damn i hate it when there's an 'it is it' i always forget the last it

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That’s definitely not the first thing that should have come to mind, Kuroo

(tho it looks like no one really minds

aside from bokuto that is)

Digimon Stage Play - Part One

Sorry, my friend introduced me to Tiger and Bunny, which is why this was delayed ;;; This is everything up until curtain for half time, rest will be up within the next 12 hours, sorry!!!

Aight, so tl;dr: great show, actors are perfect, Yamato is beautiful beyond belief, Mimi is UGHHHHHH in the good way and I’m bitter that the whole show isn’t sold out and whoever was in charge of promotion should be forced to eat nothing but the hottest of hot chillies for the rest of their life.

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Title: Our Quirking Marriage
Part: 5
Pairing: Bakugou x Fem!S/O
Word Count: 1059
Request: Bakugou’s POV by anon


I walked a few feet behind her, my hands jammed in my pockets trying to keep my fingers warm. Any other time, the fact that I was out here freezing my ass off while she wore my lether jacket because she ran out of the house without a one would probably bother me. But it didn’t. Somehow how I felt better knowing she was warm on our walk home. It might have been because I felt a little guilty for coming home and yelling at her.

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Digimon Stage Play - Full

Aight, so tl;dr: great show, actors are perfect, Yamato is beautiful beyond belief, Mimi is UGHHHHHH in the good way and I’m bitter that the whole show isn’t sold out and whoever was in charge of promotion should be forced to eat nothing but the hottest of hot chillies for the rest of their life.

Timeline: It’s set after Koushirou creates the cyber space for them, but before the reboot. Clearly on/around August 1st ;p

Venue/Goods: a little out of the way, small. You couldn’t buy goods unless you had a ticket, which sucks. Goods were sold on the inside, line was small pre-play, massive after. My store clerk couldn’t count to save her life. People were trading, everybody hated that everything was random and there were so many types of things. Friend and I ordered dvd – no blu ray option, it’s being released in December (average wait time since Japan is very slow on physical releases). Had to downpay 2000 yen, which this and dvd only option has never happened before when I’ve seen other stage shows – not a good sign. No postal option, so my friend has to pick mine up for me – poor form again. (Pick up is only at animate – my nearest one is 2+ hours away :/)

Promotion/sold out: four shows sold out. Tickets reduced to 7000 yen, which is insulting for us who went through lottery. They advertised low prices at fes too. Promotion was done badly. Digimon isn’t massively popular, but Toei isn’t small either. Get a cast twitter, post rehearsal pics etc. Promotion doesn’t need to be costly. Fes advertisement (last weeks vid) was too little too late. Theres events with Miyazaki and AiM and seiyuus, which also seems last minute and an attempt to sell out. Again insulting to those of us to preordered. Shonichi didn’t sell out. Must be tough on actors. Promotion video (August 5th? 6th?) is kinda bad quality – the stage itself looks and sounds better than the video may lead you to believe.

Seating: nice, comfy. We were second row, left hand side, aisle. If we had been one or two more to the left it would have been really bad (same if you’re too overly right). The cast faces back/sideways too often, so we saw a lot of backs. Need to work on being diagonal, basic stage stuff there. However, pros of our seating were: Yamato being right in front of us when he sang, Jyou fishing in front of us and making eye contact with Etemon to the point where it was creepy lmao

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BTS Reality Show Part 10

Jin:/in the confession booth/ Suho is throwing a birthday party for one of his Youngest Jongin and invited us over.

Jin:/rings the doorbell while holding the present he bought/ Now boys I want for you to all have fun

Hoseok: I’ll have fun as long as there is booze and weed..man i hope Lay is here

Yoongi:/whispering something in Jimin’s ear/

Jimin:/giggles as his cheeks turn pink/

Taehyung:/watches solemnly/

Jungkook:/throws his arm over Taehyung’s shoulder/ Don’t worry about them

Taehyung: How can I not …He literally cheated on me with the enemy..How can I not worry

Suho:/opens the door/ Hi..welcome

Jin:/smiles/ We come with gifts

Suho:/makes way for them/ Come in..come in..

Jin:/goes in with everyone following/

Suho:/ shuts the door/ Joonie I’m surprised to see you here..everytime I invite you guys over he seems to be injured and or working and doesn’t show up

Namjoon:/laughs/ well I have my reasons

Suho: You know I knew a man like you once…and now he’s in China…and hasn’t called or visited for the past couple of years…and now he’s dead to me

Namjoon: Uuuuhhh…/sees Jaebum and quickly walks over/ JAEBUM HI..HOW ARE YOU

Jungkook:/takes Tae with him over to Yugyeom/ Wassup bro haven’t seen you in a while

Yugyeom: Yeah you’re telling me…/waves at Taehyung/ Hey Hyung hows it going

Jungkook:/pulls Taehyung close/ Taehyung here just went through a tough break up..so I am destined to make him have the best night of his life tonight

Yugyeom: Oh I know just the people who can help with that../looks around the room/ FOLLOW ME

Hoseok:/goes over to Lay/ Yo whats up man

Lay: Jhope my man..Haven’t seen you since
../forgets cause he high af/ Wait..who are you?

