely hearts cry out, “Please hold me, touch me, speak to me, pay attention to me.” But soon we discover that the person we expect to take our loneliness away cannot give us what we ask for. Often that person feels oppressed by our demands and runs away, leaving us in despair. As long as we approach another person from our loneliness, no mature human relationship can develop. Clinging to one another in loneliness is suffocating and eventually becomes destructive. For love to be possible we need the courage to create space between us and to trust that this space allows us to dance together.
—  Henri Nouwen






“Gilbert would always love Matthew and he had more than enough love for both of them. He could handle the doctors and nurses and the blank, staring patients as long as Matthew continued to dance. He could handle the loneliness and the vacant house. He could do it.

He could be there for Matthew as long as he remembered all of the steps.”

- “Inspired: Stolen Dance” by P0ck3tf0x

For the lovely miss p0ck3tf0x and her heart-breaking fic Stolen Dance. It’s a really beautiful one, so please check it out! (I think I failed at drawing the hands though…) Thank you p0ck3tf0x for being a wonderful friend all these months! I hope you like this!


  • “this wedding is so boring, no one is dancing, everyone looks miserable and its unacceptable so im gonna try and bust a move on the dance floor and encourage people to come out here with me to get this party started and while im trying to drag people out you see me struggling and trying so you come join me with ur horrible dance moves (i love them) and u dance with me and help me get people to get on the dance floor which ends in success bc people are pouring in and we end up dancing with eachother the rest of the night and u are super fucking hot can i have ur number so we can do this again and maybe make out later” au
  • “im at my ex’s wedding and im miserable idk why i came but i did and it was a bad idea so im dwelling at the bar in my sorrows planning on getting very drunk and u are the really goodlooking bartender that i end up talking too and you are really nice and it turns out the wedding wasn’t that bad afterall considering once it was over you were driving me home with your kiss burning on my cheek and the following year im the one sending out the invitation to the ex that im getting married to his wedding bartender so hA im also v happy so thanks asshole ex” au
  • “you are the host of the wedding entertainment and when the dancing/DJ segment comes in yOU KEEP DRAGGING ME OUT ON THE DANCE FLOOR and everytime you saw me sitting back down yOU AGAIN DRAGGED ME OUT why are you doing this to me i want to sit my feet hurt and i feel awkward dancing while you are an amazing dancer leaVE ME TO WATCH EVERYONE DANCE AND DWELL IN LONELINESS And oh why are you bringing me out to slow dance??? oh nO- ok fine yes your hands feel nice in mine and i like being in your arms so this is ok” au
  • “You are in the band at the wedding and you drag me out to sing with you even though this isn’t really a duet but i guess u don’t care (of course u had to pick me why am i not surprised, sad i had to put down my martini im not drunk enough for this) and wE JUST HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL’D THIS SHIT WE SOUND FANTASTIC TOGETHER AND EVERYONE LOVES US I LOVE YOU- i mean i love singing too yeah singing. also ur rlly hot.” au
  • “im the wedding planner of this wedding and im super stressed bc everything isn’t going the way its supposed too and the bride is my best friend and her to be husbands best man/woman is annoying the fuck out of me acting like everythings fine and noTHING IS FALLING APART WHEN IT IS. MONTHS OF PLANNING ALL GOING DOWN THE DRAIN AND HE’S MOCKING ME AND DRINKING FUCKING BEER WHILE I HAVE A BREAK DOWN AND- wait did he really just manage to fix half these problems and make this wedding out to be one of the best i’ve ever been too??? and is he actually doing everything he can to make sure im having fun and not worrying about things??? iS HE ACTUALLY GRABBING MY FACE AND KISSING ME AT THE END OF THE NIGHT???? wow like i said; best wedding i’ve been too” au

punishment | part one

part two

luke + reader
word count: 867

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summary: you cheat on luke on a drunken night out and decide frostbite is the only way to punish yourself


I didn’t mean for it to happen - now, everyone says this after they cheat on someone, I know, but I honestly didn’t mean for it to happen.