Hoseok:/rubs his temple/ Are you serious we literally just talked on the phone last night

Lay:/laughs/ Ooh..right

Jimin: TAEMIN /pulls away from Yoongi to hug his bestie/

Yoongi:/ what the hell is a Taemin/

Sehun:/ twerking on the dancefloor/ Twerk Sebooty twerk

Johnny:/making it rain/ GO BEST FRIEND THATS MY BEST FRIEND

Chen:/ conversating with Dino/ Little one I promise that we fellow members of the Dinosaur club will take good care of you…right Jonghyun

Jonghyun:/ roars like a dinosaur/

Dino: THE HELL.. MOOOOOOOM

Jeonghan:/drinking a margarita talking to Hyungwon/ 

Jin: Soo where is the birthday boy?

Suho: /Smiles and points over at Jongin/

Jongin:/ stuffing his face with fried chicken as he talks to Ravi/

Suho: Sooo cute

Jin:/nods/ Suho..can I talk to you about something?

Suho: Sure.. come on /takes him over to the couch to sit down/

Yoongi:/standing awkwardly watching Jimin/

Woozi:/tugs at Yoongi’s sleeve/ Appa

Yoongi:/looks at him because who tf is this/

Woozi: /smiles/ So it is true..you really are my appa

Yoongi: Woah woah woah now I am not your ap-

Woozi:/jumps into his arms hugging him/

Yoongi: I hate everyone 

Taehyung:/meets all of Jungkook’s friends/

Jungkook: Oh and this is Winwin..our newest edition to the group..isn’t he cute..he’s from china

Taehyung:/ a little typsy/ Hiiii

Winwin: Oh hello~

Taehyung:/squeals and goes and pinches his cheeks/ He looks like he could be my son..you are now my son

Jungkook:/laughs his ass off/

Winwin:/ cute and confused/

Taehyung: I shall call him squishy and he shall be mine../hugs him close/

Yugyeom:/whispers to Jungkook/ Well at least he’s having fun

Jaebum:/talking to Namjoon/ Sooo did you take my advice and beat his ass?

Namjoon: Sadly I did..It actually worked..like holy shit. The magic of it all, he’s completely changed Jaebum..Like he actually respects us

Jaebum:/sips his vodka/ See I told you

Suho:/concerned/ Jin is something wrong?

Jin:/sighs/ it’s just that my boys aren’t close as they used to be..they seem so distant..i don’t know what to do

Suho:/sighs/ I understand I’ve been through that plenty of times..Look if you want for your boys to bond..have family bonding time

Jin: By doing what?

Suho: Take them camping, go on a cruise, family therapy sessions..anything in which you have to come together

Jin:/nods / You’re right../lets out a sigh of relief with a smile/ Thank you so much Suho..I don’t know what I’d do without you../hugs him/

Suho: /hugs him back/ You’re my best friend of course I’ll always be there when you need me

Kyungsoo:/struggling to get something off the top shelf in the kitchen/

Chanyeol:/laughing his ass off as he watches/

Kyungsoo:/glares over his shoulder/ The fuck you laughing at?!

Chanyeol: Just a very small person who can’t reach shit

Kyungsoo: At least I’m not yoda on steroids

Chanyeol: At least I don’t have to sit in a booster seat when I go to a restaurant

Kyungsoo: THATS IT/ tackles him putting him into a choke hold/

Yugyeom:/laughs at something Taehyung said when Bambam bursts into the room/

Bambam: GUYS THERES A FIGHT GOING ON DOWNSTAIRS

Yugyeom:/runs downstairs along with everyone else/

Taehyung:/carrying Winwin like he’s a puppy/

Suho:/hears the commotion and get up and run to the scene trying to break it up/ HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAVE TO SAY IT?!! KYUNGSOO YOU CANNOT KILL YOUR BROTHER

Jongin:/looks at his cake to notice there’s a big chunk missing/ HEY WHO ATE THE CAKE

Everyone:/ looks over at N/

N:/ has icing all around his mouth and all on his hands/ THE HELL Y’ALL LOOKING AT I DIDN’T EAT NO DAMN CAKE

Jin:/in the confession booth laughing/ Suho always has the best parties

Best Case Scenario (Part 1)

Prompt: teacher!Harry who is fresh outta uni at 22 and has the long pretty hair and has a crush on one of his english language students that always sits with her best friends and is really pretty and curvy and she always had a crush on him too and he asks her to stay after class and things get heated and he fingers her and she gives him head in the classroom and its super risky and theres lots of adrenaline cuz they could get caught and asks her not to tell anyone because he doesn’t wanna get either one of em in trouble and he really likes her and yeah i love your writing btw! xxxxxx

Pairing: Harry Styles x Reader

Warnings: unless u consider teacher x student a warning then ur good to go

Word Count: 2290 words

Author’s Note: i really enjoyed writing this so I decided to make it into a series, so thank you a lot for requesting anon! hopefully this is as close to the prompt as you wanted, and i really hope you enjoy reading this. I know there isn’t smut yet, but it will come in the second part and it’s gonna be damn worth it i promise, and let me know if you want me to post part 2, feedback is always appreciated! xxx

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Halsey Sentence Starters
  • "Don't let our hearts freeze."
  • "We're the underdogs in this world alone."
  • "I'm a believer, got a fever running through my bones."
  • "They can break our hearts, they won't take our souls."
  • "Would you bleed for me?"
  • "You look so cool when you’re reading me."
  • "Let’s cause a little trouble."
  • "Oh, you make me feel so weak."
  • "I bet you kiss your knuckles right before they touch my cheek."
  • "I've got my mind, made up this time."
  • "There's a menace in my bed."
  • "Go on and light a cigarette, set a fire in my head."
  • "Would you lie for me? Cross your sorry heart and hope to die for me?"
  • "Would you pin me to a wall? Would you beg or would you crawl?"
  • "Don’t forget me."
  • "I wouldn’t leave if you’d let me."
  • "When you met me, you told me you were gonna get me."
  • "I'm searching for something that I can't reach."
  • "I don't like them innocent. I don't want no face fresh. Want them wearing leather."
  • "I like the sad eyes, bad guys. Mouth full of white lies."
  • "Kiss me in the corridor, but quick to tell me goodbye."
  • "You say that you're no good for me, 'cause I'm always tugging at your sleeve."
  • "I swear I hate you when you leave, but I like it anyway."
  • "My ghost, where'd you go?"
  • "I can't find you in the body sleeping next to me."
  • "What happened to the soul you used to be?"
  • "You're a Rolling Stone, boy. Never sleep alone, boy."
  • "Got a million numbers and they're filling up your phone, boy."
  • "I'm off the deep end, sleeping all night through the weekend."
  • "Saying that I love him, but I know I'm gonna leave him."
  • "You were dancing in your tube socks in our hotel room, flashing those eyes like highway signs."
  • "Light one up and hand it over, rest your head upon my shoulder."
  • "I just wanna feel your lips against my skin."
  • "You told me this is right where it begins."
  • "I promised myself I wouldn’t let you complete me."
  • "I’m trying not to let it show, that I don’t want to let this go."
  • "Is there somewhere you can meet me?"
  • "'Cause I clutched your arms like stairway railings and you clutched my brain and eased my ailing."
  • "You’re writing lines about me; romantic poetry."
  • "Your girl's got red in her cheeks, cause we’re something she can’t see."
  • "And I try to refrain but you’re stuck in my brain."
  • "All I do is cry and complain, because second's not the same."
  • "I’m sorry but I fell in love tonight. I didn't mean to fall in love tonight."
  • "You’re looking like you fell in love tonight."
  • "Could we pretend that we’re in love?"
  • "There's a storm you're starting now."
  • "I'm a wanderess. I'm a one night stand."
  • "Don't belong to no city. Don't belong to no man."
  • "And I found myself reminded to keep you far away from me."
  • "Oh, baby, beggin' you to save me."
  • "Well lately, I like 'em crazy. Oh, maybe, you could devastate me."
  • "Little lady, come and fade me."
  • "My demons are begging me to open up my mouth."
  • "I sold my soul to a three-piece."
  • "I’m selfish, taking what I want and call it mine."
  • "I’m helpless, clinging to your lips."
  • "Cigarettes and tiny liquor bottles, just what you’d expect inside her new Balenciaga."
  • "We don’t feel like outsiders at all."
  • "We are the new Americana, high on legal marijuana."
  • "Young James Dean, some say he looks just like his father."
  • "He could never love somebody’s daughter."
  • "We know very well who we are."
  • "I'm only in this city for a minute and I know that you've been trying to get in it and I'm with it."
  • "You're looking like you fell in love tonight. For Pete's sake, homie, pull it together."
  • "We hooked up one time it was kind of whatever."
  • "Would you believe me if I said I was drunk?"
  • "Maybe I want you to want me but only tonight."
  • "You saw the truth in me. This is all new to you, damn."
  • "I was trynna give you Jays and some fast brain. You was trynna give me K's and your last name."
  • "I think I should leave."
  • "I don't really know why but I miss him."
  • "It was something in his eyes when I kissed him. Feeling like I can't dismiss him."
  • "You got a girl and she thinks it's forever."
  • "I know she'd love you if you'd only let her."
  • "'Cause I'm a mistake, we both could do better."