I just wish Luke understood that.

“I’m sorry!” I cried out, tears spilling down my cheeks as Luke walked away from me.

“I was drunk, Luke, I promise I would never mean to do that to you!” I ran after him, reaching out to grab his arm but he shrugged my hand off fiercely. 

“But you did do it! You cheated on me!” His blue eyes flashed with anger and hatred and I almost threw up knowing that it was all directed at me.

“I’m so sorry, Luke, I really am!” My apologies fell on deaf ears as he turned away from me once again.

“Get out of my house now. I never want to see you again. I’ll have your things shipped to you.” He didn’t turn back once as he stalked back to the bedroom.

“Luke!” I called out but he just slammed the door close in reply. 

I willed my feet to move but they felt like concrete. I tried wiping the tears from my face but they just kept coming, so it was no use. 

Finally dragging my feet out of the house, I sat in my car, trying to catch my breath for a second.

Resting my head on the steering wheel, my shoulders shook violently as I continued to cry my eyes out.

It had happened around six months into the tour, only two months left before Luke came back, but I was miserable.

The calls and texts he had promised disappeared over time. He was always too busy to talk to me even though I tried initiating conversations.

And this hurt me.

One night, i decided to go to a club to drink and dance my loneliness away. I felt lonelier than ever in the house and couldn’t take the atmosphere any longer, so I dressed up and headed to a club.

I hadn’t planned on going home with anyone that night - of course I didn’t, I had Luke. But later in the night, I found myself watching other couples dance and laugh and kiss and I was craving that attention.

The next guy that sat next to me at the bar and offered to buy me a drink, was the one I went home with.

I have no idea what in hell I was thinking, obviously not at all if I cheated on Luke. I was always very particular about this sort of thing, considering my own mother cheated on my father, but the alcohol clouded my judgement. A lot.

I woke up the next day in a stranger’s bed and for the first time ever, had to do the walk of shame out of his building and into a cab to take me home.

The rest of the two months was spent debating on whether to tell Luke the truth or not. I knew it would kill him, it was killing me as well.

I was so scared to tell him and have him leave me, but at the same time, it was eating me up inside and I could not take it, I had to tell him.

When he got back home, I gave him a little more than a day to settle and get used to home once again when I told him what happened.

A part of me wished he would understand my reason for doing so - even though other than being a stupid drunk I had nothing else to say, but a part of me wished he would hate me so I wouldn’t feel as bad as I did for doing that to him.

Before I knew it, I found myself at a bar downtown, drowning my sorrows in alcohol. You would think I would have learned my lesson by then, considering I was in this mess because of alcohol.

But at that moment, all I wanted was to forget, Forget that Luke hated me, that I probably wouldn’t see him again, ever. Forget that I’d messed up so bad I’d ruined the one thing I loved and lived for.

2 hours later, I’d somehow ended up back at Luke’s place. I was standing outside the house in zero degree weather, in only a pair of jeans, boots and a thin jumper.

I wasn’t quite sure what I hoped to accomplish by freezing to death, but I was desperate and upset, so I just went along with it.

It took around thirty minutes of standing out in the freezing cold for Luke to notice me standing outside.

I couldn’t feel anything, and was this close to fainting of exhaustion when the door swung open and Luke made a mad dash for me.

I barely registered him calling out my name as I felt my eyes droop, not being able to hold them open anymore. My teeth chattered and I could feel my frozen tears on my cheeks.

“(Y/N)? (Y/N)!” Luke said, shaking me vigorously. 

I couldn’t respond, I couldn’t move a muscle.

When he realised this, he picked me up and ran into the house.


a/n: i am so fucking tired its not even funny, sorry for the lack of content this month, i started school and i’m really hating it and i’m trying my best to find time to write for you guys!
if you want part two, let me know!
& if you want to be notified when part two is up, just drop me an ask requesting the next part and i’ll answer it when part two is up!