kimchikaii  asked:

Hi! First of all I really like your blog! *_* You are perf! I am new in Super Junior fandom and I really appreciate all your edits like omg Eunhyuk is also my favorite. But since I am new here, I don't really know how to tell them all apart. I had enough problem with EXO as it is xDD as for SuJu I know Eunhyuk, Donghae and Siwon so far lol. If it's not asking too much, can you help me and write something about them, how to recognize them etc? :3

Eh, Super Junior… my precious boys. Don’t even look at Hyukjae, pick another bias, there are plenty of them to choose from lmao k  But back to what you asked lol. I know there are way too many of them. (OT15 FOREVAAA) At first it seems impossible to know them, but trust me, if you watch the shows you really get to know them better. Okay, here’s a little description about each member and pics and stuff in no particular order. :3 

1. Leeteuk ~ His real name is Park JungSoo. He is the leader. Has the cutest dimple when he smiles. Very Caring ~ he’s an actual angel (nickname angel teuk). He was born in 1983, so he’s the oldest and is always teased by other members because of it. He’s known for his unique laugh hahah. You should hear that like oh my god hahha xD He’s sub-vocal but also the second best rapper (so he usually does some rap parts). He MCs many shows, so you probably saw him somewhere lol. Usually has blonde/brownish hair. And damn gurl that body… like woah. *fangirling* Was in military ~

2. Eunhyuk (baby boo ❤(ˆ‿ˆԅ)) Real name is Lee HyukJae. He is damn dancing machine, meaning SuJu’s main dancer. Also main rapper when we are at it. :3  Always being picked on by the other members who claim he is the ugliest one except Donghae . (Srsly guys leave my babe alone, u wanna die ha?ha??┻━┻︵💨ᕙ(🔥益🔥ᕙ )) He was born in 1986. He tends to  change often his hair colour. I am worried that he’ll end up being bald lol (ye, thats him with that pink hair. Yes, that too with that blue hair in that MV… *rollsEyes*). He has the most adorable gummy smile. ASDFGGHJKL And that JAWLINE of death. :O His nicknames are monkey, anchovy, jewel boy… I wonder why. (-.-)  Best friends boyfriends with Donghae. Idiots in the group of two. Famous pairing Eunhae. They damn ship themselves lmao He has dog named Choco. Never forget ”I am not short, I am long”. lmfao my precious He is a crybaby. xD

3. Heechul or Kim HeeChul. He was born in 1983. Beauty. lol That says it all xD But no, seriously he is really, like REALLY beautiful. He usually has long hair. Somewhat feminine. SOMEWHAT?? He makes me question my exsistence as a girl. His nickname is Cinderella. If you see someone dressed in Hello Kitty stuff or buying Frozen merchandise - yup, that’s probably him. He has Russian Blue cat named Heebum. His English speaking skills hillarious :’D. He is the King of Kissing. (ELFs know hahhaha) He is the most outgoing tbh and loves the spotlight. He can be very moody and others don’t mess with him. Was in military as well. He is an atheist. Donghae (though younger than Heechul) is the only member of Super Junior who is allowed to address Heechul informally, and that’s because Heechul finds him cute. Heechul himself talks formally to young kids! Srsly Heechul is hilarious.  

4. Han Geng or Hankyung (Korean name) was one of three Chinese members. He left SuJu in 2009 because the company was treating him bad. (you know that story already *RollsEyes* ). He’s known for his Beijing Fried Rice. He is great at dancing, he knows ballet! He is now doing his solo activities in China.

5. Yesung ~ Real name is Kim JoongWoon ~ He is one of the three main vocals. He was winner on Immortal Songs 2. Was born in 1984. He has somewhat chubby face and is one of the taller members. But man, his voice… His voice is AMAZING. When he sings you know it’s him. He is also in Super Junior KRY (with Kyuhyun and Ryeowook). They always call him the weird one haha. If you see someone around turtles (he has three), bugs etc.  with that unique ( bushy?) hair, that’s probably him. xD In Explorers of the Human Body he was very confident but always failed at his challenges haha. He is currently enlisted in Military so he wasn’t on last SuJu album, ಥ_ಥ

6. Kang-in or the real name is Kim YoungWoon. He was born in 1985. He is known for his strength. He’s is one of the bigger guys in the group. He is also very funny. Was in military. The members are all scared of him when he gets mad, although he’s actually really hilarious and sweet. He really has beautiful voice.

7. Shindong- or Shin DongHee. He was born in 1985 and is damn great Dancer. ~ Lead Rapper. He is also one of the bigger guys in the group. But his sense of humor is really cute. Usually he is the mood maker. Probably the easiest to tell apart because he’s “chubby” and is always teased about it haha. But he is super hilarious and I think is very cute. He choreographed many of the groups’ dances along with Eunhyuk. ♥ Going to military this year together with Sungmin. :(

8. Sungmin or Lee SungMin. If you saw someone with blond hair, short, wearing all pink - you got your man. LOL HE LOVES PINK. It’s not even joke. xD He is super like super-duper cute. Also does Martial Arts. One of the lead singers. He is just as girly as Heechul hahaha. People (and members) have voted him as the member with the best booty. xD. Oh yea, he is the only married member. xD He really has strong, beautiful voice. He is member of Super Junior M.

9. Donghae or Lee DongHae. Eunhyuk’s boyfriend best friend. REALLY GOOD Dancer. Known as the second best dancer in Super Junior, after Eunhyuk. D&E unit with Eunhyuk.  He is very funny, and although he was born in 1986 he is 5 years old. Seriously. He’s really a sweetheart who everyone loves.  If you hate baby Hae, I am judging your existence on this planet. He doesn’t know how to lie. Kangin said, if you want to know anything about their private life, you should ask Donghae because he couldn’t lie. lol xD He is very popular with fans, and one of my faves. He likes rain so he often uploads pics and vids of it on his SNS. His nickname is “Fishy”. That damn body tho…Did I mention how effin handsome he is???

10. Siwon or Choi SiWon. Siwon is the richest lol. He can buy SM :O hahah He is known for his infamous hand gestures. Very polite. Muscular. Model. And those damn DIMPLES! >.< He is the tallest member and damn he has the sexiest abs. Definitely has the the best body and is very handsome (VERY).  ”Shibrows” (ELFs know hhaha). Siwon is the most religious member of Super Junior. He’s trying to convert Heechul for years. What a failure. LOL He’s very conservative. He is a skinship addict. He loves to hug or ask his members for a kiss. *cough* EunSiHae *cough*

11. Ryeowook or Kim RyeoWook. He is SO DAMN CUTE. He used to be the youngest member until Kyuhyun was added to the group. THAT DAMN VOICE He’s one of the main vocalists and his voice isn’t hard to recognize. He is pretty shy. The one with those unique cheekbones? Yup, that’s him. He cries very easily as well. He’s very short (the shortest one, he once said he is even shorter than EXO’s Kyungsoo lol xD) and is just tiny overall. Ryeowook likes cooking, and often takes care of his hyungs by cooking for them. His nickname is ”eternal maknae” because of his looks. He loves giraffes lol. He really has unique looks and unique voice, theres no way to miss him. xD Make up king xDD He is adorable overall.

12. Kibum or Kim Kibum. He is on ”hiatus” - pursuing his acting career so he kinda is in suju but not really… Who knows. *sighs*  He was pretty quiet even when he participated in SuJu activities. He lived in the US for a few years, and has fairly good English. He has an IQ of 138.  :O

13. Kyuhyun- or Cho Kyu Hyun. He was born in 1988  and is maknae. (May I add EVIL maknae). Main Vocalist. His voice could melt the heart of any living person. He is also in Super Junior KRY and SuJu-M. Although he is the youngest member, he doesn’t look/act like it. LOL He was added to SuJu a year after the group debuted, but he fits right in. If you see someone non-stop on their computer playing games - that’s him. He plays so many games that people call him Gamekyu. He’s very witty and funny. He is the type to hold grudges haha. A lot of people call him “evil” because he plays so many tricks on the other members. He is very tall, and very attractive as well, may I add. He has that ”manly” image written all over him. xD Kyuhyun is a recipient of the President’s Award as he showed excellent results in a Math
Olympiad. He has his solo album. ^^

14. ZhouMi - One of the two Chinese members. He is part only of Super Junior M. He was born in 1986. Main vocalist in SuJu-M. He is gentleman Mimi. Has solo album. Very tall and handsome. Zhoumi has a nickname “Siwon” since he looks like him. Some say he looks like a combination of Siwon, Kyuhyun and Leeteuk. He’s SJ-M’s Mandarin teacher. He’s big fan of fashion. He has one of the most beautiful smiles you” ever see.

15. Henry or Henry Lau. He was born in 1989. He is Canadian. His skills are amazing. I mean AMAZING. He dances, sings, plays violin name it.  Very talented. He’s 2nd Chinese member in Super Junior M. He speak English fluently. He speaks Chinese, Taiwanese, Cantonese, English, Korean and Japanese. He’s the only fluent English-speaker rn. Has solo albums. And OMG Henry is just the most adorable person ever. He even follows his fan club accts on twitter. He’s always so adorable towards fans.

Here, I hope this helped you ^^

How Today became Yesterday.

Pairing: Dean x Reader

Warning: Angsty?

Request: 

Your P.O.V

*Beep Beep Beep Beep*

Groaning you fling your dead arm over your side in an attempt to silence the maddening alarm clock. To think just this time last year you would’ve woken up next to leather and spice, in simpler words, Dean Winchester. No, no you are not going to think about him yet again y/n, it’s been a year since he broke your heart and you’re doing fine. Abso-freaking-lutely fine. You winced as your side was still freshly stitched since that son of a bitch wolf gave you hell the night before. You were crazy enough to go alone but it didn’t really matter, you came to terms with Death and eternal darkness. It was actually quite tempting at times.

You carefully swing your frail legs over your bedside to get on with your day. While getting up you caught a glimpse at your body in the mirror and cringed, your once plump body was now becoming delicate by the day. You stopped eating as much and started hunting more and because of that you were the best hunter you could ever be. But every time you were near food you’d think of the Winchester brothers. If it was pie, burgers, or any form of meat then you’d think of Dean or salad and any form of ‘rabbit food’ (as Dean would call it)  made you think of Sam, so what the fuck were you left with, cardboard?  Shaking your head you reminded yourself that there was no point in getting upset again. Dean Winchester left you a year ago and today is a new day. Today you’ll start to eat and today you’ll leave your broken heart behind in this really crappy but cheap motel.

Three hours later you remembered you needed to go on a supply run. You kind of need salt in an S&B. Since today is a brand new day why not try to eat again? How about pie… pecan? You hated pecan pie but Dean loved it. You walked to the frozen section and grabbed a pecan pie it was the same brand you use to get whenever you didn’t have time to bake. It was the one nearest to home cooked. You didn’t know why you suddenly wanted this? You knew it would remind you of Dean so why feed the heartache? Next thing on your list was lighter fluid, as you were walking down the aisles you saw a familiar girly frame by the charcoal area, it couldn’t be.

“Jane?” The beautiful blonde girl turned around and her face instantly broke out into a smile, parallel to yours. You slowly ran up to your old friend and crushed her in a suffocating hug. You winced at the impact and she noticed

“Oh My God, Y/N! Are you okay?” She was still beautiful as ever, her y/e/c similar to yours and her body was just perfect. You were always content on how you look, but ever since you went on an eat later kill now diet your muscles became more visible due to the lack of fat on your body.

“Ah it’s nothing… took a wolf down the other day no biggie” She slowly lifted up your shirt and saw your blood seeping through the poorly placed gauze.

“Y/n… Wh-” You cut her off. Last thing you wanted was to talk about you.

“So what bring Janey-boo here? Wait… are you here for the S&B two towns over?” Jane was a hunter too. You two met in College on the same hunt, there was a vengeful spirit attacking bullies by using victims. You two bumped into each other while looking for the remains and since then you became the best of friends. You two constantly had eachothers backs but you lost touch when you met up with the Winchesters a few years ago. Again with the freaking winchesters… god dammit Y/N.

“I hate that nickname so damn much…yeah I’m here with my boyfriend, Dean.” Your smile fell as the name fell from her lips. There’s obviously more than one Dean in the hunting business, right?

“Jane, there’s no more of the usual crap we get so I’ll grab the chea-…….. Y/N?” You thought you’d never hear your name spoken so flawlessly again. Never did you think you’d hear that raspy whisky made voice yet again. Tears pooling in your eyes already you turn from a confused Jane and the sight made you drop everything occupying your hands.

“Dean” You breathed out as he dropped whatever he was holding too and pulled you in a nostalgic embrace. You tried to keep strong and hold in the tears but Dean always managed to break all your walls down, leaving you vulnerable. At first you thought it was a good thing but now you regretted every moment of it. You jumped at the impact since your sides still hurt, the sudden embrace had caused your wound to slighty bleed even more as it became evident on your shirt.

“Y/N oh god… y/n… you… oh my god… you never picked up Sammys calls. Cas didn’t even tell us anything! One year… one fucking year I thought you were dead god dammit.”  Dean breathed out as he stared at your face never wanting to let you go.You didn’t say anything but you just stared into his eyes. His eyes were your favourite feature about him. If you looked deep enough you could see the whole universe in his apple green eyes. You examined his face closer and you realised he looked the same as you, sleep deprived and simply just sad. When you grabbed your side Dean saw the blood on your shirt and he instantly pulled it up but you grabbed his hand before he could get a good look at it.

“Y/n… are you…. are you hunting by yourself?” His voice became stern and but his eyes yelled for forgiveness.

“Dean…that’s none of your business.. I’m a better hunter now thanks to you and I couldn't… It’s not that I-” You were at loss for words. You always thought about what you were gonna say when Dean came knocking, begging you to take him back but he never did. “not after you broke my heart. I think Sam understood why I couldn’t see you guys again. I told Cas to inform you guys once I’m dead so theres that. Even if I died why would you care Dean? If I recall you said, and I quote you said that I was a waste of your time”  When the words left your lips Dean instantly brought his hands to the side of your face as tears fell from his beautiful and mesmerizing eyes.  You remember that night as if it were yesterday, the pain in your heart still feels as if it were yesterday.

FLASHBACK

“Dean… just talk to me goddammit! why won’t you fucking talk to me! I AM YOUR GIRLFRIEND! just…. please…. talk to me” You banged your hands on the strong mahogany table of the bunkers library in an attempt to get Deans distant attention. One month, it had been one whole month since you felt any slight affection from your lover and it was breaking you from the inside out.

“I’m sorry Y/N, i just can’t love you. I can’t love a waste of my time.” That was it, the last straw. You felt a sudden pang in your heart and you could’nt depend on your legs to support you anymore. Right then and there you wished you had fallen into Lucifers cage instead of hearing that because you always told yourself this was too good to be true. It was too good to be true that Dean Winchester had fallen in love with you. Nodding you felt the tears drop on your feet while Dean simply looked straight ahead with his jaw tensed.

“I-I’ll uh, be out in 5” you ran to the room you shared with the hunter and grabbed your pre-packed duffel. Saying goodbye to Sam was the hardest as he not only became your best friend but he became your brother. He tried to convince you to stay but right now you needed to get out before you completely shattered. You ran out the door and drove off into the night. Looking back you saw Sam slowly disappearing with the bunker as you drove, you hoped your memories would fade as easy as the sight but that never happened.

What you didn’t know was the chaos that occurred when Dean heard you drive off. His heart ached more in ways that no one could imagine. He felt the blunt jabs at his heart and the whirl of emotions inside his body made him want to throw up and cry but he couldn’t. He was simply broken, just like the whiskey bottle thrown at the wall, just like you.

END OF FLASHBACK

You pulled Deans hands away from your face and your body craved his touch by the second. You looked at your upset friend and regretted everything that had happened.

“I’m so sorry Janey-boo.. I’m so glad you’re happy…so glad. I’m so sorry.” You looked back at your first and last love, memorising his face one last time. Though you knew never in a million years you would forget the beautiful freckles on his olive skin. Smiling through your tears you slowly backed away from the two.

“Goodbye Dean” With that you dropped all thoughts of the salt and ran out the grocery store while you heard Dean’s desperate attempt to call you.

Today was suppose to be a new day, today you were suppose to improve but in the matter of minutes… today became the same as yesterday.

Dean’s P.O.V

She looks beautiful as ever, but weaker. It doesn’t matter since she’ll always be perfect no matter what shape or form she has. She’ll always be my y/n. The night I let her go was the first time I regretted anything in a while. She was suppose to be my wife, my soulmate but I let her go. All because I was so stupid… And now she’s hunting by herself, obviously she was reckless since she was bleeding through her shirt and I wasn’t there to protect her. I just wanted her to be safe, safe from me.

The mark was not only a burden but a slow poison taking over my body and affecting everyone around me. It felt like the poison was leaving my body and touching the life of everyone I loved. Sammy had gotten use to it as I corrupted him the day I entered his and Jess’s life but it wasn’t too late for you. But judging by your current state I wish I ran after you, I wish I fucking got into baby and drove to the motel you were staying at and broke your door down, laying in your arms once more. I wish I never let you leave my touch.

Now here I am, watching you leave yet again. I saw the pecan pie on the floor next to the salt and an instant warm smile came onto my face. Crouching down I picked up the discarded pie and stroked it as if it were her.

“She always hated Pecan, but i’d annoy her to the point that she’d actually make it for me.”

No one’s Perspective.

Jane was standing there, not knowing what to do or say. She pulled Dean up and walked to the counter in order to pay for what they brought. Dean was behind her with the pie still in his hands, he pulled out some bills and paid for the desert and they walked back to the car in an uncomfortable silence.

“Dean… in the 7 months that i’ve been dating you i’ve never seen you smile like that… ever.”  Dean tried to love Jane, he tried so hard. He pretended she was you, it’s a horrible thing to admit but he did. In the morning he pretended it was y/e/c eyes staring back at him or your arms around him. Sam knew from the moment he introduced him to Jane, he knew his brother was trying to replace y/n. Sam saw the similarity in Jane and you, the way both of you walked or your similar taste in cuisine but it still wasn’t you. Your eyes shone brighter than Jane, your smile when you see the boys walk in after a hunt would be a form of ecstasy to them. Or the way your nose crinkled as you laughed when the boys told a really crappy joke. Those things made you, y/n.

Dean tried to speak to the heartbroken girl next to him but the lump in his throat forbade any words to form.

“I’ll find out where she stays for you, Dean.” Jane whispered barely above audible and Dean became eternally grateful.

“Thank you Jane, thank you so much. I’m so sorry… I’ll explain everything to you if you want me too.” After Dean began explaining how he lost his true love he regretted the last 7 months. Jane had fallen in love with him deeply and all because of his selfish actions.

“Dean you know you’re a fucking asshole. Y/N is the most amazing girl I know and she can kickass while painting her god damn nails. Jesus Christ men… they think ignoring and breaking hearts is the solution but instead you could have just spoken to her you bloody idiot!” Jane let the tears fall freely, she knew Dean should get punched in the face but he did do it for your own good and Jane understood the theory behind that.

“I know Jane but help me, please?” With a broken heart she agreed and began to dial your number hoping you hadnt left town yet.

They say some loves were never meant to be but some were lucky enough to have happened… but it’s also said that love can be so strong that it has the ability to bring two broken hearts a whole once again.

anonymous asked:

I am so freakin ugly how will anyone ever love me and I'm not saying it being one of those girls who just doesn't see it but I'm honestly telling you I can't deal with myself even with makeup I'm ugly. No one will want me ever. It makes me so upset sis

Awwww noo :( okay i read this in the morning and for like an hour i was trying to think about what i should tell you.. theres literally so many things i want to say.

First of all, i get you. I get you because i feel the same. I was always kinda uno.. okay.. not really bothered by looks but then.. i don’t knw what happened in Ramadan.. but i started hating myself. Everything about me.. all my flaws and imperfections.. i hated it so much i didn’t even want to look in the mirror.. and its been going on for months. Everytime i see myself i pick out something new.

Why is my jaw line different on each side? Why is one eye bigger than the other? Why are my eyebrows so different? My is my whole face so asymmetrical. Whats with this nose. Why is my hair so thin??? Whats with this ugly body. Why the hyperpigmentation in random places?? Why isn’t any of me slightly okay???

These things changed every day.. and i just kept pulling myself apart and hating every bit of me.

I’m still not at a point where i’m okay with myself, but i’m slowly getting better.. why?
Because i’ve learnt that i don’t have to look a certain way to be ‘cute’ or ‘pretty’ by societies standards.

Theres so many different types of beautiful. And i’m not saying this just to try and make you feel better.. its not a lie.

You don’t have to have a certain eye shape or eye colour to be beautiful. Your nose doesn’t have to be a certain shape for it to look okay. Your face doesn’t have to have a certain stucture for it be be pretty. Its perfect the way it is.

Even if its full of imperfections (like mines).. it doesn’t matter.

In these past few months i’ve been observing people.. and everyday when i look at people i mentally note things i find beautiful about them.

That lady sitting across from me on the bus? Wow. Her skin is flawless.

That girl that just walked passed me? Damn, her cheekbones looked real good.

I’ve noticed that people who are more confident with their looks, look best too. They just rock what they have and they look amazing like that. (I wish to be like that one day too)

Theres over 8 million people on earth, and so manyyyyyy different features and faces and bodies and everything… and it only recently hit me that theres more than just a few kinds of ‘beautiful’.

I think for you to love yourself first.. is the biggest issue here. Forget men. Forget a future lover. You need to be your first lover.

Look at yourself in the mirror, and find 1 thing that you like.. 1 thing your okay with. Everytime you look at the mirror.. focus on that thing. Then build it up. Add more things.. slowly.

And it doesn’t even just have to be with looks. Why should looks be the most important thing. I know if someone ever liked me.. i’d want them to like who i was on the inside.

My personality.
The way i see the world.
What i think about.
How kind i am..

I’d love.. for someone to love those things more.. because they’re the things that matter. They’re the things that last after time passes.. they’re the things people remember most. How you made them feel. How your smile lights up their world. How your eyes sparkle when you talk about something you love.

But anyway i know i rambled on quite a lot and i don’t even know if this loooong reply has a structure.. i just.. i really want you to feel better.

I don’t know who you are, but i pray you feel better. I pray one day you’ll look in the mirror and smile because you’re amazing. Your one kind of beautiful in a world wheres theres billions of different kinds of beautiful people.

roughfoxs-deactivated20180412  asked:

seems kaisoo lose it or they're only rrely seen tgther ltely? so really strnge tste, somehw I feel aftr the photoshoot, kaisoo strted tenuous, I alwys wondering! did they really hvng a real relationship? please give me a mch help here! ilysm senpai!!

[warning: this would sound very very very delusional for some people and it’s long like always so prepare your eyes, if you hate me bc of this, well, i have warned you, also this is pure my opinion, we may have different ways of thinking, so feel free to disagree. i aint indoctrinating u anything. dont take this seriously plz. i know nothing.]

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